1                       

Love Rhymes

Flexible, incessant

High spirit on the move

Lovers chant in descant

Get off on the groove

 

Shining, whining free on

Spirit fading fast

Dreamers scream in neon

Forget about the past

 

Waiting, still expectant

Looking for a rhyme

White and disinfectant

Yet subtly sublime

 

Eloquently styling

This gleaming stream of thought

With rhythm so beguiling

That love so soon forgot

 

                                              2                       

Miracle

Fleet - the small bird flies away

Wings gently above waving trees

Receding gently into the horizon

 

Pierced - the hunter’s arrow strikes

Breaking slight wing to bring

Death landing on the earth

 

Child - the small mind weeps and cries

For it did not deserve to die

He stands alone and wonders why

 

A tear - honest without fear

Falls on broken body here

Seen through eyes a-blind and bleared

 

Life - through love it seems to bring

The bird attempts to stand,

Succeeds begins to sing

 

Fleet - the small bird flies away

Wings aloft with child’s gaze

Who stands his jaw agape amazed

 

                                              3                       

Clouds

Beautiful crystal thunder cloud

Drifts aloft unknowing

Wearing summers golden shroud

Floats, a soft wind blowing

 

Crystal crystal

Shine, shine

Upon thy soul I resteth mine

 

Little girl sits and laughs

Again at things unseen

White light moonbeams crystal shafts

Chagrined what might have beens

 

Crystal crystal

Please don’t cry

You’ll succeed

If you just try

 

Beautiful voices speak aloud

Love is shown, love’s showing

Love is riding on a cloud

Love is known, love’s knowing

Yourself

 

                                              4                       

The Field

 

Green grass, bright flowers

Crushed down with the weight of our passion

Hot sun, your dress undone

And strewn across the daisies

I lift and stretch and mold you to my needs

I shift and twist and you bend me to your will

We are one


                                              5                       

The Shower

Warm soft water

Trickling down your back

Sparks a fire in my heart

Your gentle hands

That flutter, like birds

Over my skin and give me gooseflesh

Your slippery legs give me shivers

And I quiver with antici - pation

You melt like butter

Salty, yielding

On the floor

And it is done

 

                                              6                       

Encounter

Cruising through the park

Sky slowly growing dark

I see you walking by

You glance and catch my eye

A spark jumps the gap, bright hot blue

And stopping in our tracks

The heat, in waves, attacks

Magnetically attracted and

We’ve got to feed the need

And there against the tree

You give yourself to me

And I catch the scent and burn

With your fire

Drawing down your skirt

You ripping at my shirt

And the animals

Go slowly

Down


                                              7                       

The Lake

Splashing naked

In the lake

Teasing, pleasing

Attack, retreating

Touching, seeing

Chasing, fleeing

Caught you. Turn

And kissing me into oblivion

I am lost

Climbing quickly to the shore

Heaving heavy

Dripping sweat and needing more

And I chase you round the tree

Hypnotizing with my eyes

Entranced, you dance

Naked, enticing

And I concede

Rigidly

 

                                              8                       

Chains of Gold

Swift, enamored, fleet to fall

Stern and armored, one and all

Free to fly, afraid to move

I try and try, but sadly you’ve

Hid your heart with walls of stone

The seed of pain, so deeply sown

Cannot abide a love so bold

And wraps itself in chains


                                              9                       

Peace

Peace my lover

Fret no more

Tears fall painless on the shore

Of an ocean, deep and wide

Planets pulling

Moons collide

Peace my friend

Fret no longer

Sometimes pain

Can make you stronger

Shouting crowds may scream and throng

But they can’t make you sell your song

 

Peace my brother

Don’t you sweat it

If you can’t deal

Then just forget it

See you finally broke your tether

Hope down there you find fair weather

Peace

                                            10                     

Sonnet to the Sun

Her rich ultra violets have blinded my eyes

I’ve stared at the sun far too long

Entranced by her beauty, I gaze at the sky

My sad heart breaks out into song

 

Crystal clean crystalline, up in the blue

Her wisdom so far past my years

Sun shocked and locked up in her amber hue

She cares not for my sightless tears

 

O mother sun, o you electric sun

You’re my queen

O mother sun, o may your will be done

You’re my dream

 

Her bright aimless visions have taken my sight

Too long have I stared at my queen

Her loving warmth soothing my eternal night

Helps me recall what I’ve seen

 

 

 

 

 

                                            11                     

Nature

Stern and subtle ocean waves flow across the sailor’s graves

Time in time the blink of an eye, fish’s chainmail, seagull’s cry

Crab in armor on the beach falls within the seagull’s reach

A child sees, face ashen gray, the sated seagull soars away

 

                                            12                     

Society

Filled up to capacity

Prepared to unload

In this society

You get fit into a

Mold of insecurity

Emotional coldness

Tempered purity

Just watching as your destiny

Prepares to unfold

And

It’s such a strange calamity

The sick and the old

Get named insanity

And live on the road

Forgoing property

They never dress for proper tea

Or go to university

Or carry their load

And

The critical political

Establishment so cynical

Statistically clinical

A rather wide variety of

Of martyrs with their piety

Displayed for all of us to see

Their high moral code

And

The simple folks like you and me

Are climbing slowly from our trees

To sail upon an endless sea of troubles

Without care.

 


                                            13                     

Love Anymore

Little blond-haired beauty queen

Says to me OK

I can’t leave my husband

But I’ll be your lay

What the hell is marriage for

It seems like eternal war

She don’t love him

Any more

I see my ex-girlfriend

She says she still cares

Every time that we make love

I’m so bored I stare

What’s the point here any way

I’m so sick of it I say

I don’t love you

Any more

                                            14                     

Unchained

So amusing, so capricious

My precious little starling

Darling it is better

For bitter sweet passion

Is sweeter when wetter

And those precocious stylings

So infinitely beguiling

While whiling away the hours so fashionably

Drive and thrust my dusty pride

Inside a bottle

There to hide

Beside attempted suicide

Forgotten and alone

Free my soul to laugh

So unsuspicious

My bright delicious sunlight sprite

So right for me in every way

On every dark and cloudy day

Please stay a while and tease me

Say that you’ll remain and

As we slowly go insane our

Lust will flow through

Rusty drains unchained

Forever more.

 

 

 

 

                                            15                     

Portrait of Pleasure

A portrait of pleasure

While taking my leisure

Languidly licking

Your musky pink treasure

Your limbs all a-quiver

Your frail body shivers

Lusciously loving you

Into oblivion

Hot beyond measure

A passionate seizure

Tongue slowly flicking

My skin like a feather

The picture of bliss this

Misses lingering kisses

Wistfully twisting my soul as she hisses

Master oh please

Take me faster and break me

Love me or kill me

But please don’t forsake me.

 

“But miss you’re mistaken,

All the women I’ve taken,

Have sooner or later

All wound up forsaken.”

Yet below and above her

I pushed and I shoved her

And damn if I didn’t just tell her I loved her.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

                                            16                     

Short and Sweet

Ice cold beer

The campus bar

A sweet subtle hint

The walk to your car

And a kiss much more borrowed than stolen...

 

Unshed tear

A twinkling star

Wedded to pain

With a soul that was scarred

But a heart much more rocking than rolling...

 

The summer that year

The things we are

Champagne ‘n’ nicotine’s

Thick black tar

A sweet tasting memory of falling...

 

Unspoken fear

Aching and hard

The ash of my heart

Broken and charred

And the sound of your

Husband’s voice calling...

 

‘twas short and sweet

Like summer’s heat

And I hope we meet again my friend

And may you enjoy

Your brand new toy

As much as you loved me

 

Good luck in school

Maintain your cool

Until the bitter end again

And when you think

You need a drink

Have a drink for me

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

                                            17                     

Majik Moment

Magic moment

Frozen fast

Picture still

Plaster cast

Fame and fortune

On the fly

Picture perfect

Slowly dies

Rock ‘n’ roll’s

Pretty maids

Those junkie holes

Die of AIDS

                                            18                     

Drawing a Tie

Memory sparkles sharp and bright

It’s hard to tell what’s wrong from right

You stand still in your endless flight

And fade to black to see the light

 

Try to fit circles in squares all day

Ignore the cost, the price you pay

Forget the rules of the game you play

And try to draw a tie

                                            19                     

Thinking of You

Sweet jaded innocence

Reflects in your eyes

A mirror before me

Shiny and blue

Seeing my own face

Eyes amber disguise

No way around it

I’m thinking of you

Seems in my dreamscapes

You’re on every turn

No way to tell

But I knew

Those salt sultry images

On my retinas burn

Feeling so pleasant

I’m dreaming of you

Slow fading luminance

The moon on your skin

Just on the edge

Pushing through

Painful impermanence

The sinner and sin

Become one for a moment

Remembering you

 


                                            20                     

Ya Dudda

Ya dudda da dudda

Dah dudda da dah,

Ya dudda da dudda

Dah dudda da dah,

Ya dudda da dudda

Dah dudda da dah,

Ya dudda da dudda

Dah dudda da dah.

 

    ta dah!!!!

 

 

                                            21                     

16

Sixteen? No you’re joking.

She can’t be that young

It must be that joint that you’re smoking.

It must be you’re just poking fun.

She comes like a daydream and moves like a star

She can’t be too young to be driving my car!

But taming that demon who claims I’m the one

Was easier far when she was twenty-one!

 

                                            22                     

Candelight Shadow

Sextitsasscomewetslickslitherquickcomehitherbreastsdanglingponderousachinghardponytailagonyponysandwhipsnippleclampstighteninglipsslowlywhiteningdroolingandwankingbeggingforspankingblanklystaringandsmiled

Mildlysmokingthedarkdeedisdonewigglingwantonlywantingsomemorechortle

Loudlyandproudlyshelaysonthefloorpantingheavilysweatinghotterbetting

Onhowmanytimesshecandoitsoscrewitharderherhandhardlymovinggroovingin

Hittingtheclitjustrightnightlyunsightlybulgeshidbythecandlightshadow

 


                                            23                     

Slit

Slit

 clit

  clip

   clap

    crap

     trap

      trip

       grip

        grit

         writ

          wait

           bait

 

                                            24                     

Box of Clay

The lift of the pen

Or stroke of the sword

The characters nodding

Their silent accord

Toward the mad dance of chaos

In the bright land of light

With laughing and crying

The smiles and tears

And thousands of lines

Getting dropped through the years

Still curtains fall

Curtain calls close the play

To molder forever

In a box in the clay

 


                                            25                     

Impassioned Moment

Impassioned moment

Passion spent

Imprisoned wandering lonely

The leading edge of night

Briefly bright

Thrashing solvent

Slightly bent

In terror running blindly

A mad unceasing flight

Toward the light

Rashly flagrant

Heaven scent

Sensation that is only

The bleeding ledge of fright

Not quite right

Brashly vagrant

Torn and rent

The error finally turning

Sad releasing sight

Pales to white

 

                                            26                     

6Pax

Sing a song of six packs

A belly full of rye

Four-and-twenty Bud talls

Living to get high

When a beer is open

The bubbles start to rise

Don’t know why I’m hoping

That it won’t cloud my eyes

 


                                            27                     

What 2 Do

Insatiable desire

Sweet anesthesia

Unquenchable on fire

It was never easier

Fully stacked aphrodisiac

Lips so red and eyes so black and blue

What to do with you?

Positively positive

Sweetest panacea

Passion pure and love so bold

I guess I’m just growing old

An over-acting heart attack

Fully whacked out hate to say it’s true

What to do with you?

Sorry that I feel this way

There’s no way I can sing today

Nothing I can sing for yet

My voice too rough from cigarettes

My fingers sore from rusty strings

So neither can my guitar sing

To you what am I to do?

 

                                            28                     

La Femme

La femme

The bright sunrise

Shines in your hair

Your bright green eyes

Tell me I’m there

It might be true

No more rain

I can’t wait to

See you again

If you look you’ll

Find the answer

The question asked has a

Strange reply

In the morning you’ll see clearly

You won’t wonder why

It’s the way you move

It’s the way you walk

It’s the way you groove

It’s the way you rock

It’s the way that you

Tell me just what to do

Party all over my block

We can make it if we try

Spread your wings and you can fly

 

                                            29                     

Polly Rhythmic

Standing by the stage

Just slightly underage

In purple lipstick

A fully stacked overacting

Heart attack

Named Polly Rhythmic

It was an East Side

Free ride

Lickety split

Another trick

Slippery nipple

Way hip

Uptown chick

Named Polly Rhythmic

Photographic dipstick

Starring in a pornographic flick

Quick pick

One-way ticket

Out for a kick

Polly Rhythmic

Smack hack

Cracker jack

Flat on her back

So smooth n slick

Super flip

Day tripper

Ready to strip she’s Polly Rhythmic

 

                                            30                     

The Movies

Overcome with aggravation

I’ve been getting quite impatient

Want to start a new sensation

Whole wide world a single nation

Like in the movies

Stimulation simulation

It’s becoming regulation

Who needs all that masturbation

Got to get to penetration

Like in the movies

Hmmm..............

Hookers hangin at Penn Station

Livin on a quick gyration

Could be time for contemplation

Put some latex on that patient

This ain’t the movies

 

                                            31                     

What Is It About U

Sun drenched plain, a wind washed field

Under the sky so wide

Something about the way you feel

Something I just can’t hide

Feeling that won’t subside

 

Don’t know what it is but I like it (3x)

What is it about you?

 

Moonlight shining on your breast

Dark red curls so fine

Feeling so good, better, best

Floating in red wine

Darling you are mine

 

Don’t know what it is but I like it (3x)

What is it about you?

 

Sweat just glistening on your skin

Kiss your lips so sweet

Knock on your door please let me in

I miss your funky beat

 

Sunshine you are my sunshine

Moonlight you are my moonlight

 


                                            32                     

Matt Dah Frat Cat

A fat frat cat named Matt

Hatta hat zat sat pat

A vat that nattad n chattad

Anna ratta tatta type gat

Dat spattad an splattad

Gray matta like batta

All ova da choich udda

Latta Day Saints sometime las Sattaday.

 

                                            33                     

Money Power Sex and Fame

Money power sex and fame

The more things change

They stay the same

A minor nuclear exchange

After all it’s just a game

Umberto echoes feared deranged

The rose stays red

So what’s its name? It’s gimmegimmegimmegimmegimmegimmegimmegimme power money fame and sex

To pay in cash

Instead of cheques

A piece of gash

From someone’s ex

She’ll take her cues

I’ll just direct  she’ll gimmegimmegimmegimmegimmegimmegimmegimme

Fame money sex and power

Political king make

Millions cower

Fat white snakes in

Cold steel towers

This is the hour

For us to go and get ours gimmegimmegimmegimmegimmegimmegimmegimme sex fame power and money

Soft as silk and

Sweet as honey

Mother’s milk

From Playboy bunnies

Hangin’ with the ilk

From the pages in the funnies

Moneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoney

 

                                            34                     

Fellatio

Lick my thickness

Stick my prick

Itsa cinch I’ll

Give you inches

Nice t’ meetcha

Have a seat

Eatin my meat

To the funky beat

On your knees you

Wontcha suck my thumb

An if you please

I’ll make you come

Howabouta quick one

Hiccup my dick

My fly’s undone

Now flick my Bic

Give me head

Here on the bed

That’s what I said ya

That’s feelin fine

Reelin on the floor now sixty nine

 

                                            35                     

Beautiful

One fucked-up unhappy soul

While I was keeping her young

She was making me old

Married woman’s lover

So big and bold

I saved her but

My soul got sold

She was so beautiful

I fell into one deep abyss

When I fell asleep

With this sweet hot miss

I tried to recreate her state

Of sexual bliss

But the price of my soul

Was a single sad kiss

She was so beautiful

Now I’m wasting my time

On words and rhymes

Trying to forget

The sound of her chimes

But I can’t forget yet

She was on of a kind

And my silent tears fall

As I lose my mind

She was beautiful

 

                                            36                     

Silent Surrender Pt1

She doesn’t want diamonds, cars, or minks

But it doesn’t matter what I think

And I think I need a drink

That’s why I’m on this bender - silent surrender

Phone sex free just dial up

It’s hard to keep my smile up

And this fifteen car pile up love

Is just a fender bender - silent surrender

She’s sleeping she is woken

But not a word is spoken

Every time that she gets broken

That’s when I try to mend her - silent surrender

You can’t change time and that’s a fact

So marshal your forces for the coming attack

The letter I sent just came back

Marked returned to sender - silent surrender

Leather soul and high top sneakers

I smoke a bowl and crank the speakers

The things I do they sometimes freak her

Who ever said that they’re the weaker gender? - silent surrender

It came out worse than I intended

And she came out of it offended

I feel the pain that I engendered

A great idea so poorly rendered

I’m sorry that it ended

In silent surrender 

 


                                            37                     

Thru the Air

The saints and the sinners

Live out their lives

Dodging the bullets

And the well placed knives

I did not mean

To shoot that man

But the gun went off

Right in my hand

Bullets flew

Through the air

As I stared

Def and dumb

At the gun

In my hand

The few and the fearful

Hide in their homes

Giant steel towers

And concrete domes

The young and the restless

Live on the edge

But I did not mean

To step off that ledge

Falling free

Through the air

Without a care

All in all

It’s not the fall

It’s the sudden stop

The old and the lonely

At last left alone

With no earthly possessions

Or homes of their own

And watch my own life

As it still unfolds

But I do not hope

To get so old

Seeing me

From the air

With long gray hair

My vacant stare

A silent glare

In the end

 

                                            38                     

Muses Uses

Understanding my muses many uses can be quite demanding her standing

Hand on hip stone white dress and blood red lips tipping her glass till it spills and it’s practically killed me a number of times

With her cold dead words and def dumb rhymes caught up in couplets and I grow quite contrite not to mention uptight trying to gain some control of the ungainly plane that I’m flying till I feel like a mime shouting silent words feeling screaming swords cutting through the tender fabric of my brain I suppose you could say that it’s rather a strain I didn’t and still don’t intend to attempt to suggest I’m exempt from temptation I know that I tend towards this aimless oration in fact it’s a source of severe aggravation with yuddas and duddas falling over themselves till it seems that my best ideas end up on shelves I guess sooner or later some bright aimless vision that I stole from some much greater poet will present itself in such a way that you’d scarce even notice my mission remaining insanely incomplete me meekly and neatly defeated by the muse who insists I continue rhyming garment and varmint till I nearly vomit with disgust at the comet and cupid and prancing sweet vixen’s incessant insistence and my mindless persistence of memory believing I’m leaving when really I’m coming I think I’m on top but I’m really just slumming while numbing integrity laughs in my face I just keep on running the opposite direction from everyone else in the race

 

                                            39                     

Do It 2 Death

I usually gain my inspiration from pain though I try to refrain from sounding inane (or completely insane) but I seem to remain unable to avoid it and I generally end up rhyming endlessly

I despise punctuation since in real life (as if my poetry were separate therefrom) I more or less ramble and babble with pauses only for breath and please try to forgive the pun but I damn well am going to do it to death the crystal meth all around me I’m glad it’s not found me yet but I bet it will eventually my being such a junky is taken for granted but I planted my feet so damn firm on the ground that I scarce see a thing and I can’t hear a sound but I won’t leave a trace of the space I took up while I was alive except perhaps for a book or tape or two but these hardly last longer than a lifetime or ten so I s’pose I should just rack it all up to Zen

Since my music and verse are so finite I might just give it all up still I can’t seem to stop this or cop out at all as much as I’d like to but since I must be me so you too must be you truthfully screwing off sniffing life’s glue I believe that we must be getting off since this page is still swelling and shrinking and we’re drinking the apricot nectar aphrodisiac crackheads in place of a faceless contortion overdriven distortion of guitars and senses that stars are immense and dense as my verse I guess that it could be much worse cursing the fate that left me this plate of inedible chatter what the fuck does it matter if I like it or not since sooner or later I’m bound to be caught masturbating with these words and lazy phrases that no one really cares about anyway but today is still the first day of the rest of my life so I’ll put down this gun and go pick up my knife to pare off the edges of my bent twisted soul and if nothing else works I can always use coal to burn off the

Excessive distress that I felt from the moment I took off her dress

 

                                            40                     

Stream O

Perhaps a small stream o consciousness yes while we ponder and wonder I wonder does it all make a difference and what do I mean by a difference and to whom already the stream is disrupted of course flowing on a completely different course in the time that it takes me to type this shall I not rhyme it I wonder what you think whoever you are and why are you watching me are you watching me who are you and who am I who is calling I would understand this if you’d understand this that is calling me into tomorrow tomorrow we’ll all understand I don’t understand I don’t understand I don’t understand I don’t understand.

 

                                            41                     

Leave Me Alone

Hello there

How are you?

That is fine

And so am I

It isn’t true

And that’s no lie

Sorry I asked

I don’t know why

Just leave me alone

Killing floor

Is killing me

Willing whore

Is filling me

When I want more

She slams the door

I’ve gone insane

It’s a quite shame

Just leave me alone

Dressing up

Like a man

Messing up

As best I can

Don’t know why

I just did

Don’t ask me

I’m just a kid

Just leave me alone

A house of pain

So gently built

With walls of guilt

That still remain

Unchain the fear

That’s living there

I can hear

But I don’t care

Just leave me alone

 

                                            42                     

Gold Blues

I don’t know how you can treat me the way y’do

I don’t know why you keep running away

I don’t know how you can look in the mirror

I was your lover not just some cheap lay

I know that one day it all will come back to you

Sooner or later that shit comes around

I know that one day your lies will all end up true

Broken to pieces they lie on the ground

I can’t see how you can treat me the way y’do

I just don’t see things the way that you see

Turn it on turn it off you don’t know what you want

And I don’t know what the hell you want from me

Goes around comes around that’s what I hear y’know

And I am quite sure that is a fact

First say you love me and then it’s just go away

What kind of way is that for you to act

Backwards and forwards you just can’t make up your mind

Inwards and outwards you fit like a glove

Upwards and downwards you drive me out of my mind

Leftwards and rightwards your dodging my love

If you don’t watch out one day you’ll end up alone

Money and power don’t mean a thing

Love is the only thing that really matters

And if you don’t love him then give back his ring

 

                                            43                     

Sister Moonshine

Sister moonshine on my shoulder

Good to see you here again

Lost in time I’m feeling older

So much more than I did then

Sister moon and brother sun

The deed is done

Tossed and turning

Torn asunder

By the things I feel inside

Crashed and burning

Like the thunder

Nowhere else for me to hide

Sister moon and brother sun

The deed is done

Brother sunshine my eyes blinding

Feel you softly burn my skin

I’m a seeker but I’m not finding

Any way out of the mess I’m in

Sister moon and brother sun

The deed is done

Tossed and turning

Torn asunder

By the things I feel inside

Crashed and burning

Like the thunder

Nowhere left for me to hide

Sister moon and brother sun the deed is done

 

                                            44                     

Miss U

Uncontrollable fatal attraction

Set off a massive chain reaction

I gave you love and satisfaction

Was I just another piece of your action

I miss you (sorry to be a distraction)

Now that I’ve gotten your attention

Lest I’ve forgotten I think I should mention

It was never my intention

To be left hanging in suspension

I miss you (is love only sexual tension?)

Please excuse my confused confession

I don’t mean to give the wrong impression

It’s just that she has become my obsession

Is passion just repressed aggression

I miss you (is love only an expression?)

Could I describe my aggravation

I fell I love above my station

I know I’m only a musician

How did I get into this position?

I miss you (missionary/69th home position)

 

                                            45                     

Little Love

My little love

Sweet little woman

Just gotta say

Treats me OK

My little love sweet

Little lady every nite

She just loves me all day

We took a walk went on down by the seashore

Lordy my God she was lookin so fine

We had a laugh and then made love a bit more

Was then that she swore she would always be mine

My little love

Sweet little lady

Lovin to love n’treat me all right

My little love

Sweet little woman

Every day she just love me all nite

We went n dined at the fanciest places

We’d go dancing the whole night through

Just another two of a thousand faces

Livin to die in our warm embraces (I mean dying to screw)

Chorus I

Finally broke down an I told her "I love you"

She only smiled and turned away

She said I’m sorry I don’t know what love is

But baby y’sure a good game t’play(a damn good lay)

Chorus II

I hear it’s funny the way some love goes

You can end up with a broken heart

Here today and it’s gone tomorrow

Over before you can really get started

 

                                            46                     

Pleasure Dome

Welcome to the pleasure dome

We’re gonna make you feel at home

With leather lace and polished chrome

Come on

Don’t be shy just come inside

There’s nothing that you need to hide

Just let us take you for a ride

Come on

Nothing here you need to fear

Won’t you let us dry your tears

We’d really love to grease your gears

Come on

Just a little touch of class

Broken flowers and broken glass

A leather belt across your ass

Come on

We’re so glad that you’ve arrived

You’ll love this place that we contrived

‘cause no one here gets out alive

You’re gone

 

                                            47                     

Be Here Now

Young and breathless

I sing loudly

Bright and aimless

Fun allowed

Wild and reckless

Free and easy

Standing high above the crowd

 

Mmm y’gotta be timeless spaceless

Yea y’gotta have no fear

Oh y’gotta be thoughtless faceless

You got no choice cause

You gotta be here now

 

Old just breathing

I speak softly

Dull and boring

Just no fun

Lost and frightened

Trapped and troubled

Slowly dying

Beneath the sun

 

Mmm y’gotta be timeless spaceless

Yea y’ gotta have no fear

Oh y’gotta be thoughtless faceless

You got no choice cause

You gotta be here now

 

                                            48                     

What Next

Who knows what next?

Brand new day beginning

The next could be our last

How long must the future

Be guided by the past

The crystal ball so empty

The cards may all turned blank

If leaders solve their problems

With missiles guns and tanks

Who knows what next?

For now the day is over

Night is drawing near

Living in the shadow

Of our growing fear

Look the tide is rising

The fuse soon finally blown

To meet at last the reaper

Of the seeds of hate we’ve sown

 

                                            49                     

Driven

Driven to drugs driven to destruction

We’re all livin on mass production

Driven acid driven to smack

Driven to cocaine driven to crack

Dirty needles aids infection

Livin to die for that injection

Driven to suicide on that brink

Dying for a cigarette

Driven to drink

When do you wake up n change?

Nuclear bombs drive me to distraction

We could all die in a chain reaction

Chemical warfare on that ledge

We’re all livin on one thin edge

Port blockade an trade restriction

Causing international friction

Red alert sound battle stations

Waiting for annihilation

When do you wake up n change?

Driven to kill driven to that notion

Dumping waste in our toxic ocean

Mounds of garbage to the sky

Watching while our mother dies

Radiation poison air

Clear-cut case but hell who cares

Driven to sadness soon to die

Underneath the purple sky

When do you wake up n change?

 

                                            50                     

Nukes Away

Nuclear bombs away, nuclear bombs away

Nuclear bombs away - today!

Try not to think about it

Remember to forget

Try not to think about it

You won’t have to fret about it

Nuclear bombs away, etc.

Uncle Sam knows what he’s doing

Grins from ear to ear

Listen when he says “don’t worry”

That should ease your fear about those

Nuclear bombs away, etc.

Try not to think about

Just one more bloody war

Peace don’t worry much about it

Just another whore to those

Nuclear bombs away (throw those), etc.

 

                                            51                     

Diamonds

Sexy rhythm spark of life

Bodies sweating sparkle like

Diamonds

Heartbeat pounding gets me psyched

Your pretty blue eyes sparkle like

Diamonds

Brilliant sunshine blinds my sight

The constellation sparkle like

Diamonds

Pretty smile blinds my sight

Your perfect teeth babe they sparkle like

Diamonds

 

                                            52                     

She’s My Heroine

Caesar had Brutus Rome had Nero

Everybody’s got their stupid heroes

But she’s my, she’s my heroine

Long dark night on a big white horse

She seems like a dream of course

But she’s my, she’s my heroine

They say a hero’s just a sandwich

Somethin’s been happening I didn’t plan which is

She’s my, she’s my heroine

Nothin plus nothin adds up to zero

I’m so tired tryna play the hero

But she’s my, she’s my heroine

Romeo Juliet Clark Gable Marilyn

Sampson Delilah Jesus Christ Magdalene

She’s my, she’s my heroine

 

                                            53                     

Setup

Heaven forbid baby

Best keep the lid on it

Don’t wanna be no bee

In nobody’s bonnet

 

Did what I did I guess

I shouldn’t be down on it

Cause if you offered it again

You know I’d go to town on it

 

My best guess is

You must be messin with me

What you tryina do

Dressin in that getup?

 

While you smilin

Yer eyes a gettin wild on me

Listen here baby

This best be no setup

 

Don’t you think that this might be pushin it?

Don’t this seem a little bit strange?

Don’t you think that it’s a bit dangerous?

Ah what the hell it’s all the same

                                            54                     

Call It Love

Love walks up knocks n walks in

Takes off her clothes cause she knows

When they begin it’s not a sin

It’s only love

At least she calls it love

 

Love comes round and she strips and gets down

Heart beat in time to wordless rhymes

She knows it’s not a crime

And she thinks that she’s so sublime

But she’s only love

At least I call her love

 

Love can come just like a firefly

Love can come just like a lightning strike

Love is like a child dying

Sometimes love is just a woman crying

Sometimes love

Is only love

 

Love can be so much more than this

Soft caress and tender kiss

Sometimes love is lemon with a twist

And love is only

Hit or miss

They call it love

And you can call it love

 

                                            55                     

Ass Kicker

I’m in the mood I’ve got the itch

I’m a street walkin ass kickin son of a bitch

On the road on down the line

Running with the devil and wasting my time

The drinks go down till the sun comes up

But it never seems to be enough to fill up my cup

Wouldn’t it be nice if I said something witty

And gave you all a thrill

Talkin about some sweet little pretty

Girl that someone killed

Wouldn’t you flip if I said nothing

Would you feel unfulfilled

Livin on the street can be so hard

Like a constant climb uphill

 

                                            56                     

Lion & Lamb

The lion walks

While the lamb is sleeping

And the lion stalks

But the lamb is keeping to herself

The lion roars

As the lamb is weeping

The lions bored

As he creeps up upon another sheep

Now the lion runs

And the hunter’s gunning

And the lamb just laughs

As the lion’s running for his life

And he eats from the hand

Of the farmer’s daughter

And doesn’t think about the slaughter

And doesn’t even see the knife

 

                                            57                     

Elle Me Rend

J’ai une petite amour

Et j’ai l’adore

Elle est une tres jolie fille

Elle a mon coeur

Beaux cheveux

Et grands yeuxs bleus

Elle me rend joyeux

J’ai lui souris

Simple amoureux

Elle me sourit

Je suis joyeux

Elle est mon amie

Je la veux

Elle me rend joyeux

 

 


                                            58                     

Some People

Some people love mass production

Some folks got cold hard cash

Some fools want mass destruction

And worlds of dumb white trash

 

Never knowing where they’re going

Never knowing where they’ve been

Always freezing ever flowing

Never coming back again

 

Some people just got no feeling

Some folks just hop that fence

Some fools got senses reeling

Some times just got no sense

 

Some men have perfect timing

Some women have no control

Some clouds have silver linings

For those who sell their souls

 

Never knowing where they’re going

Never knowing where they’ve been

Always freezing ever flowing

Never coming back again

 

Some people are two together

Some folks are too apart

Some lovers can’t stand the weather

Some fools just got no heart

 

                                            59                     

Explicit Lyrics

These lyrics are explicit

They’re totally obscene

Your children mustn’t hear them

You must see what we mean

 

These lyrics are satanic

Occultist and deranged

These lyrics could cause panic

They must be rearranged

 

These lyrics are too violent

They beat you black and blue

You must do as we tell you when we

Tell you what to do

 

These lyrics are too sexy

They’ll burn your soul in hell

They’re sado-masochistic and they sodomize as well

 

These lyrics must be censored

They should be rated x

For lez erotic antics and they mention oral sex

 

                                            60                     

Tear Me Up

Naked and illuminated

By a candle flame

Making love until we’re sated

Hungry, unashamed

Tear me up baby

Under all of God’s creation

Who remains to blame

Some of us are armour plated

Some of us play games

Tear me up baby

One of us wears golden rings

One lives life for fame

You can always change the singer

The song remains inane

Tear me up baby

Still with all our subtlety

It’s easy to complain

You can beg for mercy

But you can’t escape the pain

 

                                            61                     

A Dream Apparent

A dream apparent

On the shore

Of a mind

In the darkness

Seeking resolution

For the days remorse

And the evenings loneliness

 

A sitcom of sleep

Acting out hidden emotion

A thought translucent

Slips through the network

Of the streets of the mind

Seeking realization

Through my fingertips

It’s the center of life

For that moment in time

 

A feeling electric

Coursing through

The chemical waterways

Of the soul

Instigating thoughts

That cause the dreams

Which cause emotion.

 

 

                                            62                     

Whisper

Whisper

The wind is a whisper

Whispering through

The vast caverns of my mind

 

Cry

That cry

Like a heartbeat

Pulsating through

The memory of you

 

Scream

That scream

Like that painting

A moment of agony

Making me blind

 

Sigh

A sigh

Like a whisper

The wind is only a whisper

Whispering memories

Of you

 

                                            63                     

Goodbye

Storming and scathing

Blistering tears

Biting and scratching

Intangible fears

Dream awake screaming

Old love unrenewed

Empty and lonely

Feelings reviewed

Inches to touch you

Miles to speak

A mind somehow distant

My whisper a shriek

Begging and pleading

And endless remorse

Naked and bleeding

I yell myself hoarse

Aimless we wander

Painfully broken

Love torn asunder

A single word spoken

Goodbye

 

                                            64                     

Dead Sailors

Time in time

Integrity failing

Sending the young man

Out to die sailing

Hunting for whale

We sing the sea chantey

Weather the gale

As we try to be

Shan’t be

Thar she blows matey

Better step lively

Hold yer course strong

And harpoon quite tightly

Tars nothin for it

She’s headed straight for us

We’ll die at sea boys

Dear Jesus help poor us

Swim fer it mateys

She’s hit amid ship

If we don’t get clear

We’ll go down with her to

Not that there’s anywhere

We could swim to

But you cling to your life

I’ll cling to mine too

 

                                            65                     

Society’s Child

Drug slave street walker

Hard core punk rocker

That’s the way

Society child

Chain saw blood shocker

Rich politicians talk

It’s a game

Society child

Television elevator

Murder it’s exciting ‘cause

That’s today

Society child

Gang bang coat hanger

Rape victim shang-hai

It’s a shame

Society child

 

 

                                            66                     

A Woman Who Doesn’t Exist

I’m in love with a woman

Who doesn’t exist

My dream life her world

One in all

Her blue satin dress

And red lips that I’ve kissed

I’m in love with a woman

Who doesn’t exist

At all

A magical vision

Of homecoming warmth

A dream much too sweet

To be lost in the dawn

Violent blue velvet

So softly sun kissed

I’m in love with a woman

Who doesn’t exist

At all

 

                                            67                     

Boxed In

Boxed in

Tied up

Losing my mind

Locked out

Lied to

Just can’t find

My love

Nod out

Tied off

Shootin up stream

Sprung up

Strung out

About to scream

For help

Faked out

Trippin up

Haven’t got time

Flaked out

Tippin off

That land mine

Tonite

Laid out

Played through

Hole in one

Drinking wine

Feeling fine

In the sun

It’s all right

 

                                            68                     

Empty Spaces

I’ve got lonely empty spaces

Standing in a sea of faces

Hundreds of thousands of people

All alone

I’ve got thoughts that can’t be spoken

A back getting slowly broken

And I stand here wishing I could get you

On the phone

I’ve got my musical instruments

I’ve got frustrations that I can’t vent

I sit at my grand piano

Falling asleep

I’ve got swollen aching hands

I’ve got a rocking and rolling band

I’ve friends and lovers that I know

I can’t keep

 

                                            69                     

Love by the Lake

Endlessly making sweet love in the grass

By the lake

I know you don’t notice but you give me more

Than you take

That look in your eyes sweetly satisfies all

Of my needs

It makes it all worth my restoring your mirth when that

Son of a bitch makes you bleed

You give something I want and I’ll give you something you need

 

Walking and talking about all of the things

That we’ll do

No one has ever made me feel this way

Except you

Older and colder but our lust is still

Shiny new

Won’t you believe that I just couldn’t leave you

I can’t face this life without you

U think that I know & I think that u know &

I think that I know U better than U think

 

Eyes softly shining you look so divine

All the time

I just can’t wait till the day you are mine

You’re so fine

You give just what I want & I give you just what u need

Sexy sweet velvet your lips are as soft

As a dove

What can I say but when I feel this way

I get the impression that I might be

Falling in love

U think that U know & I think that I know &

U think that U know me better than I think

                                            70                     

Again

The pain of parting is more than I can stand

And I’d die to hold your pale white hand

Again

Leaving you is more than I can bear

And I’d die to touch your golden hair

Again

The sorrow is pounding in my head

And I’d die to kiss your lips so red

Just one more

Time again

I can’t live away from you

And I’d die to see your eyes so blue

Just one more

Time again

I cannot handle my desire

And I’d die to feel your passion’s fire

One more

Time again

Must you stay must I leave

And I can’t believe

I can’t believe it’s happening

Again

 

                                            71                     

You and I

You and I laughing dancing in the sunset

You and I making love till morning light

You and I we were meant to be together

You and I we were never meant to part

You and I caring sharing dreams of passion

You and I never had much time to fight

You and I kissing touching in the sunshine

You and I friends and lovers from the start

You and I walking talking by the ocean

You and I making love down by the lake

You and I scheming dreaming of our future

You and I grabbing all that we could take

You and I setting all our dreams in motion

You and I staying saying I love you

You and I we were meant to be forever

You with me and I with you

 

                                            72                     

Let Me Choose

Let me choose my own path not blind religious zeal

Upbeat rocking ragtime or rapid reggae feel

Let me beat my own drum (meat?) And march to my own time

Compared to mystic rhythm a star could seem sublime

Give me peace and freedom the stars galore and more

Censors? I don’t need ‘em yeah and Tipper Gore’s a whore

Let me walk my own road explore new realms of thought

Heaven must be searched for and hell’s so cheaply bought

 

                                            73                     

Originality

So you want originality

I hardly know where to begin

It’s hard to beat I heard you are what you eat

Original thought’s worse than original sin

 

Yes I hate all this banality

But I barely know where to start

The mold is cast from echoes of the past

To attempt the unusual would break the masters’ hearts

 

Multimedia reality

Is something we all have to share

What I mean when I say never mind

Is I don’t care but I don’t care to be unkind

 

Don’t declaim your lame morality to me

What does it matter what you feel?

Mediocre jokers form tomorrow from the borrowed

But all the greatest artists steal for their next meal

 

My claim to fame is the majority

To quote from greatness makes you great

Newness breeds contempt for mediocrity

And sows those ancient seeds of hate

 

Paternal gifts from the fraternity

For all their sisters at the gate

Will always last they say from here until eternity

We must not steal the food from hunger’s plate

 

                                            74                     

Futility

Everything I ever thought that I might want to say

Already got said by someone else in a far more elegant way

Why express myself when no one really listens anyway

Someone’s quoting Shakespeare every moment everyday

 

The spoken word is wasted when a look can say it all

Why ask how it tasted or the meaning of a scrawl

TV scripts radio shows and shopping at the mall

Lyric sheets can clearly state what I can’t say at all

 

It’s just a matter of opinion what? Oh well never mind

You weren’t listening besides I’m just talking myself blind

Don’t even bother looking there’s no meaning there to find

It’s a pointless conversation of an unproductive kind

 

                                            75                     

Hole in My Soul (Insane)

There’s a hole in my soul

Yeah I fill it up with pain

And like rock and roll

It’s driving me insane

Insane

You’ve been hard on my heart

Over and over again

You’ve been doing your part

In driving me insane

Insane

There’s a strain on my brain

Yes it’s all that remains

Of the mind that was mine

But I have gone insane

Insane

Where is the sun

In this endless rain

And where is the one

Who’ll take away my insane

Insane

 


                                            76                     

Love

Love love love

I don’t know what to do

All I think of is you

You you you

You are all I see

I guess that it’s just me

Me me me

I don’t know what to do

So in love with you

Love love love

I don’t know what to feel

When you make love

So unreal

 

                                            77                     

Red Boots

You’re such a sweet dream

You know what I mean

Y’ long hair and tight jeans

And red boots

Hard core attraction

Hot interaction

I need satisfaction

Red boots

Yeah you look so fine

I wish you were mine

And I’m losing my mind

For red boots

Come on and love me

If you want to be free

I’ll make you happy

Red boots

 

                                            78                     

Words

Words words words

I waste them all the time

Words words words

The pages stained with pain

Words words words

Between sin and isolation

Words words words

Words can be a dangerous operation

Words words words

Words to kill and words to heal

Words words words

Words to give and words to steal

Words words words

Why can’t I express the way I feel

 

                                            79                     

Piddle

Piddle in the middle udder riddle as the widower

Diddled underneath the little fiddler’s frock

An diddy boy or dinny suck

The little

Beggar boy’s cock?

Ravenously consuming

His cavernous bloomers

Slavering and slathering it

To the tune of his too incautious tongue

And he stung the young lad well nigh in the bum

Well!

 

                                            80                     

Hymn of Forgiveness

A hymn of forgiveness

Given only of stress

Living less for the more

And more for the less

I guess this foolish mess

Is all for the best

But the tightening in my chest

Feels like lightning the most

And like comfort the least

And the beast in my breast

So alive I’m nearly dead

I’m surprised to find out

It’s all in my head

 


                                            81                     

Lady du Pris

Lady du Pris

A woman of price

Lady tres long

A woman so far

Lady du lac

A woman so wet

Lady du Pris

Let me place your bet

 

                                            82                     

Julie

Long black hair

And skin so fair

A kiss as fine as wine

Steel sharp wit

A slick tight fit

And won’t you please be mine

Voice so loud

And walk so proud

A figure oh so fine

Sweet hot sweat

I can’t forget

I’ve got to cross your line

We’ll create

A perfect state

Of majik bliss divine

Be my moon

I’ll be your sun

I know that we can shine

I’ll be there

When gentle air

Blows through sighing pine

Dry your tears

I’ll face the fear

That shivers down my spine

 


                                            83                     

Make Love to Me

You don’t have to make me slippery

I’m as wet as I can get

You don’t have to trip me

You just got to be the best

I’ve had yet

Y’got to

Make love to me

Make it up to me

Make love to me

All nite long

You don’t have to make me happy

I’m glad as I could be

I don’t need you to slap me

You just got to be all

You can be

Chorus

You don’t have to make me smile

You don’t have to soothe my fears

You just got to make me wild

You don’t even have to

Dry my tears

Chorus

You don’t have to make me angry

You don’t have to make me cry

You don’t have to hang me up

You don’t even have to get me high you just got to

 

                                            84                     

Y M I

Y M I so damn compulsive

Y M I so damn extreme

I guess I’m just too aggressive

I’m just too obscene

Y M I so damn impatient

Y M I so damn deranged

An intense infatuation

Slowly driving me insane

Y M I so goddamn foolish

Y M I so damn whacked out

Sometimes I’m so goddamn mulish

That I simply can’t back out

 

                                            85                     

Everything

Tie me down

Beat me up

Turn me round

Fill my cup

Softly stroke

Take it off

Have a toke

Please don’t cough

I want everything

Pull me in

Push me out

Suck me hard

In your mouth

Give me head

Your majik kiss

Upon the bed

Achieving a state

Of sexual bliss

I want everything

Ball me love

Call me names

So far above

These petty games

Feed my lust

Drink my juice

You’re so tight

It makes me loose

I want everything

It’s a gas

But not the same

Fine piece of ass

As hot as flame

White hot blast

Of icy fame

Not so fast

Oh shit

I just came

I want everything

 


                                            86                     

Kissing the Teacher

When I was just a boy

I went to nursery school

And even as a child

I thought I was no fool

I’d kiss the little girls

Because that broke the rules

But now I’m reaching higher

Now I kiss the teacher

I think of all the education that I miss

But then my homework was never quite like this

N’est ce pas?

 

                                            87                     

Bastard to Bitch

Orgasm to sarcasm

Lust straight to pain

Heart turns to hate

Sweet shifts to snide

Love into anger

Blessings to curses

Tender too violent

Kind words to slurs

Softness to slaps

Passion to silence

Hugs turn to tears

Whispers to screams

Kisses to spit

Bastard to bitch

 

                                            88                     

Jalina

I don’t need a million bucks

Money only makes you greener

I just want my pickup truck an’ Jalina

I don’t need no fancy yacht

Down at the marina

All I need’s my swimmin pool an’ Jalina

I don’t need no French masseuse

In Los Angelenos

All I want is my lemon juice an’ Jalina

Don’t need no Mercedes-Benz

My bicycle is cleaner

All I want’s my few close friends an’ Jalina

I don’t need no DJ man

To say I’m hot on the scene

All I need’s an old guitar an’ Jalina

I don’t care for big hair girls

Or high school beauty queens no

I just love that string of pearls an’ Jalina

I don’t look like Cary Grant

On the silver screen

All I got’s my pair o’ pants an’ Jalina

I ain’t much of a Valentino & I ain’t no Jimmy Dean

All I’ve got’s the stars above and think I could fall in love

 

                                            89                     

Be My

Be my brother

Be my sister

Fuck that stupid

Aggravation

Be my mister satisfaction

Be my mistress sofistication

 

Be my blood hole

Be my blister

Be my master of

Plasteration

I only kissed her wrist you bitch

I swear it’s no exaggeration

 

Be my father

Be my mother

Yes I missed her

Ministrations

Simple sexual relations

I could use a long vacation

 

Be my lover

Be my cover

No restrictions

Quick convictions

Agony to pure elation

Who the fuck needs information

 

                                            90                     

Sand Castles

Sometimes sand castles

Have ivory towers

That just won’t wash

Into the sea

Sometimes they only

Last for hours

Sometimes eternity

Some times and places

Drag on forever

You can’t get where

You want to be

Others pass away so soon

You didn’t even see

Some holy houses

Have walls of stone

That never set you free

And the one I’m in

Might be a sin

But at least the sun

Can shine on me

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                               

                                            91                     

Somewhere Sometimes

Bright shining light

Fire fly through the sun

One with all and all are one

Smiling styling rays warming comfort

With you the pretty witty star of my life

From here until whenever and perhaps until forever

Let’s face it you’ve got to have some happiness somewhere sometimes

 


                                            92                     

Lyle

Lyle

Blood heart brother

Friend o mine

Where would I be without thee?

My life has a much sweeter taste

And the world is a much safer place

With you here

And I would not be without thee.

I pray every day that we always will stay

Together as one

Since life is so much less fun for one

And truly more beautiful

Much better far

As we two

And even if I had to

I still wouldn’t be

Without you.

A poor man made rich

Though I’m sometimes a bitch

Or quite like one

I’m healthier and wealthier

Far in your company

Just basking with you in the sun

Or our walks in the rain

With us straining our brains

On the infinite convolutions

Of our lives and our women

And I hope I can someday repay

All the help and the love

And passionate compassion

You’re constantly sending my way

But the feats that we’ve dared

And the lovers we’ve shared

Can never compare

To the heartfelt devotion

And deepest emotion

That grows longer still

Than our hair.

Peace my brother.

I love you.

                                                                                                                                                                                   

                                            93                     

Sodomize Your God

Mysterious so serious

I slowly grow delirious

Imperiously leering

At the queers who smear

Their tears across

The fearful desert

Querying their weary masters

Bating the cheery demons hooks

With sexy books and pictures

Flicking tongues in aspic

Asses pumping humping furiously

Awaiting the interrupt spuriously

Ticking tocking time

Attacking rhythm cock and rhyme

Sublimely chiming bells of hell

So god damned mother fucking

Finely

And I cease to wonder why

A certain angel fell

After all, would you try

To sodomize

Your God?

 

                                            94                     

Sweet

Sweet

So soft and sexy

Passion grace

And liquid fire

Yes fear I may acquire

Too permanent a taste

For this chaste

Addictive lust

Industrial strength my dear

Or bust

Though I think perhaps

I must be going

Just a bit too

Far and wide

Still the more I get inside

The less I care

For the air out there

And I really truly wish

You would not leave

Me drenched enmeshed

In wrenching sexual contemplation

But I leave you at the station

Since I know the only

Way to keep you happy’s

First to let you go

To conquer death you only have to

Die my love goodbye

 

                                            95                     

Starving Muses

Sex love passion peace happiness joy comfort pleasure suck fuck cock come sweet yummy tasty more foreskin sweat togetherness messy smiles yes baby darling lover mother brother sister father cousin aunty mum uncle cozy cuddle power struggle snuggle up my dear grin by the hair of my chinny chin chin bum floss across the waist land jammin within the waste band music of the spheres the crowd cheers wildly one mild

Bit of highness brings the whole damn bunch around midnight’s chiming

Stage lights blinding finding any excuses to feed the starving muses 

 

                                            96                     

Sexy

The way you move drives me to tears

Big strong muscles out to here

Ain’t seen a body like that in years

Slammin your stick shift into my gears

You just drive me crazy cause you’re

Sexy

Hot sweet stylin pretty face

Need your leather to go with my lace

Pluckin my feathers with poise and grace

I want your lawyer to try my case

You just drive me crazy cause you’re

Sexy

I’d just die 4 your gorgeous eyes

So big soft blue they make me cry

There’s no need for you to ask me why

Cause you’re the drug that gets me high

You just drive me crazy you’re so

Sexy

 

                                            97                     

Dali

Stepping thru time

The watch growing limper

Draped on kitchen door way

Looking at the stove

Could be I’m going

Out without whimper

Could she be may

Maybe she’s June

In Paris anais

At least another

Whore or lay or stripper

On the rove as you might say

It’s definitely about

Fucking he chuckled

Let’s get a bite to eat

But the poet was too beat

And besides the lion was hungry

Might it not be a crime

But it’s getting much simpler

Raped the bitch on the willing floor “Hey

He said when it was over

Baby maybe I’ll see you some time”

And that was the end of the play

 

                                            98                     

Insults

This insults women could be what they say

Perhaps they’ll say this insults men

Who is they anyway and who says then

That the Avid Dollaria when seeing

And being so paranoid and critical

Had a problem? I (I have noticed)

Am much more creative by day

And much better laid in the night

When embracing the dark and ignoring the light

After all anyone can see the sun

But who can see the abyss?

Picasso was never called an asshole

Or so at least I’m told

And Miles Davis is recalled as bold

 

                                            99                     

Sant & Sinner

Saint and sinner

Loser and winner

One for breakfast

One for lunch

One that I’m saving for dinner

 

After one or two more

The nun and the whore

Will only be names

Of games that I’ve play

Since I’m the one keeping the score

 

Bombastic contrast

Losing grip fast

With the right role

I’ll play the right hole

The next one just might be my last

 

The tame and the wild

The meek and the mild

Childlike eyes

In a demon’s disguise

Platonic my lover

Electronic my lies

 

Holding me closer

I’m dosing my doe

Taking off makeup

And breaking the hoe

But where I go next

I guess nobody knows                            

 

                                          100                  

The invisible poem!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

                                          101                  

Farmer’s Wife

Sacrifice the carving knife

The farmer’s wife is dead

The farmer’s field a dried up crack

The mice live in his bed

 

The blood of stones

And cattle bones

Have choked the farmer’s seed

And broke the farmer’s back upon

A river Styx of greed

 

The sandy ground

The earth so brown

Completely torn

Worn down and rounded

Topsoil toil lifted and drifting

On winds of pain and drowned in rains

Of blood stained oil and poison grains

The sands of time are drifting

 

                                          102                  

Circle Me

He wants to be your sun

His gravity would hold you tight

His light as bright as day but for tonight

He’s just one of your satellites oh yay

And he’s saying circle me

Suckle me

He wants to be your galaxy

Revolve round him or he’s too dim

He’s just spinning over you but he’s not

Winning over you and he’s not

Saying circle me

Suckle me

Are you a black hole strong and chaste

Sucking all right into place

Is he just waste in outer space

Begging for a taste of your milky ways

He keeps saying circle me

Suckle me circle me

Mother suckle me

Lover circle me

Baby suckle me

Oh circle me

O suckle me

Circle me

 

                                          103                  

One of You

One of you

And two of me

The three of us could easily

Be four if only

More of us were

Here to be a part of what we see

 

                                          104                  

Wild and Free

Simple but so complicated

Easy but it seems so hard

Paranoid and condescending

Enemies but oh so friendly

Over now but never ending

So close yet it’s oh so far

Screaming now but oh so silently

 

Slow but oh it goes so fast

Hoping we could make it last

Fast but oh it goes so slowly

Oh so high but oh so lowly

Blew so bad I guess it only

Sucks but it was such a blast

Kiss so deep but fight so violently

 

Felt so good but oh so tethered

Best but it was getting better

Blessed but it seems so cursed

Bitter it was getting worse

Eloquently growing terse

Look so close but don’t go getter

You can’t tame what’s oh so wild and free

 


                                          105                  

Slatternly Patterns

Slatternly patterns

Of Uranus and Saturn

Forming forms within forms

C’mon storm the warm battlefront

Conform to the norm Norman

Them poor worms can’t confirm

Or define the word firmly

The Japs or the Germans

Can’t stop the germ warfare

Who cares the blue stairs

Still stare out into darkness

The sharks nibbling swiftly

Adrift on the wavelengths of chaos

Completely oblivious to the holes

In the airwaves the sun streaking cold

On the fields in the distance

Scatter the matter

All over the universe

Slamming the glorious

Damning the glamorous

Stances of princes

Who dance like they’re prancing

On comets from Jupiter

Maddona’s a vixen

And Nixon’s a criminal

War is a whore

And what’s more

This is Babylon sister

 

                                          106                  

Secret Garden

There is a place where

Only we can go

Free from the hurricane

No winter snow

Lover’s sweet scent

From the fine lilies white

Meet me in our secret garden tonight

 

Silken and lace there

The red flowers grow

Humming birds sugarcane

Green fields below

Evening falls bent

In a rainbow’s delight

Meet me in our secret garden tonight

 

The moon on your face stares

In soft ghostly glow

Maybe we’ll go insane

Maybe we’ll never know

Yet we can vent

Our frustrations in spite

So meet me in our secret garden tonight

 

                                          107                  

Stare at the Stratosphere

Stare at the stratosphere

How did I end up here?

Where did I come from?

And where shall I go?

What am I doing now?

Wait by the telephone

How did I end up alone?

What does it matter

That I’m getting scattered?

A fat old mad hatter I can

Hear the glass shattering

Swallow it slowly

I guess I’m the only one

Standing here shaking with fear

Sinking in whirlpools

Of my own designing

Spinning in spirals

Of morbid delight

Killing the girl fool’s

Erotic emotions

The blood wells up rapidly

Filling up oceans

And swamping the ships that go

Bump in the night

Well all fucking

Right...

 


                                          108                  

Get Down to It

It came to that

That came to this

This twisted love

Love come to push

Push come to shove

Shove like a shovel

Shove all that shit

Get it on down

Get down to it

 

He went for her

She came to me

Wanting to come

And she came for me

So he went to hell

Hello my love

Shove all that shit

Didn’t need that but

That night it was he

 

Me I just stared

Stared into space

For the space of a beat

You can’t beat that

With your brand new bat

Home base in line

Once I was there

He didn’t mind

And I didn’t care

 

                                          109                  

Demonic Dominatrix

That demonic dominatrix

Electronic dildo tricks

As she bled the devil’s seed

Trickled from that pit of need

Iconoclastic spastic plastic

Masticate the light fantastic

Giving head the monster breeds

Till milky white the serpent bleeds

Screaming chronic temporal matrix

Ticking time and counting licks

She’s overcome with hungry greed

And slays the beast on which she feeds

Orgiastic gastric bliss picked

From the bones of the weak and the sick

Cheering the dead from their place in the lead

And tearing down the hero’s deeds

Empty at last the chamber goes click

Not even feeling the gold needle’s prick

Screaming the warning that he couldn’t heed

And burying him alone in the weeds

 

                                          110                  

J. McLaughlin

The beauty encompasses my soul

Forms and shapes

Of sound landscapes

Unraped by commercialism

Clear and true

Free and sweet

Filled with heat

Sheets of passion purely risen

The stones of life

Laid out for all to see

 

                                          111                  

Repeat It

The wounded child

Sickly grows

Deformed and bent

Distorted images

Through a filter of hate

Shame anger misery

Shaping our view

Of the universe

Cursing the adults

We’ve fitfully fretfully

Fatefully become

Unaware of the

Wounded child beneath

 

The chain of human events

Can be long and strained

Agonized

Constantly

Unconsciously

So ferociously

By the remains of the childhood

We’ve so carefully forgotten

With drugs or a bottle

A fresh piece of

Need fulfillment

Children are really the ones

Who suffer the torment of youth

Adults are only doomed to repeat it

Repeat it repeat it

Repeat it repeat it

Repeat it repeat it

Repeat it repeat it

Repeat it repeat it

Repeat it repeat it

Repeat it repeat it

Repeat it repeat it

Repeat it repeat it

Repeat it repeat it

Repeat it repeat it

Repeat it repeat it

Repeat it repeat it

 

                                          112                  

See Your Face

I live with ghosts

Of the past

At last your memory haunts me

So complete

And I see your face

I see your face

I see your face

I drive by your street

Your eyes in everyone

I meet

Your body soft on every corner

Stoned and I remember

I remember

I remember

You

Drive my lovers crazy

Tapping on their shoulders

Through my eyes

I think of you

I get a look that I cannot seem

To disguise

To disguise

My self no matter how I try

You make me wait

You make me hate

You make me wait

You made me late

I listen to the tape

You made me

Missing you the way

You laid me

Raped me

Left a scar upon my soul

So deep and wide

And you denied

You denied

Run and hide

Because I remember

I see your face

I remember

I see your face

 

                                          113                  

Mommy

Mommy I’m a little different

Don’t you love me just the same?

Unconditional surrender

Love to me is just a game

Sister cousin doesn’t matter

Baseball bats and one mad hatter

Passion going up in flames

So what if I could’ve had her

Rambling on her ceaseless chatter

Cash in on the summer games

 

                                          114                  

New York Days

German beer

A hot damp haze

Loud Bronx cheer

In gridlock maze

These are my New York days

Loud punk rock

And loud proud gays

Everyone comes but

Nobody stays and

These are my New York days

Tall glass towers

Their silver gray

Reflecting not deflecting

Automatic weapons sprays

These are New York days

Sexy hookers evil ways

Uppers piled high on trays

And these are New York days

Village bars

Broadway plays

Shiny cars parked

On parkways on

New York days

Double crosses

Triple plays

Cheap hard drugs

And easy lays

These are my New York days

 

                                          115                  

Watch Out for Women on Trains

Make love to strangers

Ignoring the dangers

Erotic exchanges

While rolling together

The hay in the manger

Has got quite deranged

As she rearranged it

She clearly explained

“Watch out for women on trains”

Feeling the pangs

Of hunger her fangs

Sinking in drinking

My blood my ears rang

As the siren sang softly

My doom in her womb

She kissed me once sadly

And walked from the room

Saying “Watch out for women on trains”

 

 

                                          116                  

Hungary

America l’america

I’m Hungary

 

You were you and I was me and

I was free from

You until I

Saw you the first time

That was the worst time

Oh alas it was

The last time

 

America l’American

I’m Hungary

 

And wars with whores meant nothing

To the Norse girl

On her horse and grieving

She said was leaving early the following morning

 

And there’s a trace of

Every face I’ve seen

In every place I’ve been

Because I simply couldn’t heed

The young girl’s softly spoken warning

 

America l’america

I’m Hungary

 

Guess next I’ll be perplexed

By Czechs whose necks

Are vexed by tiny ripples

Nipples gently floating in a pool of crystal clear blue water

 

But what the hell

I fell pell mell

Into the well that I created

My thirst was slaked my hunger sated

By their beautiful daughter

 

America l’american

I’m Hungary

 

And here at last the broken mold

Was cast in stone alone and cold

Leaving a message on the phone

Listening to the dial tone in silence

 

Still in all I must confide

I found I feeling I can’t hide

From start to end her twists and bends

Made for one long final of night of violence

 

 

                                          117                  

A Plane from France

It starts to flow

Bequeathed to men

Beneath my feet

Just like the River Seine

Proud brown towers

Power bright in sunlight

Like the glint upon

The knife within my hand

Perhaps if I felt like a man

My teeth would cease to grind

I’m finding less the more I look

The less I look the more I find

The more I try to find the less I look

If seeing is believing

Why can’t I see

What I believe

I can’t believe

I’m saying that I

Don’t believe my eyes

Or what they’re seeing

I’ll agree that I’m not praying

But I will say that I’m staying

Far away but not enough

To stay the hand that

Lays the lays I’m bricking

And the bricks I’m laying here

Please believe me when I tell you

That it’s purely out of fear

 


                                          118                  

??

As I look

Out at the clouds

Beneath my feet

It’s cold but I can’t

Beat the heat

Try as I might I just

Can’t be discreet

I’m just a kook

 

Yet now it’s only

As I swim with

Mother’s daughter

I could care less

That the air up here

Is so much thinner

Than the air down there

And I’m lonely

 

The sky above is white as snow

To go where only angels

Ever dared or cared to go

It’s not just this or simply that

It’s only that the brat is now in love

 

                                          119                  

Slippin Skin

Walking on a slippin skin

Dribble down stream

Screamin on a wanna

Be Madonna in the rain

 

Talking in a shack in woods

Could got mean

Dreamin in a pin hole

Window fulla sandy grains

 

Matchin wax n scratchin skin

Widow beat time

Mirror flaxen tracks in braids

Laid n screamin I’m

 

Tired of ya poppin cork n

Dorkya make me sick

Used t love ya I’m above ya

Catchin that fix

 

It’s over lovin overloadin

Loaded up high

I’m drivin in on overdrive

And divin on in I’m alive

I’m dead

 

                                          120                  

Piece of Ass

I don’t need that coke or booze

Win or lose I don’t smoke grass

I don’t need no crack religion

I don’t go to mass

I ain’t choosy little floozy

Pretty Asian lass

Only thing I really need’s

Another piece of ass

Perhaps it is evil

Maybe it’s crass

Is it only masochistic

Walk on broken glass

Fuck it let’s be realistic

The next could be the last

Guess I’ll only miss the past

That final piece of ass

I can’t change the future

Don’t regret the past

If I can I’ll pooch her

Better have a blast

Come on lover raise your flag

Straight on up my mast

Sorry it’s a drag you’re just

Another piece of ass

 

                                          121                  

Tiger with a Spoon

Power pain

Engulfing voids

Passion play

You can’t avoid

Orgasm spasm

To icy stare

Too nice to share

Who cares where

The arrow falls

It might knock

On your door next

Too infinite to be complex

Just rips you open

Simply

Digging deeper

To express

The unfathomably

Shallow wounds

Feed the tiger

With a spoon

And see how far you get

 

                                          122                  

Ex

Exactly protected with protracted grace

Extremely infected her factual face

Extorted distortions of actual space

Exacting confessions retracted with lace

Exhorting contortions distracted by mace

I’m going to go insane in this place

 

                                          123                  

Wild Fire Dry Clean

Wild fire dry clean

Sectional case

Outbound duplex

Preluded clown

Crimson prophet

Destroys nuclear

Bibliography

Storekeeper noble and

Daughter in law

Beget amative caresses

Manila paper man

Protozoan protectionist

Bismuthic ally

Terms regarding

Critique

A metrical hailstorm

Harmless receiving

Identity strap straddle

Currency list

Through vagary

Discord pavilion

Prosperity vertex

 

                                          124                  

The Answer Is I Must

The answer is I must

From dust to dust create

A picture of my loins

From thoughts and words purloined

The realm of rhyme and verse

This curse a gift of mind

And mine though it may be

I’ve stolen it from thee

A couplet strained in vain

A fresh quatrain to pen

Though now and then seems new

I’ve borrowed it from you

My sorrows then increase

Nor cease from dawn to dusk

The cavern’s grimy musk

Engulfs my shallow husk

Yet still I try again

And though my pen may rust

Why carve it thence in stone?

The answer is I must

 

                                          125                  

I Need

What is the simplest form

Of expression?

A grunt? Tears? Screams

Or violence?

These don’t transfer well to

Paper in small characters

Standing for complex series

Of grunts screams and

Violence or single touch

What then is the simplest form

Of expression with words

Or a written musical note?

Single ones

What are the simplest things

To express with words

Here are some:

Hungry thirsty

Horny tired

Perhaps these may

Be summed up

In one word:

Need

And of course every

Poem needs a subject

This therefore is my poem:

 

I need

 

Incidentally this form

Of expression doesn’t

Work well with music.

 

                                          126                  

I Want

To write a line never written

To speak a word never used

Two thoughts never before

Tied together

Devoid of rhyme or foot

An asymmetric metric tour de force

To twist out new forms of expression

From the depths of my imaginings

I want

To not repeat myself

Nor steal a single line

And entire poem of words

Never seen could be the goal

Of a lifetime never achieved

Neither nonsense nor chaos

Allowed in at all

But only purest expression

Of I know not what

But I’ll find out

When I get there

I hope

 

                                          127                  

I Hope

??Where’s the poem for this title??

 

                                          128                  

Ecclesiastic

Ecclesiastic spastic elasticity

Taking a moment to ponder

My strength of belief

And I wonder

Under what guise the wise men

Sent their Lord to the sheep

There beginning his final demise

I heard God is dead

The pleased disease burns

The Elysian fields

After all it’s not easy

To say how I feel

All I know is I have to

Try you can’t try

It’s do or do not

And I do

Not

But I do try

 

                                          129                  

Got Away

She got a way of gettin away

Get outta my way I’m in a hurry

I gotta find a piece of the rind

She peeled from my mind but don’t worry

I’m OK. Yes quite all right

I gotta way of makin her pay

And I gotta say I’m gonna like it

Open the hatch cause I’m gonna catch

Her makin that match I’m gonna strike it

I’m OK. Yes quite all right

 


                                          130                  

Wrap Your Arms

When I’m frightened cold and lonely

Will you wrap me your warm soft love?

When I’m rigid stiff unyielding

Will you wrap your legs around me?

Well I’m might grow old if only

You could wrap your arms around me

Not so frigid if you feel me

When I take you in my arms

Unfolding it surrounds me

Electric charge it grounds me

Hold me shed your clothes

And let’s begin this once again

 

                                          131                  

Die Young

I don’t wish to die young but

I’m afraid of growing old

Be careful what you wish for

Because wishes do come true

I hear creativity

Requires solidarity

Necessary solitude

So permanent it’s death

The ultimate in enforced

Silent space to ponder

Wandering for eternity

Don’t confuse your inspiration

With discreet attempts to copy

Sloppy covert theft is punished

Now with death and it’s a proven fact

That only loneliness can let

Your inner voice express itself

It’s truly pure distress

When everything that comes out

Is the product of duress

 


                                          132                  

Sculpture

Sculpture giving precedence

To patterns of the soul

A filament of justice

Identity contempt

Discord humility

Liability phobia

Who stole what from whom?

Flush respect

Stealing infinity

Safety reputes resistance

What does it matter?

Experiment with goodness

Forms and lines of grace

Effortless guilt

Dejection empowered

A homage gallant

Elegant and fierce forever

 

                                          133                  

Para

Paranoid

Paradigm

Parallax

Paradox

Paradise

Parasites

Paralyzed

Paratroops

Parasol

Parachutes

Paraphrased

Paragraphs

Paramount

Paramour

Falling

Parallel

From the

Parapet

 


                                          134                  

Axe About

It’s sprained and drained so sharply pained it makes me slowly go insane and heaven help me but I think the drink might surely kill me willingly filling my mind to the brink but it stinks when it’s all you can think about so frantically panicked romantically manic this crazy’s on loose again and Jesus please us seems like dreams do not fulfill me this static fanatic just hung from a tree but you see its OK cause he can’t live without tripping and flipping he slipped and dipped and shorted like computer chips and saints preserve a breath of death which sweetly chills me stilling the willows their limbs set to crack but the fact is that’s all what the act’s about

(and I’ve got an axe about?)

Entwined with the blind we quickly find that the devil’s in front an the sea’s behind and lawd a mercy I can’t sleep a wink but still were just cluelessly fooling ourselves into thinking the ship we are on isn’t actually sinking

 

                                          135                  

Quite Trite

It’s quite trite but that’s all right

‘cause I could rhyme like this all night

Next what else might you expect?

Ah what the fuck let’s go get wrecked

It’s a shame but who’s to blame

They beat the nameless beatnik lame

Skinhead punks shot up with junk

Fuck that shit let’s go get drunk

Mainline cocaine in your veins

Wired fired silver chains

But Ii must ration out my cash

And so tonight we’ll just get smashed

I must say I don’t like this trend

And so these stupid lines must end

Drugs just suck and so does drink

Besides us dead folks kinda stink

 

                                          136                  

Hotel’s Rocky Shore

The hotel sat upon the rocky shore

It had fifteen rooms and sliding double doors

The double beds and mirrors all were tasteful

Expensive but you couldn’t call it wasteful

 

O no no   gimme all your love

The summer days were not what you’d call hot

But if you were the swimming pool was cool

We sat and smoked some pot that I had brought

Reminding me of fools I knew in school

Yes yes yes   gimme all your love

Made me feel like Jesus Christ of Nazareth

Bleeding out my heart like that man Lazarus

Laughing off our heads until we cried

Looking off that edge we could have died

My my my   gimme all your love

We made it on the rocks south of the docks

She’d gotten silk and cotton shirts for me

That night there were no locks upon her box

She’d forgotten she was not in love with me

Hey hey hey   gimme all your love

There’s no need to dwell upon the past

Thought I had forgotten it at last

But the way the sweat drips from my brow

I feel that I am living in it now

Why oh why

 

                                          137                  

Lonely

There’s an angel with broken wings

And with her thoughts unspoken sings

Of days gone by when she could fly

But now she chokes on smoking things

She thinks she’s lonely but she’s not lonely it’s only fear

There’s a tree with falling leaves

And when she hears me calling grieves

For brothers dead cut down in stead

And though I’m stalling she believes

That I am lonely but I‘m not lonely I’m only here

 

There’s a tank with dusty treads

In a bank with musty beds

Within a fence for self defense

Of missiles tall with rusty heads

 

If two are one but one’s not two

Shouldn’t I? I guess I ought to

I know they’re not related thoughts

But you missed me and I got you

Because you’re lonely but you’re not lonely they’re only tears

Pointless rhyme and endless verse

Shameless grace a nameless curse

To pray for love from god above

Can only make the anguish worse

And I am lonely

 

                                          138                  

Out from Under

Work’s a drag girl’s on the rag and I

Can’t stand it here no more

The winter cold is much too old and it’s

Getting to be quite a bore

I need fun and sun and firm tan buns and I

Gotta get me down to the shore and I just

Gotta get out gotta get out

Gotta get out from under

Nine to five just to stay alive and it’s

Getting to be quite a chore

Day by day my hair turns gray and I’m

Dying on this killing floor

I need sea and sand and a reggae band and I’m

Headed out that fucking door because I

Gotta get out gotta get out

Gotta get out from under

Work like a dog and I live in a fog and they

Treat me like a whore

Driving me to drinking and I’m feeling like I’m sinking and I’m

Thinking I deserve some more

It’s a rather sticky wicket and I’m buying me a ticket and you

Won’t see me here no more because I’m

Gonna get out gonna get out

Gonna get out from under

 

                                          139                  

Y R U ?

Y ask me?

I don’t know

I can’t see

Where it goes

Y ask Y?

Y say no?

Y M I?

I don’t know

 

Y R U

Here with me?

Y R U

Try’n 2 go?

Y R U

Try’n 2 B

Here with me?

I don’t know

 

Y R we

So alone?

Y R we

Fighting so?

Y R we

On the phone?

Y R we

I don’t know

                                          140                  

Starry Skies

Under starry skies

We made love

Under starry skies

We could come

Together

Listen my love

Under starry skies

We could cry

Under starry skies

We could go

Forever

Kissing my love

And I’m your slave tonight

Because I

Want you

Under starry skies

We could pray

Under starry skies

We could lay

We could stay

Together

Forever

Dissing my love

Under starry skies

We could pass

Under starry skies

We could last a moment

I could pass a moment

Missing my love

 

                                          141                  

Sex Is Pain

Sex is pain

Orgasm death

Love brutality

Friendship lies

Together lonely

Bored tired

Dead depressed

Drunk sick

Drugged up

Whacked out

Masturbating id

Broken ego

Dangerous liaisons

With whores

Sub human

Super ego

Blind sensitivity

Deaf to

Deft expression

Dumb ass

Mother fucker

Alone forever

 

                                          142                  

Spike of the Jones

It’s been days

Since I got laid

It’s been hours

Since I smoked those flowers

It’s been weeks I think

Since I’ve had a drink

I hear the junkies’ angry moans

I feel the spike of the jones

 

Diet soda no caffeine

Months since I seen nicotine

I don’t mainline caine no mo

Over the counter at the store

Years since I seen horse a’course and

It’s a fact I don’t do crack

It’s just aching in my bones

I feel the spike of the jones

 

Got no acid in my brain

Opium could ease the pain

Got no ether in my nose

How dry I and nobody knows

I don’t play no base for free

I don’t need no speed in me

No hash in boulders or in stones

Looks like the spike of the jones

 

No ups or downs to make me frown

No mushrooms growing on the ground

Peyote only makes me sweat

But it’s the best that you can get

No angel dust or PCP

You won’t see me smoking tea

You hear it in my angry tones

I feel the spike of the jones

 

                                          143                  

42; The Meaning of Life

It isn’t what you say it’s how you say it

Who cares what note you play it’s how you play it

It isn’t where you pray it’s what you pay

At least that’s what I heard the preacher say

 

It isn’t how you feel it’s how you look

It isn’t how you steal it’s what you took

It’s not what bit your heel that you forsook

It isn’t when you kneel it’s in the book

 

It’s not that I’m a man of God in truth

I’m not much more than angry violent youth

It’s not the forked tongue that speaks forsooth

It isn’t what you sayeth it’s what you doeth

 

42: the meaning of life, the universe, and everything.

 

                                          144                  

Subjectivize

You’ve got

Subjectivize

Objectivize

Sensualize

Sodomize

Specialize

Familiarize

Idolize

Colonialize

Industrialize

Collectivize

Sexualize

Seminalize

Standardize

Conceptualize

Victimize

Crystallize

Verbalize

Realize

Spiritualize

Habitualize

Trivialize

So fuck me

 

                                          145                  

Syle

Hip style hop style lip style pop style

In style outta style think I’m gonna stay a while

Style

New style old style fresh style bold style

Wild style freaky style just another style child

Style

House style home style burn style turn style

Reggae style stylin blues walk a mile in my shoes

Style

Ranch style branch style mountain avalanche style

Pimp style hoe style limp style no style

Style

Liver style bacon style give her style take her style

Makin style breakin style fakin shakin bake style

Style

Free style tight style wrong style right style

Black style white style time to say good night style

Style

Yo style my style who what where and why style

Try style high style beg borrow and buy style

Style

He style she style you style me style

This style that style which style? The style

 

                                          146                  

Mountains

Muscles straining

Taut as a wire

Lungs pumping

Heart on fire

Keep pushing

To reach the top

Fingers searching

You can’t stop

It’s a long way down

 

Crave excitement

Live on the edge

Sheer surface

Walking that ledge

Keep on climbing

The mountain’s tall

No use hiding

You might fall

It’s a long way down

 

No room for error

Not one false step

No room for terror

In the heights or depths

You keep returning

For one more climb

Adrenaline burning

Inside your mind

It’s a long way down

 

                                          147                  

Freddy Mercury

Keep yourself alive he said

But just on tape ‘cause Freddy’s dead

Jimi just could not fool fate

See ya in the next world don’t be late

Mojo rose a bit too high

And died in Paris by and by

Janice J. said hey come on

A piece of her heart is truly gone

Paul is dead or so he said

But now it’s John whose gone instead

Stevie Ray V. Slipped his tether

The chopper couldn’t stand weather

For John Henry Bonham Moby Dick

Liquor wouldn’t do the trick

Buddy Holly Elvis Presley

Marilyn and J.F.K.

Big Bopper Ritchie Valens

Mansfield Hemingway

Sid Vicious Johnny Thunders

Live and died all for a song

I know they don’t need my opinion

But this list is too fuckin long

 

                                          148                  

Why Should I Speak?

Why should I speak?

I’ll only be corrected

Why should I sneak?

I’ll only be found out

Why should I take risks?

I’ll only be protected

Why ask for a kiss

The answer is a shout

Followed by a clout

After all we always

Find a way to get rejected

Why ask for a thing

So simple yet denied

Why worry then for death

When everybody dies

It doesn’t matter how or when

It only matters why

 

                                          149                  

I C U N I

I-C-U-N-I

Begin to wonder

I-C-U-N-I

Just start to think

I-C-U-N-I

Commence to wonder

Everyone I know

Believes in something

I-C-U-N-I

Believe I’ll have another drink

I-C-U-N-I

There in the moonlight

I-C-U-N-I

Begin to fight

I-C-U-N-I

Screaming crying

Scratching biting

I-C-U-N-I

Just say goodnight

But I say stay

Don’t go no

Please don’t go

And I say stay

I-C-U-N-I

Begin it over

I-C-U-N-I

Just start to try

I-C-U-N-I

Become a rover

Running hiding

Flying riding

I-C-U-N-I

Just walk on by

 

                                          150                  

Dean’s Wife

What do you mean

I was kissing the Dean

Of the Art Department’s

Wife?

I might get expelled

But what the hell

It’s all for college

Life

Professor I guess her

Attributes are fine

Won’t you please put down that

Knife?

After all it is college

We’re here to gain knowledge

She just taught me some new facts of

Life

 

                                          151                  

Let It Hang

Sit back relax

The trains on the tracks

And that’s a fact

There’s nothing to

Worry about

It’s all going smooth

So let it all hang out

Get up get off get up get off

Chill out be cool

The fools around might be too cruel

But there’s nothing to worry about

It’s all going smooth

Let it all hang out

 

                                          152                  

Buzz Saw

I had a buzz so I

Got my buzz saw

And I went

Bbbbbbbbbrrrrrrrr!

Because I had to

Saw her right in two

 

                                          153                  

Liar

Liar

Deceiving me

Repeatedly

Just to get

The sex you so

Badly deserve

The nerve of you

Thinking that drinking

Could be an acceptable rhyme

When you know that in my book

Drinking’s a crime

You’re a slime

 


                                          154                  

Who What Where When Why and How

Who R U?

What do you think you’re doing?

Where do you think you’re going?

And why?

I am a son of God

Made flesh

Healing spiritual cripples

By sucking on their nipples

Because we’re only ripples

In the water

I’m another dusty star

Driving my brand new Jaguar

Going to hell in a bucket

Just to enjoy the ride

When R U gonna leave baby?

How R U gonna get there?

Who what where when why and how?

I just don’t know

 

                                          155                  

Old Friend

Hello old friend

It’s me again

I know you don’t wanna

Hear from me but that’s O.K.

Because I didn’t want to call

Yet now is now and that was then

I see you don’t wanna flatten me

Though we went to the edge

I did not expect to fall

Here I am trying to sing

The same old thing

Your God damned diamond

Ring cuts through the

Mirror of my soul

And yet once more

I try to score

With the same old whore

Who knows who tomorrow

Brings

 

                                          156                  

ABC’s

A bear comes dancing eastward forgetting getting hotly interested Jane keeps letting men nibble on protesting querulously remembering she talks under virile walkways xenophobic youth zeitgeists

 

A boy calls down everything foul ghosts horrible incubi John kills liberals man never overreact people quit raping Sara to understand

Various willows xerography yahoos zilch

 

A bad cocksucker diddle every faggot guy he intercepted just kidding love my name over-awes people quickly ripping secrets til understatement vilifies women X-rated zips

 

                                          157                  

Images of Passion

Speak to me with your tongue

Tell me what’s on your mind

Finding out is quite

High on my list

Whatever that means

A means to an end

Or ways to a new beginning

To sin by omission is

Gaining redemption

At the close of the

Power play

We pay for our crimes

With the wages of fear

And our tears

 

                                          158                  

Images of Passion II

No spoken word

Just a momentary

Silent scream of

Passion

Evocative pure

And powerful

Elapsed instant

In your eyes

Quickly quietly

Slow and loud

Consensual

Cool

On fire

In the water

On the ground

Or through the air

U R U

I M I

Encompassed

In nights warm

Candlelight

Enraptured

 

                                          159                  

??

Exciting delightful

That foxy fine walk

Just waiting in the wings

To ignore me restore me

Only to pass me by in the night

For a different quick fuck

In the dark stark naked and panting

Writhing and ranting

Under the touch of another man’s hand

Another man standing there

Leaving me crying alone

In the corner stoned and dying

Heartbreak is too inspirational...

 

                                          160                  

??

We meet

Our eyes touching

At the door

What’s more our words mask

What we’re thinking

Politeness dissolving

Into real conversation

The curiosity too strong

To ignore or deny

And we go sinking

Into each other

Slowly

So the party raged on

And nigh and anon

After thither and yon

The spark jumped the gap

Twixt our eyes once again

And you read me

The creative instinct

Surges like pride

Your eyes glowing

Glistening

With the heat

Of the dancer

And liquor inflicted

Its fire on the soul

And the rolling discussion

Soon took its toll

And with subtle smile

Awkward instant

And you opened yourself to me

My eyes drawn in whirling

On the drawn on pages

And the sketch of you

Being devoured and I smiled

Your eyes shining defiant

And I accepted

Massaging your feet

And angular ankles

Hot sweet desire

Rising up like a fire

Backrub to bite

The night lightly

Kissing my mistress’

Distress under candle’s

Caresses the rest of our souls

Melting down to a lake

Of burning pink fire the rhythm

Of your breathing seething

Teeth clenched wrenched into

Scalding emotion molding and melding

Intentional melody of releasing surcease

From our sorrows - and then there’s tomorrow

 


                                          161                  

To Be a Poet

To be a poet;

What the fuck does this mean?

To drink much too much

And to smoke too much green?

To wait in the shadows

To make a new scene

Hungry and angry

Spiteful and mean?

Drug abuse used to be cool

Now it’s foolish

But we do it anyway

To stay with what’s hip

Giving lip service to authority (by defying it)

Already hip deep in aspirations

Perspiration building on the brow

Sweat with the reading

By now it seems clear

It’s only the nearness of others

That makes you so fearful

Tearful exertions

In metrical rhyme

Only make one pretend

What they say is sublime

But the truth of the matter

Is that I don’t know shit

So who am I to put it down?

But I’m not quite done yet

Though I’m near to destruction

My compunction’s to say a bit more

Thank you for listening

To my fresh life blood’s christening

But now the damned poet

Must go the fuck home

 

                                          162                  

See It Go Out

Inspired desire my heart rate climbs higher

When I think of you

You tasted so sweet and when wasted your heat

Made me drink you in gulps

Engulfed in excitement

Shaking and taking you into my mouth

Later diving deeper

I approached the lovely sleeper

God how I searched your

Face for a clue

The soft curve of your breast

Pressed to my cheek as I suckled

Yet now I know not what to do

Coping with hoping for more of your soul

To see in the dark the spark slowly fading

I don’t want to see it go out

 

                                          163                  

Fucking Dreams

How to express how I’m feeling?

Hungry child standing hand on hip

Thirsty for your companionship

High upon the iceberg’s tip

The rest is intense senses reeling

What to say to explain why I’m crying?

Unused to being alone

The junkie feeling the jones

Strangled himself on the phone

Because of his incessant lying

So I guess then that what I am writing’s

To avoid your true claim

That I am to blame

For the close of the game

But at least it’s the end of the fighting

You and your fucking dreams

 

                                          164                  

Only Temporary

Hey boy U kinda cute

In a goofy sorta way

Come on in

Make yourself at home

By the way nice poem

You got there

And that long brown hair

Hanging down in your face

It’s quite a disgrace

But U like it

Hey don’t look so distracted

It’s OK  you are attractive

In a way

So do you like this?

It all starts with a kiss

The wine’s not too fine

But it’s mine

C’mon have some

Come into my room

I see in your eyes

That you want me

Your sweat full of pheromones

I can tell you’re alone and

Were there any reason to go

Further I would

But it sure feels good now

Maybe later we should

Could we?

Outta my way boy

I’m afraid not

I’ve got no time

To sit and talk

Smile or kiss

It’s not a dis

It’s only temporary

 

                                          165                  

The Performer’s Art

The performer’s art

Standing naked on the stage

And shaking it

For all to see

My own 2 be’s

Or not 2 be’s

Exclusive

All inclusive

And what good

Does it do me?

Bending over for the

World to screw me

That note wasn’t right

The stage light was wrong

I would have written that song

Differently if I could

Giving it away for free

To show the world a piece of me

So they can step on it

Schlepping the stacks

To play on meaningless tracks

In the studio

Just to bathe in the afterglow

Of TV spots

The game show of life

My wife just left me

Because I don’t make enough

Money

 

                                          166                  

Eggs in One Basket

Tonight I’m alone

You’re far away

And I only have this beer

To comfort me

For a moment

A lover could be

Should be forever

But the light grows dim

Soon you’ll be with him

Whoever he’ll be

It won’t be me

Your smell and your taste

Will all go to waste

And I’ll find myself wasted

Pasted to the blank page

The wages of sin

Are paid for with death

And laid down to rest

In a casket

Never put all

Of your eggs

In one basket

 

                                          167                  

Pretty Love Song

I’d like to write you a pretty love song

But I don’t know where to start

The words and chords seem to come out wrong

No matter what I do it always needs another part

I’d love to write you a pretty love song

To make you smile and warm your heart

But love is blind and it’s been too long

I am much too crazy and you are much too smart

Love love love I need your

I want to write you a pretty love song

With aim as true as cupid’s dart

To beat the drum again and bang upon a gong

But you are too together and we’r too far apart

I need to write you a pretty love song

So good it climbs right up the charts

And i would sing it out like King Kong

But the only thing is that I don’t know where to start

 

                                          168                  

Sprinting Inspiration

Sprinting inspiration

Printing perspiration

Dripping off the page

Develop mental anarchy

To wit an excellent foil

For boiling off steam

In a way a bit better

Than screaming

Scheming sporadic

Extremes or rhythmic

Patterns from Saturn

Remember to always

Bring something home

From you dreams

It makes the poems

Much simpler

                                          169                  

Aids

Doctor’s aids

Nurses aids

Dentist’s aids

Teaching aids

Sexual aids

Marital aids

Walking aids

Talking aids

Homo aids

Hetero aids

Bi aids

Buy aid’s

Everybody

Gonna be

Dead funky

Monkey funkers

 

                                          170                  

She Jumps

She jumps she humps

She pumps up the chumps

She gives them their lumps and then

She dumps that shit

When she’s done with it

 

She walks she slides

She talks oh so snide

She runs and she hides and then

She bides her time

As she rides your dime

 

She lies she cries

She buys all her guys

She eats their French fries

And then she tries to get

Her thighs all wet

 

                                          171                  

Don’t Have the Nerve

Everyday I see her

Luscious legs and sexy curves

I’d just love to talk to her

But I don’t have the nerve

 

Driving in my car

I see her face I start to swerve

Love to flag her down but I just

Haven’t got the nerve

 

Full of vim and vigor

Joie de vivre and verve

Voudrais vous c’est soir cherie?

I haven’t got the nerve

 

I’d say hello miss howdy do

You psycho freakoid perv

How dare you fuckin talk to me?

Boy! You’ve got some nerve!

                                          172                  

Take It As It Comes

Riding high upon a hog or picking at the crumbs

You take what you can get from life

And take it as it comes

Cruising in a limousine or walking with your thumb

The average man rides when he can

And takes it when it comes

Cheating on your love for beer or beating on the drums

You take your beatings when you must

And take it as it comes

You may live in tombs of gold or wallow in a slum

You do your best live where you can

And take it as it comes

Take it easy baby and she comes and comes and comes

 

                                          173                  

Alone at Night

There’s a boy sitting in a chair

He stares out off into space

Wondering what it all means

Subtracting lines and adding beans

He thinks it makes sense

But just for a millisecond

Then he finds it’s total chaos

Lost in dreams of love long lost

He’s lonely and bored

It’s Friday nite four a.m.

But he marks the plodding time

And makes another rhyme

There’s a girl sitting somewhere

In a lovely ancient place

Looking for a friend

With whom she can blend

From far away it looks

A bit like me before the end

 

                                          174                  

One More Line

I’ve got to write just one more line

To make my life complete

Another chord another verse

And fate won’t let me cheat

I realize it’s late already

And I’ve nothing left to say

But now’s tonite and that’s all right

Tomorrow’s another day

I need to spit out every drop

Of what I have consumed

And if pulled over by a cop

I’m sure that I am doomed

I must rely on tricks and lies

To get just what I need

It isn’t what I want to do

It’s just the way I bleed

Why can’t I finish just one thought

I know what I must do

Sacrifice yourself for me

I’ll give it all to you

We all fake our way through life

Pretending that we care

But what is there to care about

When there is nothing there?

Yet now I’m too drunk

To continue this shit

So I go to sleep voulez-vous?

I guess that it’s time

To forget about it

But it’s not something

That I can do

 

                                          175                  

Overwhelmed

Overwhelmed

Ripped apart

By uncontrollable urges

To do everything

At once I get

The feeling

I am dealing

With a twisted

State of mind

Classic new

Beautiful ugly

Rough or smooth

An undeniable problem

Like the pain in my hand

From playing too much

Repeated repeated

Stress stress

The less I believe

The wiser I get

I guess

 

                                          176                  

Fear

Exit stage left

Oh that’s nice

Following up

So cliche

This is a Christian school

They’re not into that stuff

Bad news she can’t find work

What am I going to do?

Hardware software

Hot cold exaggeration

Where am I going to go?

Help

Help me please

I don’t know what to do

 

                                          177                  

Just a Minute Jessamin

Just a minute Jessamin you know what I need

I need just a minute Jessamin

You lead my soul to bleed

But you know what I need

You know what I need

I need just a minute Jessamin

Magic is something reserved for the few

Someone lie me someone like you but you know what I mean

I mean just a minute Jessamin you know what I mean

You’re the prettiest girl that I ever have seen

I’m sure you know just what I mean

I mean just a minute Jessamin

That sparkling light in your eyes

If I told you I loved you would you be surprised?

Just a minute Jessamin - what I need

 


                                          178                  

??

Exhausted

Particle discipline

Engendered exaggeration

One nation under God

Last night just killing me

Filling in time

With pitchers at the campus bar

Back here again with memories of far

Away

 

                                          179                  

She’s Got It

Tongues entwined finding

Hidden caverns

Slowly declined but

Reclining she quickly

Conceded

Velvet silk lined binding

Sleep under lanterns

We weren’t inclined to

Define it as lust

But she busted out hard

Cause she needed

Young sublime winding

Well ridden horses

So hotly prime cut

Designing to lick me

Succeeded

Forbidden sources

Merely mimed but

Drawing the trusted last card

She silently pleaded

For final release

And she got it

                                          180                  

The Stripper

Slithering onstage

Outrageous colors

Drip from her hips

As the beautiful stripper

Silently strips

Shaking her tits

Her eyes are pure slits

Of hatred contempt aching

Her makeup taking up

The slack from her jaw

As she feeds the sex starved

Pig’s hungry maw

The matronly saint’s

Patient patron relates

His wife’s misery

As his glassy eyed stare

Takes in her hair

And swallows her body with dollars

                                          181                  

Mad Bitch’s Walls

The evening was warm and damp on the campus

Filling up on beer out of fear of cramping her style

I waited before coming-to her house outrageous

Just stopped by to get high with some friends

But the subject (not object) of my affection

Didn’t object to the night and lightly suggested

I crash there with her and I gladly agreed

The seed then well planted it welled up between us

Facing embracing I felt it again the need bleeding

Further it led us to sin

A dangerous desire for

The taste of our skin

Glistening with sweat

Letting our hair down

Listening to the sound of our

Breathing hard like the jet

Planes landing overhead

Pounding heartbeats in rhythm

Kindly grinding just the right spot

Your nails raking me taking me into you

Look in my eyes

Defying me trying

Your best to make me explode

And I did...

Forsaking the dawn

We went on to a

Marvelous day

After all it’s not easy

Banging your head against

Some mad bitch’s walls

 

                                          182                  

Willa

Willa you will or willa you won’t

Willa she might but some just don’t - maybe baby

Willa you come or willa you go

Willa’s so sure but she don’t know - maybe baby

Willa you leave or willa you stay

Willa I believe that I just may - maybe baby

Willa you start or willa you end

Willa you be my very best friend well - maybe baby

Willa you laugh or willa you cry

Willa you ever find out why well - maybe baby

Willa you walk or willa you run

Willa you talk to me pretty one - maybe baby

Willa you dance or willa you sing

Willa you give me everything - maybe baby

Willa you say I’m right or wrong

Willa you help e sing this song - maybe baby

Willa you say I’m wrong or right

Willa you help me win this fight - maybe baby

Willa you freeze of willa you thaw

Willa you feed me your skin raw

Maybe baby

 

                                          183                  

Poems for the Unattainable

A moment of silence

Peace for the past

That lasts but a second

It’s incredible

As you are

Far from the moment

But close to my flesh

The skin tingling mingling

With the heat of my desire

A quick rush of fire

I’m sure you can’t understand

The writing of a man

Entranced by your beauty

Alas it’s too late

You’ll have to decide for yourself

In the morning

 

                                          184                  

??

Turn to the left as I burn for you

Cleft into two distinct halves

I learned from the gift in your hands

And swiftly drifted off the cliff

Quietly kissing your cheek

Meekly holding you close

Feeling most like the least

And least like the most

Discreetly drinking you into my eyes

My permeable soul a bowl filled to the brim

As she clings softly to him

I shall cling softer to her

Blurring the cloth of my sight

Might is not all that makes right

And I might

 

                                          185                  

Creation Destroys

Ideas overflowing

Growing grander

Demanding expression

The lessons driving

Force the courses

Coarse trough my veins

My brain’s extracting

The root of the matter

There are only two purposes in life:

Learn or have fun

One or the other

But I prefer both

Competition petitions

For entry in my program

Eating me out

Knowing the impending

Creation destroys

 


                                          186                  

Barrel O’ Monkeys

I gotta pussy cat

Clingin to my back

3 times the size of my

Barrel fulla monkeys

 

An issue made of tissue

Considering the fact

I realize my meat is beat

My beat is gettin funky

 

Ridin high upon my hog

Soggy fallin off a log

The doggie only wants a bone

Because he’s feeling lonely

 

Sporadic addict in the attic

Climbin on his pretty pony

Sex the single true addiction

All the rest is phony

 

                                          187                  

Killing Time

Passion fashioning glass caskets

Intensity growing boulders flowing uphill

‘til the chilling wind is willing

At last you know it’s finally

Killing time

 

Crazy weaving leaves in grass baskets

Destiny density sowing reaping shoulders weeping

Keeping up and filling in fulfilling

The bill is due it’s finally

Killing time

 

Warm performing a last drastic

Immensity knowing better blowing off still the will’s

Milling about drilling the hole on the whole

It means nil cause it’s finally

Killing time

 

                                          188                  

Torn in Three

Torn in three

As we are me

Also too

We’re you and he

Turned out

To be

The one

Four years gone

And five loves lost

From silver hair

To golden ring

I haven’t learned

A fucking thing

 

                                          189                  

Parting Kiss

I can’t believe at last

It comes to this

Left to grieve a

Final parting kiss

Had to leave but it

Was not a dis

The old heave ho they

Never swing to miss

Cleave the beaver

Listen to it hiss

Falling leaves another

Autumn mist

Nil achieved again

On with the list

I could do this to death

But why bother?

I already did

 


                                          190                  

One Eyed Driving

Driving home one eyed

Another day is gone

Who’s to say

What tomorrow brings?

Another lonely asshole sings

About the sound so brown

You play the game

And steal the lines

From someone not much better

Better let her have her way

It’s all the same

I like it all the same

Throw your dice

Take your chance

Get out there boy

It’s time to dance

 

                                          191                  

Back in Town

Spaced back in town

Around bound to destroy

The toy broken hearted

Cut to the bone and

Stoned to the wall

Let he whose conscience is

Clear shed the first tear

After all it’s only pain

Draining out of the wound

Entombed in your own mind

Blinded and finding

The same stupid rhymes

Sucks for you fool cool it soon

Or soon you may find out you’re doomed

 


                                          192                  

Hot Box Fox

I been

Waiting all night

Sitting so tight

Ready for you

To get naked

 

And I can’t wait

To meet my fate

I just can’t

Wait to make it

 

Such a pretty little

Hot box fox

 

I’ve got good news

Won’t give you the blues

Love you to use it

Don’t break it

 

Get off the pants

Do the sex dance

Sweet romance

Let’s shake it

 

Such a pretty little

Hot box fox

 

                                          193                  

Crimes of Lust

Crimes of lust

And violence

Shuddering suffering

Hating in silence

Unable to face

The fact

The unspeakable

Act has happened

To you

This time you lost

Your innocence

Sundering shattering

Inexcusable ignorance

A power play

In case you

Finally cracked

Turned for a moment

And stabbed in the

Back your soul so black

And blue

This time

It happened

To you

 

                                          194                  

Aunt Mary

Quick said Aunt Mary

Shove it in here

Opening her legs

And drawing me

Nearer to cleave

Her wet beaver

With my horn

Like a steer’s

Only hornier

Oh hi Dad

You’re doing

Mary too?

Here I’ll help

You get it in

And I’ll get

The belt her

Svelte velvet

Shelters her poorly

But she seems too

Like it that way

 

                                          195                  

Ick

Quick lick the victor

Stick in naked nicked pricks

Crack the brick picture

With quicksand skin flicks

Sick tricky dick fixes

Mixed up with chicks

Kicking candlestick wicks

Pick the hick jackoff’s

McDonald’s slick schtick

Fuck icky Nikki Chiquita

Inna Gadda da Vida

 

                                          196                  

Ong

Long dong Viet Cong

Ma Jong Hong Kong

Bong hit Long John

So long Viet Nam

Now it’s bung for

Bongo in the Congo

Bungle in the jungle

Funny bunnies blow

Your brains out

Slit open your

Dead carcass stuff

The bags of heroin

Into the hero’s belly

And ship him home

For the junky monkeys

To feed upon come on

Boys let’s go back to war

I miss it

 

                                          197                  

So Dumb!

Why do I speak to you?

Think you’re so tough

Too sweet and true blue

‘til the going gets rough

But that’s over now too

So who gives a puff?

A screw is a screw

But enough’s enough

Not much left to do

But call the mad bluff

True witches are few

So lead on MacDuff

A castle for two

And all of that stuff

Time to do something new

Not too bad off the cuff

We dive at two no two

Fluffy muffs in the buff

Too tough so you

Shouldn’t try to give me that guff

What did I do to you?

Don’t go off in a huff

All of Whoville’s sweet whos

And the billy goat’s gruff

So dumb!

 

                                          198                  

N D T

N D T

And

N D T

N D’s U

And

N D’s me

U N I know what to do

U N I know what we need

UNI know what they knew

UNI so hungry we feed

Each other our love

Each other our lust

Each other our own

Each other we must

Cosmic orgasmic

Insane and fantastic

Comic and tragic

Profane and so spastic

Never lethargic

Mime and mimic

Optimist cynic

Andy T

And

Andy T

Andy’s you

And Andy’s me

 


                                          199                  

The Black Crack

Matter a fact the black crack’s getting blacker opening in back the quack shack’s a slacker the strack strand demanding the black band disbanding racking up points and joint smoking panderers slandering

The man stuff him into your sack the monk’s wearing sack cloth of black sloth and villainy vilifying the priest trying to slap the shot into the crease bear grease the bat pole the cat stole the hat and kung fu threw the bear through the hoop in the ring singing heighdy heigh ho and hody heigh hey the babe stripped her skirt off and lay in the hay praying please mister blister twist my wrist back behind and hell take the hindmost I’m sure I don’t mind so I cracked the whip sharply and shouted hi ho bitch you get off the flo and onto yo knees please and please me the best for at best you’re a hoe so she kindly obliged deriding my attempts to hold back the blow so I struck with the force of a hurricane’s blow as she blew me above and blew me below but the sex nexus gets boring and since I’m perplexed convex necks nipple ring the next thing I’ll mention is my mistress’ dementia because can’t cha see she seems to think I’m her daddy just cause I drink too much but much like the punch line the joke is on me because I think she’s her but she thinks he’s me and I am not fucking god dammit so pour that tequila shot you bet your fucking fucked ass that I’ll slam it it’s not my fault he used and abused you so why fucking take it out on me when I had nothing to do with it shit bitch I tried to be your friend you cried on my shoulder straight up to the end but now this fuckin drunk punk finds himself all funked up and no place to go it’s a damn good thing it’s the start of the show I prefer to see ends as beginnings if you don’t fucking mind so suck me if you don’t cause you’re just fucking blind forgive me if I use the word fuck just too much but the junky is hungry and lonely for touch so drugs are religion and booze is a crutch so what nothing’s new about that the fish in the fishbowl is eating the cat I’m freezing diseased freakoid dying inside dying to run and running to hide snidely whipping the lash as long as your paying in cash what the hell felling the trees pell mell straight down into the well of loneliness if only I can get out of this I might survive alive contriving to derive to most from the least at least the beast is tame for the moment a comatose demon steamin up for some more but for now he is sleeping so I’m trying to keep it on an even keel and I’m even beginning to think I can deal with the seal of approval I got from the reel of unreal machinations a nation of television stations living on giving up it’s share of food rations for the poor and the hungry so starving and carving up the pie I expect that a piece of it might be for me though I could be wrong as I often am but shirking the quirky serpent I repent my sickness and quickly I find I’m redeemed by my quickness of wit and guile while I start to go wild my bile wells up to defile the temple the pain pounding throbbing and beating my temples down to the ground around sounding the depths my sweet pets assure me my bets are placed safely laced up in lust and busting my gut I just live on a prayer and pray for a butt but my old mad hatter’s batter is battered and torn  and I scorn the mental floss I had once worn down to ashes and steel and I feel that at last I’ll break from the mold and escape from the past the captain is tied helplessly to the mast but at least in the end I am having one hell of a blast the end period.

 

                                          200                  

Fucking Up

Thinly veiled hostility

Inflamed and blamed for

Tranquility’s disability

True infallibility

Is rare indeed and I need

To get a little if

I’m going to survive

Alive for much longer

Because it’s clear

I’m fucking up

Mucked up sucked

Shooting the puck

Into the slot

Not that I mind

Cause it’s making

Me stronger

I guess

But the more I belong

The more an outsider

I am

 

                                          201                  

See

See

To look with your eyes

Be

A clever disguise

We

A unit of two

I

Am lost without you

 

Know

An hour’s despair

Flow

Your silken red hair

Blow

A gust of cold wind

Dead

A suicide sin

 

Free

A bird on the wing

Fee

For a silent gold ring

Nee

A name for your wife

Why

Am I wasting my life?

 

I don’t know

Do you?

No

Oh

 

                                          202                  

I Don’t Know

Won’t someone point the direction

To automatic soldier redemption

My inherent soul of rejection

Just brings me out of myself

 

This could be a cartoon creation

Convulsed in astute observation

A single hint of my motivation

Just landed me up on the shelf

 

To late to print a correction

Remake those broken connections

Upon a moments reflection

I saw it was only a dance

 

Short sweet flagrant relations

Built upon those pleasant sensations

Must have been imagination

Not really an actual romance

 

                                          203                  

Howard Roark

My hero is an architect

Named Howard Roarke

Just a character in a book

I looked at once or twice

But he was brilliant

Strong and handsome

Like I’d like to be someday

He dreamed of ivory towers

Shaped like ice

Just like the ones

I tend to dream about

And he loved his art

More than his heart

The way that I should

But never could

And in the end

He won the case

The state could not deny

He had the right to fight

For what he believed in

The way that I don’t

He loved a woman

Who fought him every

Step of the way

The way that mine do

But unlike me he

Was able to

Take it like a man

I only lose

The best I can

 

                                          204                  

Better Off Alone

I sit here at work and moan

Waiting by the telephone

Don’t know why I do it when

I know that it will never ring

I bet that Woody Allen

And Mia Farrow must’ve known

That this life’s way too crazy

And they’re better off alone

After all this time I’m

Doing time for you again

Don’t know why I do it when

My God it hurts like anything

I suppose you wouldn’t miss

Someone you had never known

And finally I decided that

I must be better off alone

I must have forgotten only

What it’s like to be so lonely

To write a brand new tune to sing

Consider me long gone like Sting

I bet that little Miss S. Brickell

And old Paul Simon must’ve known

What it’s like ‘cause they both told me

I am better off alone

I didn’t mean to make you angry

You did not drive me to drink

I guess our boat’s two mad captains

Were always bound to sink

 

                                          205                  

Jesus and the Devil

Jesus and the devil sat down

Over some sandwiches and

Talked of loose alliances

And piousness appliances

Evaluating their finances saying

This just don’t look good

 

What we need’s a fresh new burst

Of really hot publicity

The townships and the cities

With the topless dancing pretties

Are forgetting we exist

So maybe change your price list

When the pagans come around

 

Even the worth of a human soul

Is subject to inflation

And my old public relations

Are fraught with limitations

It was my very first creation

They’re overdue for a revue

And the devil said “That’s right!

In fact, God damn, me too!”               

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                                          206                  

Tiger on the Stalk

I am always hungry   

I don’t want to talk

I am only sorry

When I am cocked

Fuck! I’m in a hurry!

Damn! The door’s locked!

You don’t have to worry

Just go for a walk

Snowflakes start to flurry

Drop the concrete block

Beat it mister furry

Stuff it in a sock

Favor someone else’s curry

You don’t have to knock

Love that pretty pussy

Cat a tiger on the stalk

 

                                          207                  

That’s My Favorite Part

I want to play in your playroom

Lie in your library

Study in your study babe and

Eat you in your eat in kitchen

 

I want to taste you in the basement

Stare out your bedroom window

Lay down in your bed babe with

You near me soft and warm

 

Because that’s my favorite part

 

The way that I am feeling

Gotta tie me to the ceiling

Of your church so I can worship

You again from far away

 

I must drink from the fountain

In the temple of your body

I need the sacred water

From your lips so divine

 

Because that’s my favorite part

 

I am yours but you are not mine

We are not what we were

I don’t know if it was my fault

Did you make it too hard

 

It always came so easy

Seemed to go by too quick

I guess I need redemption

Because I have sinned too much

 

Because that’s my favorite part

 

                                          208                  

Killer

I feel better

Maybe I shouldn’t

But I do

For a good time

Blah blah blah

I shouldn’t let her

I thought I couldn’t

But I can

Not a bad line

Blah blah blah

She’s a bad bed wetter

I knew we would but

It’s a weak rhyme

Blah blah blah

Did I hear someone say

Filler?  Killer?

Kill her

 

                                          209                  

Crucify

Crucify

Crucify my love

Crucify

Crucify my love

 

Drag me to the bedroom

Tie me to a tree

Take that silver spike you like

And drive it into me

Damn your wild abandon

One more cross to bear

A corny horny thorny crown

A whip my flesh to tear

 

And you just

Crucify

Crucify my love

You crucify

Crucify my love

 

I’m just lookin to hook up

Cook up something quick

One more messy blessing for

My sword your side to nick

After a while I woke up

We broke up feeling sick

Jamming in my slick sticky thickness

Slammed upon the bricks

 

And I was

Crucified

Crucified by love

Crucified

Crucified by love

 

                                          210                  

Mental Block

Gotta be a mental block or something like that

Ought to be a law against that kinda shit

Bought a new car and a fresh out fit

Caught a fresh fish now eat that dish (why is this here?)

 

                                          211                  

Thrash

Pages and pages of maniacal rages

Sagely advice built from ages and ages

Spent gauging reactions of the young and the sexy

Caged by the mages and strapped to the stage

 

The wages of sin’s paid with death so I hear

But only the weak and the fearful shed tears

Wearily grinding the gears of creation

These painful relations could go on for years

 

Here’s to the ashes of infrequent clashes

Cashing in big on those beautiful lashes

Bashing my brains out and glued to the windshield

Trapped in the wreckage when caught in the crash

 

Thrash

 

                                          212                  

Body Party

Everyday sunshine

Ignore all the rain

Time 2 get happy

And forget your pain

I’m sure you know

No need to explain

Fuck being normal

Let’s all go insane

Body party body party body party body party

 

You may have to work it

But it’s not a strain

You only need your body

Never mind your brain

No experience required

We are happy to train

And we aim to please so

Please make that plain

Body party body party body party body party

 

You can ask Jon Doe

I would rather have Jane

And I don’t like busses

I prefer a plane

I never like to lose

But I like to gain

And the main thing’s butt

But her butt’s in Maine

Body party body party body party body party

 

                                          213                  

=0

I + U = 0

U N I = 0

U R nothing

I M nothing

We R nothing

It was all

A complete waste

Like this poem

U + I = 0

I N U = 0

Nothing new about this

It’s just a stupid kiss

A single moment’s bliss

That turned into a dis

 

                                          214                  

Where Are All My Friends

Where are all my friends tonight?

It’s supposed to be a party

Where are all the pretty girls

And why aren’t they with me?

Where’s all the happiness

I recently heard about and

What’s all this hype about

And why am I so alone?

 

If I were a rock star

Or big in the movies

If I drove a fast car

It would be groovy

 

If I had lots of money

The pretty little honeys

Would flock to my side

I wouldn’t have to hide

I wouldn’t be so fucked up

 

If I had power

The lovely little flowers

Would play with me for hours

These constant downpour showers

At last would finally stop

 

But I have none of the above

My bank account for love completely overdrawn

A swan shot down in flames

The names of all my lovers

Carved upon a heart of stone

And once again my night will end

And I’m still all alone

Honing killer instinct

Drinking bitter poison

Poised on the edge of destruction

Shunning human company forever

 

                                          215                  

More Diamonds

It’s really not that difficult

The cult of personality

Tenaciously affiliated

Sated with reality

Teasing my infinity

Sets my teeth on edge

Allegedly belligerent

Intelligent intentions

Senseless obligations

Impatient observations

Shunning muddy water

And leaping off the ledge

Slaughtering the weak

Meekly speaking words

Of wisdom birds in the

Third eye blinded

Dead of inability

A host of inequalities

Probably forgotten

Bought a diamond mine

I mind much less

The more I find

 

                                          216                  

Twist

The main thing was twist

A wistful situation

Just getting me pissed

One to another a mother or brother

Forget all the others

Follow the bouncing ball

The toll is paid all in all

Braided in steel at the mall

I feel like a martyr

At the heart of the sun

Exploding as one with a partner

Blistered my nerves like a soul sister

Soon as we kissed

 


                                          217                  

Don’t Look Now

I am dying crying eye don’t know why not sure how

But please my God oh don’t look now

 

I am sick and tired whacked out cracked up wired

Completely stoned and plowed

But please God oh don’t look now

 

I am rotting from the inside

Trying to hide the fear I feel

I fear that I will never heal

A page ripped from a book

I know how I must look

So oh my God please don’t look now

 

                                          218                  

Dancers

The dancers move in time

Flex twist bend and spin

Subtlety still sublime

Mind kiss soft like sin

 

Eloquent motion divine

Next bliss mends the twins

Passion devotion of mine

Entwined so deep within

 

The dancers drift apart

Break wheel dip and run

Turning back to start

Hearts burning like the sun

 

Advance pause shock retreat

Roll flip jump and fly

Impels emotion sweet

And pleases every eye

Including mine

 


                                          219                  

Jettison

Lash out thrashing madly

Still unmoving stone

Sink down sadly

With a groan

Captured silence

Applied vigorously

To the bones

Of the youth

Who under duress

Undressed and

Told the truth

Cash in on the action

Place your bet right here

Drinking the captain

And wasting your tears

Random violence

Stoned garrulously

Babbling stupid

To the wall

Or an under impressed

And depressed

Book of Ruth

Destroyed the

Restless dreams

Of the uncouth

Perilously close

To a dose of

My own medicine

Handle that damn

Man handle

Jettison!

 

                                          220                  

Kiss My Ass

All right then

Here we go

Another town

And one more blow job

Show ‘em whatcha

Made of Johnny

One more hot shot

Caught in the snow job

Of  “on with the show”

Go fuck yourself

You dumb ass hoe

I know you knew

I never liked you

So think of this

As a spike as I shove it up your ass

Perhaps of late

My poems are filled

With hate you think

Riddled with holes of anguish

Languishing in pain and self pity

Hitting the bottle

Til it throttles me

But soon this too will pass

And until then though I hate

To use this word again

Until then the whole fuckin world

Can kiss my God damned ass

 

                                          221                  

Call Me She Said

Call me she said

As the saying goes

Call me anything you want

But call before you go

 

When I woke up this morning

I did not know where I was

But then I guess I didn’t really care

Wherever here was here and I was there

Calling you

Calling out to you

 

When I woke up this morning

I did not know who she was

But then I guess I never really cared

I thought it was you but you weren’t there

Calling me

Calling out for me

 

Call me she said

Everyone knows

What you call me afterwards

But call before you go

 

                                          222                  

Skitz

I don’t know who I am

I don’t know where I’m from

I don’t know why I came but

I know I like to come

I don’t know what I’m doing

I don’t know who I’m screwing

But I know she’s got big tits

And I know that I’m a skitz!

Skitz!

Who will I be tomorrow

And who am I today

I still steal, beg, and borrow

My personali-tay

When I forget my name

I know that I’m insane

So I just go get blitzed

‘cause I know that I’m a skitz!

Skitz!

Sometimes I am a lady

Sometimes I am a man

Some say I am crazy

I try the best I can

But I can only try

To find out who am I?

You wear the shoe that fits

And I am just a skitz!

Skitz!

 

                                          223                  

U Say U

U say U want this

U say U want that

U say U want me 2 dog u

So who’s that other cat? (me-ow!)

How about what I want? What about me?

U say U want someone

U say U want me

U say U want something different

What’s your cup of tea? (coffee)

You give me what I  want then maybe we’ll see

U say U want diamonds

U say U want pearls

U say U want gold and silver

What else do you want girl? (the world!)

How about what I want? What about me?

U say U want passion

U say U want fire

U say U want cold hard cash

What else do you desire? (let’s get wired!)

You give me I want then maybe we’ll see?

U say U want kisses

U say U want wine

U say U want everything but

When do I get mine? (some other time...)

 

                                          224                  

Candlelight & Roses

You

Re trying to make me crazy

But you will not succeed

I’ve seen your breed before

I know what you need

Bleed swift kick in the head

Or a short piece of lead pipe

I know your type

One critical big tit bitch

And I’d happily scratch your itch

With mister fist

You bet your hot sweet ass

That I won’t miss

I knew it was over

Even before we kissed

That’s two years ago

You’re just another stupid

Cupid cum and go twat

I been watching you close

I know your sore spots

Gonna stick my finger in

And give a twist

I know just what to do

To get you pissed

To make it hurt you

Like you hurt me

You were just another whore

For me to score with

I never even liked you

And love’s a total myth

Candlelight and roses and pure bull shit (God! Am I pissed?)

                                          225                  

Orange Body Paint

What’s with the orange body paint?

I know I ain’t no saint

But even I don’t get it

Movin so fast I can’t clock it

I guess I’ll just have to chalk it

Up to proper maintenance

And what’s with the chainlink fence

And why am I on this chain gang?

I was wasted out of my mind

Gettin on that groove thang

Diggin on a pretty little bird

Til I heard those chimes ring

They were singing ding a dang ding

And dang a long ling long

Whoops I musta got caught

Stealing some kinda shit

From a pop song on the scene

Green and burstin at the seams

Drinking till I’m creaming

In my blue jeans screaming

No wonder I’m having these crazy mother fucking dreams !

 

                                          226                  

Let It Out

It’s gettin close now - yeah I can feel it

There in the distance - so close at hand

It’s gettin near now - it’s gettin nearer

It’s almost here now - I see it clearer

It’s gettin close now - so hard to see

It’s oh so close now - what could it be?

Just round the corner - just past the door

Could it be peace or - could it be war?

Could it be silence? - could be a shout

Could it be violence? - then let it out!

 


                                          227                  

The S & M Rap

Don’t panic I’ll get my manacles

I’m a miracle and I’m maniacal

Please don’t trip on the whips

As I wrap my chains around your hips

 

Face it you just love my bracelets

Tied to my bedpost you’ll remain

Don’t have to ask I’ll go and get my leather mask

I must love the hours ‘cause the pains the same

 

Whip (shh!) Ahh!   

It’s the S & Mm rap!

 

Twist slap burn

Slice boom bang

 

Whip me beat me hurt me cheat me

Tie up and tickle my feet me

Hit me kiss me curse me dis me

But please never release me

 

I’ll bring you to tears so have no fear

You’ll get just what you came for here

It’s true you’ve got a sexy bod but

Spoiled children get the rod

 

Come on I know you love bondage

And this is the best you’ll get

To nourishing punishment you’ll submit

Sweaty leather and feathers just get you wet

 

Whip (shh!) Ahh!  

It’s the S & M rap

 

Smack snap crack

Pinch punch pooch

 

Whip (shh!)  Ahh!

It’s the S & M rap!

 


                                          228                  

Just Like Suicide

You are just like

Suicide

You’re just like suicide

You’re just like suicide

And you’re killing me

 

With a loving kiss

You slash my wrists

One single whiff

Throws me off the cliff

 

It gives me chills

To eat your pills

When we get close

I overdose

 

If when I die

The dive is dry

It’s very clear

You’ll shed no tears

 

And I would bet that if it’s wet

And I leap off into the deep

You would still be Satan’s daughter

Laughing as I hit the water

 

You are just like

Suicide

You’re just like  suicide

You’re just like suicide

And you’re killing me

 

Your sweet refrain

Blows out my brains

And throws me under

Freight train thunder

 

Your grace and poise

Would taste like poison

The words you’ve spoken

Just leave me choking

 

So simply crushed

By that blue bus

My love and trust

Rusty and dusted

 

In the end around that bend

Tossed and turned crashed and burned

That soft touch ran me off the road

In secret code as I exploded

 

                                          229                  

Gotta Givita Me

Gotta havit baby

Gotta givita me

Gotta gettit

Gotta gettit

Wannababy

Needjababy

Loveyababy

Anything ya wanna hear

Beg borrow or steal

Or give up my beer

But I’ve just got to have

Your love

 

                                          230                  

Thank Heaven for All Kinds of Girls

Blondies straight from Norway

Brunettes from the south

Beauties from Thailand

Reds from the island

It isn’t the shape of the words

It’s the shape of the mouth

 

Thank heaven for all kinds of girls

 

Blue eyes from Finland

Brown from Beiruit

Irish eyes green

They’re the sweetest I’ve seen

But it’s not the look of the tree

It’s the taste of the fruit

 

And I‘m feeling hungry

 

White skin from England

The Indies brown best

I truly love all of

The red and the olive

But above all I value

The feel of the breast

 

Thank heaven for all kinds of girls

 

It isn’t the mouth

The legs or the eyes

The shape feel or size

Who cares what color hair

Or clothes or skin

What matters the most is within

 

What the hell

I couldn’t resist

 

                                          231                  

Cool Vibe

Cool vibe

Gotta gimme dat

Cool vibe

 

Knick nack

Paddy wack

Little black laddie (yo!)

Sweet mack daddy-go!

Givin little doggie the bone

If ya know what I’m sane

I ain’t weighin the odds

I’m playin ‘em

And I’m stayin on

 

That cool vibe

Kickin it out

That cool vibe

 

Slick black

Cadillac

Stretch limousine (oh?)

Know what I mean? (no.)

Cell-u-lar mobile phone

I can’t complain

The main thing’s ride

Spread it far and wide

And get up inside

 

That cool vibe

Layin it down

Cool vibe

Goin to town

On that cool vibe

Ah give it up

 

Sunshine

Fun time

Lickety split

Git down on the ground

With the sound of the

Round mound poundin

Headed for town

Bound for renown

 

Wit dat

Cool vibe

Keep it goin

Cool vibe

Steady on

Cool vibe

Dig it deeper

Cool vibe

 

                                          232                  

Jungle Sounds

Jungle sounds

Surround me

Typewriters

And Cadillacs

So far away

 

And I am free

I’m on the run

 

No office phones

Around me

No fax machines

Or dull routines

To cloud my day

 

And I am free

I’m on the run

 

Feet on the ground

No one to hound me

No dumb headlines

No damn deadlines

No skies of gray

 

And I am free

I’m on the run

 

                                          233                  

Goddess Night

It was late

One summer night

Down by the lake

We had all

The love that

That we could take

 

Consummate

We slipped between

The worlds of time

And sent a call

To mother earth

In simple rhyme

 

Isis Astarte

Diana Hecatate

Demeter Kali

Inanna

 

We went straight

Through gated

Sunlight to a star

And crossed

Orgasm chasm

With a flower

 

                                          234                  

Dance Party

To each his own

They say you reap

What you’ve sown

Different folks

Seem to like

Different strokes

Different smokers

Like different tokes

But this time

The joke’s on me

 

Cause we all dance! Party! Dance! Party!

 

One man’s poison

Is another’s meat

One woman’s cold

Is another man’s heat

Some men like ankles

And some like feet

And you can’t beat

That with a bat

 

Cause we all dance and party!

 

The beauty of

Diversity

Living with

Adversity

Convicted for

Complicity

Gonna have our own

Political party

 

We are the dance and party!

 

One man’s trip is

Another’s fall

Youth culture’s hip

So hop on the ball

One person’s groovy’s

Another man’s drag

One woman’s man is

Another man’s fag

 

So let’s dance

And party

Dance and party

Dance and party

‘til the end

 

 

 

                                          235                  

Left Right

I was standing in a window

Looking outside at the falling snow

Listening to the wind blow

I was wondering which way to go

 

Left! Right! Left! Right!

 

I was standing on a corner of the sky

Watching all the ladies passing by

Wishing one would look into my eyes

And throw away her cold frightened disguise

(But she keeps walking)

Left! Right! Left! Right!

 

I was standing on a balcony

Staring at the ground below me

Stepping off the edge is easy

Heads up down there please

And they run

Left! Right! Left! Right!

 

                                          236                  

Lack of Inspiration

 

This space dedicated to lack of inspiration

 

 

 

 

 

 


                                          237                  

I Want U

I want you

I don’t care what you think of my music

I’m not livin in fear for my soul

Got what I got and I know I’m gonna use it

Need that rock in my roll

I don’t care why you’re hiding that secret

I only know that I know what I know

Really don’t care what you say so just keep it

You know just where you can go

 

-- Chorus

I don’t know what’s wrong with me

And I don’t know what’s wrong with you

I can’t see why you don’t seem to

Want to get along with me

I don’t know what’s wrong with me

I don’t know what’s wrong with you

I can’t see why we can’t seem to

Figure it out

 

But I want you

I don’t care what you think of my habits

That’s only on the outside of my stone

See what I want so I reach out and grab it

Givin little doggie a bone

I want U

I don’t care what you say about this

And I have no opinion on me

I’m not sayin I’m missin your kiss

But I miss the way that we used to be

 

-- Solo

I don’t care for your bitter sarcasm

I got no use 4 your bullshit lines

I know that everyone wants an orgasm

Tell me when I’m gettin mine

I don’t care for the tone of your voice

I won’t listen to what you say

You were the one who made that choice

I was only there for the lay

I want U

 

-- Chorus

I want U

What ever happened to love me sweet daddy

Never had anyone feels so good

You thought you couldn’t the moment I saw you

I just knew that you would

I want I

Power is passion and passion is pleasure

I just can’t emphasize this too much

Sweet water splash in a heat beyond measure

Crucify me with your touch

I want U

 

                                          238                  

Fire Walk with Me

Rip up my lips

Trip on my sarcasm

Orgasmic phantasm

Now it’s just a dream

What the fuck am I

Doing here and how

Did I get here?

High as a kite and

Bursting at the seems

Seems to me that I must’ve

Been here before

I more or less remember this place

Hypnotized red curtain

Nightmare a dream

Oh God please help me

Now I’m doing it again

Good evening bob

Good morning daddy

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Grinding the fine stone to sand

There in your hand

Your sweet aging grandfather

Wielding the brand

God dammit man

Can’t you just be?

Fuck you

I can’t see

My God I’m blind

Don’t take the ring

Stay away from me

I am the arm

Please don’t tie me up

Don’t make me do this

 

The glass

Is under

The bag

The glass

Is under

The bag

The glass

Is under

The bag

The glass

Is under

The bag

The glass

Is under

The bag

The glass

Is under

The bag

 

                                          239                  

Sea of Assumptions

Adrift on a sea of assumptions

Coincidental victim

Consequential vacuum

Of circumstantial

Circumspection

Circumventing

Their conventions

Emotionless notions

Of motionless oceans

Of chance

Lifting the green purple curtains

Aside from obligations

Derived from litigation

Dislocating

Subjugating

Flagellating

Masturbating

Their hatred

Lately sated

By romance

 


                                          240                  

Just One Piece

It’s been too long

I’m slacking off

But that sure beats

Meat jacking off

 

Just one piece

Releasing me

Fill it up with grease

4 just one piece

 

A brand new song

To get it on

To too much heat

So don’t let on

 

Just one rock

Jock strapping me

He’ll suck your cock

4 just one rock

 

Hot sweet poon tang

Grooving in

Shanghai gang bang

Moving in

 

(Just 1 piece...) Hmm.. Sounds like I just want peace

 

Sipping from the cup

Getting it on out

Tripping way on up

No sweat just sweat it out

 

                                          241                  

With You

I guess I caught your eye

Or was it my breath I caught

I caught cold again that week

But then the weakness soon subsided

I decided I would spend

A winter weekend with you

 

I thought of you a lot

You’re not what I would’ve thought

I bought gold again this week

I brought the sleek miss here divided

We collided in the end

Intertwined again with you

 

Slip into that knotty slot

Trip on you that naughty slut

Drip on this you pretty nut

We all know what it comes to but

We do it any way (and we know when to run)

 

It was hot inside

Or maybe I was hot

It was not that you were meek

But I was bold and you peeked from hiding

I was riding peak to peak

Weaving tangled strangled

Webs again with you

 

                                          242                  

High Heels for Breakfast

Sweet high heels for breakfast

Four inch spike hello

Guess I must be going

Yes I’ve got to go

Yellow dress at lunchtime

Mini skirt for brunch

Silk and lace for dinner

Beat me to the punch

Leather pumps at tea time

Slip into the cracks

A strumpet with a crumpet

A little midnight snack

Cowboy boots and spurs

Diamond rings and furs

 

                                          243                  

Weathervane Hurricane

Weathervane

The storm comes

Swiftly

A hollow wind

On icy hallowed

Ground

The ripped off

Door is set adrift

As I go wandering

Wondering

 

Hurricane

The snow whips

Shifting

In sorrow fills

The morrow with its

Sound

The grip of war

May never lift yet

Still I sit here slandering

And pondering

 

Gone insane

The rain pours

Beating

Down in sheets it

Pounds

I trip and fall

Into the rift

Of further endless pandering

And floundering

 

                                          244                  

Onan

Like Onan who spilt his seed upon the earth

So I sit and squander the talents of my birth

When in danger or in doubt

Run in circles scream and shout

I spew out verse like wads of jizz

And shake my beer to watch it fizz

To indulge my bent for pointless rhyme

Because it’s just a waste of time

And use words no one ever does

The only answer is “because”

 


                                          245                  

Crisis of Belief

It’s a crisis of belief!

Exclaimed the martyred thief

The king with his eyes torn out must die

He forgot his name and so did I

You get what’s comin 2 U it comes back

And you stare as opposites attract

Lamb to the slaughter coming of age

Out on the stage like fish out of water

 

                                          246                  

Bird on a Wire

The ice flows downstream

As the water climbs higher

And I watch from above

Like a bird on a wire

 

Black cat in my window

Eyes glazed with desire

Stares in mute passion

At the bird on a wire

 

With a glance at the clock

We slowly retire

To the view from my bedroom

A bird on a wire

 

She swears til she’s blue

But it’s clear she’s a liar

Alone in the cold

Like a bird on a wire

 

Frozen and frightened

Forlorn and tired

You just want to fly

Like a bird from a wire

 

Drink this bottle of red

Shed your evening attire

And we’ll dance til the dawn

Like two birds on a wire

 

O my sweet king of rye

Eat your pie, dearest sire

Those twenty-four blackbirds

Were once on a wire

 

So get out your rifles

And ready, aim, fire

There’s only one left

And he’s up that wire

 

This metaphor fascinates me

 

Squeal little piggy

Kneel down in the mire

And screech for it just like

A bird on a wire

 

Miss where are you going

I beg to inquire

She said out on a limb

Like a bird on a wire

 

                                          247                  

Reminder

The way you’re going

You know that there’s no turning

Back (repeat as a mantra)

 

                                          248                  

Rest from Rest

Y’know

I feel like I need a rest from the rest of my rest and I must go pick up my vest where ever I left it and I know I’ve got a test coming up soon…I think. Where’s my drink? I feel less than blessed at best because when I got dressed this morning I messed up the tie I was pressing and I burnt a hole with the iron in somebody’s wife’s dresser drawers and don’t ask me which iron clad alibi I’m gonna try this time cause by this time I’ve missed the bus

So I’m walkin on thin ice with my reflection in the mirror I can tell cause he’s plainly disgusted with me ... And then the alarm goes off. So, I won’t bore you with the rest of my vacation, but that’s why I need a rest from the rest of my rest.

 


                                          249                  

You Can’t Fool Me

Come on just admit it

You know that you did it

Don’t you try to hide it

Why even deny it?

 

You can’t fool me no more

 

So why did you do it

I got you nailed so screw it

You had me but you blew it

Guess I always knew it

 

You can’t fool me no more

 

Loose you had to bind it

Up front you get behind it

But lost you had to find it

Guess you didn’t mind it

 

You can’t fool me no more

 

Lost you couldn’t save it

I had it all and gave it

Sweet love just enslave it

Bring it here I’ll shave it

 

You can’t fool me no more

 

Well, maybe

 

 

                                          250                  

Killer’s Art

Writing is the killer’s art from dream to dream the dear depart til carted away on a slab from the very moment you started you stare at the black cat bewildered til stillness drizzles down your blizzard fizzling out about the time you seem to run in circles scream and shout when no one listens only then you pout about the coat your porcupining for wait til you see what’s in store for you my fine fur friend I’ll rend you limb from limb until you shiver with anticipation paralyze this naked nation Caped Crusader tie her down and rape her after all she is your country bumpkin Tommy Lumpkin

It’s the great pumpkin Charlie Brown I tell you it is so. Junk.

 

                                          251                  

Sweet Hot Sweat

Sweet hot sweat

Abandon ship

Trip out on

My candle stick

The wick so

Freshly trimmed

I grimly

Greased the

Trainman’s handle

Quickly licking

Looking back

I see the train

Roll off the tracks

 

                                          252                  

Out at the Edge

Out at the edge

It gets lonely and cold

The bold only

Venture there

Rarely

 

Here at the tip

It drips silent and holds

The old violent

Vulture quite

Tightly

 

Close to the rim

Sons and daughters

Slaughtered the young guns

Culture? Fight

Nightly

 

Then at the end

The tough stay alive

Surviving enough

Nature’s there

But just barely

 

Just barely

 

                                          253                  

Mr. Jazz Chord

If excellence is dead then let it be

And long, long live mediocrity

 

He’s thin he wears new shoes and skinny ties

A blue Armani suit to boot - just to match his eyes

Jazz is his passion

And he knows that he’s hip

‘cause it’s in fashion

 

And you know how the ladies love a star...

(Hey Mr. Generic jazz chord? I’m bored)

 

He buys his music and shoes in the same place

Never had the blues always a smile on his face

There in the mirror

He smooths back his hair

‘cause he’s a hero

 

And he knows how the ladies love his car...

(There’s nowhere left to hide so take a ride)

 

The producer and promoters say he’s great

Money in the bank to thank for his brand new estate

He’s a musician

Or so he thinks

Because of his position

 

Yet he forgets he started in a bar

(But I don’t want to think so let’s have a drink)

 

 

                                          254                  

Two Fifty

Harsh feelings and harsher words

Screaming so loudly I barely heard

What I was saying

A painful memory I lost my cool

Too blind to see the angry fool

I was playing

 

But after all I only called to say I’m sorry

 

It hurts me too to fight the dragon

Don’t mean to brag but I am on the wagon

I blame myself for your defection

It must be hard to be the object

Of a madman’s affection

 

But after all I only called to say I’m sorry

 

Pride’s a painful thing to swallow

But I must admit I’d be happy to follow

You anywhere

I guess I do have an agenda I surrender

I need your body but I want to be your friend

Because I care

 

                                          255                  

??

Waiting I expose my hunger

Underneath the moon

Naked I accept my thunder

Stick beside my spoon

 

Knowing what I hunt for

Doesn’t make it simple yet

At least I know what I hunt for

Is something I can get

 

Straining with my intellect

I check against the reins

Sprawled upon the muddy plains

Calling down the drowning rain

 

Schizophrenic frantic

Manic panic in my eye

The difference is semantic

Now I’m going off to die

 

                                          256                  

??

I’m no longer so concerned with what I mean

As with what I sound like I mean

 

 


                                          257                  

Erin

Erin - it began April 4th, 1990

 

To hunt is too sweet. To catch sweeter still. To feed upon the kill.

But obsessions can run deep as the ocean. And my emotions have caused me to make The mistake of losing sight of the point of what I was writing

The cake I was eating was just a chance meeting of the flesh enmeshed in a mess of Lies and distress, caressing your guest exempt from the rest of the world for a while

Happily wandering lost in a smile.

 

What do I say of a casual lay from the past I can’t get past?

As I sit here puzzling

The beer I’ve been guzzling

Is killing me fast.

 

She was. Blond. And I eyed her blue eyes ‘til they cried on my shoulder. A little bit older than I. A painter by trade and we made a good couple if I say so myself. Thin and quite pale she came from Australia she said and down under she was. And though she often looked harried, I must say I liked her because she was...well, married. Sexily smoking her tight Camel Lites, I frequently noticed her pretty ass passing.

 

So while laughing at an unspoken joke, I one day walked up and asked for a smoke, though I didn’t (much) and asked her name

Which is Erin and I therein replied mine’s Andy.

And she smiled like candy as I took my leave.

 

That evening as I lay in bed, sweet thoughts of her fairly danced in my head and not of the she who was with me.

As the days came and went I was watching her, pent up

Emotions still bent on expression lying spent on the pavement,

And waiting...

 

This leading to that my neighbor upstairs was engaged in affairs

With my girlfriend (the one I must’ve been ignoring) so while I was snoring the sweet little slut was out happily whoring.

 

So carrying on the next dawn I informed the nice lass after much broken glass and more drunkenness that I also was leaving and hardly

Even grieving at all save the loss of a friend and I never expected to see her again which I did but then only for sex.

 

I began a weekend rendezvous with a pretty little witch girl who

Had the name Kerri Ann of all things and she called herself Zerheva or something such weird and much as I feared she ended up funked up on drugs with some punk boy named Troy and I swear that that’s true.

 

Then after many long weekends

I returned my attention to what I’d been missing

Forgetting the taste of the lips I was kissing

Toward the blue eyes I had missed

And realized the only thing needed was twist

And I twisted my fingers

Around her gold ring.

 

So flinging aside all the pride and ambition

Of her dear husband’s pompously high pay position

We engaged in a raging act of contrition

And she willingly spread herself out on the floor

(Though not without encouragement)

And I bent her round bedposts which scarcely were there.

So Fridays became days of regular lays

And my schoolwork suffered slightly

Which I rightly considered quite next on the list

And we drank much and we pissed away

Lots of good times.

 

I suppose those who’ve noticed

Or been through such things

Can easily guess the direction this goes

But the fine sex and finer champagne

Simply must be to blame

(Though it seems rather lame looking back)

Yet I blindly ran forth not too sorry to say

Straight into rejection

Plunged into deep water

While holding my nose

(As it were)

 

Still her wit and her guile

Hold me fastly bespelled

Though I held on as long as I could

And would’ve held longer

But his money was stronger

Though we spent it as much as we could

And she tearfully smiled

And picked him over me

 

I’m not quite sure why I succumbed

To the numbing soft wetness

That so swiftly comes

But I bet more than one man

Has handed his soul

For much less than this

And I kissed her goodbye and went on with my list

Of jovial misses I’d missed on the way

But the long and the short is

She’s quite a good lay.

 

                                          258                  

Now

Now

I’m beginning to find this unceasing grind a little too much and I’m starting to think that I’m losing my mind which is not a great loss but my old mental floss starts to grow a bit thin and I’ve been a bit stressed out of late as my mate has become rather sadly estranged and my range of emotion’s getting way out of range but I s’pose if I rose up to meet this malaise I’d be beaten and bloody and still get no raise so instead of defending this bend in my brain where I think is the best place for facing such pain I’d rather not mend fences I’ve never built so I’ll pick up my guilt by the hilt and I’ll slay the sad monster I laid but not ’til I’m flayed within inches of life or she gets out her knife whichever comes first but the worst is now overcoming the grief of this brief sweet encounter though I’d willingly mount her again if I can and still will but it’s such a bitter pill that I wonder if I’m not just too over the hill and under the dale that the pale little witch with red hair might just be the end of me dead in a ditch but I’ll be damned if I’ll send in the crack troops and quietly stand in the rear shaking wildly with fear of the trite little fight which my God given rights specifically state that I happily might sighting all of those slightly white nightmares as laws entirely tired of tiredly trying to right a great wrong on the passage I’m buying so I willingly massage my poor damaged ego to the point of orgasm but this unflinching phantasm of evil will keep on coming on with her beguiling feminine whiles whilst I’m trying to think of a plan of attack I stand with my back on the brink of disaster I think and I think I’d be better in a triangle pink but I’m really a criminal awaiting a trial for the children and virgins I gladly defiled empowering my glowering phantom who’s showering those women and children that I’ve been deflowering with diamonds and blood of the innocents that if I had any inner sense I’d not be in here cowering from yet come hell or high water I’d happily slaughter but the daughters of man keep me weeping in pain ‘til the hole in my brain starts me molting the feathers I’m shedding are the only things really that keep me from bolting out to the edge and across the abyss I’m surprised that I’d do it all just for a kiss but I simply must trust my instinctual thinking or else face the prospect of constantly sinking into this morass of good sex and worse drinking monstrously eating the whore I’ve been beating unseating the gods from their cold thrones of gold and I’m starting to think that I’m just growing old so I boldly step out to where angels won’t tread to discover this mess is all just in my head drowning in oceans of bloody red beds shedding the skin of the beast I’ve wed ‘til the monster I’ve bred can be finally fed

 


                                          259                  

Why Bother

Why bother?

The more I think about it

The less sense it makes

The more I try to give

The more that it takes

But that’s the breaks I guess

We’re in this mess together

But sometimes I’ve got to wonder

Why bother?

 

Why bother with me?

Why bother with you?

Why bother with this?              

Why bother with that?

Why bother to see?

There’s nothing to do

Why bother to think?

Why bother to act?

 

Perhaps I shouldn’t worry

That the pace is too fast

We’re all in a hurry

And nothing ever lasts

So for the past we grieve

And you leave me for another

Sometimes I have to wonder

Why bother?

 

Why bother to shoot?

Why bother to miss?

Why bother to run?

Why bother to hide?

Why bother to hug?

Why bother to kiss?

If it’s going to rain

Then stay inside

 

I suppose I think too much

To ever find the answer

I’m so out of touch

The dance becomes the dancer

Chance can be a mother

So blame it on the weather

Sometimes I’ve got to wonder

Why bother?

 

 

                                          260                  

Stop the Music

Stop the music baby

I wanna get off

Off center off sides

Off balance off stride

 

Beside the carnival rides

Three red beds on the tide

And a clown who couldn’t hide

 

Stop the music man

I wanna get off

Off kilter off beat

Off time off key

 

Get off my ass get off my cloud

Get off my block get off my ...

 

Get your fuckin jumbo jet off my airport!

 

Stop the music baby I wanna get off

 

Off the ice off the field

Just cool off!  What’s the deal?

 

A tortured mind of gold

A fortune in the fold

A snake that must be rode

(Ridden! Rode! Ridden!)

Time to get off again

 

Mother always told me there’d be days like these

Mother always told me there’d be days like these

Mother always told me there’d be days like these

 

 

 


                                          261                  

Move and Groove

Move and groove

In French trouver

Means to find

And I don’t mind

If I find a treasure trove

While walkin through your lovely grove

 

Marching lurch

In French cherchez

Means look

But I won’t look

For what you took

From the naked alter church

A painted bird upon a perch

 

 

                                          262                  

Addicted

I’m addicted

Conflicting moments

Want to I got to

But I just can’t

It’s tricky business

I’m addicted

I’m addicted

Addicted to love

Addicted to sex

Addicted to cash

Addicted to cheques

Addicted to reds

Addicted to blues

Addicted to who?

I’m addicted to you

All of you

I’m addicted

Conflicting feelings

Want to I got to

But I just can’t

My sense is reeling

I’m addicted

I’m addicted

Addicted to wine       shirts   lust

Addicted to beer       hats     dust

Addicted to pain        this      hugs

Addicted to fear        that      drugs

Addicted to nails       skirts   coke

Addicted to screws   shoes  booze

Addicted to who?      But most of all

I’m addicted to you    I’m addicted to you

All of you

 

                                          263                  

Reamed

I see that look in your eyes

I think I know what it means

That feeling I just despise

You’re having one of your dreams

I wish that you realized

That this is not what it seems

If I removed my disguise

You might be creaming your jeans

A shake a hot dog some fries

And then some sticky ice cream

Your soft gentle cries

And my passionate screams

Then our pretty white lies

Come apart at the seams

So who gets the prize

And who just gets reamed?

 

                                          264                  

Carole King

Sometimes I hear music

And it gets me right here

I have to tap my foot

And maybe wipe away a tear

It always makes me feel much better

When I can hum along

I haven’t heard that song

In such a long time (cont. a la Carole King)

 


                                          265                  

Change

I can feel me changing

The stage is set for raging

I can’t contain my feelings

Bouncing off the ceiling

I can’t stand the weight of waiting

When I should be out creating

 

I can feel the shifting

At last the clouds are lifting

The sand of time is destructive

These hands of mine constructive

Work is now a recreation

While I finish my creation

 

I am almost breathing

My emotions always seething

Hotter by the breath until

At last in death I will

Defeat the past escaping

From the self that I’ve been raping

 

                                          266                  

Run to You

When the sadness becomes too heavy and the sorrow too much to bear

I can’t face tomorrow I and I just don’t even care

I fall to my knees and cry and I don’t know what to do

That’s when I run to you

 

When all my life’s in darkness and I drown in my tears

I’m down so I strike a spark and I’m exploding in fear

I look into the sky but then the clouds obscure the blue

That’s when I run to you

 

When I am so unhappy I just feel like a fool

I try to steal away before I lose my cool

A slave to my emotions in an ocean of booze

And I can’t run to you

 

U feel me up when I am down - U knock me down when I am high

You turn my world around - make me laugh when I cry

When I’m locked inside myself - you bring a room with a view

That’s why I run to you

                                          267                  

??

The eyes I noticed first

And then I saw the thirst

The thrust of which

I itched for

The more I looked

The more I liked

What I was seeing

At last her pretty

Attitude was passing

By my latitude

And with a platitude I

Offered her my number

And humbly smiled

When she dialed it

And can’t help but think

As I watch the spring rain

I should watch out for

Women on trains

 

                                          268                  

??

Intense powerful

Beautiful passionate

Perfect centered

One unafraid

Smooth elegant motion

Still as stone or steel

Yet elastic

 

                                          269                  

Ulrike

Uli

I found an angel on the wing

On an island in the sky

Now I can’t see a thing

And it’s no wonder why

I want to scream and shout it

And take her to the peak

There’s no doubt about it

She so freaky

A queen for all to see

With fire in her eye

To climb her lovely mountains

And drink her ocean dry

A bird too free to capture

A kiss upon the cheek

I stand and stare enraptured

She so freaky

An ageless raging beauty

Too fine for line and verse

This passionate desire

Can only make things worse

My heart too fast to measure

My mouth too dry to speak

I gaze upon her treasure

She so freaky

 

                                          270                  

Drown Me Now

I’m so sad today I don’t know

What’s wrong with me

I just wanna lay down and

Die right here

I can’t even shed a tear

I’m so sad today

 

Choking on loneliness

How’d I get in this mess

Smoking my cigarette

Drinking that Glenlivet

Still hasn’t killed me yet

Drunken and innocent

I wish it would

I know it could

 

Broken dreams all around

Demons surround me

Sweet agonies abound

This hell just hounds me

Don’t I use me a lot?

Must be those drugs I bought

Don’t know how you found me

But you might as well

Drown me right now

 


                                          271                  

Fuck Off Jerk

I got 2 ax U

A question I ax

Do U wanna

Get down 2

Subliminal fax

A fly in the ointment

A ball in the wax

Get back on the mike

Cause it’s time 2 attack

I got 2 sistahs

Wit natural stacks

Who wanna get down 2

2 down on their backs

Cute booty zoot suit and

A newt in my sack

A train in the rain

And the pain in my tracks

Red satin, silk, and those

Tight purple slacks

Stretched cross the back

Like a man on the rack

Slick black lace bra and

A quick knife called mack

She’ll cut off your balls

So jerk off jack

(Fuck off, jerk!)

 

                                          272                  

Miso No Koro

 Miso no koro

Center on positive things

Get off emotional jones

Fire the cannon and sing

I’m finally rollin my own

Balance on the tip of your grip

Slip off the chain of your fear

Tear off a page of your pain

And strain out the salt of your tears

Focus on happiness now

Cause now is all that you’ve got

Caught with your hand on the plow

Pretending U R what you’re not

Blot out the stain of the past

At last it’s plain to be seen

The green of your gain is the mast

Of a ship that’s a little too clean

Awakening now to a new day

Confident more than before

Solid as stone in a good way

Still water mind always scores

Still water mind always scores

Still water mind always scores

 

                                          273                  

Langsamer

anbieten anfangen                to offer to start

beginnen bekommen            to begin to receive

finden und fallen                    to find and to fall

haben und halten                   to have and to hold

ich und du                               I and you 

auf und zu                               open and shut

langsamer                              slowly

klingen kennen                      to come to know 

verbringen singen                 to spend time to sing

essen und trinken                  to eat and to drink

rennen und springen             to run and to jump

ich und du                               I and you   

auf und zu                               open and shut

langsamer                              slowly

geben gefallen                       to give to be pleasing

gewinnen gelingen                to win to succeed

erfahren und wachsen          to learn and to grow

fuhlen und fullen                     to feel and to fill

ich und du                               I and you

auf und zu                               open and shut

langsamer                              slowly

 

bitten bleiben                         to plead to stay

schweigen schreien              to be silent to scream

versprechen und verlieren    to promse and to lose

sinken und leiden                  to sink and to suffer

bedeuten verlieben               to mean to love

sich erholen                           to recover

 


                                          274                  

Baby Let’s Be Lovers

The moment I saw U I could tell right away

That U were the 1 I’ve been trying to find

4 so long

Your eyes shone so brightly I just had to say

That U could be the 1 I’ve been dying to find

4 so long

Sexy coy beauty and passion sublime

We’ll have such fun if U call me sometime

I’ll be so strong

Baby let’s be lovers

 

The 2nd I kissed U I wanted 2 needed 2 stay

2 bask in the light of your sensual mind

‘til I’m burning

The heat of your sweetness grows hot with delay

2 stare at the sun of your love ‘til I’m blind

And I’m burning

Still even the gods face the limit of time

Will you be gone or will you be mine

Let’s not go wrong

Baby let’s be lovers

 

                                          275                  

Bear the Wire

I wouldn’t die lonely in my bed

Or wake up with my head on fire

In dire straits of evil dread

If I could only bear the wire

 

I wouldn’t feel so sad and dead

Or break up with my hearts desire

Untie her from my blood so red

I’d only need to bare the wire

 

I don’t remember what I said

Or things I did in flaming ire

But I could keep the hunger fed

If I could only bear the wire

 

I’d never dare where angels tread

Or watch the devil climbing higher

To stare like Christ at broken bread

While Judas tries to bare the wire

 

I wouldn’t seek oblivion

Or die like highway carrion

And I could surely carry on

If I could only bear the wire

 

I wouldn’t be so on the edge

Wedged into a funeral pyre

Drowning in the mucky mire

Crying ‘cause I just can’t bare the wire

 

                                          276                  

Get There Soon

Now I know where I need to go

Now I know where the flowers grow

Now I know where the river flows

Now I know where the whistle blows

And if I’m going nowhere too

I hope I get there soon

 

Now I know where the angels tread

Now I know where to get my bread

Know I know where the muse has fled

Now I know where to lay my head

And if I’m going nowhere too

I hope I get there soon

 

Now I know where the angels cry

Now I know where the eagles fly

Now I know where the children die

Now I know where the kids get high

And if I’m going nowhere too

I hope I get there soon

 

                                          277                  

Lovers and Fighters

Kiss so soft - hurt so bad

Be so happy - get so mad

I’m the best and worst you’ve had

I guess we’re lovers and fighters

Losers in love

Smile so sweet - cut so deep

A hold so tight that you can’t keep

Both wide awake and sound asleep

We remain lovers and fighters

Losers in love

Punch so hard a kind caress

Wanting more and getting less

Curse so loud my soul to bless

Still we’re just lovers and fighters

Losers in love

A ring of gold as cold as ice

An aisle filled with grains of rice

This lonely room was once so nice

We were once lovers and fighters

Losers in love

Tears of joy and tears of pain

Your angry screams a sweet refrain

An empty bed with sheets still stained

From the last of us - lovers and fighters

 

                                          278                  

Elaina

22

44

88

176

352

Excuse me

22

I feel so good I must be dead

Does it move you like it moves me

I’m just kidding who’s this

Can I pull him by his hair?

What is he eating?

Something happened

Is that the way it was?

Stand it up blue bird in my window

Ashes ashes we all fall down

And everybody falls like crazy, right?

Yeah I got rid of that soon as I got it

With joy and that guy

You ready for me?

Are you ready?

Well don’t worry

Open close open

All right I’ll wait for you

 

                                          279                  

474

I want a piece of everything

A little bit of heaven

Gonna go on tour on a 747

 

Driving in a bus is

Just getting me down

In and out of every little

One horse town

Playing every little bar

From here to kingdom come

And all because I wanna

Get to number one

I want a piece of everything

A little bit of heaven

Gonna go on tour on a 747

Getting on a train

Just gimme me a pain

It puts a major strain

Right upon my brain

Boats aren’t any better

Cause it always rains

I’d really like it more

If we could take a plane - chorus  (take off, eh?)

Doing 95 on hi 66

And gettin your kicks

All soft and slick

With the pretty little chicks

But those little white lines

Makin me insane (sniff)

Forget ridin the rails

Let’s take a plane

I want a piece of everything

A little bit of heaven

Gonna go on tour on a 747

 

                                          280                  

Mike P

I’m waiting on you once again

Don’t know if you’re gonna come

It’s giving me a pain I’ll make it plain

I’m feeling kinda dumb

You’re always late

I’m tired of waiting

I’ll say I’m kinda bored

And then some

 

Standing by my window pane

Wonder when you’re getting here

It’s not as if you’re on a train

You’re driving me to tears

It’s a crime

You waste my time

When are you gonna get it

Into gear

 

You’re cutting cross my grain

And I am getting rather mad

And if you took a plane

You’d still be late it’s so bad

I could’ve had a date

But you’re so late

Now I can’t get what I

Could’ve had

 

                                          281                  

Mimi

Mimi at the airport

Mimi at the bar

Mimi in your brand

Spankin new jaguar

 

Mimi at the office

Mimi after school

Mimi on the tennis court

Mimi in the pool

 

Mimi in the hallway

Mimi at the park

Mimi in the sunset

Mimi after dark

 

Mimi in the penthouse

Tara hotel

Mimi up in heaven

Mimi down in hello! Look at that!

 

Mimi in the back yeah

Mimi in the front

Mimi in ya hot sweet tight

White fox hunt

 

                                          282                  

What a Drag

Same old game again

It’s getting old

I’m getting tired

Lame old came again

My soul is sold

My spirit wired

I’ve got to cut you loose

Be free

It was fun back then

I’m feeling cold

But I’m on fire

There are other men

And I’ve been told

I’m her desire

I’ve got to cut you loose

Be free

What a drag

 

                                          283                  

Love’s Too Dangerous

You might get hurt

I might get hurt

There’s no chance for us

Love’s too dangerous

 

A stone that is thrown into the water

Sinks so fast

A pearl that is cast before the swine

Will never last

 

Chorus

 

A flower that is planted in the mud

Will never grow

A river that is dammed will be a lake

Before you know

 

Chorus

 

A mountain tall and mighty still will crumble

To the sea

The ocean of our fear is what lies ‘tween

You and me

 

Chorus

 

A heavy cloud’s a curtain on a sky that’s

Soon to rain

A certain friend of mine must run and hide to

Stop the pain

 

Chorus

 

                                          284                  

Idle Worship

Idle worship

O holy holy give thanks and praise

The mother father of our souls

Abandons us to raise

A storm cloud high and mighty striking down the infidel

Hurrying so to heaven that they find themselves in hell

 

                                          285                  

Burn It All Away

Someone I remember

There’s someone I forget

Someone I’m afraid of

And it’s someone I just met

When I’m cold and dry as stone

She makes me warm and wet

There are some things I have always had

And some I’ve yet to get

It’s just one more thing

Got to let it go

Burn it all away

 

Sometimes I remember

Something I forgot

Some things I have gotten

And some things I have not

Kisses I have stolen

Were sometimes dearly bought

Sometimes I escape but then

I find I’m caught

With just one more thing

Got to let it go

Burn it all away

 

There are some things that I wish for

And some things that I need

And sometimes when she cut me

I was much too quick to bleed

She said that I’m so hungry

I take too much to feed

Of all the things we planted

Not one made it to seed

It’s just one more thing

Got to let it go

Burn it all away

 

                                          286                  

Drinkin Drivin

I was drivin Route 100

Late that night as I recall

That barmaid sure was pretty

And the drinks she made were tall

But I didn’t see the trooper

Hidin out behind the bar

Yet I surely saw the rollers

Shinin blue atop his car

 

Trooper page trooper page

Please don’t lock me in that cage

I’m quite mature for a man my age

Besides I just got off the stage

 

I guess he was not impressed

By the look of his new guest

So he stood me by the headlights

And made me take the test

Though I thought I walked quite steady

He was ready with the cuffs

He said boy I think that you’ve been

Drinkin more than just enough

 

He dragged me to the station

And he read me all my rights

He said I think I can keep you here

At least a couple nights

I contact my attorney

And I contract him to plead

My defense dear sir you honor

One big break is all I need

 

Well I guess that judge’s breakfast

Wasn’t quite as nice as mine

Cause he took away my license

And he slapped me with a fine

But I’m not too unhappy

Cause at least I’m still alive

And I’ve surely learned my lesson

Not to drink when I must drive

 

                                          287                  

Nyla

I do what I can then I can what I do

I’m only a man and she was only a screw

I know what I know you know that it’s true

I think what I think and I think you do to

I paint what I see from my own point of view

I write down what I hear I guess I’m a thief too

I dry my own tears but you untangle my blues

When you run from your fears it’s straight to you know who

 

 

                                          288                  

Sister Ride

Sweet as candy

Chocolate bunny

Honey you’re a feast oh

Next thing y’know

She’s my whole

Funky cold soul sistah

Ride!

Swung my baseball

Bat at that y’know

I shoulda missed her

Scratch that itch yeah

She’s my bitchen

Funky soul sistah

Right!

Vanilla fudge that

Killer sludge as

Soon as I kissed her

Sang that tune yeah

Be my poontang

Funky cold sistah

Mine!

 

                                          289                  

So Long Solange

32 1st Tango in NY

To drink from your lips

The sweetest wine

And tango on the roof

A quiet cloudy New York night

You’re my living proof

Sul Ange so long

I know that it’s true

You’re leaving soon

Tomorrow you’ll be gone

Left cold and empty as the moon

Yet hot as the roof we danced upon

So long Sul Ange

I licked the salt

From your slender throat

Drank your ocean dry

Too proud to beg too dumb to steal

But not too proud to cry

Sul Ange so long

You feel my touch

My tender hand

Caressing yours and then

You’re gone and

All that I can do

Is hope we meet again

So long Sul Ange

 

                                          290                  

Let Me Be the One

Y’know I always wanted someone like you

Who speaks good French the way you do

But now today it’s laissez faire

An evening turned into a love affair

Pretty little dancer come dance with me

High upon a rooftop in New York City

Fait accompli cherie the deed is done

I hope some day that I can be the one

Let me be the one

You’re so tres chic my love and that’s a fact

Feelin like y’givin me a heart attack

Y’makin me salty & I make you sweet

Qu’est que ce you make me so complete

Drinkin that fine wine straight from your lips

Set me on fire with y’ fingertips

Y’know I hope you’ll soon fly back for more

L’amour toujours my darling I’m so sure

Let me be the one

They say good things must come to those who wait

Y’can’t fool fate now so don’t be late

You’ve got heart cherie tu as mon couer

You make good love tu fais le bon amour

I just can’t wait til you come back to me

But que sera yeah what will be must be

And if you do come back I hope you’ll stay

Till then I’ll think about you every day

Let me be the one

                                          291                  

Don’t Pretend with Me

I C U giving him the eye

Trying to act like you’re not

I C U reaching for the sky

Crying because you have not

Don’t pretend with me

 

I C U with another guy

Sighing softly when you’re caught

I C U flying oh so high

Buying more of what you bought

Don’t pretend with me

 

I C U dreaming of success

At best we’re mimicking the rest

I C U screaming more or less

A messy lesson in duress

Don’t pretend with me

 

I C U with your treasure chest

You slowly get undressed

I C U jumping from your nest

Imagining that you are blessed

Don’t pretend with me

 

                                          292                  

Stand and Curse

It hurts so badly

Like it’s never going to fade

So sore to the touch

Sleeping on the thorns I’ve laid

 

It’s coming down on me now

Like burning acid rain

I just don’t know how

I can ever stand the pain

 

Well when it rains it pours

And I’m a dam about to crack

The river’s run its course

She’s never coming back

 

Yes I’m the worse for wear

Tearing up my verse

And when there’s nothing left to tear

I’ll stand there, stare, and curse

 

                                          293                  

Forced to Steal

Inspired to create or forced to steal

What is fake and what is real?

What is truth and what are lies?

I see that sadness in your eyes

So I must be lying

 

If I treat you well you step on me

Is that the way that it must be?

If I treat you badly like a boring chore

You come begging back for more

And I leave you crying

 

I play you like a melody

I write your lines like a symphony

You cut me like a piece of stone

And twist the knife just to hear me moan

Feels like I’m dying

 

You love me like you hate your dad

And like my mother you make me mad

Looks like they’re just too much like us

That makes it just too dangerous

So we run like we’re flying

 

                                          294                  

Tonight

Where are you tonight I wonder - thunder in my ears

Underneath that sharp exterior I see frozen tears

Far away from me you wander - far and wide you roam

Seeking what you lost your father’s far away from home

Like you’re so far from me tonight

I wish you were here with me to share the things I see

What the hell it doesn’t matter - what will be must be

Passionate the dancer’s lonely cold but oh so hot

Musical the singer’s home is the one place you are not

Like you’re so far from me tonight

The nectar of the gods is brewing beneath the pale moon’s light

The only thing I know is that true lovers reunite

Agony and pleasure are so close you can’t decide

Which is more desirable the rider or the ride

You ride so far from me tonight

 

                                          295                  

Danny

Danny was a dancer that I fell into romance with

On a summer day

Saw her pretty face decided she was to my taste

And we were on our way

Watching her performance the beginning of the storm

Was headed out to sea

Hoping I could score well I was sitting on the floor

And she was next to me

So I said, “Everybody needs somebody sometime,

And I believe I need you right now.”

 

We smiled for a while couldn’t hide it went outside

To have a cigarette

I mumbled something dumb about my number and a pen

That we should go and get

Walking to the van and we were talking ‘bout Vancouver

That’s where she was from

Take her pretty hand and I was making a maneuver

Planned to make her come

Chorus - solo

So intelligent she said I know there’s somewhere else

That you’re supposed to be

I said I don’t care my dear and I ain’t goin nowhere

Unless you come with me

She said I need a shower baby meet me in an hour

In the parking lot

Flying on desire I was never any higher

I was steaming hot - chorus

I was acting macho as I fed her cheese and nachos

With some apple wine

Massaging my Sul Ange I was feeling rather large

And she was looking fine

And so we carried on making love until the dawn

Cleared the window sill

Cuddled under covers there in French I said I loved her

And I always will

 

                                          296                  

Unconditional

If I seem somewhat bent and raving

I’m afraid I must concur

Upon my soul she was engraving

A stolen picture of a bird

I lost something I was saving

When the accident occurred

She left behind a burning craving

For cigarettes and her

 

And I am not what you would call traditional

In fact that’s not what I would wish at all

To tell the truth I guess - I simply must confess

I want you as my lover - unconditional

 

Well if God had loved a liar

We’d both be kneeling at his feet

Any pretty tale will do

Just so long as it is neat

A little lie’s much better

If you keep it short and sweet

But you can’t stay in the kitchen

If you cannot stand the heat

 

Chorus

 

A smoke between my fingers

And her photo on the wall

The memory of her lingers

Just inside my empty hall

Her taste remains upon my lips

A scent that I recall

But when I reach out in the dark

She just isn’t there at all

 

                                          297                  

Dreaming of You

Woke up this morning I’d been dreaming of you

But the face right next to mine wasn’t yours

If I heard my own warning I mean nothing to you

I guess I wouldn’t mind oh but of course

Trying that next evening to find a little meaning

There by filling up the hole with empty flesh

In passion she was screaming but invisible tears streaming

In my mind the gears were grinding wouldn’t mesh

I want you but I don’t need you

Hungry I would love to feed you anytime

I like you but I don’t love you

You’re afraid of having that above you anytime

In the middle of the night I’m frightened

The lightning of my load just thundered

I wondered where you were but you are gone

I guess it is all good training

The muscles in my back still straining

I must maintain my balance on this wire I am on

 

                                          298                  

Hot Summer Love

The cold of the winter; the one thing I’m afraid of

What I need right now: one hot summer love

 

One night I met a dancer and she took me by the hand

She said I’d love to have you but I’ve got myself a man

I said that don’t confront me yeah I’ve had your type before

And though they love and leave me they come back for more

 

Took her to my castle drew the drawbridge closed the blinds

Took her to the bedroom for a meeting of the minds

Massaged her lovely shoulders Lord the lady was so kind

We talked of wine and roses as I tried to make her mine

 

A week went by a moment later and she was on her way

I told her that she was welcome anytime to stay

Soon it will be late September she might not be back

But she left me certain of one thing that is a fact

 

 

                                          299                  

Somehow Someway

Remember under August skies a pair of lovely dancing eyes

A sexy pair of lips I kissed a woman who did not exist

Habits can be hard to break but this one’s getting hard to take

I fall for what I cannot keep and I go off the deep end

 

Chorus

Meet me on the rooftop break me right in two don’t stop

Dancing in the moonlight kiss me once more and it’s all right

I’ll be back again someday - somehow and someway

 

Other faces can’t replace the traces of your salty taste

You’re always welcome in my bed I can’t get you out of my head

It’s not as bad as it may seem at least I have you in my dreams

You just say someway somehow but I want you right here right now

 

Chorus

Meet me on the rooftop break me right in two don’t stop

Dancing in the moonlight kiss me once more and it’s all right

I’ll be back again someday - somehow and someway

 

Wasted paper wasted ink and I’m wasting my time I think

A photograph is all I’ve got and you are somewhere I am not

I must be doing something wrong I didn’t want to write this song

To sing it only makes things worse so this’ll be the final verse

 

                                          300                  

For Now You’ll Do

I wonder where you’re coming from and which way are you going

Could I come along with you and maybe share the ride?

I feel a little sad tonight I hope it isn’t showing

It’s just that I was once so cold and now I’m burning up inside

I went for a cruise one day and met a bird so blue

Said if you’re not the one I choose at least for now you’ll do

 

Well I don’t know what time she left not sure which direction

But I must admit I asked if I could come along

She said I’m not in love with you but you do have my affection

Oh but I forgot to say I love your brand new song

It’s not a game you win or lose I hope you know it’s true

And if you’re not the one I choose at least for now you’ll do

 

So I stuck out my hiking thumb and turned my eyes towards the sun

Caught the next bird on the wing and traveled on from there

And though I know I’m not the one I’ll still be sticking to my guns

Sometimes I still hear her sing and I know I still care

But I just bought a pair of shoes they’re brand new suede and blue

And if they’re not the ones I’d choose at least for now they’ll do

 

                                          301                  

Dishrag

You spill your guts I wipe it up

Well baby that’s a drag

With all the things you are to me

I still won’t be your dishrag

 

Bury me in dirty laundry

I can’t breath I gag

I thought that you were once my friend

But you think I’m your dishrag

 

Bet you wish that I’d go fishin

Hung up on a snag

But love is not disposable

And I am not your dishrag

 

I am not your stallion

Fact I’m more like a stag

What’s more I’ve got news for you

I am not your dishrag

 

                                          302                  

Feels a Bit Like Love

It’s like fishing with a hand grenade

It’s like sugar in y’lemonade

It’s like shaving with a rusty blade

It’s like lying in the shade

I’d say it’s like I like you

But it feels a bit like love

 

It’s like trying hard to make the grade

It’s like running through a cannonade

It’s like had to go and should’ve stayed

It’s like Watergate and Gatorade

I’d say it’s like I like you

But it feels a bit like love

 

It’s like venom she sprayed

It’s like Jesus kissed Sinead

It’s like a pinball arcade

It’s like getting laid

It’s like a secret betrayed

It’s like a game we played

It’s like price we paid

It’s like this serenade

I’d say it’s like I like you

But it feels a bit like love

 

                                          303                  

So Far So Good

Sometimes you find good chemistry

When you are unsuspecting

I wasn’t even hunting but

I wound up collecting

Well I fell a little faster than I thought I would

But all I can say is so far so good

 

Sometimes you sow what you can’t reap

Sometimes you want what you can’t keep

If you think too much you just can’t sleep

The water looks shallow but it’s so deep

 

Naked in the mirror I can

See your eyes reflecting

The spark that jumps the gap

Between our bodies now connecting

Got a little more bent than I thought we could

But we just went so far so good

 

Suddenly I found a feeling

I was not expecting

My senses reeling I was shooting

She lay there directing

Come on back you know you should

I’m all about you so far so good

 

                                          304                  

Beauty Sublime and Innocent

Beauty sublime and innocent

An echo of the past

Inclined to be quite reticent

I’m not the first or last

Passion smooth and liquid

A famine to a feast

Chains of steel and leather whips

Still can’t tame the beast

Action to reaction

Desire at first sight

A moment lost to ponder

What is wrong or right

Sexy sweet hot rhythm

A creature of the night

Snakes entwined we slither

Slyly from the light

 

                                          305                  

Sailing on the Water

Sailing on the water

With the daughter of a sailor

Dreaming of the others

With the mother of a dreamer

Reach a little farther

For my father who’s a teacher

Thinking of another

For my brothers I’m a thinker

I deal with dirty dozens

Cause my cousin is a dealer

Still the faithful few

Who know my nephew is a killer

He dunked a couple punkers

When my uncle’s in a funk

My nieces fall to pieces

Cause they just can’t reach my aunt

But what am I to do?

 


                                          306                  

Sunburn

I’ve got another sunburn hon

My skin is red and blistered

You say I’ll die of cancer but

I’d sooner kiss your sister (yech!)

I spent all day just floating

On a boat out on the sea

I didn’t fail at sailing

But I lost the rest of me

I must have just gone overboard

I didn’t see me fall

But now whenever I’m in bed

I hear the oceans call

Like living in a seashell

The constant water tells

Sea spray blurs my vision

I’m no longer here at all

 

                                          307                  

Positive

You are my inspiration stimulation

Creative motivation

Elation consecration (bless my libation!)          

Don’t need no imitation (elation indication=erection)

 

I’m positive

Baby I’m positive

I’m positive about you

 

You are my deepest passion fascination

Hot sweet infatuation

Protection connection

Corrective redirection

 

I’m positive

Baby I’m positive

I’m positive about you

 

You are my emotional devotion

Insatiable temptation

Invitation to salvation

Sexual education

          

 

I’m positive

Baby I’m positive

I’m positive about you

 

                                          308                  

I Want to Be With You

You frighten me with your honesty

I’m not used to it

When a liar says she lies

Is there any truth to it?

We are two - too far apart

You left your rose and kept my heart

With you - I want to be with you

 

You trust no one but you trusted me

For an instant

The camera shows what no one knows

You’re infinite

We are two - too far apart

You left your rose and kept my heart

With you - I want to be with you

 

A tapestry of mystery

Surrounding me

Taste so great you devastate

You’re drowning me

We are two - too far apart

You left your rose and kept my heart

With you - I want to be with you

 

                                          309                  

Let’s See Some Action

Talk is cheap so you can keep it

Let’s see some action

I don’t believe a word I heard

Let’s see some action

 

Y’say you’re gonna git me

Well come on try’n hit me

Yeah let’s turn up the gas

I’ll kick your wimpy ass

 

She tells me that she miss me 

She wanna hug ‘n’ kiss me

1,2, buckle my shoe me

Come on baby do me

 

I say I been thinkin

‘bout quittin smoke ‘n’ drinkin

I do the best I can

But I am just a man

 

                                          310                  

Abandoned

Several years ago I met a woman

She slowly became a friend of mine

Beautiful and tall we had quite a ball

Drowning all our sorrows red in wine

She said she would soon be true to me

Several months went by we carried on

I believed in her because I was naive

But when I turned my back then she was gone

 

Abandoned by my lover and I never recovered

Exploding like a supernova and I never got over it

 

Now that time is over things are different

It’s not nearly the same as it was

At least I keep telling myself this

That’s not the effect that it caused

Instead I remain quite insanely

Enraptured by somebody else

A New World Columbus just shattered

Wand’ring the streets of New Chelsea

 

Abandoned by my lover and I never recovered

Exploding like a supernova and I never got over it

 

                                          311                  

Hold Me Tight

Hold me tight and turn the lights down low

Give me one more dance before you go

I’m gonna miss this it’s just what I want

Give me one more kiss before you’re gone

It’s not the first or worst disguise

Just one more chance before you fly

The sun will rise the world will turn

I’ll burn for you ‘til you return

 

Hold me near don’t fear the night

Shed one small tear before your flight

A lover’s leap so deep and sheer

Sing me one last song before you disappear

It’s such sweet bliss this painful part

Much softer still you touch my heart

She’d one more gift a soft refrain

She sang as she got on the plane

 

                                          312                  

Music Today

Music today she ain’t what she used to be

You are just a nobody ‘til you get on MTV

People used to sing to express how they feel

Now they sing expressly just to get a record deal

Just to get onstage these days you have to strike a pose

You can’t say fuck on the radio unless you’re Axl Rose

Seems to me Led Zeppelin’s Crunge sounds

Newer than Seattle grunge

You can’t do that onstage no more

Glamour punk is such a bore

Don’t mean a thing without that swing

Unless you’re Bono, Bruce, or Sting

And how about you Madonna?

Ya wanna?

 

                                          313                  

Grind It

I’m scared of the future

Lord please don’t let me get old

God don’t let me die

The body slowly failing

Ailing faster and faster

‘til at last

Forgetting the past

Empty cold void

Engulfing consuming

What little spark of life was left

Leaving a hollow corpse

In a shallow grave

The gallows pole

To late to save

The executioner

Who’ll be left to

Find his ax

And grind it?

 

                                          314                  

I Just Want

I don’t wanna marry you

Don’t wanna be engaged

I don’t wanna carry you

I finally reached the age

Where I just wanna fuck you

I just wanna fuck you

 

I don’t wanna miss you

I don’t wanna kiss you

I don’t wanna kill you

I don’t wanna fill you

I just wanna fuck you

 

Don’t wanna be your boyfriend

I got better things to do

So meet me in the playpen

‘cause I just wanna screw

 

I don’t wanna love you

Push n squeeze n shove you

I don’t wanna touch you

I won’t be a crutch for you

I just wanna fuck you

 

I don’t wanna need you

I don’t wanna feed you

Or take you to the movies

I just want you to do me

Screw me? Screw you!

I just wanna fuck you

(yikes! That’s ugly!)

 


                                          315                  

Photographs

We stand naked on the stone before the camera’s eye

Reaching out for the unknown beneath the autumn’s sky

The morning wind so cold that we were praying to the sun

This headstone may be old my love but we’re forever young

In photographs

 

Pretty as a picture as I wrap you in black lace

Trapped within the lens cap there reflects the angel’s face

The scene is somehow tragic and yet it remains comical

It’s magic in a hundred years we will still be beautiful

In photographs

 

We’ll never be lonely or wither and die

We’ll never be buried beneath autumn skies

We’ll never be ugly we’ll never go gray

I’ll never leave you and you’ll always stay

In photographs

 

 

                                          316                  

Americans

Down to the core baby I’m so sure

You’ve got an itch but we’ve got the cure

We finally scored and the shit’s truly pure

We left ‘em beggin for more on the European tour

We are the A - mericans

 

In the end love it’s so true

We just wanna do it to you

‘round the bend off into the blue

We’re all friends so lets all (have a picnic?) Screw!

We are the A - mericans

 

"All you Americans ever think about is sex!"

 

Don’t forget money!

 

McDonalds Burger King

Coca Cola Pepsi

Chrysler General Motors

Elvis Presley!

 

Hi - fi stereo

VCR.

White picket fence

And a brand new car

 

Record on the radio

Blue chip stock

Knock down drag out

Rock and roll video

 

MTV and NBC

CNN and NYC

CIA and KGB

Won’t you come and dance with me

We are the A - mericans

 

 

USA FBI

LSD SDI

SNL IRS

How’d we get into this mess?

We are the A- mericans

 

Homeless in the hundreds of thousands

Taxed into submission by fat hyenas

Who spend our money on murder and

Torture in third world countries

Selling sex, drugs, and guns

To our children on TV

Making war for fun and profit

 

                                          317                  

I Feel You

The smell of your perfume

Lingers on my clothes

I suppose it soon will fade

Like all the memories we made

(But I remember you)

The taste of dry champagne

Lingers on my lips

The tip of your finger traces

All the feelings I erased

(But I feel you)

 

The touch of your soft skin

Lingers on my hands

Like all the bands that I’ve been in

That emotion’s gone again to sin

(But I love you)

The sight of your sore eyes

Denies the truth of tears

The fears of our last kiss

Outweigh the hope and it comes to this

(But I miss you)

The sound of your sweet words

I heard within a glimpse of doubt

Without you I am gone and now

It’s time to carry on

 

                                          318                  

Excite Me

U excite me

U delight me

U polite me

Black on white me

 

U kiss me and

U miss me then

U piss me off

And dis me

 

U slight me and

U fight me

U say U might me

Every nite me

 

U heave me and

U ho me homey

Believe me but

U leave me

 

U blow me then

U throw me out

Love me hah!

U hardly know me!

 


                                          319                  

What Am I Gonna Do?

Frozen in a photograph

Hanging on my wall

I long to hear your laughter

But your not home to call

I want to feel your fingertips

Trail across my cheek

I’d love to kiss your soft sweet lips

And hear you softly speak

And you’d say

What am I gonna do with you?

 

Standing on a corner stoned

Somewhere USA

Call by public telephone

To tell me you’re OK

You say you’ll come back to my world

But you just don’t know when

And there are lots of other girls

And lots of other men

And I say

What am I gonna do with you?

 

Bathing in the candlelight

Naked on the bed

Drinking wine and feeling right

We slowly feed our heads

We are two becoming one

Exploding in the night

And in the summer morning sun

We climb to dizzy heights

So now what am I gonna do with you?

 

Cause now you’re just a memory

And you’re so far away

And though I knew you had to leave

I still begged you to stay

I wish I could write a brand new song

And bring you home to sing

Perhaps I could be wrong but for you

I’d do anything

So what am I gonna do with you?

 

 

                                          320                  

Nonsense

Iba blik boop wabba gidda

Nudda peesa butta booda

Snib a giblet ibin dippin

Ship a trippin happy hippie

Tooa place in Baton Rouge iffin

Yooby knowin wuttum meenin caubuz

Isho dono whaada fukkum talokibbin

Abbub owbout anna das fo sho bro dig?

 

                                          321                  

Bang!

I’m angry and I’m lonely

I’m empty and I’m crazy

I’m ugly and I’m only

Here to get stoned and start a blaze

I’m pissed off and I’m violent

I got a mean streak and I’m freaked out

I got a pistol illegal handgun

Out on the street to have some fun

Bang bang bang! Gonna shoot ‘em up

Bang bang bang! Gonna kill

Bang bang bang! With a vengeance

Bang bang bang! For a thrill

 

I’m young and I’m hungry

Live on the street I eat the trash

Gonna roll some old folks on their vacation

Because it’s easy and I need the cash

I’m a punk and I’m a junky

I am deadly because I’m funky

I kill the ladies

And I kill the cops

You’ll never stop me

Cause it never stops

Bang bang bang! Gonna shoot ‘em up

Bang bang bang! Gonna kill

Bang bang bang! With a vengeance

Bang bang bang! For a thrill

 


                                          322                  

Make You Happy

Wish I knew what notes to play

Wish I knew what words to say

Wish I knew one single way

That I could make you happy

 

Wish I knew which chords to choose

Wish I knew another blues

Wish I knew what you could use

So I could make you happy

 

A simple tune from me to you

Don’t know what’s what or who is who

But I hope for now this jam will do

Cause I wanna make you happy

 

Wish I knew which melody

Wish I knew which harmony

Wish that I knew rhythmically

How I could make you happy

 

Wish I knew a song to sing

Wish I knew which bell to ring

I wish that I knew anything

Just to make you happy

 

                                          323                  

Goodbye

I always thought I’d find the answer

I always thought I’d find the way

I always thought I’d be the dancer

I always thought you’d be there to stay

I always thought that you would be the strong one

I always thought I’d be the one to try

I always thought that I might be the wrong one

But I never thought I’d have to say good bye

 

I always thought that I would be the mild one

I always thought that you would be the child

I always thought our love would be a wild one

I always thought I’d drown in my denial

I always thought that you would be my ocean

I always thought that someday I’d go dry

I always thought that you’d keep my emotion

But I never thought I’d have to say good bye

 

                                          324                  

Psychosis

Misogyny and heterosexuality are

The ham and eggs of my psychosis

Misandry and your hunger for me

The bread and butter of your neurosis

Yours is the flower of my sweet soft pain

And mine is the fruit of your disdain

Alcohol and nicotine were the

Samson and Delilah my disease

While the robbery of snobbery

Left you alone to freeze

The sweat of my loins purloined

Like a coin from a pocket of doubt

I spent so long beating on your door that

You finally threw me out

 

                                          325                  

1968

I was born in 1968

That year I hear was great

The Aquarian girls were all underage

And they simply couldn’t wait

The love was free and the drugs were pure

The disease you got was easily cured

There was no such thing as Watergate

And most girls you’d meet were straight

LBJ and LSD

Tie-dyes freaks and hippies

The pot was cheap the music jammed

Mary Jane and trippies

I was born in 1968

That year I hear was fine

It’s almost 1999

And I’ve nothing

Left but lines

That rhyme

 


                                          326                  

Heading for the Wedding

I was heading for the wedding and I ran up the block

Because I do hate to be late and it was nearly four o’clock

I’m burning up inside I missed my chance to kiss the bride

Before she disappeared in mister sinister

But turning I denied that I was near enough to hear

The words I feared from blissful minister

D’you dear take this man here as yer lawful wedded trashcan

It was awful and I nearly died of shock

 

I wish I’d never gone don’t think that I can carry on

And I guess I must admit that I’d been drunk for several days

I was gettin loose on cactus juice and as I wrote this song

She’s was on her way to Tucson for her honeymoon (Tucson?)

So I went to the station met this pretty little Haitian girl

The next day we were on our way to Vegas

But there’s this bet I lost on to a businessman from Boston

And that Haitian girl got up and left with him

 

Though the chance was slim to none I got this phone call in my hotel room the bride Said that the groom had up and split

He’d headed out to Mexico with this porno star from Soho

But she didn’t think it (would) be hard to use his credit card

She said if it would be all right she’d take a plane to me tonite

And be mine I said that’s fine besides I’m lonely

And so the following day we realized love had gone astray

And we were meant for one another only

 

Never go to your ex-girlfriend’s wedding

Never grab a tiger by the tail

Always keep yer eye on where yer heading

Or y’might not survive alive to tell the tale

 

                                          327                  

Trippy Hippie Girl

She got that mango kangaroo shampoo and her name is MaryAnne

She likes to screw she eats tofu she’s a vegetarian

She knows she’s cool she wears Patchouli she’s kinda scary and

She’s a raving fairy she never shaves so she’s a very hairy

She’s a trippy hippie girl

 

She’s a high fly tie-dye Grateful Deadhead Zeppelin freak and all

She owns a Persian rug she drives a Bug that never ever stalls

With a nickel bag and Rasta flag she’s cums Niagara Falls

A ball bust free jack heart attack this lovely does it all

She’s a trippy hippie girl

 

Hot sweet lean mean fuck machine nineteen sixty-nines

Whip me beat me hit me hurt baby that’s just fine

Kiss me kill me love fulfill me every single time

She may want to play with me but she’ll never stay with me

Trippie hippie girl

 

                                          328                  

Marionette

The curtain comes up on this marionette

Playing his part to the hilt

Without the applause and the glow of the spotlight

This passionate flower must wilt

He recites all his lines while pretending he’s fine

But he’s hiding inside from his guilt

Holding dead flowers he cowers for hours

Saying “where are the ivory towers I built?”

 

This pretty sweet puppet is up to no good

You can see by the look on his face

Through red painted smiles his mistresses file all

Tangled in leather and lace

They dance and prance gaily but he’s in a trance

He sits there and stares into space

Then he looks up at last and screams at the cast

“Hey, does anyone know the way out of this place?”

 

The clouds draw together and eclipse the moon

The shining star falls from the sky

He climbs the stairs above where this Icarus dared

From the top he jumps as if to fly

Head much too full to feel gravity’s pull

Could be he’s been getting high

One final word heard ‘fore he hits the ground

“Why are the tears falling up from my eyes?”

 


                                          329                  

Stuck on You

Like six feet of mud

Flypaper and glue

Sweet little baby I’m stuck on you

I’m stuck on you

Stuck on you and I don’t know what I’m gonna do

 

Like twelve feet of snow

Stone cold and blue

Red hot mama I’m stuck on you

I’m stuck on you

Stuck on you like duct tape

 

Like bubble gum train

I go chew chew chew

Sticky little girl I’m stuck on you

Stuck on you

Love that true blue goo

 

                                          330                  

Drunk

Drunk again not gettin much done

But I’m really very popular

I’ve got this grungy look

And an attitude

But I’m kind of broke because I spend more than I make

 

                                          331                  

Tired and Lonely

I’m tired and I’m lonely and I’ve only just begun

To contemplate the pain that I’ve been fighting

The song that I’ve been writing isn’t finished

That diminished chord eludes me once again but that’s all right

We had a clam bake down at Pearl Jam Stanley Clarke

Was playin wam bam Iggy Popped into a Steely Dan

Motel room window sinner grins the pain subsides in vain again

Then Ziggy Stardust sang Piano Man

Billy Joel did U2 Babe but Bono didn’t wanna

Sting showed up but he got drunk and trashed the place

Michael Musto sang the blues and Marlon Brando came unglued

Mary wanna please lift up your dress undo your lace and kiss my face

 

                                          332                  

Edit Out the Predator

Someone shot twenty people on a train

Sometime late last week

I guess at last it’s mother earth

Inheriting the meek

For what it’s worth I’d like some

Electricity flowing through his veins

Electricity shorting out his brain

 

Jeffery Dahmer old Milwaukee

Sealed his victims’ fates

Television entertainment

For them it’s on too late

He’s insane and I want some

Electricity flowing through his veins

Electricity shorting out his brain

 

Random violence helter skelter

Shotgun forty four

Charlie Manson, Son of Sam

More Ted Bundy, more!

Edit out the predator

Edit out the predator

Edit out the predator

Edit out the predator

Electricity flowing through his veins

Electricity shorting out his brain

 

Gun control &

The death penalty

For brutal, random,

And multiple homicide.

Pedaphiles, murderers,

And psycho killers

Qu’est ce que c’est?

Beware motherfuckers

You’re dead

 


                                          333                  

I’m Sick

I’m sick and I have a cold

I’ve got I virus inside my soul

I’m illin and I’m chillin

From too much drinkin and smokin bowl

And rock and roll I’m still in

A cringe from binging on her purge

The urge to confiscate her hate is

Making it my own.

 

                                          334                  

Hurt Me

She slithered across the floor

Like a junkie about to score

She got it all she steamin hot

I just couldn’t wait to see more

 

She looked me in the eye

Like a tiger about to feed

She got real near whispered in my ear

There’s just one thing I need

 

I want you to hurt me

I’d love you to hurt me

 

Whip me beat me bite my lips & eat me

Hit me hurt me do me

Twist my nipples slap my face

Rip off my skirt and screw me

 

Be my daddy I’m a bad, bad girl

Grab me by the hair and yank me

Do whatever ya want to me

But please be sure and spank me

 

I want you to hurt me

I’d love you to hurt me

 

Chain me pain me come and stain me

Put me in my place

Kiss me softly on the scars

Then strangle me with lace

 

Scream and curse me I need perversity

Make it worse then nurse me

Suck me kill me lust fulfill me

Command me and I will be hurt me

I want you to hurt me

I’d love you to hurt me

 

                                          335                  

Nothing to Lose

I’m the bastard son of a prostitute

I got no family I’m an angry youth

I hate the system the way it screws us

I’m gonna tear it down I’ve got nothin 2 lose

 

Nothin more dangerous than nothin 2 lose

 

Long range rifle wit a long range scope

I shoot politicians but I don’t shoot dope

Edit out the senators be a congressional predator

I’ve lost my patience but I don’t lose hope

 

Killing all the lawyers would be a good start

Hang ‘em all up like pieces of art

I’m tired and angry I don’t wanna get smart

Put a bullet right through the President’s heart

 

200 years of the same old shit

Business as usual I’m sick of it

Fuck the police fuck the KKK

But don’t fuck the army ‘cause they’re half way gay

 

Nothin more dangerous I’ve got nothin 2 lose

 

I love my country it’s sacred ground

But it’s being run by half assed clowns

We can’t survive until the beast is dead

So line ‘em all up...and put bullets in their heads

 

                                          336                  

Radical Addict

Radical addict

Acting tough

Don’t know when

Enough’s enough

Screaming pain

A mystery jones

Clawed off flesh

On withered bones

Freakazoid psycho

And that’s a fact

Jacked up high

On pavement cracks

Back to back

With your own reflection

Look in the mirror

And face rejection

Agony writhes

Under concrete blocks

But money talks

And bullshit walks

How’s that for

Actual factual

Fuck face?

 

                                          337                  

We Don’t Want

We don’t want to interrupt your conversation

We don’t want to bother you at all

We don’t want to get out of your way at all and

We don’t want to go the way you always go

 

Saw a lady on the street and

Asked her if she knew where she was

It’s dangerous on your own at night

It’s the nasty part of town

 

We don’t want t’cause no brand new world sensation

We don’t want to get in anybody’s face

We don’t want gold records on the airwaves

We don’t want to fit in any special bin

 

She said I know just what I am doing

And I know exactly where i am

I know why I came out this way tonite

And who and when I’ll get it too

 


                                          338                  

I Get Up

She comes to me every now and then and

She turns me inside out

Who am I? Where am I? Why am I here?

And what am I about?

She says you make such good love babe

Darling that’s for sure

You know I know what I want and

What I want is more

 

But I don’t let don’t let it

Don’t let it don’t let it

Don’t let it get me down

I get it up!

 

Short and lean so squeaky clean now

Soft and smooth as silk

A creamy dream from in between and

Sweet like mother’s milk

I’m not too sure of anything

But there’s one thing I know

There’s only one way to keep her with me

I’ve got to let her go

 

But I don’t let don’t let it

Don’t let it don’t let it

Don’t let it get me down

I get it up!

 

                                          339                  

Victim Eyes

You wonder why it happens to you

Like all the others in my life

Taken against your will by friends and family strangers too

Held hostage with a paper knife

The evil done to you when you were a child

Deception degradation fear and lies

Draws the echo of the past defiled

Disguised by your adoring victim eyes

Victim eyes

 

You can’t sleep at night you wake up crying

Repeating patterns you can’t even see

Paralyzed by memories you’re denying

Bound by brain chains but you hold the key

The future’s often guided by the past

That rain falls hard and fast from cold gray skies

A captain lashed and bound tight to the mast

The storm attracted by your victim eyes

Victim eyes

 

                                          340                  

Montreal

The morning sun in Montreal

Was cold and bright as snow that falls

But I felt so soft and safe and warm with you

Your tender touch a sweet caress

That burned away my emptiness

My shelter from the storm turned gray skies blue

 

Your hot and salty sexy French

Twists me like a velvet wrench

So light and tight I’m right against the seam

The finest food and cheap champagne

Washed me clean like summer rain

The pain I feel without you makes me scream

 

I’m hungry as a burning tiger

Crying tears of silken fire

Desire pleasure too intense to bear

To kiss your lips so lush and full

Screaming tryst of push and pull

I wrap myself within your long brown hair

 

To taste your throat and smell your skin

Exploding in your sultry sin

A burning need to feed that’s much too hot

Your grace and poise knock me out

You take me in I’m inside out

But with me is the one thing that you’re not

 

                                          341                  

Crash and Burn

Just when you thought you were all secure

Everything’s cool you’re styling

Your heart was clear your mind was pure

Everything fine and you’re smiling

Crash and burn

 

Just when you’re positive you’re totally sure

It’s all set and you’re jamming

You thought you were sick and you found the cure

But now it’s the bricks you’re slamming

Crash and burn

 

Everything’s bitchin now certainly so

There’s no doubt you’re kicking

But your soul’s itching and I damn well know

The needle’s sharp and you’re sticking

Crash and burn

                                          342                  

Soon

à bientôt j’esper

si nous allons nulle part

j’ésper nous arrivons â bientôt

 

                                          343                  

Marrow

Strawberry chocolate fine champagne

A broken rose who knows how to play the game

I can feel her deep within my bones

The spike in my arm’s just a Jesus Jones

And I can feel it in my marrow

 

When you walk into the fire eyes open you burn

You’re smart enough boy but you just don’t learn

Steel eyed pride don’t hide the pain in your brain

When the fire of desire’s burning in your veins

And I can feel it in my marrow

 

You’re OK when you’re happy when you’re sad you’re dead

And the needle in your arm is like a bullet in the head

The race that we begun is hard to run and no one won

Proving love is just a game and that it isn’t always fun

And I can feel it in my marrow

 

I hear that heaven’s nice but I’d rather it wait

But you can’t fool fate so don’t be late

If we’re going nowhere fast I hope we get there soon

Cause no one gets far on a needle and a spoon

And I can feel it in my marrow

                                          344                  

Power and Pain

Power and pain

I’m scared to death

I’m out of breath

From runnin your train

Agony fear

Last on the line

I don’t have the time

To wipe away tears

And I drift away

Passion insane

But I’m on the wire

Chemical fire

Burning again

Lovers in lust

Placing our bets

Covered in sweat

Because we must

And we drift away

 

                                          345                  

Lying Machine

Tell me that you love me

How I love it when you lie

Tell me that you’re clean but

What’s that pin hole in your eye

Well I have got no fear dear

Because everybody dies

Tell me you love me once more

Just before you say goodbye

You tell pretty little lies

You’re a pretty little liar

You’re a pretty little lyin machine

 

Don’t tell me the truth please

Because I don’t want to know

My youth is gone and so I guess

It’s time for me to go

Hurry up and shoot me now

Let’s get on with the show

Let’s throw it all away now

Let’s throw it all away now

You tell pretty little lies

You’re a pretty little liar

You’re a pretty little lyin machine

 

Tell me that you love me

Staring at the empty sky

Tell me that I’m sexy

Then proceed to tell my why

Tell me I’m fantastic

Tell me how I satisfy

Tell me that you love me

How I love it when you lie

You tell pretty little lies, etc..

 

                                          346                  

Come with Me

C’mon and come with me

Looking for a good time?

Would you spend some time with me?

I’ll try and satisfy

Anticipate your every need

Come on and come

Come on and come

Come on and come with me

I’ll burn you then

I’ll churn you then

I’ll turn you inside out

Respond and turn you on

And then proceed to

Knock you out

Come on come on come on come on

Come on

Tease you and I’ll please you

Caress and kiss and squeeze you

Feed you and I’ll bleed you oh

My God oh how I need you yeah

Come on come on

Come on and come with me

 

                                          347                  

Reality Sucks

Fuck reality

Reality sucks

Fuck reality

Reality sucks

Get a job cut your hair

Fuck that bullshit I don’t care

Fuck reality

Reality sucks

Fuck reality

Reality sucks

Let’s get married let’s grow up

Fuck that shit man that’s fucked up

 

Pretty corpse won’t grow old

Sex and drugs and rock and roll

Fuck reality

Reality sucks

Fuck reality

Reality sucks

Have a good time fore you lose it

You waste it if you don’t use it

Fuck reality

Reality sucks

Fuck reality

Reality sucks

                                          348                  

Sands of Time

I can smell her on my hands

The sands of time begin to swirl

The hell I put myself through just

For the love of God this girl

Turns me on and whips me up

She tears me inside out

Can’t sleep or eat I can’t retreat

So what is this about?

I guess I get my death wish

But the package sure is fine

Excuse me this but nothing can

Withstand the sands of time

 

I can taste you on my lips

The tips of fingers start to burn

Your jeans slung low on hips

You’re shooting pool but who’ll return?

The feeder and the breeder lying

Bleeding on the ground

Comatose on overdose

I hear the siren sound

Got my screaming demons but

At least they’re mine all mine

Forgive me this but nothing can

Withstand the sands of time

 

I see you in my eyes your lies

Still hold the ring of truth

Ruthless child’s wise disguise

Cold gin and dry vermouth

Pretty little city tittie

Bar I’m gonna die

Why are you doing this Toomey?

Why the hell ask why?

Forgive me dear but when your fear

Is crystal clear and fine

Don’t forget that nothing can

Withstand the sands of time

                                          349                  

It’s Over

Keep it up

Get it on

Freaking out

Coming in

Going down

Getting off

In between

Underneath

All around

On the ground

Over and over

And over and over

It’s over

                                          350                  

Long Way Down

Everyday I wake and say

Good morning sun

I want to fly get up so high

Be fuckin A-1

But it’s such a long long long long long

Way down

I want to climb up to the sky

And spread my wings

Sung at the top of my lungs

I want everything

But it’s such a long long

Long long long way down

 

                                          351                  

F N A

F N  A

God you made me

Look what you made me

Oh God look what you made me do

Agony and ecstasy

 

Pleasure and pain

Flooding me brain

Staining my soul

Now I’m under control

 

Flaming desire

Burning with ice

So nice I submit

You dominate it

 

So frustrated

I’m hating it

Feel like a whore

Begging for more

 

                                          352                  

Scoring

I wanted to slash my wrist

But it was dull

I wanted to fuck my fist

But that was boring

A little bitter kiss

And Jethro Tull

At last it comes to this

I’m out here whoring

 

The silver bullet missed

Right through my skull

Guess I get the gist

The bullshit’s goring

Romantic twisted tryst

A storming lull

Agony to bliss

I go out scoring

 

                                          353                  

Burning

I can feel it in my bones

I can feel it in my bones

I can feel it in my bones

And it’s burning

 

I can touch it

I can taste it

I can smell it

I can see it

I can hear it

I can feel it

But I can’t have it

 

I can feel it in my bones

I can feel it in my bones

I can feel it in my bones

And it’s burning

 

I can want it

I can need it

I can eat it

I can feed it

I can love it

I can shove it

I can feel it

But I can’t have it (repeat)

 

I can feel it in my bones

I can feel it in my bones

I can feel it in my bones

And it’s burning

 

                                          354                  

Naked Laughing Baboons

If naked laughing baboons could see me now they’d be silent in awe of the horseshoe legs I’ve grown on my agonized brain burning with ice cold steel fire and pins and needles sticking into the veins of my love the angels come tangoing down from above to give the red doggie a bone and their God only knows how long I’ve been alone with my family and lovers and haters in French and my simple single horrible hephalump heart I’m starting to go down on the wings of a prayer and I don’t have the carefully staring white hair mights be I been gone bitsy freaked out like lightning bugs lightbulb ablaze with desire moths to the game flame I’m ashamed to admit that I got my own self into all of this shit

 

                                          355                  

Kill Me Now

You lie and I believe it

Don’t know why I’m so naive

I guess deceiving me is easy

Cause you know I’ll never leave

You can’t get blood from a stone

I am only flesh and bone

I’m lonely but I know

I’m not alone

 

You synthesize your lies

With prize fight logic I despise

The hawk flies for the time it buys

To make his your disguise

You can’t get blood from a stone

I am only flesh and bone

I’m lonely but I know

I’m not alone

And I’m bleeding

 

Desperate and unhappy

As you slap me in the face

Replace the trace of sunshine

That once shone in this place

You can’t get blood from a stone

I am only flesh and bone

I’m lonely but I know

I’m not alone

 

Guess I’m only satisfied

I tried to be this way

Sin and desolation of

The soul’s a game I play

Staring in the mirror as I

Pound my hungry meat

Guess that’s how it goes

Oh well I’m back on the street

 

Kill me now

Kill me now

Kill me now

Kill me now

Kill me now

Kill me now

Kill me now

Kill me now

Kill me now

Kill me now

Kill me now

Kill me now

Kill me now

Kill me now

Kill me now

Kill me now

                                          356                  

Lil Punk Rocker

She’s a little punk rocker

And I’m her rock and roll

She’s a little punk rocker

And I’m her rock and roll

And I know that she loves me

Cause she always tells me so

 

She’s a little punk rocker

Dyed green hair and all

She’s a little punk rocker

You know I’m going to fall

She’s a little punk rocker

And I’m her rock and roll

 

She’s a little punk rocker

David Bowie and Iggy Pop

She’s a little punk rocker

Never going to stop

She’s a little punk rocker

And she takes me to the top

 

She’s a little punk rocker

Nipple ring tattoo

She’s a little punk rocker

Y’know she loves to screw

C’mon little punk rocker

Do what you gotta do

 


                                          357                  

Come Play with Me

Heaven help me I just saw

Something you can’t see

There was this big ugly monster

Trying to be me

He said come on

Come play with me

 

I’ll teach you words that can’t be spoken

Spells that can’t be broken

Taste what can’t be smelled

I’m taking you to hell

He said come on

Come play with me

 

The devil and the deep blue sea

There’s nowhere left to hide

The rock and hard place drying up

I ‘m dying slow inside

And he said come on

Come play with me

 

                                          358                  

??

The sins of the father

Are the sins of the son

 

                                          359                  

She’s Gonna Givita Me

She’s gonna give it to me

When I get home

I’m a bad ass outlaw

Mean as a snake

But she’s givin out

More than I can take

 

She’s gonna give it to me

When I get home

Good boys go to heaven

Bad boys go to hell

Don’t know where I’m goin

But it’s just as well

She’s gonna give it to me

When I get home

 

                                          360                  

Stick and Move

Don’t stay in one place

You might get hit

Do what you gotta do

And when it’s time to screw

Just pick up yer shit and git

Stick and move

 

Hanging around

Just gets me down

Go where I wanna go

And when it’s time to blow

I just boogie out of town

Stick and move

 

Like a rolling stone

I’m free to be

Gonna dance and sing

And keep doing my thing

And when it’s time to fly I flee

Stick and move

 

 

                                          361                  

Broken

I’m scared I’m gonna lose ya

I’ve seen this shit before

I watched this movie time and again

I don’t wanna watch no more

I go my way you go yours

I don’t wanna be alone

My river’s on a different course

I can’t wash away the stone

Stay with me

Oh God please stay with me

I’m broken and

I really need a fix

 

I know that I can’t keep you

I just can’t get away

It’s something I can’t deal with

But I see it every day

I know I’m gonna die

But it’s not scaring me a bit

All I can do is try

I’m not afraid of it

Stay with me

Oh God please stay with me

I’m broken and

I really need a fix

 

I don’t wanna hurt you

I don’t need to drag you down

It’s just that when I’m smiling

I can’t hide this frown

I feel like life is killing me

I’m sure I’m gonna drown

You stretch me on the rack

I lie there gagged and bound

Stay with me

Oh God please stay with me

I’m broken and

I really need a fix

 

                                          362                  

Give It Up

I can feel I’m losing you

I can see you think I’m using you

I can see you think I’m using

And I don’t find it amusing

And I think it’s time to give it up

 

Please don’t think I’m mean

I’m just so sick of this scene

I’ve seen this show before

And I don’t wanna watch no more

And I think it’s time to give it up

 

I can’t stand to see

This happening to me again

Forget how it began

Because I know how it ends

And I think it’s time to give it up

 

                                          363                  

Pool

Burning green the colors clack

Crash collide and spinning in infinity

Falling one by one

Down the wells of destiny

The staff propels

Motivating

Yet the draw is short

And the passion play passes on

 

                                          364                  

Wasted

I can’t wait to see you

And I will not forget

I wish we’d stay together

I wish we’d never met

Jesus in the garden

Drinks the poison cup

Judas in the hallway

God I’m so mixed up

Devil in my blue jeans

Angel in my bed

Pulling on my harp strings

Playing with my head

I’m not the type to cry

But what’s that there in my eye

Hot as flame cold as ice

And I don’t know why

I can’t face the mirror

Or the look upon my face

Feeling like I’m stealing time

Until I get replaced

Eating me and drinking me

It gets out of control

Chasing small white rabbits

Now I’m falling down the hole

 


                                          365                  

Sixty Chevrole

I been drivin out from Texas

Drove this Ford all the way

From Mexico through Texas

Drove this Ford all the way

And if this Ford don’t make

Gonna buy a Chevrolet

1960 Chevrolet I want a ‘60 Chevrolet

You know I’m gonna buy me

1960 Chevrolet

I’m headin up to Memphis

Gonna get there any day

I’m on my way to Memphis

And you know I’m gonna stay

Well I can’t afford a Harley

So I’ll buy a Chevrolet

1960 Chevrolet I want a ‘60 Chevrolet

You know I’m gonna buy me

1960 Chevrolet

Well we’re aimin to be famous

For the music we play

And who the hell could blame us

It can be excellent pay

And when I get my Harley

I’m gonna scrap that Chevrolet

1960 Harley D. I want a ‘60 Harley D.

You know I’m gonna buy me

1960 Chevrolet

 

                                          366                  

Going Down Again

Reach for that addiction

Picturing the end

Preaching malediction

Upon the race of men

Caught with that affliction

You don’t know where it’s been

And you’re going down again

 

Quick to adulation

Confronting if you can

Sin and isolation

Going round the bend

Resisting that temptation

And giving in again

And you’re going down again

 

Craving that compunction

You stab and tear and rend

It’s hard sometimes to function

When you’re losing a friend

You finally reach the junction

And it’s ten out of ten

And you’re going down again

 

                                          367                  

Let It Go

I’m in love with pain

And it’s killing me

I’m in love with pain

And it’s killing me

I just can’t let it go

Let it go!

I’m so numb I cannot

Feel a thing

I’m so numb I cannot

Feel a thing

Unless it’s agony extreme

And I want to scream!

I’m so cold I freeze

Like fallen snow

I’m so cold I freeze

Like fallen snow

White hot burning suffering

I love it!

Trapped within myself

I can’t escape

Trapped within myself

I can’t escape

Fill it up with hate

And rape me!

                                          368                  

I Feel It

I’m caught up in the pain

So deep down in the well

And she stares the window

Lost in memories

Laughing as we cry

And living as we die

Perhaps it’s just a moment

But I feel it

Come on smile love

Because I love you

It hasn’t been that long

Maybe it’s just another song

But the melody is stickin in my head

And I dig it

So does it start and end in bed

Or is there something more?

I can’t tell you how afraid

I am to think so

Because I feel it

Are you going to stay

Or will you turn and walk away

Just when I need you?

I don’t know what I’m saying

And I don’t know where we’re going

But I do know where we are

Cause you’re with me

It feels like home

                                          369                  

Losing My Shit

I’m losing my shit

I just can’t keep up with it

It runs me into the ground

Now I’m going down

 

Trying to keep

The pieces all together

They’re coming apart again

At the seams

I can’t grip the sands of time

Slip through my fingers

I know no one will hear

My silent screams

 

I’m losing my mind

My brain cannot find

A way to get out

Of this nagging doubt

 

I’m losing my soul

Trapped in this hole

I’m going insane

Burning in pain

                                          370                  

What Do You Have

The sun streaming through my window

Illuminates your face

You’re peaceful sleeping

In a warm dry place

Your tears were wet

In the van last nite

Filled with regret and longing

Could have should have

Would have but they

Took it all away

You’ve lost so much

You can’t even see

What you do have

 

You come screaming through my doorway

Doomed and beautiful grace

A wishful antennae

A vendetta in lace

Your eyes were cold

In a hot sweaty bar

Filled with loud music and pain

Can have might have

Will have but

It makes it hurt so much

You don’t even care

What you do have

                                          371                  

When I Want It

I don’t need your sympathy

I’m not a mercy case

There are more fish in the sea

And you can be replaced

I am not your dog

And I will not beg for a taste

‘cause I want what I want when I want it

 

I won’t get on my knees except to

Please you understand

You know I’m scared to die of that

Disease I’m just a man

And if you want to leave me in the

Freeze your time’s at hand

‘cause I want what I want when I want it

 

You know how I love to

Satisfy that’s what I do

Sanctify and purify and

Gratifying you

There’s now way I can justify this

Constant need to

Want what I want when I

Want what I want when I

Want what I want when I want it

 

                                          372                  

Love You 4 Eva

I luv u 2 4 ev r n all ways (always)?

Always! Koo koo kachoo!

Pacé + Andy

 

                                          373                  

Awake

If life is but a dream

Then let me wake up now

 

I just want more than I can take

Sometimes the habits hard to break

I just got bitten by the snake

And now I need to stay awake

Keep me awake

So now my fingers start to shake

It can’t be real and I can’t fake it

I can try but I can’t make it

Because I have to stay awake

Keep me awake

The boat’s are burning on my lake

My heart feels like an earthquake

Her fingernails feel like a rake

Across my back keep me awake

Keep me awake

For heaven’s sake keep me awake

 

If life is but a dream

Then let me wake up now

                                          374                  

Creature of the Night

I want to sleep all day

I hate the morning light

I think I am becoming

A creature of the night

 

The stars so sweetly shining

The moon is pale and bright

I feel myself becoming

A creature of the night

 

I want to kiss the darkness

Supernatural sight

Fly on wings of silver silk

A creature of the night

 

The first star in the sky

I’m wishing that I might

I’m hoping that I may become

A creature of the night

 

Looking so alive

My skin so pale and white

My eyes glow like ebony

A creature of the night

 

                                          375                  

Stripper

She gets down on her knees

And spreads those lovely legs

Smiles at me sweetly as she lies

“My name is Meg”

Exotic sweet and tight

Super hot with sass

She shakes it left and right

You know the girl has class

 

Now she grabs the pole

And slowly spins around

Then she’s climbing up

Now she’s sliding down

Slinks across the floor

To flash a little flesh

Her skirt is made of leather

Her shirt is see-through mesh

 

Stud collar and a chain

Got cash dollars on the brain

She wiggles and she giggles

As she tosses her mane

Eye shadow and lipstick

Perfume smile hello

Oh so nice to meet you

But know I’ve got to go

 

                                          376                  

Life’s a Bitch and Then You Die

Tear your heart out kill your mother

Break some glass and cut your brother

Bang your head with all your might

Go get drunk and pick a fight

Pierce your nipples and your nose

Wear lipstick and pantyhose

Shoot some dope and get real high

Life’s a bitch and then you die!!!!

Buy a Harley and some leather

Tough luck Charlie rainy weather

Smoke some crack and shoot a cop

Don’t look back cause you can’t stop

Pop some uppers drop some ‘ludes

Kick a puppy get tattooed

Wonder why you start to cry?

Life’s a bitch and then you die!!!!

Now y’chillin wit da killin

Robbing hood y’ burning stealing

Rape and murder pillage loot

Bomb your daddy’s church to boot

Crystal meth and XTC

LSD is good for me

What’s the time it’s time to buy

Life’s a bitch and then you die

 

                                          377                  

Ducks, Frogs, and Dogs

An ugly duck becomes a swan

But frogs cannot be birds

Old dogs cannot learn new tricks

At least that’s what I’ve heard

 

You can’t kick that same old fix

But I won’t say a word

She thinks it’s ridiculous

But I know that’s absurd

 

Kiss me I’ll become a prince

And you can be my queen

I won’t leave my fingerprints

If you know what I mean

 

If pigs could fly I’d be sky-high

You know you can’t do it

But I jump off the cliff to try

To squeeze that last sweet bit

 

                                          378                  

Jerry Garcia’s Dead

The promises you hear are hollow

We all need someone to follow

But Jerry choked on a chicken dish

And now the Deadheads follow Phish

Jerry Garcia’s dead

 

All the hippies sit and cry

The fatman’s rockin in the sky

His skeleton has long grey hair

Telling God get out of his chair

Jerry Garcia’s dead

 

I heard that dead can dance

But Jerry never had a chance

Thirty years is a bit long

Singing all the same songs wrong

Jerry Garcia’s dead

 

True blue love oh I’m so sure

She split to go deal drugs on tour

But now the Dead don’t make a sound

‘cause Jerry’s six feet underground

Jerry Garcia’s dead

 


                                          379                  

Portraits

Reach for the unreachable

Try to kiss the sky

Playing out a fantasy

And watching it unwind

I move to grip the tide

But the sand slips through my hands

You can lead a horse to water

But you can’t make him dance

 

Scramble for the beaches

As I run to catch the wind

I know that it’s a sin but

I know I’ll sin again

As happy as a hog

Just come and wallow in my sty

You can lead a pig to slaughter

But you can’t tell him why

 

Playing in a house of cards

I deal the final round

Whoops! Aces and eights again

The whole town tumbles down

Happy as a sturgeon

As he’s hanging from the gaff

You can lead a dog to laughter

But you can’t make him laugh

 

                                          380                  

Muthafucka

Pumpin the groove like a muthafucka

Yeah boy!

Bustin a move like a muthafucka

Go boy!

Jumpin her bones like a muthafucka

Yeah boy!

Feelin the jones like a muthafucka

Go!

Jammin the spam like a muthafucka

Yeah boy!

Wheelin the deal like a muthafucka

Go boy!

Knockin y’boots like a muthafucka

Yeah boy!

Smackin the shoots like a muthafucka

Go!

Kickin some ass like a muthafucka

Yeah boy!

Smokin the grass like a muthafucka

Go boy!

Swillin the booze like a muthafucka

Yeah boy!

Killin the cooze like a muthafucka

Go!

 

                                          381                  

The Hard Way

I see it every time I lay beside her

I watch it eat her up inside

Sometimes I find a lonely rider

And I’m only one more empty ride

Here at the bar at the marina

I’m sitting slowly getting drunk

It’s been so long since I have seen her

And I know there’s nothing left but junk

 

Tastes like a shotgun burns like the sun

I guess I only learn the hard way

 

What is it for? It’s just so boring

Standing high upon the shelf

I beg for more she’s out scoring

And I’m only talking to myself

So here today and gone tomorrow

So out of touch so in the pit

So I drown in seas of sorrow

She sinks down into it

                                          382                  

Chances for Dreams

Time was the one thing I had left

I’d nothing else to see me through

Moments seconds minutes hours

I didn’t know what else to do

 

I watched the clock for days and days

The hands of time had gripped my skin

They clutched my heart I lie unwaking

Caught by the fear I held within

 

Taking no chances for dreams

 

But I threw my watch into the ocean

I watched it slowly drift away

After a while it started sinking

It sank but I can’t say which way

 

And so I found my days were numbered

I wondered what “becomes of me?”

I once was lost in chains of reason

But now at last I’m finally free

 

Taking chances for dreams

                                          383                  

Carrying On

I sat alone all dazed and wondered

What did I do to get this way?

All my dreams were torn asunder

There was nothing left to say

 

I wrapped myself in chains of reason

The castle walls were ringed with fear

The battlements were so tall and mighty

I filled the moat with silent tears

 

The battlefield’s clear and the soldiers are gone

Only the tattered flags carrying on

A war between lovers and family and friends

An old boring story I know how it ends

 

One simple thing was all I wanted

It was the one thing I can’t keep

Drowned in the love that we once flaunted

She slowly cries herself to sleep

 

But now the barricades have fallen

The well of tears at last run dry

The sun comes up the moat is empty

There are no more tears to cry

 

Now the battlefield’s covered with flowers and such

I guess that it just doesn’t matter that much

Now even all of the flagpoles are gone

There’s only me and I’m carrying on

                                          384                  

Running and Hiding

Running and hiding won’t keep it away

It’s so hard to get out of yourself

We face our demons all sooner or late

But there’s no one with you to help

 

Spinning and whirling you try to break free

You’re trapped in the chains that you made

It’s there if you look but you don’t want to see

As you step on the mines that you laid

 

Turning and burning can’t put out the flames

You jump from the pan to the fire

Scratching and crawling you’re calling me names

But now you’re ablaze with desire

 

                                          385                  

Nothing There

I just can’t seem to concentrate

I’m so fucked up inside

I keep looking over my shoulder

I see no one

I know she’s there

But I don’t care

 

I know that I can’t penetrate

That thin elusive stare

I keep looking into her eyes

It’s my reflection

But I’m not there

And I’m so scared

 

I’m afraid to contemplate

The darkness in my head

I keep looking into my heart

But it’s empty

Completely bare

There’s nothing there

 


                                          386                  

 Nirvana

Livin in a rainy little one horse town

Playing in a band and we’re getting the sound

Along come a contract tell me to sign

Oh well whatever never mind

But then I take a shotgun blow me away

Then I take a shotgun blow me away

Which way to Nirvana?

 

Sell a million records on MTV

Everybody’s listening and looking at me

The band’s so hot and it’s just getting hotter

But I’m hooked up on that smackwater

And then I take a shotgun blow me away

Then I take a shotgun blow me away

Then I take a shot (gun)

Then I take a shot (gun)

Then I take a shot

And then I take a shotgun blow me away

Which way to Nirvana?

 

Face on the cover of a magazine

Andy shoots his gun but he don’t know what it means

I don’t know why they’re lookin cause there’s nothing to see

Just another sad lonely junkie

And then I took a shotgun blow me away

Double odd buckshot blow me away

Took a little shot (gun)

Took a little shot (gun)

Took a little shot

And then I took a shotgun

And blew me away

 

                                          387                  

Thadeous

The game is over

Time has won

I don’t want to remember

You were the one

 

You were mine

You were fine

I can’t take anymore

With your sweet flesh

I will dine

 

These visions I cannot purge

My imagination is too lovely

It tricks me into wanting

Wanting to observe

 

You were the one

I love you no more

Again I will feed

My mind is not yours

 

Get out of my head

You were the one

Get out of my head

Before we are dead

 

I can’t eat, I can’t sleep

I cant think, except

To see our end

I pray no more

No more to the torment

No more to the divine

No more to these visions

That invade my mind

 

You were one...

 

Thadeous

 

 

                                          388                  

Eventually

I guess you’ll come back

Eventually

It’s not that it’s essential

More like consequential

You’ll wind up here

Eventually

Three days on the run

I can’t believe you’re gone

Is it finally done

Or has it just begun

 

Eventually

I guess I’ll be gone

Eventually

It’s not like I’m demanding

Love and understanding

But I’ll be on my way

Eventually

Gotta trip away

Never stay too long

An hour to a day

A moment in a song...eventually

 

                                          389                  

Settle Down

Here it comes

Daddy

Your number one

Mommy

Your here to stay

Fucker

Somebody say

Sucker

 

Settle down

Settle down

Settle down

Rage

 

You had your fun

Daddy

That deed is done

Mommy

Your hands are tied

Fucker

The rabbit died

Sucker

 

Settle down

Settle down

Settle down

 

Rage

 


                                          390                  

Afraid

I haven’t written in so long

I haven’t got a single song

Just another glass of beer

And a bong hit

Let me hit you

And can I hit you? Why? ‘cause I’m afraid.

 

I haven’t played for several days

It’s hard to look at it this way

Just a pretty little girl

I can lay with

I can stay with

Can I play with you? No, I’m afraid.

 

I haven’t loved for many years

I couldn’t get beyond the tears

Just a simple little boy

I’m in fear of

I’m so near to

What I stayed clear of

But I did not stay clear of you

I strayed on you and I’m afraid of you

 

                                          391                  

Something

VD        

Baby I got something - something on my mind

Yeah I got something - you’ve been trying to find

Well I got something - I want you to see

Well I got something for you sweet baby

Have you got something for me?

                               

So now we’re getting into the grind

Sometimes the blind lead the blind

You never know what you’ve got until it’s gone

But it’s too late for that and so we’ve got to carry on

 

Baby you got something - something that I dig

Yeah you got something - you’ve got something big

Well you got something - old new borrowed and blue

I hope you got something for me because

I’ve got something for you

 

And now we’re getting it on the way

Should I come or should I stay

You never know what you’ll do until it’s done

And for your information I think this might be the one

 

‘cause we got something - we’ve got something hot

And we got something - we’ve got something cool

We got something - dank skank funky and green

We got something - you know what I mean

 

                                          392                  

Cruel

I’m envisioning a new transition

Motivated to create a state of flow

To rock where angels fear to go

Dependant only on the air conditions

And fly fly fly fly

 

I sat on a bench beside the trench

Induced to fabricate the flux

I had to rent a brand new tux

And grad a hold a’ my monkey wrench

And turn turn turn turn

 

A wicked little wiccan flicked my bic

And played a trick on me

She licked my sticky wicket

And convinced me I was stuck and now I’m

Fucked fucked fucked fucked

 

A raging little Cajun babe she

Played me for a fool laid me

Down on concrete and then

Tied me to a stool and she was

Cruel cruel cruel cruel cruel

 

                                          393                  

Banditos

Los banditos necessitan las pistolas

Los banditos necessitan bandeleros

Los banditos necessitan senoritas

Los banditos necessitan mas deneiro

Mas y mas y mas

Mas y mas y mas

Mas y mas deneiro!

 

Los banditos necessitan sus sombreros

Los banditos necessitan muchas drogas

Los banditos necessitan mas tequila

Los banditos necessitan mas cerveza

Mas y mas y mas

Mas y mas y mas

Mas y mas cerveza!

 

Los banditos necessitan sus amigos

Los banditos necessitan sus hermanos

Los banditos necessitan los cigaros

Los banditos necessitan abogados

 

No! Los banditos no necessitan abogados!

Necessitan mas y mas y mas

Mas y mas y mas

Mas mas senoritas!

 

                                          394                  

Stand Up

Now I know that I’m the one

Someone run get me a gun

Now I know it’s here to stay

That’s why I’m blowing me away

My job is done I’ve got a son

So please forgive my final pun

As I lean upon my cane

I’m unable to take the pain

And I stand up straight as I fall down

And I stand up straight as I fall down

And I stand up straight as I fall down

And I fall down

 

I’ve been trying to stay positive

I’ve got good reasons to live

But I can’t find a reason why

It isn’t time for me to die

We’ve all got a point to make

I’ve only got my word to break

But no one makes a single sound

Buried six feet under ground

And I stand up straight as I fall down

And I stand up straight as I fall down

And I stand up straight as I fall down

And I stand up

 

                                          395                  

Crazy

Woke up in my clothes again

The fifteenth time this week

For what it’s worth I feel the earth

Inheriting the meek

Grouchy sleeping on the couch

And me an empty bed

Some of us are grateful

And some of us are dead

Once we both saw eye to eye

And we danced cheek to cheek

Now we’re standing toe to toe

And we can’t even speak

Crying still we turn away

Got someone to blame

A cold cruel pail of water

Extinguishes the flame

 

                                          396                  

Calamity Jane

Love me - I hate it when you love me

Need me  - I don’t need you to need me

Touch me so I can flinch when you touch me

Cut me - so I can say that I bleed

Bleed bleed bleed

Calamity Jane

She’s a calamity Jane

Calamity Jane

She’s a calamity

 

Save me - I don’t want you to save me

Kiss me - so I can turn away

Slap me - so I can say that you hurt me

Hold me - so I can leave today

Hey yay way

Calamity Jane

She’s a calamity Jane

Calamity Jane

She’s a calamity

She’s a calamity

 

Want me - I don’t want you to want me

Help me - won’t you take my hand

Take me - I just can’t let you take me

Woman - doesn’t need a man

Band stand plan

She planned to be

Calamity Jane

She’s a calamity Jane

Calamity Jane

She’s a calamity

She’s a calamity

 

                                          397                  

Nightmares

Nightmares

Of

Children

Crying

Screaming

And

Dying

Hourly

Reminding

Me

Of

The

Crime

I’m

Committing

Sitting

So

Passively

Waiting

 

                                          398                  

The Harder I Try

The harder I try

I get more nowhere quick

I just can’t do those backflips

Quite fast enough

I shovel that shit

At the tide till I’m sick

And the waters are

Frigid and rough

Drowning

I push toward the shore

But get further away

From a beach I can

No longer see

I pray for some more

But get less every day

Bedeviled by the cold

Deep blue sea

Drowning

And so I go down

For the third and last time

The fish wear a frown

As I sink

I breathe in the water

So salty and sweet

And you are the last thought

I think...

                                          399                  

Too Little Too Late

Ashes to ashes

Dust to dust

If you don’t take it out

And use it it’ll rust and it’s just

Too little too

Too little too

Too little too late to matter

Too little too

Too little too

Too little too late

You do what you can and when

You can’t do what you must

You do what you want when

Love’s a by product of lust and you thrust

Too little too

Too little too

Too little too late to matter

Too little too

Too little too

Too little too late

You can’t stop the flood

When there is no one you can trust

Stick your finger in the dike

But she’s a freeze and it’s a bust

                                          400                  

Blood of the Innocent

A little tiny baby Lord

It’s tiny heart still breakin’

It’s hard to sing a song of life

When your life has been taken

Some people think that life’s a toy

And love is just a game

You get back your freedom

And you leave ‘em with the blame

Try as I might though I scrub day and night

I can’t wash the blood of the innocent from my hands

 

In America you kill a man

You go to jail for life

I can’t believe how cheaply

We put children to the knife

I believe in freedom

And I always fought for choice

But you can’t fight for your own life

When you don’t have a voice

Try as I might though I scrub day and night

I can’t wash the blood of the innocent from my hands

 

                                          401                  

More and More

More and more love

More and more money

More and more rope

More and more dope

More and more and more and more and more yeah

 

More and more sex

More and more violence

More and more noise

More and more silence

More and more and more and more and more yeah

More and more and more and more and more

Solo

More and more words

More and more action

More and more fire

More desire

More and more and more and more and more

More and more and more and more and more

 

More and more wine

More and more beer

More and more pain

More and more fear

More and more and more and more and more

More and more and more and more and more

More and more and more and more and more

More and more and more and more and more

 

More?

 

                                          402                  

Frankie & Andy

Down by the ocean

Love lost tears they fly

I’ve seen them for as I go

Time it seems passes her by

 

Pain and torn pride with steel inside

Keeps you from my call far from my side

Dictation you give soothes only you

Recitation of your will is your only truth

 

All at once the break becomes yours

Your tears melt the ice you gave

Tears that cannot turn back my wasted time

That the queen the queen of what will be

Rule’s not my soul none that you can see

 

Keeping my fists clenched the sound i turn around

Red as blood we break ground

As you dance toward your very end

I can’t control myself and laugh at the thought

 

...Frankie

 

I’m standing here by an ocean so blue

Watching your love lost tears fly

I’ve seen them fall at my feet as I go

But time is just passing me by

 

She was the queen of what we might have been

But she can’t rule my soul if you know what I mean

 

Pain and torn pride with your steel deep inside

The words you say soothe only you

You hide from me you’re so far from my side

The games you play are your only truth

 

Fuck you bitch

 

All at once I see the break now is yours

Your tears melt the ice that you gave

But tears cannot turn back the time that I wasted

And you waste the time that I saved

 

She was the queen of what we might have been

But she can’t rule my soul if you know what I mean

 

Clenching my fists my ears hide from the sound

Red as the blood that we split on the ground

And you dance toward your end with the pain that you bought

I can’t stop myself as I laugh at the thought

 

...Andy

 

                                          403                  

Secrets

Secrets

Inside my head

Secrets

Under my bed

Secrets

Under rock and tree

Secrets

Between you and me

Secrets

In a gold mine

Canary

In a coal mine

Need a soul

I’ll sell you mine

Better make

What you can’t find

 


                                          404                  

Cracks the Whip

My voice just cracks

Shooting smack

My face like stone

I roll the bones

And she cracks the whip (3x)

And she cracks

 

My heart like steel

I cannot feel

My veins like ice

It feels so nice

And she cracks the whip (3x)

And she ... Cracks

 

I ride the rails

I’m driving nails

Into my hands

I’m the son of man

And she cracks the whip (3x)

And she cracks

 

                                          405                  

Stoned Jam Pearl Temple Pilots

I used to like what I heard on the radio

I grew up on rock and roll

Now everybody sounds the same

They’ve just got different names

Stoned Jam Pearl Temple Pilots

 

I need a new alternative

Sick of taking what they give

I’m tired of Seattle

It’s time to start the battle

Stoned jam pearl temple pilots

 

 


                                          406                  

Breeder

When you tell me you are gay

All I can say is so what Jack

What do I care if you attack

From the front side or the back?

Why should you get political clout

Just for your bedroom games

Go ahead and say that I’m a bigot

‘cause I love it when you call me names

I’m a breeder (3x) and I’m not proud

 

You can call me a homophobe

But that does not make me scared

I’m not afraid to kiss a man

‘cause it makes the fine girls stare

I just love my feminine side

I love my long brown hair

We’re here and we’re queer you say

But I don’t fucking care

‘cause I’m a breeder and I’m not proud

 

                                          407                  

Fire Water

The Spirit Is Willing But the Flesh Is Weak

 

You can’t drown your sorrows

When your sorrows learn to swim

You can’t fight the demon

If your swallowing him

I wallow in the ocean

A sea that I can’t see

For the beast that killed the Indian man

Is killing me

 

Fire

 

Water

 

The spirit is weak and so the flesh is willing

 

I can’t feel the highway and

The ground looks upside down

Taste it till it’s wasted

Engine scream can’t hear a sound

Tomorrow time I borrowed’s

Due with tax and that’s a fact

A vision of collision waters

Filling me

 

Fire

 

Water

 

                                          408                  

No Way

Get a new guitar

Buy a set of keys

Try to be a star

LSD and XTC

No way - don’t tell my what to do

I don’t care what you say - i(f) you

 

Use a different beat

Try some other voice

Sing a newer tune

Red hot sweet and moist

 

Wetter

 

No way - don’t tell my what to do

I don’t care what you say - i(f) you

Smoke a cigarette

Don’t you drink and drive

Wanna do it? Let’s

Try to stay alive

No way - don’t tell my what to do

I don’t care what you say - i(f) you

 

Wear another look

Or a hipper feel

I got back what you took

Forget what’s real and steal

No way - don’t tell my what to do

I don’t care what you say

 


                                          409                  

Groovy

Everything’s groovy now

Everything’s fine

I’m feeling so glad

To be alive

Everyone’s crying

On the radio

Dying to spit out

Hot black poison fear

 

Rip out hearts and lungs

High on the breaking rungs

Ladders that point to the sky

 

Freaking out shrieking

Over pale guitars wailing

I’m sailing upon seas of cheese

 

Everything’s groovy now

Everything’s fine

I’m feeling so glad

To be alive

I hear them whining

On the stereo

Trying to dry

Off their tears

 

Trip out on superdrugs

Lying like Asian rugs

Could be I’ve been getting high

 

Standing demanding

Again reprimanding

Get out of my face if you please

 

                                          410                  

Pretty Woman’s Voice

I hear a pretty woman’s voice

Upon my telephone

She says that she loves me

And she’s all alone

Sometimes you get burned

On scalding  frying pans

But you’re wasting your time if

You cry for this man

 

I hear a pretty woman’s voice

Upon my radio

She’s under the pink I guess

She don’t wanna know

You better make it soon boy

Only want what you can’t hold

You better make it soon boy

‘cause you’re gettin kind of old

 

                                          411                  

What’s More

What’s more?

What is more?

What’s more?

What is?

Once more!

 

This or that?

Dog or cat?

Rabbit white?

A fool’s delight?

What’s more?

What is more?

What’s more?

What is?

Once more!

 

Fric or frac?

Coke or crack?

Flip or flap?

Punk or rap?

What’s more?

What is more?

What’s more?

What is?

Once more!

 


                                          412                  

Wadda Ya Do?

What do you do when your dreams come true?

Do you wake up when you die?

And if your life’s a nightmare

Do you get a happy ending?

Anyone can do anything if you

Get out there and try

Find out you can straighten out

The reality you’re bending   

 

                                          413                  

Media Blitz

Everybody out there bitchin

They’re snortin and they’re itchin

Cooking it in the kitchen

Shoot dope, sing and get rich

It’s a media blitz

Life can be such a bummer

As winter follows summer

She overdosed the drummer

He died when he tried to come

It’s a media blitz

Radio television

Are on a solo mission

Beat you into submission

Kneel and receive the kiss

It’s a media blitz

 

                                          414                  

I’ve Gotta Future

For Diane White

My future might be lost in a drug filled haze

My future might be lost in a new clear blaze

My future might be lost on a purge and binge

My future might be lost when I come unhinged

But I’ve got a future

 

My future might be lost in a ‘copter crash

My future might be lost in a piece of gash

My future might be lost on a brand new bride

My future might be lost on suicide

But I’ve got a future

 

My future might be lost in a dead end job

My future might be lost in the banks I rob

My future might be lost at a ripe old age

My future might be lost getting shot onstage

But I’ve got a future

 

                                          415                  

Slip Away

Get paid to play for dozens

Get shit to play for tons

An empty fist full of twenties

A fist stuffed full of ones

The more I try to push it

The more I go astray

The more I try to pull it

The more I slip away

 

Get laid to kiss with cousins

Get shit to lay with one

An empty list full of lonely

A blister full of fun

The more I try to grasp it

The more I suck the air

The more I try to grip it

The less I seem to care

 

Get stuck pluckin your chicken

I get mucked up in your game

Sometimes grooves are sickening

And sometimes rules are lame

The more I keep it steady

The more I interrupt

The more I get it ready

The more I fuck it up        

 

                                          416                  

You Can Do It

You can’t fool a liar

‘cause they know when you lie

It’s hard to cheat the reaper

If he sees you when you die

It ain’t easy staying grounded

When you’re fifteen miles high

You want to be a mountain

But you’re stuck here in the sky

But I know we can do it

 

You can’t fake being sexy

You haven’t eaten in days

It’s difficult to find yourself

You’re lost in this maze

It ain’t easy being cheerful

Got to shake off this malaise

You want to be a forest

But your trees are ablaze

But I know we can do it

 

You can’t help the lonely

‘cause you’re stuck here the crowd

It’s hard staying silent

If the music’s too loud

It ain’t easy staying clear

When you’re sky’s so full of clouds

You’re a fruitful blooming orchard

And your field has been plowed

And I know we can do it

                                          417                  

Coming to Get Me

Just another musical casualty

Acid stomach penny royalty

The fans boil over with loyalty

And they’re coming to get me

 

Got a real faithful following

Chewing what they’re spewing and swallowing

Higher than a pig sty wallowing

And they’re coming to get me

 

I look and see the truce muse sorrowing

Stealing the idea I am borrowing

I living in the past tomorrowing

And they’re coming to get me

 

Spent unbending energy

Sleeping once again with the enemy

Past tense future history

And they’re coming to get me

 

                                          418                  

Get Down Get It On

Living on a treadmill

Feeling like I’m dead

I wanna go to sleep

But I can’t go to bed

Haven’t got a thing to say

Listen what I said

I’m so Hungary

I wanna get fed

I wanna get down get it on(2x)

I wanna get

Dancing on a land mine

Walking in the sand

Handing out the beat downs

Getting out of hand

Landing in the airport

Dancing with the fans

You can’t steal nothing

From an honest man

I wanna get down get it on(2x)

I wanna get

Stealing from the feeling reeling

Really getting hot

Giving it away now

Living what I got

Trying what I’m buying flying

Never ever thought

I’d be rotting in the can (finding what I sought)

Because I got caught (seeing what I wrought [rot?] Bought)

I wanna get down get it on (2x)

I wanna get

 

                                          419                  

Psychotherapy

What is going on around here?

I must admit that I’m a bit confused

Things are sort of getting kind of weird

I think that I could use a little blues

I guess there’s only one more thing for me

I need a little psychotherapy

 

Drink and smoke and work and eat and sleep

Forgive me if I’m living in a funk

I don’t want you to think that I’m a creep

But I can’t help the fact that I’m a punk

I guess there’s only one more thing for me

I need a little psychotherapy

 

I’d like to take a pill and just get gone

I’d like a little time to catch my breath

I don’t think I’ve the strength to carry on

I want to live my life before my death

I guess there’s only one more thing for me

I need a little psychotherapy

                                          420                  

I Want Some Answers

I don’t know where I’m going

And I don’t know where I’ve been

I don’t know what to think

And I don’t know what to do

I don’t know why I’m breathing

And I don’t know what I’ve seen

I don’t know why I drink

Don’t know who to be true to

I want some answers

But I get none

 

I don’t know why I’m lonely

And I don’t know why I’m cold

I don’t know who to stay with

And I don’t know who to leave

Don’t know why I’m angry

Don’t know why I’m getting old

I don’t know who to lie to

Don’t know who to believe

I want some answers

But I get none

 

I don’t know why I’m funky

And I don’t know why I’m cool

I don’t know why I’m playing

In a rock and roll band

I don’t know why I’m empty

Don’t know why I’m in school

I don’t know who God is

And is God only a man?

I want some answers

But I get none

 

                                          421                  

It Only Seems To

I hate it when stupid shallow narrow minded muthafuckas approach me with their so called attitude and this narrow minded bullshit slimy scummy satin silky milky white tone of voice arrogant affluent hell bent for nowhere man you starin at me? Your armchair flair doesn’t fuckin impress anyone dig it? You come off all slick and smooth but that groovy implant sex change accent can’t kick shit for the back beat of your flack jacket jack hammer go head dead white bread stammer and shake your damn flim flam glamour slammer I ain’t breakin you thinkin you can fake me out? You dreamin Stephen

I is gwine to kick yo fuckin ass right now G.

 

Q: “Does alcohol really help your writing?”

A: “I think it only seems to, and then only for a little while.”

Q:  “Are you wasting your fucking time?”

A:  “I don’t know.”

 

 

                                          422                  

Big Brother

Forget about war

Forget about anger

Forget about pain

Forget about fear

Forget about more

Forget about hunger

Forget about floods

Of angry tears

Party and have a good time (3x)

Time’s all you’ve got

Don’t waste it

Thank you big brother

 

Forget about peace

Forget about Haiti

Forget about Iran

Forget Iraq

Forget Ed Meese

And Serbo-Croatia

Forget the treat

New clear attack

Party and have a good time (3x)

Time’s all you’ve got

Don’t waste it

Thank you big brother

 

Forget about welfare

Forget about crack

Forget about health care

Forget about smack

Forget the planet

Forget the news

Forget the reds

Forget the blues

Party and have a good time (3x)

Time’s all you’ve got

Don’t waste it

Thank you big brother

 

                                          423                  

Mellow Dee

She was working at the supermarket you know that’s where we met

I said if that’s not a wedding ring I’d like to get you wet

Her name is Melody - Mellow Dee

 

She got a great big Puerto Rican husband who does anything she say

She’s gonna be with you tonight because she watched the kids all day

Her name is Melody - Mellow Dee

 

I left her dancing in the sunset - I don’t know where she went

I think I straightened her out a bit but I just wound up bent - spent

Her name is Melody - Mellow Dee

 

 

                                          424                  

Irishman in NY

I never take my tea at four o’clock

I’d rather whiskey morn and noon

I’m pround to tell you that I come from County Cork

I’m an Irishman in New York

 

I’ll tell ye my sheleighli sure is long and hard

I’d whip ye soon as I would meet yer eye

Punch yer in the face if ye should laugh at how I talk

I’m an Irishman in New York

 

Fer laughs I’d walk me ass to the Blarney Stone

And there I’d proceed to take a piss

And then I’d return on the followin morn

And chuckle as the tourist bent to kiss

But now I’m an Irishman in New York

 

 

                                          425                  

Sword of Damecles

 

The vampire and the nightingale

Sink your fangs into the vein

Eternity you’ll remain

Refer to me insane

I sleep during the day

I feed on hunger

Dine on pain

 

                                          426                  

Beat Poem

The queens of spades and diamonds

Clubbed my heart into the ground

And kicked me when I tried to gain my feet

 

Been laid and done some time and

Dubbed my part into the sound

But it blocks the way to my one last retreat

 

Searching for a face whose memory I can not erase

They trick me into staring in the mirror

If I could only turn away escape from this place

But I’m stuck I have to face what I’m in fear of

 

I have played and done the crime and

Rubbed my smarts into the mound

Come on push me down I won’t keep my seat

 

Stayed with some for dimes and

Flubbed my lines and fuck it all

I give up because this stupid poem is beat

 

 


                                          427                  

N Y Skyline

The gray rainy New York skyline

Sinks in the cold clammy October fog

She reaches for a distant star

And is blocked by the thick mean clouds

The traffic honks and screeches

Taxis weaving through the massive

Gridlock network of cars

The beautiful sweet smelling

Women pass by angrily

Frightened eyes covered

Hurrying through the rain

And an ice pick of lonely

Stabs me in the heart from behind

Tight empty faces lace

Their paces through the crowd

Spinning through the thriving tourist throng

And I long for someone warm and soft to cling to

Later on I walk the empty New York streets

At night I’m stalking peace of mind and

I wonder as I wander off hollowly

 

                                          428                  

Here I Sit

Here I sit with my back to the wall

Pen in hand as I wait for it

The ride that I’m thumbing

Soon will be coming

The thing I’m becoming

Will be coming along

 

Starving for affection devoid of direction

I choke on my erection drowning

Inspired by desire I inquire where to go

The lonely streets are empty full of whores

 

Deeper down the well

The answers lie deeper down the well

Into the pit

 


                                          429                  

W F T

I feel it growing in my head

That noise I know it wants me dead

This song keeps pulling at my hair

It hates my guts but I don’t care

Grind it out spit wretch can’t keep it down inside

Hide that pride decide to lose the things I find

 

I see it spilling from my hands

This thing is filling me with sand

These chords and notes can’t be controlled

They can’t be bought they won’t be sold

Throw it up puke hurl can’t keep it down inside

Hide that pride decide to kill the things I grow

 

                                          430                  

So Depressing

Shit that’s so depressing oh

Shit that’s so depressing damn!

 

                                          431                  

Get Away

(I can’t help the way I am

I’m only doing what I can

I know I’m far from perfect

I disconnect I’m just a man)

Perry says sex is just violence

Tori’s been silent for years

Kurt simply begged me to rape him

And Sting was just driven to tears

But I just wanna get away

From this feeling inside of me

Get away from me leave me alone

I just wanna get away from the tears that you cry for me

Get away I just wanna go home

We’re just the X generation

Janie just got a new gun

A breakdown mass communication

I want the whole black sun to come

(Eat sleep work school

Teach play do be

If my life is so full

Then why am I so empty?)

I just wanna get away

From this feeling inside of me

Get away from me leave me alone

I just wanna get away from the tears that you cry for me

Get away I just wanna go

Yes I wanna go

I just wanna go

Home

 

                                          432                  

I Know That

I love you I miss you

I kill you when I kiss you

Remember: forget me

I’ll hurt you if you let me

I need you come quickly

I’m sick and I’m lonely

I only believe you

When you tell me to leave

We’re all alone in this world I’ve heard

The empty cage has killed the bird

I cut you I slash you

I break you I smash you

Surrender you beat me

You conquer and defeat me

You feed me so sweetly

You clean it up so neatly

I lie only the truth

When I’m deceived

 

                                          433                  

Dogs & Flowers

Dogs and flowers

There was a lovely flower

So delicate and sweet

The dogs would kneel and cower

And grovel at her feet

She’d remove their collars

For the dollars on the bar

Lying in the gutter

Higher than the stars

 

And she chokes on the pain 

Of this unspoken refrain

The needle remains in the vein

But the chain is broken

 

The flowers got a whip love

And a master that she flogs

But you can’t keep the fleas off

When lying down with dogs

Eyeballs full of pin holes

Scratching at the itch

A mouth full of I love you’s

But love is just a bitch

 

And she chokes on the pain 

Of this unspoken refrain

The needle remains in the vein

But the chain is broken

 

                                          434                  

Pace

This picture of you etched in my mind

The link that snaps the ties that bind

A dream chasing after the leaves as they fall

Leaves me to wonder can that really be all?

We can’t say a word now

The silence so loud

We look at each other

Our father and mother

Both reaching for something

We can’t see to touch

It once seemed so easy

But now it’s just too much

 

                                          435                  

Easy Girl

She’s easy

She’s an easy girl

E Z E Z girl

 

She’s super gonzo wilder

Shirley pass the test

Uplift mofo female

But the part that I like best is that

She’s easy

She’s an easy girl

E Z E Z E Z

E Z girl

Little solo

Uptown deep brown smiler

Soul right to the heart

Fine strong kickin lady

But I admit my favorite part is that

She’s easy

She’s an easy girl

E Z E Z E Z

E Z E Z E Z

E Z E Z E Z

Big solo

Bona fide slide glider

Man she’s sister cool

She’s my little baby

And I’m her lovin fool because

She’s easy

She’s an easy girl

Fade

 

                                          436                  

Gravity Boots

Gotta getta setta gravity boots!

I been drinkin tequila I been bouncin off the walls

I been floating in limbo I jump but I don’t fall

Gotta getta setta gravity boots!

I feel stuck too the ceiling drifting around the sky

Kinda bent my sense is reeling don’t remember getting so high

Gotta getta setta gravity boots!

The steps that I been taking are giant

Feeling like a walk on the moon

Need that handy dandy appliance

Got to get ‘em soon

Gotta getta setta gravity boots!

 

 

                                          437                  

C’est Fini

C’est fini - say it’s over

Will you come back to me?

C’est fini - say it’s over

Don’t say it’s over

I can’t handle you

And you don’t understand me

Neither of us listens

I don’t hear and you can’t see

There’s nothing left to say anyway

And I guess it’s time that we

Say fini - say it’s over

 

C’est fini - say it’s over

Will you come back to me?

C’est fini - don’t say it’s over

It ain’t over

‘till it’s over

 

You can’t handle me

And I don’t understand you

Lying to ourselves and each other

Swearing that it’s true

We just keep on talking

And there’s nothing we can do but

C’est fini say it’s over

But it ain’t over

Solo

Can we handle this?

A kiss lost in a mile

Wild memories piled in a smile

Forget me for a while

Trial and error terror on the wing

But at least we go in style

Starting over

 

                                          438                  

??

This space dedicated to further lack of inspiration

 

 

 

                                          439                  

Weird Baby

Weird baby weird baby

You’re so weird

Nose ring fingering

Nipple rings two

How the hell did I

Fall in love with you?

Snap that shaft off

What’ll ya do you’re so

Weird baby

Weird babe

 

Cause you’re weird baby

Weird baby you’re so weird

Weird baby

Weird babe

 

Ankle chain main vein

Turning blue

Hot shot fox trot

Kalamazoo

Puttin that foot

On the other shoe

You’re so

Weird baby

Weird babe

 

Get weird

 

Half baked cheese cake

Comin through

Step back she’ll run

Over you

Nailing that spike

Right into the screw

 

Cause she’s

Weird baby

Weird baby

She’s so weird

 

Weird baby

Weird babe

 

 

                                          440                  

Caroline

I’m goin home to Caroline

Ballin that jack and drinkin my wine

Feel a little high but that’s just fine

I’m goin home to Caroline

Sweet Caroline

Sweet sweet Caroline

Sweet Caroline

I’m goin home to Caroline

 

Soon I’ll be goin across that line

Red hot mama baby look at the time

Can’t wait to get to that girl of mine

I’m goin home to Caroline

 

Chorus - solo

She is the ocean and I’m the brine

A sea of emotion I can see the signs

There’s somethin on my mind she helps me find

I’m goin home to Caroline

 

Chorus

 

                                          441                  

Concentrate

I’m trying to

Concentrate

Now concentrate

Concentrate

Now concentrate

Distraction

Concentrate

Now concentrate

Distraction

 

Concentrate

Distraction

Concentrate

Distraction

 

Concentrate

Distraction

Frustration

Concentrate

Distraction

Frustration

 

Surrender

Surrender

Surrender

Surrender

Surrender

Surrender

Surrender

Surrender

Surrender

 

                                          442                  

Sister Crystal

Sister Crystal - wearing that pentacle around your neck

Sister Crystal - might be dangerous what the heck

Sister Crystal - you don’t have to read my palm

Sister Crystal - I just want to make you calm

 

Sister Crystal - nose ring fingering nipple rings two

Sister Crystal - hey I want to get one too

Sister Crystal - I can feel the stars and the planets align

Sister Crystal - oh by the way babe what’s your sign?

 

Sister Crystal - can you tell by the lay of the cards?

Sister Crystal - some kind of easy making it hard

Sister Crystal - see the candle burning bright

Sister Crystal - fortune smile on me tonight

 

                                          443                  

Tense

Tense

Mad

Hurt

Wired up

Burnt

Thrashed

I used to use it

I’ve got to have it

I know I need it

I want it so bad

I can’t get it at all

 

Blind

Pain

Fear0

Strung out

Seared

Trashed

I only tasted it

I never wasted it

Can’t live without it

I want it so bad

I can’t get it at all

 

Cut

Slice

Slit

Bleed in

Broken

Smashed

You try to wake it

You start to shake it

You cry about it

You want it so bad

You’ll never get it at all

 

 

                                          444                  

Let It Go

Trying to find

What I’m looking for

You know I aim to give it a shot

Don’t give me no lip

Honey you know the score

My lot in life is getting a lot

 

Wham bam calamity

I’m ready to blow

The only way to keep your sanity

Is let it go

Let it go

I let it go

Solo

 

Drink that wine

And chew the wafer

I know exactly what I am not

Don’t believe in nothing

But I’m nobody’s fool for

A story someone’s already bought

 

I’ve been with the trinity

Got nothing to show

The only way to keep your sanity

Is let it go (3x)

Let it go (3x)

Let it go (3x)

Let it go

I let it go

Go

Solo

 

Live that line

The danger’s safer

I’m walking on the watery wine

You can take whatever you want

If you can get it

But you’d best be sure that I’m getting mine

 

Mingle with divinity

I’m letting you know

The only way to keep your sanity

Is let it go

 

                                          445                  

Escape

Feel you from the inside

Stuck I’m standing outside

A feeling like a landmine

Sliding down the incline

I can’t get away

It’s got me

I can’t get away

Can’t get away

Escape

 

Numb with coming stop time

Looking for a new rhyme

A mountain or a molehill

All fucked up but I’m fine

I can’t get away

It’s got me

I can’t get away

Can’t get away

Escape

 

Slippery like a landslide

Fire on the broadside

Lying on the roadside as

The boys and girls collide

I can’t get away

It’s got me

I can’t get away

Can’t get away

Escape

 

                                          446                  

Miss You 2

Moments ago you were in my hands

Miles away so far

Show me the way to the Promised Land

Wishing upon a star

 

Sparkle on a diamond - penny or a pound

As long as it’s shining - lying on the ground

Grind

 

Hours before you were here with me

Listening to the sound

O please lead me to god’s country

Finding a way around

Find a way

 

Seconds at the airport - hours at the bar

Kissing at the gate and - waiting for the airplane

Trying to catch that last sweet bliss

Well I miss you

I miss you

I miss you

I miss you

 

                                          447                  

Love Junky

Wanna be pop star

Better off dead

Listening to the music

Of the voices in my head

Screaming

Shaking like an earthquake

More than I can take

Flaking like a shake’n’bake

Make me stay awake I’m

Dreaming

Junky

Love junky

 

Flip top blow off

Water your dune

Can’t stop shake cough

Needle and spoon

Needing

Fall down scream and shout

Take a swing and hit

Knock down drag out

Doesn’t hurt a bit

Bleeding

Junky

Love junky

 

Burned out turn on

Heading for the hills

I don’t smoke rock cock

Powders or pills

Inhaling

Don’t have much but

I know what I’ve got

I’m getting out of here

Parachute or not

I’m bailing

Sailing

Feeding

Screaming

Junky

Love junky

 

                                          448                  

999

Nine hundred ninety nine

Mighty fine lines

Who the hell gives a fuck

No one’s fault but mine

Sly shine saturnine

Get behind the grind

Morse code horse feathers

Air force number five

Fuck you home-wrecker

Try to stay alive

 


                                          449                  

F’N Behind

I’m so fucking behind

I’m so fucking behind

I’m so fucking behind

I’m so fucking behind

 

                                          450                  

Acid

Stitten kootin fattin shitten mitten

Der vicksiche shabba mabba

Finda shafta hassenfeifer

(Howthahelld’yaspellhassenfeffer?)

Scooby dooby

Sheinder fadda badda gooby fabben

Hadda badda hooden flabber

Blinda batta matta facta little

Nookie cookie

Allenhellen breakenloosen oops!

I verify da noose truce man!

Doony acid lately?

 

                                          451                  

Creative

Boy is this creative!

O boy? Is this creative?

Creative boy! Is this?

This is: creative boy!

Is creative boy this?

This boy is creative.

Boy! This word is weird!

Create?

Crete?

Koreate?

Kree-aht

Achtung!

Tongue lashing

Smashing pumpkin

Funking rock on

Monkey funkers!

Peace fuck head.

 

                                          452                  

Holy Writ

Holy writ nit wit

Dontcha nowat

Chuben dooin

Flip trip bowendownen

Goin wit da

Flowin knowin

 

Gitten hype strike gold

Gettin olden

Feeling being

Lemme tellya

Watcha thinkya seeing

Isn’t watcha seeing

 

                                          453                  

Burn 1

If

You dream

Scenes you haven’t seen

And

If

You come

Increasingly undone

 

If you stare at the sun

You can feel it

Burning

Feel it burning

 

If

You twist

Slip and slide away

And

If

You come

Around some other day

 

I come undone

Staring at the sun

I can feel it

I can feel it

I can feel it

I can feel it

Burn

 

If

You see

The light and turn away

If

You ask

They’d tell you what I would say

 

This is the one

Burning like the sun

On fire

On fire

Burning

Feel it burning

Burn

Burn

Burn

Burn

 

 

                                          454                  

2 a.m.

It’s 2 a.m. and there’s nothing but

Whiskey and water to drink

I need a friend I’m lonely

All I do is sit by the water and I think why?

Another show tomorrow night

The candles burning out but the shadows are bright

Neon glow and the lamplight

Are all that’s left to keep me alive tonight

But why?

 

                                          455                  

Big Nothing

Burn out on the edge of extremes

It’s easy if you know the way

The tide turns on the twist of my dreams

Wake up and throw the ship away

Bon o so close to the edge ya know

He’s stepping off the ledge

Words spilling out of my lips

I’ve got nothing to say

But nothing

Great big nothing

Great big nothing

Great big nothing nothing nothing

Turned on to the sound of the drums

It’s coming from beneath the ground

Rumbling like thunder as

Your head begins to pound

Oh no don’t go stay with me

I know you know nothing’s free

So simple nothing’s lost

And nothing is found

But nothing

Great big nothing

I’m feeling nothing

Great big

Look in to the mirror see

No there’s no one left but me

Crumbling to powder as

They set the captive free

Quick! Duck! Bad luck hit the road

I don’t need your mother load

You let me do everything

Now let me be - be nothing

Great big nothing

Nothing but nothing

Great big nothing

This is nothing

I am nothing

Ain’t seen nothing

Great big nothing nothing nothing

I just want a little bit give me just a little bit

Something just a little bit anything just a little bit

Please just a little bit O please O please O please O please

 

                                          456                  

FM FM FM

Find me fuck me forget me

Find me fuck me forget me

I am just a plaything

I am not for real

Perfect isolation

4 emotions I can’t feel

 

No love in my pocket

No sorrow for tomorrow

No fear left in here

And of course there’s no remorse

FM

Find me fuck me forget me

Find me fuck me forget me

 

I am not the real thing

Spastic plastic fake

Just want a little more of

More than I can take

 

No pain in my veins and

No shame for the slain

No lies left to hide

There’s nothing left inside

FM

Find me fuck me forget me

Find me fuck me forget me

You think I can’t make it

Butt I can

 

                                          457                  

Beginnings

We’re here at the beginning

We’re here at the beginning

Funky doll funk on dat

Funky doll funk all out

 

You come to rocka rolla

You come to mystify

You come to cold and sweating

You try to justify

But(t)

Funky doll funk it up

Funky doll funk it all

Bbbbbbig solo

You come too close to winning

You come too far to quit

You come to clean the sinning

You come to crucify it

Come clean

Fuck it all 

We’re back at the beginning

We’re back at the beginning

 


                                          458                  

Cunt Tree 2 Da Bone

Gotta ten gallon hat

And I don’t give a hoot

I’m kickin that shit

Wit m’cowboy boots

I smoke Marlboro

Drink bud too

And Ima goin to the ro-dee-o wit chew

And Ima cunt tree 2 da bone

Gotta big hoss anna

Jin-gly spurs

Stubborn ole mule

And a cat dat purrs

Big ole barn on

M’big ole farm

Forty five unnerneath my arm

And Ima cunt tree 2 da bone

Mud slinging tug rat

Tractor pull

Ropin em calves

An ridin em bulls

Allemand left witcha big right taw

Roundy round anna doe see doe

You dance mighty pretty my pretty fine miss

Howsa bouta kiss baby don’t you know

Ima cunt tree 2 da bone

 

                                          459                  

??

What have I got to say?

What?

I have got to say

What?

I have got to stay loose

I have got to stay tight

I have got to stay strong

I have got to stay right

Say what?

I have got to stay fit

I have got to get it

I have got to stay high

I have got to stay

Why?

Have I got to say why?

Have I got to say

When

I have got what I

Want I have got two

Extremes I have

More than I need

How I need who I want

Where I am when I want

Where o where and o why?

Where o where and o why?

Where o where and o why?

 

                                          460                  

Don’t Know

I don’t know what I want

And I don’t want to know

I want to go somewhere

But where am I to go?

I want to be someone

But who am I to say?

Which way

Am I to go?

Don’t know

 

Don’t know what I’m here for

And I don’t know why I came

Come in lie on the floor but

The same is just the same

A lie I wish to promise

A game I’ve got to play

This way

It’s got to be

Victory

 

Fighting in the trenches

Benches on your knees

Beneath your excuses

You’re clenching your teeth

Hello I must be going

I’m going far away

To stay

I’m praying

Hair graying

Skin flaying

Knot fraying

Hens laying

Wolves baying

 

                                          461                  

U R The 1

U T the 1 in my sweetest dreams

I make you come undone at the seams

Passionate screams and the smell of your skin

Drowning at the gate U let me in

U R the 1 I’m searching 4

Undo the latch open the door

I need some more for what it’s worth

U R the ocean I am the earth

 

U T the 1 my dearest love

The sun so bright but you’re high above

The farthest star up in the sky

I’d die 4 U but who am I?

U R the 1 most wanted girl

I am the moon and you’re my world

Twirling the torch of most deep desire

Let me touch the flame set me on fire

 

                                          462                  

Fuck It

C’est moi c’est moi

Somewhat somewhat

Someone someone

Semaine semaine

Samhaine samhaine

Sucka!

Fuck it

 

                                          463                  

I Wanna

Wanna

Hit that spot in your unconscious

Hit that spot and you’re unconscious

I must admit it’s most convincing

It makes me though I know it’s wrong

It makes me feel like I’m invincible

But I’m too weak and it’s too strong

 

Wanna I wanna I wanna I wanna

 

It makes me scream in pain delighted

Insane crawling on the floor

It makes me bleed the more I need it

I can’t take it makes me beg for more

O Solo Mia

Hit that spot in my unconscious

Hit that spot am I unconscious?

I just cannot live without

It makes me rise and shine

A diamond mine of gold and pearls and

It makes me feel so fine

 

I wanna I wanna I wanna I wanna

I wanna I wanna I wanna I wanna

 

It makes me feel like I’m on fire

And I’m burning up inside

Electric shock high tension wire

It makes me choose I can’t decide

I wanna I wanna

I can’t decide

I wanna Iwanna

I can’t decide

 

                                          464                  

Good Night

Who fucking cares anyway?

It’s four in the fucking morning

You dumbshit asshole

Go the fuck to sleep

Don’t you get it?

Get your shit together bonehead!

Gorge, guzzle, and wench

For tomorrow we get gutted!

Good night.

 

                                          465                  

Six-Point Star

I wanna be a six-point star

Shapes and angles on all sides

I wanna be a rhombus

Then I would be satisfied

I wanna be a circle

How come I’m so square

The light’s on in the corner

But there’s nobody there

My point of view’s

Somewhat rectangular

My figure eight is out of round

And if I could be the pentagon

There’d be no pentagon around

Octagonal stop signs everywhere

From here to there

You’re supposed to be a straight line

I’m so crooked I don’t care

 

                                          466                  

Carry On

Help me through the night

Help me see the dawn

Help me be the light

Help me carry on

Carry on carry on

Carry on carry on

Carry

On (2 3 4)

Help me kiss the sky

Help me touch the sun

Help me fly so igh

Help me be the one

To carry on carry on

Carry on

Carry carry

(1 2)

Solo

Riff

Help me start the fire

Help me stir the mud

Water getting higher

You can’t stop the flood

Carry on carry on

Carry on carry on

Carry carry carry

On

 

                                          467                  

Slip Away

See you moving through the moonlight

See you laughing in the rain

You say everything is all right

You try not to show the pain

As you slip away

Slip away 4x

 

See you standing in the sunshine

See you dancing in the sand

Yes you’re all messed up but that’s fine

You don’t need another man

You just slip away

Slip away 4x

 

See you walking toward the doorway

See you turn around and stare

See you telling me it’s o.k.

It doesn’t mean that you don’t care

So you slip away

Slip away

                                          468                  

Momentary Diversion

I’m only doing the best I can

I hope that you understand

I know I’m so far from perfect

I disconnect I’m just a man

I just wanna get away...

Tears that you cry for me

 

You say you love for what I’m not

I try to be there for you

But I can’t give you what I haven’t got

There’s nothing else I can do

I just wanna get away...

Pain that you hide from me

 

I can’t be everywhere all the time

Can’t do it all in a day

Nothing much matters don’t care anymore

There’s nothing else I can say

I just wanna get away

From the truth that you lied to me

 

                                          469                  

Looks So Easy

Wheels are turning candle’s burning at both ends

Stomach churning yearning to go back again

I know where I’m going who cares where I’ve been

Everybody shares the stairs here we’re all friends

We all know

Nothing is easy

And nothing is as easy

As it looks

But it looks so easy

Just give me a second to collect my things

Here’s one bird who cannot sing without his wings

I don’t want the hate that isolation brings

Sonic loops of gold and catatonic diamond rings

But it looks so easy

 

Panic how can I maintain this frantic pace

Twenty something staring thirty in the face

Going much too slow to catch the dream I chase

Stuck on pause I rewind and begin to erase

Into nothing

Nothing is easy

Nothing is as easy as it looks

 

                                          470                  

Better Days

I’ve seen better days - better days are coming

I’ve seen better days - c’mon better days

I’ve been looking my best

But feeling my worst

Choking on hunger

Dying of thirst

A better way to second (taste it)

Baby I was here first

 

I’ve seen better days - better days are coming

I’ve seen better days - c’mon better days

The storm is only waiting

For the rain clouds to burst

It may seem like I’m faking

But it’s so well rehearsed

You tell me it’s a blessing

Why do I feel so cursed?

I’ve seen better days

 

Solo

 

Someone call the doctor

Lover get me a nurse

The pieces pull together

My emotions disperse

Immersed I stand here drowning

In an ocean of verse

I’ve seen better days - better days are coming

I’ve seen better days - c’mon better days

 

                                          471                  

Wake Me Up

I ‘m tired of the darkness

Wake me up - wake me up

I ‘m tired of the darkness

Wake me up (2x)

 

                                          472                  

I Like It

When I get what I want

When I want what I get

I like it (do you like it?)

I like it

If I get what I give

And I give what I get

I like it and I bet

You like it

I like it

Get-get-get

Get busy!

If I do what I say

And I say that I do

And I kiss you

And I love you

And I feed you

And breed with you

Will you like it?

Or will you push me

Will you shove me

Will you love me

Or leave me

Deceive me

Bereave me

Lose me

Or retrieve me

Believe me when I tell you that

I just don’t know

I just don’t know

 

                                          473                  

Footsteps Firm

Make me stand up straight and make my stride steady

Show me the way I seek

The time has come and I am ready

Take me to the mountain peak

You make my footsteps firm (you make my footsteps)

Set me on the path to higher ground

Loosen my lips to sing

When I stumble don’t you let me down

Carry me through everything

My footstep’s firm

You make my footsteps firm (you make my footsteps)

You are the rock on which I stand

The light to guide my way

Help me be the best I can

And hold my hand each day I pray

You make my footsteps firm

 

                                          474                  

Song of Hope

O Lord let there be

Trust and justice

Peace and freedom

Love and harmony

Happiness in liberty

This is a song of hope

 

O Lord let us have

Passion and compassion

Faith and charity

Joy and clarity

Quality equality

This is a song of hope

 

O Lord let us see

Lasting friendship

Strength in hardship

Gentleness sobriety

Comfortable society

This is a song of hope

 

                                          475                  

Spoon Feed Me

Insects live in Courtney’s hole

Sliding down a nine inch pole

Alternative so sleek and sporty

Hiding out inside top forty

Spoon feed me

Radio and MTV

Spoon feed me

And I’ll buy it

Never mind so self-assured

Unhurt by all Kurt’s dirty words

Everybody’s Cobain’s buddy

Mainline shotgun high and bloody

Got the dogs all buy the collars

Tick tock dick suck clocking dollars

So politically correct

Hanging by your fucking broken neck

Spoon feed me

Radio and MTV

Spoon feed me

And I’ll buy it

I’ll try it

Get high on it

And die

 

                                          476                  

Perfect Isolation

Perfect isolation

Trapped beneath the skin

Under observation from within

Contract desolation

Contact with the soul

All the lines are broken in the hole

And you’re under the chain

 

Crippled concentration

Irons in the fire

Drowning in the darkness of desire

Instant penetration

Steel the things you need

Dripping from your spirit as you bleed

Under the chain

 

                                          477                  

Buckethead

Buckethead!

Buckethead buckethead buckethead!

 

Buck buck buck

Buckie buckie buckie

Bucket head!

Buck buck buckie buckie

Buck buck buckethead!

Buckethead!

Smibben widda fukkin buggin

Shreddin heddin mudda fugga

Shonuff kickin ass mo satchmo

Numb nubs flashin doodly weedly deedly

What da fukski buckski

Binge dat smokski loafski smoky

Needa buckethead rekkad please

Cd preferred (sorry I’m slurrin chosm chrazzy)

Gotta gemme a bucketheadland

Buckethead!

Buckethead buckethead buckethead!

Buck buck

Buckie buckie

Buckie buckethead

Buckie

Buck buck buckie

Buckie buckie

Buckethead

Kfchatcatfashomoslomofasfuk

Fractal praxis smakkin kaksis blabbadooba

The snooby fits the grape leaves ibfya nobot imeen

Buck buck

Huckle buckle

Suckie luckie buck

Slobby bob nob numb nub

Kikkin fokkin bootsy brudda

Buddy yooby nooby numba one kikkinasslike

 

                                          478                  

I N I Believe

I

N

I

I said I

N

I

I said I

N

I

I said

I N I N I

I said

I N I N I

I said

I said

I N I N I shall fear no man

 

                                          479                  

??

I believe

I believe

I believe I believe I believe

I believe I believe I believe

I believe I believe

I believe I believe

I believe I believe

I believe

 

                                          480                  

??

Alarm clock rings you

Don’t hear a thing

Your mouth too full to sing

Stand up straight

‘cause fate wont wait

A summer trap you want to spring

 

 


                                          481                  

That’s What You Think

I can’t help it

That’s what you think

I’m not guilty

That’s what you think

I didn’t do it

That’s what you think

Why dontcha kill me?

That’s why I drink

 

I’m not what I am

Pressure in a can

Nothing but a man

A race that no one runs

Loaded up on guns

 

I’m not dead meat

That’s what you think

Hair and heartbeat

That’s what you think

Asleep on high street

That’s what you think

The blood won’t fill me

I spill when I drink

 

I’m not what you want

That’s what you think

Don’t know who I am

That’s what you think

A spirit the dead haunt

That’s what you think

Come on drink me

That’s why I drink

 

                                          482                  

I Don’t Believe

I don’t believe

You believe what I believe

I don’t believe you

Know what to believe

I don’t believe you believe

What I believe

I don’t believe

I know what to believe

I don’t believe

I believe in anything

I believe everything’s

Nothing I believe

I don’t believe in everything

Everything’s nothing and nothing is

Something I believe

Nothing I believe is

Nothing and everything

Everything’s nothing and nothing I believe

 

                                          483                  

Burn

Look at me I’m no sun shine

I’m no simple price you pay

Stupid fucked up rag bag stop sign

It’s no easy thing to say

 

Cry my son your melted wings

Sing a song of everything

Simple truth and complex lies

Won’t stop the apocalypse

In your eyes

Burn

 

Look at you broken angel

Soaked in ocean tempest tossed

I’m not scared but I feel the danger

Keep the faith your soul is lost

 

Die my love kiss me good buy

Never stop or wonder why

Liquid assets up the ass

Won’t help you sleep beneath the grass

Burn

 

                                          484                  

Push Come to Shove

Help me fix these problems I don’t know why I cause

I want a rewind/replay but I’m stuck on pause

Purring like a kitten ‘til I bare my claws

And she keeps telling me

She just keeps on telling me

She tells me she thinks she’s in love

Just cause push come to shove

Stop these complications I just know I can’t face

Begin the rewind/replay and then I erase

Never felt so lonely go get out of my face

Yet she keeps telling me

She just keeps on telling me

She tells me she thinks we’re in love

Just cause push come to shove

Help me make you into something I know you’re not

A simple soul solution that I gladly bought

The only thing I want is what you have not got

But you keep telling me

You just keep on telling me

You say that you think I’m in love

That’s when push come to shove

And then push come to shove

It begin with sweetest kisses then it ends with a curse

I want to sing the chorus but I’m stuck on the verse

Feeling like I’m feeling my disease getting worse

She keeps telling me

She just keeps on telling me

Shut up! Shut up! Shut up! Shut up!

Shut up! Shut up! Shut up!

 

                                          485                  

Keep It Up

How long can I keep it up?

How long can I stand it

Don’t think I can keep it up

I just don’t understand it

Sick and predictable

Degrading and demanding

Confident and comfortable

Cannibal abandoning

Thick and unbendable

Unstable yet commanding

The trick is so conventional

Commercial and emotional

How long can I keep it up?

How long can I stand it

Don’t think I can keep it up

I just don’t understand it

Quick and deplorable

Confused and condescending

Slick and adorable

Begin the stories ending

Agreeable and portable

Insane but so affordable

You kick it’s so convincing

But the fix is irresistable

How long can I keep it up?

How long can I stand it

Don’t think I can keep it up

I just don’t understand it

 

                                          486                  

U R The 1 Real Version

(U R the 1 real version)

U are the 1 in my sweetest dreams

U make me cum undone at the seams

Your passionate screams

And the taste of your skin

New pools of sweat

You drown me in me in me in

Me

U R the 1 I’ve been waiting for

You touch me once I beg for more

I know the score

Zero to none

But what is more

You are the 1 the 1 the 1

Tree

U R the 1 most wanted girl

I am the sun you are my world

Unfurl the flag of deepest desire

Come feel the flood

Set me on fire

 

 

                                          487                  

Jovial Ovaltine

Jovial Ovaltine

Chemical nicotine

Amoco overload

Overload overturn

Kathleen Turner

Afterburner

Time Warner marijuana

On the corner overboard

Yes

No

Mmmmmmmaybe

 

                                          488                  

Super Suicide

(In 5)

Nothin much to do

Think it’s time to cruise

Nothin much to say

And I got less to lose

Got a box of reds

And bad case of the blues

Demons in my head

And bottle full of booze

Super suicide

 

Needle in the arm

But it left a bruise

Just another lay

Stupid fucking cooze

Not a big surprise

Nodding on the snooze

All that truth in lies

All the lies are true

Super suicide

 

Ripping through my veins

Dripping on my shoes

Just another day

Slogging through the ooze

I can’t feel the pain

I’m not King of the Jews

Wash away the stains

I can’t pay my dues

 

                                          489                  

Here on the Radio

This song has words - so what

This song has a melody - so what

This song’s got a beat - so what

Maybe it’ll be it on MTV

This song’s got a rhythm - so what

This song’s got style - so what

This song has meaning - so what

It isn’t what it seems

Like

I won’t notice and I don’t care

Like I won’t stop and stand there staring

At the fruit these trees are bearing

 

This song has a purpose - so what

This song’s got a goal - don’t care

This has direction - so what

Maintain that connection see?

This song’s kinda rockin - so what

This song’s kinda cool - so what

This song is leaning - so what

Towards bursting at the seams

Like

I won’t notice and I don’t care

Like I won’t stop and stand there staring

At the fruit these trees are bearing

I can’t help it I’m

Influenced by

People that I

Hear on the

Radio

Here on the radio

Hear on the radio

Radio

Radio

Radio

This song has culture - so what

This song has class - so what

This song has a future - so what

This song is a pain in the ass

 

                                          490                  

??

 (Just ten poems away from halfway there)

In case you hadn’t noticed, J am fond of parenthetical statements

Now what the fuck was J talking about?

 


                                          491                  

Bullshit

Concrete US of A bullshit?

Obvious violations of bad laws made by evil men for stupid people?

Starving consumers generating ten pounds of garbage a day?

Overpaid bureaucrats running a technocracy they don’t understand?

Carved statues of fallen leaders still standing?

Unfounded founding fathers pounding on their meat?

Street people? Civil War? Religious government? Police state?

Fear? Torture? Extortion? The financial elite? Freedom?

Censorship? Behind-the-scenes black balling? Blacklisting?

 

                                          492                  

Sweet Disease

I just want to get by on you

Do it into the ground with you

I guess need to get high on you

Get all over the sound with you

My sweet disease

My sweet disease

My sweet disease

 

You touch something inside of me

But you never confide in me

I loved the way that you lied to me

I know I’ll let you inside of me

I am your sweet disease

 

I feel myself sinking in to you

I feel myself surrounding you

Every time that I think of you

I realize I’m coming down with you

Astounding and confounding me

I’m down with you

You are my sweet

You are my sweet

You are my sweet

You are my sweet

Disease

I know you want to get next with me

I don’t see why you’re so perplexed with me

You never know what to expect with me

I know you’re gonna connect with me

I am your sweet disease

Your sweet disease

Your sweet disease

 

                                          493                  

Burning

In the sun burning

In the sun burning

White as sand

Hot as fire

Cool as water

Empty

In the sun blister

In the sun blister

Black as oil

Cold as ice

Hard as rock

Melted

In the light naked

In the light shake it

Grey as steel

Warm and wet

Soft as silk

In the sun sister

 

                                          494                  

??

It doesn’t have to be now

It can be sweet memory

 

                                          495                  

Pictures to Prove It

Boy we’ve had our eye on you for quite some time

And you’ve been under surveillance since the Fourth of July

We know just what you’re doing and we saw what you did

We’re gonna blow the lid off

Cause we’ve got pictures to prove it

Pictures to prove it

Pictures to prove it

Pictures to prove it now

It seems your client’s husband’s someone you ought to know

Before we go we’re gonna see you after the show

We know what you’ve been doing and we know where you’ve been

We’re gonna kick you’re head in

Cause we’ve got pictures to prove it

Pictures to prove it

Pictures to prove it

Pictures to prove it now

Hold on wait a minute what did you say

You’ve pictures of your own of her husband that way

Well give them to us anyway we know where he’s been

We’ll go and turn him in

Cause we’ve got pictures to prove it

Pictures to prove it

Pictures to prove it

Pictures to prove it now

More on this later...

 

                                          496                  

Everybody Just Like

Totally colloquial

 

Everybody just like (3x)

Everybody just like everybody else

Black man white woman long green hair

Nipple rings nose ring I don’t care

Biker boots spike hair tattooed head to toe

Everybody’s got to find their own way to go

But still

 

Everybody just like (3x)

Everybody just like everybody else

Yellow man red man brown man tan

The only thing you’ve got to do’s the best that you can

Kinky hair short hair no hair at all

Short people got a right to stand up tall

‘cause everybody just like everybody else

 

Super trippy hippie freak peaking through the door

Beijing Peking doesn’t matter where you’re from as long as you know the score and what’s more

Everybody just like (3x)

Everybody just like everybody else

 


                                          497                  

Wish I Was Dead

I think about you all the time

Down every road I’m on

I couldn’t concentrate on you when you were here

How come I can’t forget you now that you’re gone?

 

The school book sex that drove us mad

The baby that we almost had

And bad things we sometimes did

The tool box lock that rusted shut

The broken hearts and busted nuts

And the guts to keep it all hidden

 

So you need me

Then you bleed me

I’m sure I heard the last words you said

Yes you want me

And you haunt me

You love me so much you wish I was dead

 

I drink too much now every day

And try to write this song

I couldn’t remember what I was trying to say

Do you think that might’ve been where we both went wrong?

 

The passion play that got played out

The simple truth we lied about

Just outsiders both looking in

The fashion statement badly made

A weak foundation sadly laid

Braided into something inside

 

So you need me

Then you bleed me

I’m sure I heard the last words you said

Yes you want me

And you haunt me

You love me so much you wish I was dead

 

                                          498                  

Deep brown almond eyes smoking

Cigarette red dress blazing unfazed naked legs

Painted toenails sexy making love to me

 

                                          499                  

Your dress’s sleeve falls off

Your shoulder you toss your beautiful head

And I shiver with anticipation of you

 

                                          500                  

Three Haiku

(Haiku = 5 7 & 7 syllables)

Naked flaming red

Ready laying on my bed

And you said you had missed me

 

                                          501                  

I don’t care what you think of me

I ain’t afraid of nobody

I don’t give a damn about what people say

I say what I want to

But I ain’t saying anything

That’s OK no one listens anyway

Are you listening

You’re not listening

Listen

 

Slip slide away

Leaving today

Don’t know if or when I’ll be returning

It too late for excuses

I don’t have any use for it

I’m on the other side and the bridge is burning

 

It’s not the way it seems

I’m only bursting at the seams

I’m not afraid to make a scene and come out screaming

I do what I want to

Right now I’m doing everything

I can to stay awake but still I’m dreaming

Are you dreaming

Keep on dreaming

Do it

 

Slip slide away

Leaving today

Don’t know if or when I’ll be returning

It too late for excuses

I don’t have any use for it

I’m on the other side and the bridge is burning

 

I’m right on the brink now if

I could only think straight

I’d step across the line into oblivion

Nothing scares me now

If I could only show you how

Just chuck it all and take a plane to the Caribbean

 

Slip slide away

Leaving today

Don’t know if or when I’ll be returning

It too late for excuses

I don’t have any use for it

I’m on the other side and the bridge is burning

 

 

                                          502                  

Halfway to nothing

Three quarters into something

Nine tenths toward what I don’t understand

Between the start and finish

Lines on roads I ride on

On the right track getting out of hand

 

This and that

Left and right

Right or wrong

The strength of the invincible

 

Pro and con

Black and white

So obviously visible

I don’t pray for nothing

 

Nowhere is nowhere

And everything around me

Surrounded by the emptiness within

Consumed by the righteous

I’m immune to the inevitable

So confounded by the sin that I’m forgiven

So I don’t pray for nothing

 

True or false

Up and down

Round and square

Regarding what I’m saying

 

Deaf and dumb

Lost and found

Discarding what I’m praying for

I don’t pray for nothing

I don’t pray for nothing

 

Nothing?

 

I never pray?

I pray for something?

I pray for a reason?

I don’t pray for oblivion?

I don’t need to pray?

Pray, what do you mean?

 

Prey?

 

Don’t prey on me

 

Prey

 

 

                                          503                  

U just wanna get it together

N U just wanna keep it together

 

But you’re talkin shit as usual

Yeah you’re talkin shit as usual

 

I’m like fuck it

And I’m like fuck it

 

I’m just tryin to kick it yes

Now I’m just tryin to kick it

 

I’m talkin shit as usual

Yeah just talkin shit as usual

 

Fuck it

 

I’m just tryin to move it

Yes I’m just tryin to groove it

 

Don’t ask me to prove it

‘cause I don’t need to prove it

 

I’m talkin shit as usual

And I fuck that shit as usual

 

Shit

 

                                          504                  

Angel of the Lord be with me now. Think of me as I am; simple and full of the joy of life. Warm, comfortable and safe in the womb of the Gods. Surrounded by laughter and music on earth as it is in heaven. Grounded in the softness of silken breeze and living easy. The sunshine like my love my lord everlasting. Passion dissolving into ecstasy easily constancy assured and purified. Truth honesty and openness the rule rather than the exception of conception. Collected and organized along the lines of perfection concocted of happiness rare and priceless. Questions in no need of answer through obviousness. Seeing through each others eyes as glass or the crystal clear tri-color sea. Absorbed in ultimateness limitless in possibility infinity in front of me stretching out endless behind. Lightest caress infinitesimal oblivious to needless rule of rhyme and reason timeless. Attached by the slimmest strand unbinding yet strong as stainless steel unrusted and trusting thee unconditionally a thousand miles hence betwixt yet close as trees whose roots run together and become one love under god indivisible with power and equality tremendously tight in rightness excited by the reality of reality unflinching clinched by the one true light of being beautiful true unbending un ending unending unending unending  unending unending unending unending unending unending the end

Unending unending unending unending unending unending the end

 

 

                                          505                  

What is it babe?

Does it burn like fire?

Does it rock like stone?

When you’re alone

Do you think of me?

On the brink of you?

And is it true?

Does it hurt like hell?

Does it feel like steel?

And is it real?

Inside you beside me we hide from the twilight

Forever a moment a moment that’s lasting forever

Forever and a day

What is it babe?

Does it turn to ice?

Does it melt like that?

Like a baseball bat?

Are you satisfied?

Are feeling full?

Pushed and pulled?

Full speed gone

Ahead ‘til dawn?

Inside you beside me we hide from the twilight

Forever a moment that’s lasting forever

Forever forever

Forever and a day

 

                                          506                  

Sing in the rain

      Walk with the stars

            Dance on the ocean

                  Run through the sand

And it makes me happy

 

Talk to the flowers

      Speak with the trees

            Lie on the grass

                  Soak up the sun

And it makes me happy

 

Laugh with the children

      Play in the street

            Jump to the rhythm

                  Forget what you knew

You can be so happy

 

Carve it in stone

      Sculpted in clay

            Write it in water

                  Wash it away

You can be so happy

 

 

                                          507                  

Now I’ve been

And now I’ve seen

Now I hear

And now I know

Champagne Charlie told me so

And I go

I shall fear no man

I and I and I shall fear no man

For

I to the eye to the Rastafari eye to the Ital way

I to the eye to the Rastafari eye to the Ital way

Rastafari!

Now I’m the leaf

Leaf to the limb

Limb to the trunk

Now I’m the root go

Champagne Charlie told me so

Now I know

I shall fear no man

I and I and I shall fear no man

For

I to the eye to the Rastafari eye to the Ital way

I to the eye to the Rastafari eye to the Ital way

Maximum respect now!

Walk so smooth

Feel so sweet

All all right

When you move so

Champagne Charlie told me so

Now I know

I shall fear no man

I and I and I shall fear no man

For I to the eye to the Rastafari eye to the Ital way

I to the eye to the Rastafari eye to the Ital way

 

                                          508                  

What do you want? You get what you ask for

What do you need? Take what life deals you

What do you think you feel like?

Pressure on three balls and two strikes

Hit it! Don’t you worry baby it’ll be all right (in a round)

Where do you go? Where can you run to?

What do you know? We’re going nowhere

Why do you think we’re running?

How ‘bout the engine we’re gunning?

Honey! Don’t you worry baby it’ll be all right (in a round)

When do you stop? When do you think about it

When do you pause? It’s time to rewind

When do you let the boy scout?

When do shut the lights out?

Shout about it! Don’t you worry baby it’ll be all right

 

 

                                          509                  

Marylin - the hurricane song

 

Prepare for the storm - she’s coming

Hurricane form - she’s coming

Wind in my trees I’m on my knees

She’s coming

Rip off the roof - she’s coming

The truth of the proof - she’s coming

The rain and sand I’m in her hands

She’s coming

Baby rip the roof off

She does like she feels - she’s coming

Thunder on your heels - she’s coming

Getting psyched for the lightning strike

She’s coming

Put out the lights - she’s coming

Hot summer nights - she’s coming

Whether or not you like the weather she brought

She’s coming

 

                                          510                  

The sink is beautiful

The sink is beautiful

The spirit is willing and the wine is fine

And the sync; the sink is beautiful

 

The flow is comfortable

It’s so comfortable

The flesh is weak and the meat is wasted

And the sync; the sink is beautiful

 

The verse is lyrical

Vertical versus spherical

The room keeps spinning and I can’t think

The sink; the sink is beautiful

 

Out of sync out of sync out of sync out of sync

 

Think blink stink sink

The sync

The sink is beautiful

The sync

The sink is beautiful

The stomach empties the pain within

The sink

Sink sink sink sink

 

My favorite recent work....naturally stolen

 

 

                                          511                  

Run your fingers through my hair but I don’t care

Caress my cheek and kiss my lips but I won’t flip

Trip over overnight feelings denied

Melt like an icicle burning inside

Tell me how you need me so if you can’t go

Say you want me day and night it’s all right

Listening to limitless silence so loud

Proud and unbending I step from the crowd

Stand up and walk away with me

Stand up and walk away

 

Slip your number under the table call when I’m able

Meet me at midnight we’ll dance in the moonlight tonight

Electric contact the contract fulfilled

I’d still stay with you if only you will

Fill me with sunshine and that’s fine

Go on tell me how you feel ‘cause I can deal

Passionate motion emotion so strong it

Steel razors cut me with feeling so strong

Stand up and walk away with me

Stand up and walk away

 

                                          512                  

Get out of my head

It’s too full in here

Choking on smoke and drowned in beer

Better take the wheel baby better steer clear

Please dear God

Let me out of this place

Broken down town in the rat race

Come here dear and get out of my face

 

What the fuck is this shit?

Where the hell did this come from?

Why the fuck am I even bothering?

Who the fuck knows?

 

 

                                          513                  

Bass baby

Bass baby

Let me be your bass baby

Bass baby

Bass baby

Let me be your bass

 

Let me feel your body move

Slip me right into the groove

If you use it you can’t lose it

When I am your bass

 

There it’s sliding into place

See hear smell you touch and taste

Sorrow is erased when you

Let me be your

Let me be your

Let me be your bass

 

You do what you need to do

If you let me be with you

Have no fear you’ll soon be with me

When I am your bass

 

I’m the novel that you write

I’m the apple that you bite

Let’s make love for love’s delight I

Feel that funky beat then I

Feel that funky beat

Drop

And let me be your bass baby

Let me be your bass

 

 

Space: the final frontier

 

 

 

                                          514                  

 

I can feel you from here

I know you’re sleeping

My ears are ringing

I’m missing you

I remember this

I sense your feelings

I know you’re thinking

It’s nothing new

 

And I begin to wonder...

Do you understand?

Am I getting through?

This is something different

 

I kneel at the altar

And I’m faltering

Wild horses bolting

I’m kissing you

Two concentrate

At a constant rate

Bent into straight

The false lie is true

 

And I begin to want you

Much more than I can

Forget about the fruit

For I am just a man

But this is something more than different

This is something more than something different

This is something

 

                                          515                  

How does it feel my love?

On the inside looking out...

Like a rapist you won’t try to escape

As if you didn’t know what this was all about

But I think you know what it’s all about it’s all

About you

Are unhappy and you are so lonely if only

I weren’t such a dope I would hope

For something something something something real

 

Are you okay my love?

Did you fall down the stairs

Like a rubber ball bouncing down the hall

As if you knew it all but did not care

I know you know but you do not care

About you

Run unhappy through dead fields of glory

The story’s not over until it is over

Or something something something something real

 

 

                                          516                  

Couple of six packs

A bottle of pills

Marlboro cigs

And a handful of joy

Passing out

On the couch

It’s getting boring

But everything’s boring

After a while

I felt up the sunrise

Under an angel

I can still smell it

Happened today

Everything’s here for a moment

A lifetime of seconds awaits

How I want to keep it together

But nothing’s built to last

I sit and I wonder

My lifetime away

And if I can figure

It out it’s too late

Couple of six packs

A bottle of booze

A day at the races

A handful of joy

Oh boy...

 

                                          517                  

Holding onto something I can not reach

You’ve been trying so hard to learn what I cannot teach

Got a dragon to chase keep on running in place

I’m sick of your schtick so get out of my face - bass!

Listen babe I know who you’ve been kissin

You know that I am dissin the style that you’re wild with

The wings that you fly with piss me off and I’m tired of it

Wired up tight and it’s time to step off

It’s like stepping on a land mine

It’s like finding my love at the five and dime

Did you just want to do it on the phone call?

Or do you like kickin men like a football

A simple QED and if you’re down with me

You know I’m out getting live like TNT

But getting back to the facts you can’t front on me

You know you used to have the juice that I savored

But lately it doesn’t seem the same flavor

I slipped outta the noose so now I’m on the loose

I got my acey deuce in ya juice caboose

They tell me what you see’s exactly what you get

And in case you haven’t heard you ain’t seen nothing yet

So you turn and you burn and yes you’re livin hell

But when the surfin’s up baby then you ride the swell

 

 

                                          518                  

First there was the word

The word becomes the light

The light becomes the tree

The tree becomes the bird

 

Who next became the stain

The stain became the blood

The blood became the truth

The truth becomes the pain

 

Helpless

 

Helpless he cried

Naked inside

Tears are the price

Of insolent pride

Passions collide

But who can decide?

Better to run

Better to hide

 

Ashes turn to dust

Dust becomes the earth

Earth becomes the flesh

The flesh’s empty lust

 

The arrow landed home

A muffled sound was heard

The victim screamed in vain

Insane became the word

 

Helpless

 

Helpless he cried

Naked inside

Tears are the price

Of insolent pride

Passions collide

But who can decide?

Better to run

Better to hide

 

                                          519                  

I’m nothing but useless

I hate myself

Hypocrite asshole

I’m used to myself

Sick of this bullshit

I’m just getting old

My fire is burning

My icicle’s cold

 

                                          520                  

There was a dream

I’m riding my motorcycle

Around a sharp curve to the right

My friend Thad is giving me shit

We lose control

And drive off the edge

It’s a long way down

We land in the mud

I am surprised to be alive

There are many Hare Krishnas

Who wish to help us

Meanwhile I have discovered a secret door

In the mud

There are many tunnels and

Many strange things there

But the upward passage leads to

A Chinese laundry

Which is full of gangsters

I do my best to walk out

As if I owned the place

But I am followed by a man

With a very large gun

I jump over the wall

To avoid his gunfire

And land in the mud

Amongst three rows multi-colored flowers

And I was thinking

Damn! This is my day for mud

Then I woke up

 

                                          521                  

Then I was dreaming

Of a girl

In a car

The back seat of a Cadillac

Covered in sheepskin

It had a depression

With a seat like a hot tub

And shoulder pads

For any sexual position

You would care for

And then the cop knocked on the window

 

 

                                          522                  

And then I was dreaming of a girl

In a blue Pinto

And we went to this parking lot

To neck

And these people surrounded us

Gang members - warriors

Bloods and Crips

And they wanted to rape the girl and kill me

 

In one dream I begin to fight

And my brothers pull up in a graffiti covered Chevy

Four strong black men

Who disperse the Ruffians

 

In another dream I kill several of the men

And then another of the group

Tries to trade me drugs for the girl

He hands me a half rolled joint

And we climb into another car

And he is offering me many joints for the girl

And I drop the drugs on the floor

And wave to the police who are driving by

And I wake

 

                                          523                  

I was in my love’s house

Our house actually, for we lived together

She had gone out with a friend to do some shopping

I was naked but for a towel

A good looking spike-haired blond man ascends the stairs

He is naked except for a bright yellow overcoat

He says he knows my love from the institution

He is menacing

And I cannot get him to state his business

Suddenly my love and her friend return

I am frightened and she does not understand

He sits at the table and beckons her to him

She goes and I can read his mind

“Grab her wrist with the left hand,”

He holds the ugly evil knife as a child holds a crayon

“And rip the knife into her ribs beneath the heart!”

I lunge and push her out of reach of the knife just in time

And we wrestle

The knife I have grabbed from the table is much smaller

A boy scout blade

And I am loath to cut with it though I fear for my love’s life

He raises the knife to finish me

And I stick my knife in with a sickening squish

And twist

I rip him open

And wake up crying and screaming

 

                                          524                  

Bent

Rent

Sent away

Went

Spent

And I meant it

Kissed

Missed

Blissed out

Pissed

Dissed

So I twist it

Pride

Lied

Hurt inside

Denied

Cried

But I hide it

 

                                          525                  

Looking to

Something new

Why don’t you

Think it through

 

Burning undenied

Hiding deep inside

Rivers deep and wide

Why do you hide it?

 

Some one believes it’s true

Paranoid troubadour

Thinks that you want what you want

What you want is more

And more and more and more and more and more

 

Something cries

Behind your eyes

The feeling dies

Paralyzed

 

Turning you decide

Wait ‘til our worlds collide

Yearning you’re satisfied

Biding your time with it

 

Some one believes it’s true

Paranoid troubadour

Thinks that you want what you want

What you want is more

And more and more and more and more and more

 

 

                                          526                  

Light swirls around me

And I’m lost in time

The world revolves around me

And then I unwind

The wind whips around me

In that wasted space

The sky trips around me

And I lose my place

 

I stop and take a drink

An empty glass of rain

I think it stops the pain

But then I think again

 

The thunder bolts surround me

And I’ve lost my way

The noise and flame confound me

And I turn away

The chain of love unbound me

Now I’m safe and sound

The storm no longer pounds me

Now your power grounds me

 

I used to take a drink

It used to kill the pain

Now I live again [now I see the truth]

High upon your plain [now I live again]

 

Satellite

I’m your satellite

Won’t you let me hold you

In my arms tonight?

 

                                          527                  

Beautiful you

Praise the Lord

Ties that bind you I unwind you

I replace you and erase you

How I hate you fascinate you

Dictate and eradicate you

Beautiful you

Praise the Lord

First I taste you then I waste you

I caress you I digest you

I disgrace you and deface you

Rant you rave you none can save you

With all God gave you I enslave you - Jones

Cut you burn you slash you smash you

Shred you slice you crush you bash you

Hurt you bleed you tear disease you

Scratch you squeeze you kiss you kill you

 

 

                                          528                  

I was a young man

Now I feel too old to kiss and I have

Wasted my existence

On a mouthful of the lies

That you call promises

Promises

 

I’m like the blind man

Who remembers what he’s seen I can’t

Believe the dreams that I exchanged

For the dearest pound of flesh

And all those promises

Promises

Lies

 

I used to know what confidence was

Self respect a little pride

All I have left is hopelessness

A pocket full of change

And promises

Empty promises

Lies

 

                                          529                  

Well I never

I never wanted anything

I never wanted anything so badly

I never wanted anything I didn’t want so badly

 

I don’t think you think about it much

And I don’t think you think I think about it

Too much

And I don’t think it matters

But then I don’t think that anything really matters

Much

I don’t care

At least I wish I didn’t care

I only wish I didn’t care so badly

I never cared so much about anything I don’t care about

Much

I don’t think you think about it much

And I don’t think you think I think about it

Too much

And I don’t think it matters

But then I don’t think that anything really matters

Much

 

I wonder

I wonder if you miss me

I wonder if you’d miss me so badly

I wonder if you miss me and do you feel this badly

 

 

                                          530                  

I loved everything you know

I loved everyone

I longed to spread my love around

Before my life was done

I loved everyone you know

I loved everything

The world was my oyster palace

I was the king

 

Then you came along your song

Like a siren swan at sea

Now your sound surrounds

I drown unfolding into me

Passion spark a burning flame

Volcano you erupt

Twist my mind and body

All that’s pure is now corrupt

And i want to die

 

I hate everything you know

I hate everyone

I only want to die

Before my time has come

I hate everyone you know

I hate everything

A victim of the loneliness

This emptiness brings

And i want to die

 

                                          531                  

Sometimes i hate my life

I don’t know why i’m miserable

I’ve got it all but i don’t know what to do with it

Sometimes i get so cold

I don’t know why i’m so afraid

I’ve got all the time i need but i’m just wasting it

 

When i talk about loneliness

When i speak of unhappiness

Do i think i really know what i’m saying?

When i scream for your caress

When i cry from the emptiness

Who cares? Do you know what i’m saying?

Who cares if you know what i’m saying?

 

Sometimes i burn myself

I don’t mean to it just happens

My god! Why do i feel so helpless?

Sometimes i get so sad

I just want to shoot myself

I want a drink so bad i can taste it

 

 

                                          532                  

Let me feel your sweet intensity

Burn me and turn like the sun

Wind me up like a tape deck reel

Beg borrow steal me

 

My love deeper than the sea

My love understand me

My love constant and free

Wild and hungry

 

Shock me with your complexity

Cut right down to the quick

Pick me up like a little bitter pill

Thrill fill me still me

 

My love deeper than the sea

My love understand me

My love constant and free

Wild and hungry

 

                                          533                  

Night

Goin home see ya

Night

Black as coal

Night wouldn’t wanna be ya

Night

Empty soul

Night

Kiss me good

Night

Time

Night

Watch man

Night

Flight

Night

Of darkness

Night

Of light

First star

I see two

Night

Can’t keep me down at

Night

Sweats

Night

Shift

Night

Lover

Night

 

 

                                          534                  

There’s more 2 u

Than meets the eye

Intangible orange

Juicy and sweet

I can’t wait 2

C u

 

So sexual

Sex you all

 

Funny i feel like i’ve

Known you for years

I can’t quite put my

Finger on it

I want to give it all

2 u

 

So sexual

Sex you all

 

I see you

I touch you

I smell you

I taste you

I hear you say

 

So sexual

Sex sex

Sex you all

 

                                          535                  

Give in to it

Don’t be afraid of it

It won’t hurt you

Go on

It’s free you know

There’s no cover charge

It’s the supporter of large

Go on

Compromise it

Deny it

Despise it

Lie to it

Go on

Commit to it

Get fit to it

Get high with it

Go die with it

Go on

 

                                          536                  

The music history song (educational music)

(white boy version)

Vivaldi verdi

Haydn tellemann

Mozart beethoven

Bach debbusy

Shostokovitch

J.j. fux

Palestrina

Mussourgsky

Stravinsky

Shoenberg

Webern

Etc etc

The music history song

Black version - is this list too long to even start?

This bears the creation of another document.

 

                                          537                  

Emotion and fire

Compulsion desire

In

Connection

In the dark

Matches striking

The spark

Deep insider

I

Nsider

Devotion respect and

An object direct

In

Formation

Information

A sign of devine

Inspiration

Insider

 

(live in give in

Break in fake it

Sit in fit in

Do it to it)

 

An ocean of violets

In bloom in your room

In

Temptation (temptation)

The mark of

Eternal

Damnation

Insider

 

 

                                          538                  

Hush - don’t speak

Don’t you say a word

I heard what you were thinking

And i flinched but i’m not blinking

No salt no tears

The years go by too quick

I’m sick of where they’re is going

And knowing isn’t helping

 

Everybody wants a little something

Everybody needs someone to care

Everybody always ends up somewhere

I’ll let you know when i get there

 

Now it’s give and take

It’s time to make your bets

Everything goes away someday

But tomorrow isn’t here yet

So break or bend

The end is at the start

The last part’s at the beginning

And we set our hearts on winning

 

Refrain

 

                                          539                  

Outside

Looking inside

I want on the inside

I want on the inside

 

Getting closer

To the father

Farther

Away from you

 

Inside

I want on the inside

Let me

Get on the inside

 

Lover

Sooner or later

I’m going to hate her

You mother figure

 

Inside

Now that i’m inside

Let me out

Get me out

Set me free

 

 

                                          540                  

Thumbelina tumble - ing

Couldn’t stand

Picture perfect

Wants to make it

Wants to make it

Big

Too

Too big

She’s sister anesthtesia

 

Surprise surprise survive alive

 

Caught me with someone old

Caught me with someone new

I caught cold and i died

Never knew the truth

 

Is it any wonder?

I wonder if [why] i lied?

 

Every time

We get close

We get close

We get closer

 

                                          541                  

Spastic

Electromagnetic

Erotic fantastic

I just can’t get past it

 

Seismic

Photo orgasmic

Erratic fanatic

Unwrap the plastic

 

Truth or dare?

 

Cosmic

Connected fabric

Collected samples

Of larks tongues in aspic

 

Sarcastic

Iconoclastic

Fascinated masturbating

Unwrap the plastic

 

Truth or dare?

 

                                          542                  

Suicide bridge

 

I know where i’m going

And i don’t care where i’ve been

I’ll see you all the way up on heartbreak ridge

I’m thinking of jumping off suicide bridge

 

I know what she gave me for those diamonds and pearls

I wanted everything and she gave me the world

But now i’m all alone on heartbreak ridge

And i can see the lonely lights on suicide bridge

 

I know what you wanted

And i know what i got

A one way ticket up to heartbreak ridge

And a long, long fall off of suicide bridge

 

                                          543                  

I’d like to give you some peace of mind

But you’ve got this great big axe to grind

 

Summer come and some they go

But there’s something i’d like you to know

 

I get wound up tight and i unwind

Like an apple core or an orange rind

You might get fleeced at least it feels fine

When it’s overkill on overtime

 

Slip slide away leaving today

Don’t know if i’ll stay or where i’m going

It’s too late for excuses and i don’t have any use for it

The candle’s burnt out and i’m blowing

 

If you’re gonna give away a piece of your life

I suggest you know who holds the knife

 

Summer comes and some they go

But there’s something i’d like you to know

 

 

                                          544                  

THE SOUND OF YOUR VOICE IN THE MORNING

AND THE WARMTH OF YOUR SWEET TOUCH EACH NIGHT

MAKES ME SMILE

THE LILT OF YOUR LAUGH IN THE SUNSHINE

AND HE BRIGHT LITTLE SPARK OF YOUR FIRE

MY DESIRE OVERFLOWS

 

WHEN YOU’RE AWAY I ALWAYS LONG FOR MY COMPANION

WHEN YOU ARE GONE I WISH THAT YOU WERE HERE

I DRY A TEAR ‘TIL YOU RETURN AGAIN THEN

WHEN I BECOME YOUR CHAMPAGNE CHAMPION

 

I KNOW YOUR WATERFALL IS NEVERENDING

THE LUSHNESS OF YOUR FOREST EVER GREEN

LEAVE ME SINGING

THE OVERWHELMING WAIT OF CONCENTRATION

DISSOLVES INTO A PASSION KISSING BLISS

I ALWAYS MISS THIS

 

WHEN YOU’RE AWAY I ALWAYS LONG FOR MY COMPANION

WHEN YOU ARE GONE I WISH THAT YOU WERE HERE

I DRY A TEAR ‘TIL YOU RETURN AGAIN THEN

WHEN I BECOME YOUR CHAMPAGNE CHAMPION

 

                                          545                  

USED TO BE A HARDER TIME

OVERSTEPPING UNDERLYING

REASONS FOR A CHILD DYING

KILLED IT OFF AND I QUIT TRYING

THIS SONG IS FOR YOU

Wanderlust

 

THEN I SAW A BRIGHTER SUN

UNDERSTOOD AND SET OUT RUNNING

OVERLOADED UNDERGUNNING

A CUNNING BEAST ALL SHOCKED AND STUNNING

THIS SONG IS FOR YOU

THIS SONG IS FOR YOU

Wanderlust

 

NOW I LOOK TO BETTER DAYS

PRAY THEY HEAR THE PRAYER I’M PRAYING

THE BEAT TO BEAT THE BAND’S STILL PLAYING

IT’S OVERWHELMING I’M STILL STAYING

THIS SONG IS FOR YOU

THIS SONG IS FOR YOU

THIS SONG IS FOR YOU

My One true LOVE

Wanderlust

 

                                          546                  

GOD BABY

GOD BABY

O GOD

 

GOOD BOY

WHAT A GOOD BOY

BABY                                      

 

YOU’RE A GOD BABY

O MY GOD BABY

YOU ARE A GOD BABY

O GOD

 

BABY

 

O GOD

 

BABY

 

O GOD

 

BABY

 

O GOD

 

GOOD GIRL

YOU’RE A GOOD GIRL

BABY

 

O GOD

 

YOU’RE A GOD BABY

O MY GOD BABY

ON THE NOD MAYBE

YOU’RE GOD

 

HELL IS JUST A PLACE WHERE

You’re a God Baby

HELL IS JUST A PLACE WHERE

you’re a god baby

 

O God

 

HELL IS JUST A PLACEWARE

HELL IS JUST A PLACE WHERE

HELL IS JUST A PLACEWARE

HELL IS JUST A PLACE WHERE

HELL IS JUST A PLACEWARE

HELL IS JUST A PLACE WHERE

HELL IS JUST A PLACEWARE

HELL IS JUST A PLACE WHERE

 

                                          547                  

THE BUILDING WAS ON FIRE

I WAS TRYING TO GET YOU OUT OF THERE

YOU WERE HOLDING A LITTLE BABY

THE TELEPHONE WAS MELTING

 

I WAS GETTING FRIGHTENED

I CALLED THE FIRE DEPARTMENT

I RAN DOWN TO THE BASEMENT

THE BATTERIES IGNIGHTED

 

THE FAMILY STARTED CRYING

THE SIRENS WERE WAILING

THE LIGHT WAS SLOWLY FAILING

THE FIRE FINALLY DYING

 

I WENT BACK TO THE BASEMENT

I WAS TRYING TO GET ME OUT OF THERE

I WAS TACKLED BY A POLAR BEAR

HE LOOKED HUNGRY HE SAID "HELP ME"

 

                                          548                  

I NEED MATERIAL SHE SAID

I LAUGHED AS IF SHE ONLY KNEW

THAT EVERY SMILE WAS A TEAR

AND EVERY LIE SHE TOLD WAS TRUE

 

WE DROVE FOR MILES SAID NOT A WORD

I HEARD THE ROAD GO ROLLING BY

GOT HIGH AND DROVE TOO SLOW THROUGH TOWN

THE CRY OF BIRDS SING SADLY OUT

THIS IS GOING NOWHERE

IS IT?

OR ISN’T IT?

 

I’M NOT GETTING ANYWHERE WITH THIS.

BETTER TRY HARDER.

TOO MUCH BULLSHIT AND NOT ENOUGH SUBSTANCE.

SING ABOUT SOMETHING.

WHAT’S ON YOUT MIND?

THIS WEEK’S WAR?

LAST MONTH’S PUSSY?

LAST YEAR’S HIT?

YESTERDAY’S FIT?

A NICE PAIR OF

SIX SHOOTERS?

FUCK IF I KNOW ALBINO.

JUST A RAT TRAP

STOP GAP

CLAP CRAP

D.I.L.L.I.G.A.F.

IF YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN ...

 

 

                                          549                  

SPARKLE

EXISTENTIAL

CONTROVERSIAL

 

CENTRAL

CONFISCATOR

LIBERATOR

GENERATE HER

 

CRYSTAL

BLISTER KISSES

CONFIDENTIAL

INFLUENTIAL

CONDEMNATION

 

LIQUID

ALLIGATOR

FIRE WATER

ALTERCATION

DEGRADATION

DESECRATION

 

                                          550                  

ONCE AGAIN I SAY

WHY DID THESE LAST FIFTY

TAKE AS LONG AS THE PREVILOUS

TWO HUNDRED AND FIFTY?

 

MY CONSISTENCY SEEMS TO BE FUCKED

EITHER THAT OR MY PERCEPTION IS

WAY OFF

 

                                          551                  

CHALLENGER

CONTACT

FIRE  PRIMARY  THRUSTERS

OVER ROGER

 

COUNTDOWN

ALL SYSTEMS GO

WILCO BABY

 

LIFTOFF

ENGAGE IGNITION

ALERT CONDITION

ALL SYSTEMS GO

 

TELEMETRY

TRAJECTORY

ENERGY

BOOM!

 

 

                                          552                  

You come on with an attitude and I don’t know what to say

You’re a rude little interlude why don’t go away

cut it out - leave me alone [repeat]

cut it out

 

The Needle’s Pinned

 

you’ve always got the same complaint how everything’s a drag

got no patience or restraint but you’ve got your little bag

cut it out - leave me alone [repeat]

cut it out

 

The Needle’s Pinned

 

I’m getting fucking sick of you so why don’t you cut the shit?

putting out and up with you and I’m tired of it

so I

cut it out - leave me alone

 

The Needle’s Pinned

 

                                          553                  

I found you and I drowned you

I wished that I could be complete

I bound you and I unwound yu

I’m tasting the bitter sweet defeat

of

Loneliness

 

I kissed you and I’ve missed you

I want something I can feel

I touched you and I erupted you

I’m just a dream but you’re so-so

so real

Loneliness

 

I decieved you and I disbelieved you

I just want someone I can trust

I tried for you I lied for you I cry for you I’d die for you

I’m consumed by self disgust

I’m on self destruct

I’m in two

Loneliness

 

I held you and I felled you

I only try to be discreet

I tossed you and I lost you

The battle’s won by I retreat

yes I retreat into

Loneliness is slavery I need someone to hold on to loneliness is slavery don’t takw it away from me slavery someone to hold on to

 

 

                                          554                  

PUT THAT RIFLE DOWN

BETTER LISTEN TO THE SOUND

GET YOUR FEET BACK ON THE GROUND

‘FORE THEY SURROUND YOU

AND IT’S

LEATHER LACE AND STEEL

MAKES NO MATTER WHAT YOU FEEL

I HEAR SOME WOUNDS WILL NEVER HEAL

BUT THAT’S NOT REAL TO YOU

AND SO IT DON’T MEAN A THING

NO IT DON’T MEAN A THING

UNLESS YOU’VE GOT IT

 

THAT DIAMOND RING

 

SADDLE UP AND MOVE

GET THAT WHEEL INTO THE GROOVE

YOU’VE GOT NOTHING LEFT TO PROVE

TO HERBERT HOOVER

AND IT

DON’T MEAN NOTHING MUCH

IF I CAN’T GET THAT SILVER TOUCH

WHEN IT COMES DOWN TO THE CLUTCH

IT’S SUCH A BUMMER

 

THAT DIAMOND RING

 

AND IT DON’T MEAN A THING

NO IT DON’T MEAN A THING

 

                                          555                  

HIP HOP

FLATTERING CLAP TRAP

SITTING ON A SLIT IN THE OCEAN’S SON

PICK UP

SNICKERING HAND CUFFS

HITTING ON A DANCER AT THE LOCAL CLUB - YEAH

 

QUICK LET ME FIX WHAT YOU BROKE IN THE MIX

THE FIRE’S NOT OUT BUT IT’S DYING

HERE LET ME TRY THIS I WANT TO GET HIGH

YOU GET WHAT YOU PAY FOR

BUT I DECIDED TO HIDE WHAT I’M BUYING

 

SHIT HOUSE

GLITTERING SLAM GLAM

LICKING UP THE JOY JUICE ONE TWO THREE

FREAK OUT

SLIPPERY SOUL FISH

TRIPPING ON THE FLICKER OF THE FLAME IN ME -YEA

 

 

                                          556                  

A CLASSIC CASE OF A MAN WITH NOTHING TO SAY

AND TOO MANY WORDS TO SAY IT WITH...

 

YOU SPURNED ME i BURNED u

I NEEDED YOU YOU BLED ME

YOU FED ON MY INSTINCT

I THINK THAT YOU USED ME

 

SLIT

 

YOUR TIRED DESIRE

NO LONGER INSPIRES

THE FLAME IS EXTINCT

THE FIRE EXPIRES

 

DESECRATE

DEVAULATE

YOU TERMINATE

EXTERMINATE

 

SLIT

 

YOU TRIPPED ME YOU DRIPPED ME

I FED YOU YOU STARVED ME

YOU CARVED UP MY INSIDES

BESIDE ALL THE LIES YOU

 

SLIT

 

YOUR BURNING EMOTION

AN OCEAN OF EMPTY

REDEMPTION SALVATION

ABSORBTION DAMNATION

 

ERADICATE

DEGENERATE

YOU SUBJUGATE

I HATE YOU

 

SLIT                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                -Blister

 

 

                                          557                  

Precisely.

The whole thing

let go.

 

Random 

Sample

Hold

 

A holding pattern

of

Chaos

Nothingness

Nevermind

No matter

 

Just more

Rain

Drizzle

Fog

 

then

 

Sun

Heat

Desert

Dust

Endless empty cycles

in my washing machine brain.

SPIN

 

I hate rainy days.

 

                                          558                  

 

A slave to the grind

Arrested by the page

Wound up to unwind

This blade cuts the rage

The wind blows me down

The sun blows me up

The cup is broken

the swimmer glimmers

then drowns

sinking peacefully 

into the blue black gloom

of doom

thinking happy thoughts

of you

and dying

 

                                          559                  

birds on my wire

bats in my belfree

beasts in my fields

shaking my tree

pits in my peaches

pears on my stairs

leeches in my rivers

and baby snakes in my hair

a managerie manager

but who the heck cares?

forests on my fireplace

and birds on my wire...

 

                                          560                  

Black and Shiny

Crystal notes fall like rain

Fly like a hummingbird

Cut like a chainsaw

Brass and wood

Heroin high

And pianissimo low

So crooked and bent

He went straight

Smiles with Miles

And Funk with Monk

Blowing like breeze

Through Liquid

Chord changes running

Like rivers of melody

Into lakes of harmony

We miss you John

Happy 70 th Birthday

Where ever you are...

 

 

                                          561                  

Today’s offering

Sweet and soft

delicate

wholesome

untouched 

virginal

flower beds 

flower petals

stems and stamens

strut

cut slice dice

hate scar break

shred the veins

smash the brain

drink the blood

kill

absorb the pain

insanity reigns

it always rains here

but I can’t complain

it’s a warm place

Notes fall like rain

on my sun drenched plain

I was dry yet now I drink

From a cup of the insane

 

Catatonic harmony  or

Harmonic cacophony

Melodic schizophrenia 

A nevermind symphony

 

No matter what the gain

a pain inspired loss

Resonant in my brain

Notes fall once more like rain

It’s nice to be writing again

 

                                          562                  

 

*******************

Warning: Dire Negativity Ahead.

******************

 

Good girl dead

oh what a shame!

big deal we all die

why does everyone 

make such a fuss?

Chaos cares nothing

for your moralistic bullshit

aids probably kills more

people than drunks every year

I don’t hear much about that

don’t share needles or lovers

a closer look at the blanket uncovers

dead babies aborted

or killed in a mortar shower

the only difference is

a vulgar display of power

on someone’s part

depends which side of the

sword you’re on

big deal we all die

everyday anyday anytime anyway

drunk, drivers, disease

war, famine, drought and freeze

bombs and bullets

.38 slugs for drugs

mowing you down

chaos cares nothing

for your high moral ground

there’s no easy answer

to the pain in your gut

the universe laughs and says

"So fucking what?"

 

                                          563                  

THROWAWAY

taking up space

killing time

slapped in the face

but it’s not a crime

cut to the chase

now hit the rhyme

steel leather and lace

and that band sublime

maybe it’s a waste

but I’m doing fine

my mind’s erased

from whiskey and wine

I can’t see a trace

of what I’m trying to find

I just want a taste

of that little line

I’ve been replaced

by that steady whine

 

                                          564                  

hate to splash blood

on your sundress Mary Poppins

but I have enough trouble

with the Brain Police

6

LOVE LOVE LOVE

y no to drugs

don’t drink and drive

keep off the grass

kiss my ass

where’s my chainsaw?

straightjacket homeboy

driller killer

packing a gun just

looking for fun

feeling’s nothing more

than feeling sucker

cold and hard

with an icicle heart

the flesh slowly rots

it’s my favourite part

everything comes

from the bottomless pit

and I hate being mistaken

for someone who gives a shit

go wash someone else’s  brain 

mind police dog

I’ve got bodies to burn

and time to spare

so kindly get out of the way

 

Blister

 

 

                                          565                  

Polly Anna Sunbeam girl

Don’t you wish you were an angel?

sometimes it gets a little dangerous

playing croquet

 

Shiny yellow undressed days

overshadowed by a rain cloud

A little thunder understanding

but that’s O.K.

 

I heard she loves it with her leather

You know I’ve got to hand it to her

knocks me over with a feather

come on and be my handstand

 

Heaven’s seventeen today

fucking looking like the devil

wet and totally dishevelled

Are you here to stay?

 

Mary Poppins with a hairbrush

you never know when someone’s serious

boy toys can get delirious

under the crush

 

I heard she loves it with her leather

You know I’ve got to hand it to her

knocks me over with a feather

come on and be my handstand

 

Blister

 

                                          566                  

Greetings All!

***********

SPARKLES

 

Silver and gold

Diamonds can’t rust

Riches untold

won’t hold you in trust

Bubbly champagne

glimmers insanely

and sparkles

 

The stars in the sky

and the sun on the water

the light in her eyes

grounds me to powder

daughter of fire

filled with desire

and sparkles

 

Earrings and necklaces

Jingle and jangle

I’m wrecked and I’m reckless

I’m hanging out dangling

sequins and spangles

baubles and bangles

and sparkles

sparkles...

 

                                          567                  

Sun drenched plain

a wind washed field

the pain decides 

what’s real or fake

hide and seek

I brake the tide

the lie is true

the wise insane

 

Paint in the sand

surrounded by sea

The hand of God

of me takes hold

rods of steel

cold and hard

the real illusion

canned and grand

 

I bide my time

God stands aside

I’m just a man

so guide me now

so outside in

I twist and bend

and all that begins

must someday end

 

                                          568                  

Reached in and plucked out

my hollow hardened heart

Lay it on the table

get out the hack saw, axe murderer

Slice it up nice and

throw the pieces on he fire

just to watch ‘em burn baby

and when they’re nice and crisp

take tongs and lift ‘em to my lips

MMMMMMMMMMMMM

Delicious, crunchy and chewy by turns

how I love to at my heart out

like a flower

gossamer strands

of heart in my hands

I lick

my fingers

clean

 

                                          569                  

Look out!

 

Agony

Anguish

Bottomed out

Brutally Beaten

Cheated

Crushed

Despair

Disdain

Destruction

Damnation

Death

Escape

Fear

Gutless

Horror

Hatred

Insanity

Junk

Kicked

Love

Mangled

Naked

Orgasm

Pin

Pain

Queer

Ripped

Shredded

Torn

Underground

Vacuous

X

Irradiated

Yellow

Zilch

 

 

Blister

 

 

                                          570                  

Fire underneath the skin

Fire in the hole

From the point of no return

I burn

 

Fire on the bayou

Licking at the flames

playing silly games

I burn

 

Fire on the mountain

spreading to the floor

liquid fire fountain

I burn

 

Battery acid blood

a torch that I can hold

a love that you can spurn

Burn

 

                                          571                  

What do you know,

I’m here again

blistering kisses

for lonely women

you say I’m lethal

just like a snake

tripping over and out

on the hearts I break

Ah, what do you know?

 

What do you know,

I finally slipped

the models in these 

dreams are stripped

the pages of my

memory ripped

A burning  bird

whose wings are clipped

Ah, what do you know?

 

 

What do you know, 

I’m lost once more

found the ground

beneath me scored

Burnt from mountains

to the shore

dead from the hand 

that held  the sword

Ah, what do I know?

 

 

                                          572                  

Ain’t that a bitch

some of us have to

scratch that itch

Don’t much care 

for that vacuous stare

those vapid rapids

bore me to tears dear

 

Ain’t it a shame

to die in vain

just game to be slain

pain in the brain

the fame at that game

stained when you came

it’s lame to be blamed

but shame on you killer

whatever

it’s just more

newspaper filler

fuck it

who cares?

it’s bull

 

                                          573                  

Bookshelf fire alarm

Iambic radio

Falsetto flagstaff

Esquimeaux in the cornfields

Thorns on the fieldmice

Thorns on the fieldmice? Cool! I’ll bring beer!

Give up yet?

Where are we going with this anyway?

This is fun. . .what are  we playing?

James Joyce on Saturday morning cartoons.

Demi Moore on acid washed jeans naked.

Deep Blue Package Assembly by David Byrne.

Carrot eating fanatics with ceramic skid plates

Radishes eating Hari Krishnas with catsup and onions.

Silver soup, so to speak, in babbling baboons.

Burp, burp, a delicacy for boobling babies.

Yum

: )

 

 

 

                                          574                  

queer 

was

everything 

you 

used

I

only

passed

forgiveness

hatred

jaded

kkk

love

zero

x

ing

cum

vitalis

better

not

marry

/./././.

men

bitter

victuals

casually

xenophobic

zippers

lifting

killing

jews

hitting

girls

dead

shit

pouting

in

useless

young

tyranny

everything’s

wasted

queer

 

                                          575                  

 

Little miss faker fakes me out again

makes me whole and then 

tears me limb from limb

Sometimes it makes me mad

 

This heart’s a breaker she  breaks my heart again

Shakes me from her hair

Rips my roots from there

Sometimes I get so sad

 

I shouldn’t bother

I know who she is

I know what she does

She never forgives

and I’m not what I was

 

She’s just a killer

filling in time

looking for details

in this cracked soul of mine

 

And I’m just her lover

wasting away

tasting decay

slaving away just fine

 

I shouldn’t bother

I know who she is

I know what she does

She never forgives

and I’m not what I was

 

 

 

                                          576                  

Linda’s Lips

**********

She says "Uh Oh!"

Baby it’s a no go

Don’t know what you want to do

And I just don’t know 

Either

 

Live forever

Be together

Seperate as one never

Never never land 

I’m a man with a fever

 

So we

Better wait and see

Better wait and see

You never know how it’ll go

but you can go with me 

but we

Better wait and see

Better wait and see

Better wait and see

Yeah see ya

 

Have a baby get a sitter

It’s OK I’m not bitter

Make sense 

Picket fence

Golden retriever

 

Get signed going blind

Make up your fucking mind

Shit or get off the pot

Move in or

Leave her

No we

Better wait and see

Better wait and see

You never know how it’ll go

but you can go with me 

but we

Better wait and see

Better wait and see

Better wait and see

See ya

from Linda’s lips

Linda’s lips

 

 

                                          577                  

Death and violence excite me

Blood and dripping gore

serial killer nightmare

shredding local whores

television daydream

fucking insane

once a year the dead walk

vengeance murder pain

stalking whispers

talking wisps

rotting lips

kissing caressing

knives slice

the putrid juice flows

dripping from the corpse

deliciously

mmmmm.........

 

                                          578                  

*****************

Meanwhile

*****************

Sharktooth Sparkle

Glitter and grind

Shredding my flesh

Destroying my mind

 

Blood and salt

Water and sand

It’s all my fault

It got out of hand

 

The bone slowly splinters

The meat ripped away

I guess I deserve to be

eaten this way

 

The bloom finally flowered

The skin finely flayed

I’m being devoured

And left to decay

 

 

                                          579                  

 

You’re in such a big hurry

Gotta save my soul yeah

No need to worry

You’re never too late or old to

Die die die

die for me

 

You’re in such big money

You can never have enough yeah

All milk and honey

Ain’t that tough luck go

Die die die

die for me

 

You’re such a big martyr

Just a sacrifice yeah

Beg and steal for a dollar

and my soul that’s nice so

Die die die

Die for me

 

You think you’re such a big deal now

Mr. TV Preacher

How does it feel now

If you really want to reach me

Die die die

Die for me

 

                                          580                  

Slipping in

Beneath the skin

So sweet

This heat

What is sin?

Burning

Yet so wet

The spark of desire

Fanned into fire

Flame

Melting

Molding into one

Holding the torch

Closer to the sun

Exploding

Supernova

Over and over 

And over and over again

Seismic

Cosmic

Orgasmic

Sex

 

 

                                          581                  

Rapture

Comfort

Contentment

 

Capture

Constant 

Confinement

 

Culture

Sorrow 

Resentment

 

Torture

Violent

Containment

 

Sculpture

Silent

Arrainment

 

Scripture

Picture

Perfect

 

                                          582                  

Erotic

Neurotic

Psychotic

Poetic

I can feel the images

But not her face

I sense traces of likeness

Can’t put my finger on it

So close so far away

I can’t touch it or hear it

Taste it or Smell it

Empty like the air

I run my digital fingers 

Through her technical hair

Her echo lingers

She’s not here and I’m not there

I don’t know what I’m thinking

I know it’s my imagination

But I feel like I recognized you From your fire

Before I knew who you were

But I don’t  know who you are

So near yet so far I wait with baited breath

I know not why What do I expect?

I guess I just suspect I bet I know where this is going

I should stop but I can’t So I wait and wonder 

with trembling hands For her Fire

 

 

                                          583                  

*******************

VIRTUAL

*******************

Virtual flowers

for a possible lover

theoretical kisses

for potential lips

cybernetic caresses

for digital breasts

technical hands

on pixelate hips

VIRTUAL

could be for maybe

might be for could

should you or shouldn’t

I would if I could 

VIRTUAL

Plausible futures

ridiculous dreams

paranoid pulsars

in lurching I/O

gigabyte lust

and wanton extremes

from dust to virtual

dust do I go

VIRTUAL

could be for maybe

might be for could

should you or shouldn’t

I would if I could 

VIRTUAL

 

                                          584                  

Insight Inside

No wrong no right

Delayed Delight

No end in sight

Let go let love

Let love let go

 

In time and tide

Delight Denied

Cried out in vain

rained out insane

Let go let love

Let love let go

 

                                          585                  

 

True dreams and fantasy

All lies and sorcery

Blue screams of infancy

Shake my reality

 

She draws another knife

Then cuts the cord of  life

She waits for anarchy

Then slips it into me

 

I fall away from grace

I see a different face

All pride and vanity

Weeping insanity

 

Nowhere to go from here

Shed tears and shredding fear

All death and misery

Sadness eternity

Beautiful

 

Fucking Blister

 

                                          586                  

Warning: Hate mail ahead

*********************

Home again home again

Jiggity Jig

A horse is a horse 

unless it’s a pig

You did this to me

the tears remain unshed

Some day may be you’ll see

inside my fucking head

The hurt the hate the pain

disgust contempt disdain

revulsion’s saddest sorrow

I’ll see you there tomorrow

and when we’re dead you’ll see it’s true

how much I fucking hate you

And the demons that you serve

It’s more than you deserve

Why should I recall

or think of you at all

Forget this little poem

I’m going fucking home.

 

Helen Highwater

 

 

 

                                          587                  

Tongues across lips as

Fingetips slip over nipples

Gliding down sliding inside

Grace beauty power

devours the flower

It’s opening wider

That delicious divide

Submit to the kiss

That so tenderly 

renders you helpless again

Hands in my hair

clutch this 

bliss that we share

Tickle and tease to

"Please, oh please?"

It’s so nice when the parts fit

and the machine works fine

Flesh slowly meshed 

entwined by design

overpoweringly erotic

exotic ecstatic

the rhythm increasing

engaging releasing

seismic to cosmic

it builds

to orgasmic

escape

and we calmly

drift away

into sleep

 

Bliss ter

 

 

 

                                          588                  

 

Void

It was hot there for a minute

but now I guess it’s not

and yes there was a reason

but I don’t know what it was

So now I let it get me down 

don’t know why Oh just because

 

Come and get destroyed

but don’t be paranoid

I wasn’t toying with you

So don’t go away annoyed

Hello little boy

and welcome to the void

 

Nice to see you where you been

a sin come home to stay

it didn’t hurt a bit

I’m allright, oh yes, just fine

What could I’ve been thinking

Well whatever, nevermind

 

Come and get destroyed

but don’t be paranoid

I wasn’t toying with you

So don’t go away annoyed

Hello little boy

and welcome to the void

 

I used to be someone who cared

I dared to feel I had a soul

Now I’m old and bored

It’ll kill you if you let it

I had a secret I won’t tell

Oh what the hell Ah just forget it

 

Come and get destroyed

but don’t be paranoid

I wasn’t toying with you

So don’t go away annoyed

Hello little boy

and welcome to the void

 

Blister

 

 

                                          589                  

 

 

Look at me

I’m no sunshine

I’m no simple price you pay

Twisted broken bus stop rag bag 

with a whole lot of nothing much to say

Cry my son your melted wings

Sing a song of everything

Your simple truths and complex lies

won’t stop the apocalypse in your eyes

goodbye

 

look at you 

broken angel

lost in ocean

tempest tossed

I’m not scared I feel the danger

save my skin my soul is lost

Cry my son kiss me goodbye

never stop to wonder why

Your simple truths and complex lies

won’t stop the apocalypse in your eyes

die

 

Blister

 

                                          590                  

Stupidstar

*********

Tattoo nose ring heroin head

I’ll sell more records when I’m dead

Drug abuse and teenage angst

Just easy money in the bank

Happy Anti

Anti Stupidstar

 

New bandwagon freaks in drag

Think you’re queer? No, I’m the fag!

Media mogul in a hearse

I’m first in line but in reverse

Happy Anti

Anti Stupidstar

 

Makeup, trash and marketing

My image is my everything

Kinky sex and dirty hair

Talentless but I don’t care

Happy Anti

Anti Stupidstar

 

Radio and MTV

It’s all publicity to me

Hail all hail the makeup king

So what if I can’t even sing?

Happy Anti

Anti Stupidstar

 

 

                                          591                  

STOP

Chronic Super Sonic

I’ve got it all and I’m on it

I don’t care I just wanna get high

don’t stop me now

 

Punked out super junky

all wired out and funky

Stupid dope hey where’d you get that shit?

 

Up here in seventh heaven

with hot sweet  gleaming demons

Gabriel baby why don’t you blow my horn?

 

Don’t stop me now

I’m on a roll

I’ve got it all

Don’t stop me

 

This  party is more than just a verb

gotta sign here says "do not disturb"

No one here is gonna get out alive

don’t stop me now

No don’t stop me now

 

This car’s a part of me now

from sea to shining sea now

don’t want to think just drive

 

Don’t stop me now

I’m on a roll

I’ve got it all

Don’t stop me

STOP

Crash

Boom

Burn

 

 

                                          592                  

 

Lost in the jungle

tired and sore

traveling through miles

of thickets and thorns

At loss for direction

intention and style

which way do I go

desperation defiled

and I don’t much know

why I bother with this

I could just stay home

and cuddle and kiss

Rock and roll rubbish

punk rocking kitsch

steaming and screaming

in unholy bliss

rhyming inanely

sublimely insanely

I can’t figure out 

where I’m going with this

I wish I could just

go home

 

A Deflated Blister

 

                                          593                  

Sadness

*******

Broken doll parts

pathetic mannequin

strew about carelessly

no one loves you

your so empty

hollow limbs and

hollow heart

torn apart by

restless strangers

remorseless killers

relentless mortuary

permanent cemetary

Rusty Toy truck

cracked glass

fucked up

stomped on

dog bit horse shit 

shoveled away buried to stay

never to see the sunlight again

the worst parts were all 

done by your friends

tears drip down my face

and run away

 

                                          594                  

 

Convicted

**********

I’m not guilty

      that’s what you think

I didn’t do it

      that’s what you think

you can’t catch me

     that’s what you think

I always knew it

     that’s what you think

            I’m just who I am

            pressure in a can

            a race that no one runs

            loaded up on guns

                                 Convicted

                                 Convicted

                                 Convicted

I’m not dead meat

      that’s what you think

hair and heartbeat

      that’s what you think

I can get through it

      that’s what you think

I guess you blew it

      that’s what you think

            I’m just who I am

            pressure in a can

            a race that no one runs

            loaded up on guns

                                 Convicted

                                 Convicted

                                 Convicted

 

 

 

                                          595                  

 

Used to be conservative

Now I’m radical

Used to be serious

But it’s a gag

Used to be a good boy

Now I’m such a  bad boy

Used to be a drag

0Now I get delerious

I am the

Shoe on the

Shoe on the

Shoe on the other foot y’all

 

Used to be a hot shot

Now I’m cold as icicles

Used to be a poor man

Wanting to get rich

Used to be a nice guy

God ain’t that a bitch

Used to be a slacker

Now I give it all I’ve got

I’ve got that

Shoe on the

Shoe on the

Shoe on the other foot y’all

 

Used to be a straight edge

Now I’m just a phreak

Used to be a waterfall

But now I’m just a lake

Used to be so passive

Now I’ve got a mean streak

Used to take all I could take

But now I simply break

into that

Shoe on the

shoe on the 

shoe on the other

shoe on the other

shoe on the other foot y’all

 

Er, Um,...Blister

 

 

 

                                          596                  

 

It’s over now

no more stress

no more relatives

and I feel blessed

another year

of tears survived

I may be nuts

but I’m alive

To face the pain

and hate and fear 

the sturm und drang

and still be here

not riddled with holes

of miserable grief

it’s over now

and I kept it brief

It seems like heaven

after  hell sublime

this blessed relief

from Christmas time

 

Another Mr. Big Fucking Happy Head

[phew!]

 

 

                                          597                 97

Inches away I can feel it

So close to the juice I could steal it

So near to the fear I can taste it

One glance at the chance and I waste it

 

Is it love? Is it success?

Is it sex? Are you undressed?

Is it a slap or soft caress?

Less is more? oh more or less...

 

Right next to fame

stand beside fortune

behind the pain

the same old tune

In front of cameras

there in the spotlight

above the crowd

beneath the moon

 

Is it love? Is it success?

Is it sex? Are you undressed?

Is it a slap or soft caress?

Less is more? oh more or less...

 

 

 

                                          598                  

Machine gun

a hundred rounds per second

Dum dum bullets

cop killers

mmmmmm.....

sweet

the blood flows like rivers

through the streets

soaking the winos in the gutter

flowing down drains

spattering virgins

shattering windows

body parts

everywhere

death in the air

flesh in my teeth

feeding again

on the innocent

yum

 

                                          599                  

Feel

Pain

Depression

Fear

Aggression

Hunger

Caged

Anger

Rage

Sorrow

Deranged

Horror

Torture

Nurtured

Chained

Insane

Darkness

 

 

                                          600                  

Big Deal

***************

Big deal

Contract

Human 

Contact

I just want an angel

Who can rock my world

Touch ‘n’ go

Wishbone

Hanging on the 

Telephone

Feels so good

With that sweet young girl

 

Another name brand performer

With a mouthful of nothing to say

Conformity in death looks normal

But I hope I don’t go out that way

 

Hot shot

Record biz

Wet spot

Cheese wiz

You won’t get to rock

unless you sell your soul

Free dope

Cold as ice

Hopeless

Sacrafice

Body like a statue

With a head like a hole

 

Another name brand performer

With a mouthful of nothing to say

Conformity in death looks normal

But I hope I don’t go out that way

 

Please forgive this rant, but I simply can not resist.

 

 

                                          601                  

A Loopy Perspective

*****************

Picture this:

Black man comes home and finds his white wife in bed with her white 

boyfriend. He grabs a knife and cuts them to ribbons.

[I know I’ve said this before, but so fucking what?]

So they put the brother on trial for murder. The television trial 

lasts a year and becomes the legal fiasco of the century. 

They find him NOT GUILTY! Two years later he’s on trial again, but 

not for MURDER! No, this time it’s WRONGFUL DEATH!

[What the fuck does that mean? Is there a difference?] 

So this time they find him guilty. [Haven’t any of these people heard about that 

rule that you can’t be tried twice for the same crime?] In harmony everyone 

screams "Yea, Justice!" and I’m thinking what about the justice 

homeboy dished out to his two timing bitch of a wife and her cutsie 

pie boyfriend who couldn’t protect himself or her from the rage of 

the man whose wife he was fucking. It looks to me like justice was done a 

long time ago. So now what? Are the goldman’s going to use the brother’s money 

to hire a hit man, and REALLY do justice to their lost loved one, or are they 

gonna just kick back and enjoy all that cash? I bet I can guess which.

 

Yea Justice.

 

                                          602                  

I’m so incredibly sick of everything

It all tastes like sand to me now

I can’t stand it anymore

I want to kill

You, me, everyone

This must be how it feels

to build an atomic bomb

I just wanted to do something new

Something special

Something that makes a difference

But it’s all just the same

rhyme

blather spittle shit licking mud boots

and smashed in skulls tattooed nail head

full of hate and holes

needle eyed scum sucking 

slum lord of illiterati

blasting bullshit

out into cyberspace

 

 

                                          603                  

‘Scuse me while I whip this out...

********

$ T $ I $ M $ E $

********

I used to watch the clock for days

I was down and feeling blue

hours, minutes, seconds, moments

There was nothing I could do 

 

Time was a measure of my value

I sold the units of my life

I must admit it went too cheaply

death and taxes, kids and wife

 

Then at once at last I realized

Life didn’t have to be so bad

I wiped the tears from sore sad eyes

Time was all I ever had

 

I threw my watch into the ocean

I watched it slowly drift away

After a while it started sinking

and as it sank I walked away

 

Blister

 

 

                                          604                  

 

Fade to black

***********

fourteen year old boy

with automatic toys

fill you full of lead

bullet in the head

 

staring at the sun babies

love those shiny guns baby

love those shiny gun babies

 

better live than dead

the white is stained with red 

skulls on bayonettes

I guess that’s what you get 

 

Hand grenades and lemonade

virgin maids with razorblades

silken skies and burning flak

take the shot and fade to black

 

come and place your bets

I ain’t finished yet

blood is in the air

but I don’t really care

 

staring at the sun babies

love those shiny guns baby

love those shiny gun babies

 

thanks it’s nice to share

love and war are fair

we love what we destroy

and do what we enjoy

 

Hand grenades and lemonade

virgin maids and razorblades

silken skies and burning flak

take the shot and fade to black

 

 

                                          605                  

Strictly commercial

****************

I want my MTV

Need you to feed your stupid lies to me

I need to hear that ear splitting sound

You prattle on my street’s a battle ground

 

Tell me it’s so cool to get high

Lick me with tongues of lies

Well it should come as no surprise

We die and you advertise

 

Strictly commercial

 

Come tell me it’s OK

Everything’s meant to be this way

Violence hard drugs and a quick death

I smoke that cigarette with my last breath

 

I want this misery

I wanna see what you want me to see

I wanna feel what you tell me to feel

You are the only one who knows what’s real 

 

Strictly commercial

 

Give my the sludge that I demand

Make me a real he man

Let me pretend I know the score

The only thing I really want is more

 

I want my cadillac

I want that knife in my back

Go ahead keep rolling in the green

Mr. Corporate death machine

 

Strictly commercial

 

Blister

 

                                          606                  

 

This Disease

**********

Tongues touched

Hands met

Hard flesh

Hot skin

Soft smooth

Warm wet 

Lets me

Get in

 

Give me

Everything I want from you

Come do

Everything I need you to

Show me

Everything I’d die to see 

Inside

Give me your disease

 

One Crush

One Man

One hit

You gush

Tied up

Can’t stand

This pain

Get up

 

Let me

Do it all to you

Let me

Take it all from you

Let me

Make it all come you

Let me

Give you my disease

 

 

                                          607                  

 

 

Icarus 

*****

Look at me I’m no sunshine

I’m no simple price to pay

Twisted broken bus stop rat bag

I got nothing much to say

Fly my son your melted wings

sing a song of everything

Your simple truth and complex lies 

won’t stop the apocalypse in your eyes

Burn Icarus Burn

 

Look at you broken angel

crossed an ocean tempest tossed

I’m not scared I feel the danger  

I saved my skin my soul was lost

Die my love kiss me goodbye

Never think to wonder why

your simple truth and complex lies

won’t stop you dropping from the sky

Burn Icarus Burn

 

Look at this fine existence

Supersonic big and bold

took the path of least resistance

chained and beaten bought and sold

Cry my dear your tears of fear

This may seem a bit unclear

your simple truth and complex lies

won’t help you see through this disguise

Burn Icarus Burn

 

 

                                          608                  

 

5 Oclock blues

************

All quiet

no sound

hot silence

surrounds

tied up 

but unbound

whined up and

unwound

 

All clear

we’re here

no sorrow 

no tears

tomorrow

or next year

I follow

without fear

 

No glory

no guts

no ifs and

no buts

no bruises

no cuts

no bolts and

no nuts

 

 

                                          609                  

 

3/1/68

Happy Birthday to Me

*******************

Funny how things look

This side of thirty

I see a wheel chair

A Hospital bed

A nursing home

A doctor

A curse

Funny how things look

This side of thirty

I see a bullet

A gun

A bridge

A brick

A tombstone

Funny

I see fraility

feebleness

weakness

sickness

fear

and death

ha

ha ha

funny

I see

automatic panic

itchy trigger finger

pocket fulla shells

bucket fulla blood

I’m fulla shit

funny

clinging to a life 

not worth living

by a thread of abject terror

scared of oblivion

and death

funny how things can look

This side of thirty

 

 

                                          610                  

 

Animal desire

hungry and hot

the violent urge for sex

Propriety demands

I keep my hands to myself

at the office

but in my hard of hards

I want your cunt

I can smell it from here

When you walk past

your ass calls to me

Fuck me it screams

Tear me apart

I get thicker and sicker

Filled with beastly need

to grab you and throw you against the wall

to bite your neck so hard you bruise

as I use my hands to shred the thin dress you wear

the feeling’s so intense it scares me

Strip you naked 

ripped bra and panties

panting as my fingers

slide inside you

demanding and forceful

Everyone watches 

as I drag you to the ground

like an animal

the real me

in the urban jungle

unafraid of retribution

I take you like the wild doe you are

deer eyed and frightened

you submit

as I stroke your clit

into readiness

you’re wet enough now to enter

and I slam it into you

I’ve got you by the hips now

pumping the rhythm of the saints

your juice runs down my leg

it doesn’t take much

to make you clutch the floor

and beg for more

god made it feel good for a reason

and you’re in season bitch

and as I feel you coming on my cock

I reel from the shock

my juice begins to flow into you

and we explode together endlessly

forever and a day

another imaginary lay at the office

 

                                          611                  

Infection

rotting in my head

a weakling 

dripping snot

Immune

deficient apparently

white blood cells asleep

while the enemy attacks

it’s a Virus the doctor said

Hi Virus

Here take these

they’ll kill the pain

amazing

what good drugs will do

I have to admit

it crossed my mind

to take them all at once

with a nice bottle of wine

that’s one sure way to cure

an infection

 

                                          612                  

A well oiled hate machine

spewing lies and eating green

grinding gears and I get caught

ripped away I slowly rot

hot shit for sale

 

Stupid words in endless rhyme

Sublime like violent crime

esoteric hysteria

a case vocal diarrhea

hot shit for sale

 

shot up and dying high

I got my license to fly

How did I end up this way?

Mr. Nothing much to say

hot shit for sale

 

Mr. Blister

 

 

                                          613                  

 

Blind

To everything but this feeling

Designed

to send senses reeling

Combined

sensitive to the touch

Your mine

in the clutch it’s a crutch

Is it love?

Is it love?

Is it love?

Is it love?

or is it just sex?

 

Concentrate

but I can’t pay attention

Can’t wait

for release from this tension

We mate

and make a lasting connection

Is it hate?

Or just another erection?

Is it love?

Is it love?

Is it love?

Is it love?

or is it just sex?

Is it love?

Is it love?

Is it love?

Is it love?

or is it just sex?

I guess

it’s a mess

it’s a lesson

we learn

as we turn

and we burn  

and we burn 

and we burn 

and we

just have sex

 

 

                                          614                  

 

 

The Funniest Thing

*****************

rotting from AIDS 

the crack Acid and smack

machie gunner’s flak

hitting right in the back

melting away

in a nuclear attack

shuffle the deal 

on the cards we stack

Death is the funniest thing

 

cancer of liver

of lungs and of heart

terrorist bomb blast

blowing apart

another statistic

on top of the chart

Just when I finish

I’m back at the start

Death is the funniest

the funniest thing

 

choking to death

on the jewels I swallowed

die in the fire

of leaders I follow

going today

I’ll be back tomorrow

a great big loan

on the time I borrowed

Death is the funniest

Death is the funniest

Death is the funniest thing

 

 

 

                                          615                  

 

 

True

******************

Used to be a harder time

Overlooking underlying

Reasons for the child dying

I killed it all and I quit trying

except for you

this song is for you

True

 

Then I saw a brighter sun

understood and set out running

overloaded undergunning

this cunning beast all shocked and stunning

and you

this song is for you

yeah you

this song is for you

True

 

Now I look to better days

No feet of clay & the rope starts fraying

Beat the beat the bands still playing

it’s overwhelming I’m still staying

and this song is for you 

this song is for you

yeah you

this song is for you

True

 

An Unlikely Blister

 

 

                                          616                  

 

 

Stranger

**********

I cut it off 

you sew it on

Burn it away

it’s already gone

 

This feeling just keeps getting

stranger and stranger

 

Nailed on the cross

you drag me down

I scream so loud

you can’t hear a sound

 

I kiss your lips 

you slap my face

This brand new me

you just replace

 

and this feeling just keeps getting

stranger and stranger

 

push me away

I pull you in

You keep the faith

but I still sin

 

So mother please 

give me a taste

I saved it all

but it’s all a waste

 

and this feeling just keeps getting

stranger and stranger

 

Give you my skin

you take my heart

I build it up

you tear me apart

 

Blister [a little more like]

 

 

                                          617                  

 

Some random thoughts

******************

Totally out of control

Wildly spin like a top

Flailing in every direction

Completely unable to stop

Slipping away from my soul

Into the drugs that I cop

Beyond any sort of correction

I’m just a theatre prop

 

A fresh cardboard cutout of me

Standing here blind on the stage

Cut me and I will not bleed

No feelings of anger or rage

I used to go nowhere for free

A wild beast trapped in a cage

A wilted plant now gone to seed

I guess I’m just coming of age

 

                                          618                  

CRASH 1

********

Mangled steel twisted around phone poles

Bodies in braces embracing

tounges darting road winding

wheels spinning sliding spinning

confined to a hospital bed 

but still horny

Here let’s put it in high gear

and get in the back seat

let’s see if we can finish before we hit

why worry the road’s straight [sort of]

and there’s no traffic [well, not much]

let’s see if we can do it at 100mph

again and again and again until

CRASHHHHHHHHHHHH

 

Blister

No I didn’t see the movie yet.

 

 

                                          619                  

 

NOW

**********

I inspect you 

I reject you

I regret you 

I forget you

I connect you

I inject you

I select you

I infect you

I complete you

I defeat you

I defend you

I condemn you

I denied you

I’m inside you now

 

                                          620                  

Jesus please us

make us happy

take us to your 

heaven Dad

God is great and

God is good

Mr. Happy 

Robin Hood

Just drink this

it tastes like Jesus

Smell like teen spirit

I smell a sucker

Perfect leader

shows us the way

you lousy rotten

motherfucker

Let’s hitch a ride to heaven

on a comet Cupid

"To conquer death you only have to die."

 

 

                                          621                  

strange memories...

 

 Stripper

************

Mister Blister

Admit that you 

kissed her

She was so young

and O so innocent

Twisted wrists

It was too

hard to resist her

brass in pocket

but money all spent

 

she says "Baby baby

let me be your baby

Charming darling

I want it all dear

Baby baby 

let me be your baby

hide inside me

I’m the only one here"

 

Faster master

fuck me you 

bastard

Amazing how quickly

she learned all those tricks

Plaster cast

and a new 

stratocaster

those stupid groupies

will soon make you sick

 

she says  "Baby baby

let me be your baby

Charming darling

I want it all dear

Baby baby 

let me be your baby

hide inside me

I’m the only one here"

 

 

                                          622                  

 

Precious

********

What are my precious things?

Exactly what do I hold dear?

Is there anything of worth

left in this world of fear?

Where are my memories?

the feelings that I’ve lost

endlessly reminding me

of the devastating cost

Who is my saving grace?

The muse abandons me

My leather turns to lace

enslaves what I set free

When then will I escape

this prison that I’ve built?

How then the size and shape

of one man’s hidden guilt?

Where are my precious...

Where are my precious

things?

 

                                          623                  

HOPE

******

My hope is locked

in a little black box

more or less safe and sound

for the moment

what will I do

when I open my box

and find that my hope

has been stolen?

I used to have faith

and charity too

I lost them forever

when I gave them to you

Now I am bitter

and brutal and cold

and I sometimes forget

that I’ve got what I hold 

In my little locked box

it’s under the stairs

I’d show it to you

but nobody cares

yet sometimes when I’m lonely

and I know I can’t cope

I go down and jerk off in 

my small box of hope. 

 

 

                                          624                  

Gluttony and Temperance

Greed and Charity

Pride and Humility

Lust and Chastity

Sloth and Fastidiousness

Wrath and Forgiveness

Envy and ...Desirelessness?

GRRR! I hate it when I can’t find words I want! Does anyone out there  know an antonym for Envy? What are the 7 virtues? ARRG! My catholic  upbringing fails me! No wonder I was thrown out of Sunday school.

 

                                          625                  

RATS

*****

crawling in my head

biting off my ears

playing on my fears

scurry ‘neath my bed

clawing out my eyes

screaming

rats! red eyed rabid rats!

flea infested

yellow teeth

one

turns to ten

turns to thousands

engulfing me

nawing my flesh

from my bones

blood drips 

from my finger tips

to splatter on the floor

my eyes hang 

from their sockets

I am devoured

by rats

 

 

                                          626                  

 

Sorrow and disappointment

rejection disrespect digust

anger fear aggression

misery conflict strife

Sorrow and disappointment

demands made and unmet

expectations failed

discontent and violence

Sorrow and disappointment

Chaos and disorder

complaints derision division

defend attack decision

Sorrow and disappointment

 

A. Blister

 

                                          627                  

Manic D

*******

Up and down

happy sad

so in love

and raving mad

I’ve got it all

but I don’t want it

what the hell 

go ‘head and flaunt it

 

In and out

and up and down

fly so high

crash to the ground

I know it all 

but I have to guess

manic depression

makes me such a mess

 

Up and down

I’m in and out

Mr. Nice guy

inside out

back and forth 

I can’t decide

Die inside it’s suicide

On this rollercoaster ride

 

B...B...Blister.com

 

 

                                          628                  

car fire

********

You know it’s going to be a bad day when your boss walks in at 9:15  monday morning asking who’s car is on fire, and it’s yours.

 

Wayward cigarette

thrown out the window

crawls back into the car

snuggles up in my back seat

in my favorite hat

it’s the one I brought back

from the bahamas

it said bahamas on the front

now it says mas

because half of it’s gone 

along with my back seat

better quit smoking they said

I’m thinking tell it to my car

I’m not the one who was on fire

I should’ve let it burn

I’m not that crazy about it anyway

besides the insurance 

would’ve covered it

plus what a great excuse to get out of work

sorry boss

my car looks like burnt toast

won’t be coming in today 

sorry

Oh well

whatever

nevermind

 

                                          629                  

The Habit Trail

*************

a broken hinge

a hammer and a nail

just another binge

on the habit trail

what’s in a name but a broken rose

nothing’s been the same

a soaking string in glue

my eyes burning tied to you

there’s nothing much  left to do

have another drink another screw

another board to drive it into

besides I’m bored and you know it’s true

another broken hinge

hammer and nail

another binge

on the habit trail

 

 

                                          630                  

Bread knife

still life

hot to trot

butter on the plate babe

seafood fillet

fish fry today

baby

give it to me I’m hungry

 

don’t make me

steak knife shine

steak knife shine

I just pulled it outta my back 

get outta line

don’t make me

steak knife shine

steak knife shine

‘cause boy you know

it’s so easy to go

that way

taking it on

 

quick pick

lip stick

mirror

drawing up a line babe

snow cone all lone

momma love bone

gimme it I’m hungry

 

Lame brain

cum stain

hot shit

go get oveer it babee

and I won’t say

that that’s the way

but it certainly

starts to look like it

 

Over and over

little dinner time crime

split the scene quick

if you know what I mean

over and over

little TV slime

I’m a rent a car star

that must count for something

something

‘cause boy you know

it’s so easy to go that way

taking it on I’m gone

 

 

                                          631                  

S.O.S.*****

I want I want the rider and the ride

Why would I want to decide?

Why would I want to hide it?

Well, I’d deny it

I denied it

‘Cause I’m afraid I’m afraid 

 

I want I want the newspaper tonight

Why am I set for flight?

Why do I want to fight?

Why would I want to fight it?

It’s delightful

That’s why I like it

‘Cause I’m afraid I’m afraid

 

I want I want another little hit

Why should I give a shit?

Why should I care for it?

Why would I want to try it?

Just buy it

Get high

‘Cause I’m afraid I’m afraid

 

                                          632                  

Bloodseed

***********

Just because it used to be that doesn’t that it was me

it doesn’t mean it has to be this way - Bloodseed

 

Down on bended knee I scratch until I bleed

Passed out because I need to stay - Bloodseed

 

The bottle’s open bottle’s empty

There’s no need to try and tempt me

I get the message you just sent me

I’m easy

 

Tight lips and gritted teeth

spit those words out as you seethe

So hard that I can barely breathe

breathe easy

breathe easier

 

Just because I’m on the ground Doesn’t mean I’m always down

Doesn’t mean i’m always down to stay - Bloodseed

 

Just because I used to be doesn’t mean I’ll always be

Doesn’t mean I’ll always be this way - Bloodseed

 

A tense and aggravated Blister

 

 

                                          633                  

Release

***********

Feelings I can’t express

my life is such a mess

I miss your soft caress

It’s so depressing

 

I’m unrehearsed

I wanna cut

I wanna curse

I wanna cry 

I wanna live

I wanna die

 

Feeling bent out of shape

Been cheated beaten raped

I got it all on tape

There’s no escaping

 

Release me

 

I wanna crash 

I wanna burn

I wanna love 

I only hate

I’m so unhappy

It’s just great

 

Release me

 

I miss your face

out here in space

I’ve been replaced

what’ve I been chasing?

 

Release me

 

I wanna take

I wanna give

I wanna bend 

I wanna break

I wanna lose this

feeling I can’t take it

 

Release me

Release me

Release

Release

Release me

 

 

                                          634                  

Maybe a little late but...

 

A poem that doesn’t rhyme

**********************

Why?

Why would anyone want to know what you think about it?

Why would  anyone ask for your opinion?

Why would anyone want to be judge, jury, or mind cop?

Why would anyone care what you thought if you were?

Why would anyone join a forum for expression just to express 

disapproval of someone else’s work? 

Why would anyone want to express themselves under a watchful and 

disapproving eye? 

Why would anyone want to be a critic? 

Why would anyone want to be such a dick?

Funny thing about critics. They never seem to make 

anything worthwhile themselves, and so must content themselves with 

cutting up the achievements of others. I hear hell is full 

of them. If you think this is about you then maybe you should think 

about what you say. I’m the last person to tell anyone on bobshoe 

what to write, but the first to say if you need to criticize someone 

else’s work either address them directly [and not over bobshoe] or 

better yet do us all a favor and fuck off. End of poem.

Are we poets, or critics?

 

A pissed off and critical Blister

 

 

 

                                          635                  

 

Scream

********************

I drown in empty poetry

I sink in waves of pink

nothing but my soul to sell For $ale

 

Broken dreams balance beams

Is this really what it seems?

I’ve got this new hate machine

I think it’s time to make it scream

 

I climb to heights of extasy

Fall to the rocks below

I’m getting tired of the grind

I start to lose my mind again

I hate to make a scene

But it hurts so much I want to scream

 

Broken dreams balance beams

Is this really what it seems?

I’ve got this new hate machine

I think it’s time to make it scream

 

Love is love and not fade away

Dream away start to scream

 

I start to lose my mind again

I hate to make a scene

But it hurts so much I want to scream

Broken dreams balance beams

Is this really what it seems?

I’ve got this new hate machine

I think it’s time to make it scream

 

 

                                          636                  

 

Some thoughts on the subject of SEX

[What a surprise! Coming from me!?!?!?]

Whoops, I said coming...huh huh huh huh

Sorry. 

**************

I can’t understand

why both woman and man

get so out of hand on this subject

A simple act of GOD

based on procreation

enhanced for recreational purposes

you never hear of porpoises

having sexual hangups

Men with their

virile often juvenile

penile pole projections

they casually smashingly refer to as

"My Dick"

and girls with their

frilly lil curls

ringing the lips of their sexual flowers

they ususally only refer to as

"Down There"

Strike me as heavenly

but they keep getting steadily 

more fucked up

when they should be out 

FUCKING

God made it feel good

for far more than one reason

one would think

I just don’t see why 

everyone’s so uptight

about something that feels so right

jealousy

vanity

infidelity

sexuality

hmmm

sorry

I guess 

I’m going 

nowhere with this.

So I think I’ll go out

and get me a kiss

Bye.

 

                                          637                  

 

Blinded

******************

She’s so beautiful

I can’t believe her

she’s in demand

with a rose in her hand

and I can never leave her

I’m blinded

 

She’s got it all 

and I want it

She always got

what she wanted

when you’re built like that 

you flaunt it

I’m blinded

 

I just applied 

for a permanent connection

She’s justified

She don’t need no correction

She’s sanctified

She don’t need no one’s protection

She’s undenied

total satisfaction

She’s total satisfaction

total satisfaction

and I’m blinded

 

                                          638                  

The Wait

********

Time Spent

Time Wasted 

Time to go

Time to stay

Time after

Time before

Time to made friends with

Time on my hands

Time on my knees

Time in

Time out

wait

wait

wait

wait

DIE

 

 

 

                                          639                  

Holly

*****

My friend Holly tends the bar

She’s a deadhead highway star

She’s got every little thing

It takes to make this birdy sing

 

She’s sweet desire

She’s on fire

 

I gave my friend Holly a rose

I watched her put it to her nose

As I walked down walker street

I felt the sandals on her feet

 

walk over me

Over me

and she smiled at me

all over me

 

I went to see her once again

Just to play this little game

I had to see her just to see

If she had something for me

 

I have to wait

but I’m not afraid

 

Let’s go down to Holly’s bar

I don’t think it’s very far

She gets closer she gets near

I’m just trembling in fear

 

She’s a river

She’s a giver

Once again

Once again

 

 

I, Blister

 

 

                                          640                  

This is a stupid junkie rant.

You probably want to delete this now, especially if you smoke, but 

don’t worry. I’ll be back on the nicotine drain train before I 

fucking A know it. You see, right now I’m crawling with nicotine 

bugs. The urge to painfully burn the sensitive tissues of my lungs is so strong I want to puke. I hate my life, I hate food, I hate 

everything. I just want that miserable foul smelling smoke in my 

eyes, in my mouth like a rapist’s cum on my tongue. I feel like 

licking an ashtray just for the fuck of it. Nicotine is so fucking 

nice. Such a nice legal happy harmless little drug. Wouldn’t hurt a  fucking little fly joe camel, would you? Phillip Morris is your pal  boys and girls. The marlboro man’s a FAG but that’s OK ‘cause he’s so fucking macho. It’s hard to be macho when you’re lungs are made of liquid. It feels so great to be out of breath while you’re trying to FUCK. It’s a good thing I like to fuck so fucking much because 

otherwise I’d just say FUCK IT and have another cigarette. I love 

this so much. I must because I do it so FUCKING OFTEN. On again off  again jiggety jig a horse is a horse unless it’s a pig selling heroin flavored bubble gum in the form of little rolls of  paper filled with the dried leaves of a plant that used to be considered STRONG MEDICINE by wiser men. That is, until it was sprayed with even more deadly chemicals and became a big fat happy grinning fucking death’s head. Here, have one. Care for a smoke? Got one? Have one? Want one? Need one? Lungs bleeding? Good, have another. That’ll make it feel better. There, see? Isn’t that better? But it’s OK, I’m not bitter. Much.

Blister

 

                                          641                  

I want

   I need

      I got it

         Love Life

         I Love Life

She want

   She need

      She got it

         Love Life

         She Love Life

             Love it

 

We want

   We need

      We got it

         Love Life

         We Love Life

You want

  You need

      You got it

         Love Life

        Do you Love Life?

             Love it

 

 

                                          642                  

A heavy metal borderline punk tune about a comic book anti hero.

[picture fast pounding drums & grinding guitars]

Inspired by an unmet friend...

******************

G.D.B.G.

******************

flesh and blood

the feel of steel

fresh blood

make it squeal

 

grand dad

bone grind

grand daddy 

 

dead weight

cast off

cold freight

blast off

 

grand dad

grand daddy 

grand daddy

bonegrinder

 

GRIND

 

skull crush

bone lust

moon beam

coffin dust

grand daddy

bonegrinder

 

chaos

unauthorised

uncompromised

unrecognised

grand daddy bonegrinder

 

grand dad

bone grind

grand daddy 

bonegrinder

 

GRIND

 

 

                                          643                  

 

Tired

*******************

I crawled into insanity

My eyes wide open in 

sanctity

devoured

I’m deflowered

I’m tired

 

I babylon inanity

insentient entity

invent me

cement me

 

Devoured

I’m deflowered

I’m tired

 

I slipped into this

sensual delusion

into clarity

desired

retired

I’m tired

goodbye

 

 

                                          644                  

SHIT

*************

No soap 

jump rope

try to keep 

your hopes up

dope fed 

dead head

trying to cope

with federal agents

orange only 

rhymes with orange 

she’s so pretty and I 

don’t give a shit

shit

 

hand maid 

land mine

mime faced

paradigm

I’m fine

crime wave

and jesus saves

jesus slaves

orange only rhymes

with orange

and she’s so pretty 

I still don’t give a shit

shit

 

hip hop

flip flop

ragamuffin

mop top

go and cop

acid drop

flippin out

never stop

orange still rhymes

with orange

yeah and she’s so fine bitch

I don’t give a shit

shit

 

 

                                          645                  

Ponderables:

Just how far is too far? How hard can you push that 

envelope? I was talking with Curt about the cutting edge. What is 

that? Where is it at? Is something art because it’s 

offensive/frightening/disturbing/uncomfortable? Is it art because 

it’s pretty? How about pretty ugly? If I write the 

most offensive nasty shit ever just to provoke a reaction, is that 

reaction meaningful?. Could I get myself thrown off bobshoe because  of my content? If I could would that be a victory? Who or what would  I be fighting for / against then? What does it all mean? Do I even 

want a reaction? Why would I? I’m sure I couldn’t care less what 

anyone thinks [least of all non

creative people], but if that’s so 

then what’s my purpose? Why post anything? Why create anything? For  myself? What do I want it for? Do I want it? And what is it I want?  I’m really just asking these questions out loud for the fuck of it.  ART; The bottom line: Who cares? Fuck it; Back to work.

 

                                          646                  

Hi.

Actually, I was more pondering the nature of art in terms of being 

the creator. Writing "for yourself" versus witing "for an audience",  and the meaning and / or goals thereof. Much of what passes for art

these days has mostly to do with shock value and / or marketing 

etc... 

I was thinking more along the lines that when people create for an 

audience often the goal is to get a reaction. Applause, shock, hate  fear, lust, envy, who knows what. As opposed to writing for yourself in which case again who knows why one would do it. Lord knows I don’t know why I do it. This all sprang from a conversation with Curt and he suggested I post it. See, I got an email from someone on bobshoe which I took to basically mean "fuck you, you suck and so do your poems". Mostly I get comments like "right on cool" so it got me  thinking about reactions, why I’m here [on earth and bobshoe], what  the fuck I’m doing with all this art stuff what it means, do I 

care what people think, what doees it mean if I do or don’t, etc. I  wanted to see what other people thought.

  By the way, I knew that whatever I sent would get forwarded [though I could be removed from the list and receive no other bobshoe posts]. I was thinking hypothetically. Anyway, that’s that. Folks who want to talk more about this can mail me. Bobshoe’s for poetry. I just wanted to provoke a reaction.

 

                                          647                  

Happy Friday

***********

hib dooby wabby bobby do me now

hoop oopy doopy frimpy poppy sow

snip gibben du frangen hap slappy giddap

I wanna fuck nancy spungen

but she’s dead so I guess I’ll shaddap

 

                                          648                  

Crash 2

********

I looked into the water

saw you floating out there

I splashed

I drank 

I touched

I kissed it all

I try

I die

I crash

I fly

 

I killed 

I repent

I’m filled 

with resentment

and

I try

I die

I crash

I fly

 

I turned into the light

falling into the night

I looked into the sun

I think you are the one

I tried

I died

I crashed

I fly

 

I listen to the sound

I let it turn around

I get up off the ground

I throw

I throw it away

I stay

I crashed

I’m going away

 

 

                                          649                  

 

yes mother

of course I’ll kill the neighbor’s cat

here kitty kitty kitty

meow hiss scratch claw

strangle

mangle

buried him out back mommy

johnny’ll never know

 

yes mother

of course I’ll kill the teacher’s pet

slip up from behind

with a hammer

bam

wham slam

thud

blood

he’s dead

buried him 

behind the shed

teacher’ll never know

 

but mommy

I don’t want to kill the little girl

but mommy

but...

but...

yes mother.

mother?

yes son?

slice

dice

slash 

crash

goodbye mother

 

blis

 

 

 

                                          650                  

Just Words

**********

Infidelity

Faithlessness

Adultery

Fornication

Prostitution

Masturbation

Impurity

Dishonesty

Disloyalty

Lust

Greed

Desire

Envy

Fixation

Desolation

Damnation

Death

 

_B_L_I_S_T_R_E_

 

                                          651                  

Mystery

********

How can I control this naked emotion?

How can I express what I want to express?

What do I want to express?

Fear anxiety anger resentment?

Pleasure comfort peace joy?

Why? And who cares?

And why? What is this thing?

and why does it keep following me around?

colors in painting

painting in sound

keeping me up

and getting me down

Silver and gold

Devil and God

Coffin dust nightmare

or heavenly sod 

[soil that is, black ground]

Ah, I have it!

Bitch Bitch Bitch Bitch Bitch

Bitch Bitch Bitch Bitch Bitch

When you have nothing better to do

you might as well complain

poor me

poor me

pour me another one

Bury the moon and dig up the sun

 

 

                                          652                  

A Goofy Limerick

****************

Mary had a litle lamb

skin condom in her purse

The doctor died of shock

because his cock had gotten worse

She promised she would make him better

If he’d only letter

Sign upon this dotted line

A scrip to percoset her

he quickly checked his clock

to find some time in which to heal her

feeling senses reeling as he got the chance to feel her

the doctor had a head of hair as white as fleece’s snow

he blew his chance and cursed in verse for Mary had to go.

 

                                          653                  

eloquence eludes me

when I try to write this down

derided and deluded

it’s the cheapest place in town

 

concentrate on consequences

you get what you deserve

put up doors and walls and fences

obey the one you serve

 

elephant developments

a mouse beneath your feet

jump and run envelopment

accept your great defeat

 

love is blind and so am i

i stop to wonder why

dumb numb and cumbersome

i gradually retreat

 

                                          654                  

hi

it’s a small day

it’s a small small small small day

not a big day

not a large day

not a huge day

not a gigantic day

just a day

a small day

a small small small small day

it’s monday

rats.

 

 

                                          655                  

 

BEWARE OF GOD [or something]

*****************

Bury me

Under you

like an avalnche

coming through

touch me

like a photograph

scratch me like a record

on your phonograph

 

Drawn like a line in the sand

a moth to the flame I’m a man

something I don’t understand

crushed like a bird in your hand

 

Kiss me

like baseball bat

you flatten me

like a diesel CAT

stroke me

like an old guitar

choke me

like a scimitar

 

A chalk outline in the rain

spilled like a permanent stain

something I don’t understand

crushed like a bird in your hand

 

Taste me

like a glass wine

drink me

like strychnine

shake me

like cheap champagne

Rape me

like I go insane

 

a frog in a blender

fender bender

defeated defender

total surrender

 

Blister

 

 

                                          656                  

 

When you don’t understand something look for the financial aspect. 

For years Phillip Morris et al have had carte blanche to sell the 

death sticks free from litigation [making millions] and the doctors  are making millions treating the cancer patients. Whose making money  on the ballistic anti

smoking campain going on now? Whose going to 

make millions on the negligent homicde [or whatever] cases brought by smokers? The lawyers and the insurance companies? On a related note, how long before liver cancer patients [read drunks] start bringing law suits against anheuser busch? How long after that prohibition [again?]Responses may be sent directly to me to avoid a huge smoking flap on our poetry group. Thanks. And now a poem.

 

SMOKE II

*********

Nicotine filter fiberglass tar

iron lung priests gonna litigate 

prosecute persecute confiscate

purple salt peter eater smoke it up jack

nicotine gum patch legalized crack

break thise cigarette addicts right down

burn winston/salem NC to the ground

tight cunt witch hunt save us from ourselves

besides that tabacco smoke really fucking smells

might makes right a new drug war to fight

while we’re at it lets make alcohol illegal agin

cause I miss that good old bathtub gin

wouldn’t it be nice to have a new illegal substance

we can put on ice more mob shooting sprees

bring the junkies to their knees

and double up our profits I mean everyone knows

how much more illegal drugs are worth than legal ones

just ask the fucking Kennedys and their philandering sons

 

an addicted blister

 

 

                                          657                  

 

toss and turn

crash and burn

live and learn

no return

 

What are you gonna do

when they come for you?

 

Breakout

 

give and take

bend and break

sweat and shake

sleep awake

 

what are you gonna do

when the sun comes down?

 

Breakout

 

taste that smell

crack that shell

time will tell

wishing well

 

What are you gonna do

when your dreams come true?

 

Breakout

 

leap that wall

jump or fall

heed that call

standing tall

 

What are you gonna do

when you hit that ground?

 

Breakout

 

 

                                          658                  

 

 

I don’t mind

**************

the bottle is open

the bottle is empty

the battle is over

but I’m still tempted

redemption

 

the brick’s right there

and the circle is square

and I don’t mind

‘cause I don’t care

 

the door is open

the room is empty

the wires touch

but they’re disconnected

correction

 

the brick’s right there

and the circle is square

and I don’t mind

go ahead and stare

 

the casket is open

the coffin is empty

the knees are bent

and the fee’s collected

rejection

 

the brick’s right there

and the circle is square

and I don’t mind

I’ve got time to spare

 

 

                                          659                  

Can Do

*********

can’t hear the music for the noise in my head

can’t see the reason for those toys I’ve been mislead

can’t feel my heart beat but my soul’s on fire

can’t taste the sweet meat I’m a bird on a wire

can’t won’t don’t

will can do

 

forget the pain 

 

can’t kiss the twilight or the moon or the sun

can’t stop the race I’ve started once it’s begun

caught in the headlights like a deer on the run 

can’t help the feeling that this might be the one

 

can’t won’t don’t

will can do

 

walk in the rain

 

can’t feel the spotlight I’m lost upon the stage

can’t fall in love tonight I’m all disengaged

can’t fill that god shaped hole I’m stuck inside the fence

can’t make you honey and I can’t make sense

 

can’t won’t don’t

will can do

 

over again

 

 

                                          660                  

 

super size

*********

elephant irrelevant

you’re super sized

devastate you elevate

those great big lies

but all those great bigs lies are true

to all those who depend on you

you drive it in and turn the screw

you hypnotize

 

Heavyweight recalibrate

your hate machine

I don’t know or care

if you know what I mean

All is fair in love and war

I guess you’ve heard it all before

all you need is to know the score

and make the scene

 

orange juice from concentrate

you had to try

contemplate your lover’s fate

she had to die

a mouse underfoot and you squeak by

and I just stand here asking why

all I’ve left to do is is cry

say goodbye

 

                                          661                  

different degrees

**************

concious superconcious

subconcious unconcious

taking over

 

science super science

high finance unbridled

taking over

 

sonic supersonic

subsonic catatonic

taking over

 

human superhuman

subhuman abusing

taking over

 

 

                                          662                  

 

A lesson

********

I can’t get it out of my head

That’s why I’m going out of my head

There’s only room in here for one

and let me tell you it’s no fun

 

I can’t get it out of my eyes

this vision that I despise

I’d claw the eyes out of my head

I’d rather drink myself to death instead

 

I can’t get it off of my hands

the blood of this innocent bairn

the murderous deed is done

but the pain has just begun

 

I can’t get it out of my lungs

this scream remains unsung

something I don’t understand

a lesson for less than a man

 

 

                                          663                  

 

NAILED

***************

It’s all so gratifying

watching you cry

seeing those useless tears

stream down your face

I love to see you cry

I love to make you cry

 

I don’t love you

I don’t need your love

I’m above you

I inflict the wound you’re dying of

I don’t want you

I don’t need your love

you get nailed

to the tree when push comes to shove

 

It’s all so satisfying

listening to you

beg for mercy

eternal damnation

forgiveness release

knowing full well

the pain will never cease

 

I don’t love you

I don’t need your love

I’m above you

I inflict the wound you’re dying of

I don’t want you

I don’t need your love

you get nailed  

to the tree when push comes to shove

 

 

 

 

 

                                          664                  

 

The Beast

***********

Give me back

my happiness 

my emptiness

my loneliness

 

my sorrow

my anger 

my fear

 

Give me back

my ugliness

my wastedness

my drunkeness

 

my horror

my violence

my tears

 

In this boat without a steering wheel

I no longer know how to feel

lost in unknown territory it 

holds this holy terror for me

 

Give me my stupidity

Invalid invalidity

 

Misery

self pity

and pain

 

Give me my insanity

my vanity inanity

 

calamity

god damn it

give me back 

the me I know

 

retsilb

 

 

                                          665                  

 

A Love Story [sort of]

*******************

pins & needles

pins & needles

numb & dumb

it’s a hum drum

conundrum

 

It’s a love story

 

hammers & nails

hammers & nails

snakes & snails

pieces of tail

it’s weak and pale

 

It’s a love story

 

purple & orange

silver & gold

the story’s told

it’s getting old

dead & cold

 

It’s a love story

[sort of]

 

                                          666                  

Help! Ring Dings rolling over me!

Help! Ring Dings rolling over me!

 

Devil Dog’s got my Aunt Jemima

Devil Dogs got my Little Debbie

Devil Dog’s got my Suzie Q

Devil Dog’s got my Betty Crocker

 

Help! Ring Dings rolling over me!

Help! Ring Dings rolling over me!

 

M & M baby Chocolate glistens

in my hand band stand better listen

M & M baby peanut candy

Reeses Pieces Hershey’s kisses

 

Help! Ring Dings rolling over me!

Help! Ring Dings rolling over me!

 

And my twinkie’s bigger 

than the green Giant’s pinky

when the sun goes down

 

 

 

                                          667                  

blast

*************

Why?

Why do I lie?

Why O why 

Do I feel this way?

 

Mud underfoot

Baggage in hand

Misunderstood

Head in the sand

Sinking

 

I 

Try try to find

Way away

A way to get away

 

Feet in concrete

Wrapped in rubber bands

Sleeping on the street

Do the best I can 

Drinking

 

Cry

cry yourself to sleep

keep away

stay no keep away

 

 

                                          668                  

 

Ah the senseless glorification of the unnecessary...

 

Needless Things

************************

Just a little bit

not too much but just enough 

to getcha feeling kinda tough

over come warm & numb

it’s ok I can quit anytime

 

I need to get the cure

for the pain that it brings

at least I’m sure it’s pure

that is I think that it’s the real thing

 

Just a little more

I’m going down town to score

here’s the local drug store 

wait in line I’ll be fine 

I can still quit anytime

 

I need to get the cure

for the hatred that it brings

at least I’m sure it’s pure

that is I think that it’s the real thing

 

Just a little sick

I know what we’ll do the trick

grab a quick lick and stick

just a dime’s worth of crime

and I still quit everytime

 

I need to get the cure

for the sorrow that it brings

at least I’m sure it’s pure

that is I think that it’s the real thing

 

tomorrow never comes

tomorrow never comes

tomorrow never comes

tomorrow never comes

 

 

 

                                          669                  

 

I came rolling in 

early this morning

you’d been waiting up

I didn’t have any warning

 

It’s been a long time coming

been a long time gone

You were breaking the news

that I was moving on

 

There are so many things I want to say to you

There are so many dreams I’ve had

There are so many dreams that came true with you

I never thought it would get this bad 

 

It’s getting way too hard

to try and write this down

The palace of peace

becomes a battleground

 

I never wanted to hurt you

cause you undue distress

I’m sorry I left you alone

cold and emptiness

 

There are so many things I want to say to you

There are so many dreams I’ve had

There are so many dreams that came true with you

I never thought it would get this bad 

 

 

 

                                          670                  

 

No Reply

**************

mind’s to make up

love’s to break up

and I can’t take this

anymore

 

things to take back

and boxes to pack

memories stacked by

the door

 

This mountain’s just too high for us

and we can’t get around

The palace of peace so sweetly built

has now become a battleground

with nothing left to say and no reply

 

Tapes & Cds

between you and me

we must be 

getting old

 

what’s yours or mine

a once divine

state of mind 

grown cold

 

This mountain’s just too high for us

and we can’t get around

The palace of peace so sweetly built

has now become a battleground

with nothing left to say and no reply

 

 

 

                                          671                  

 

an hour or two

==========

Coffee in my ever present coffee mug

me in front of my ever present computer screen

I left it at 5 pm last night

At 9 a.m. this morning it feels like I never left

in fact it feels like I never leave here at all

I’ve been here 6 years 2 months  2 weeks 2 days and 2 hours now

feels like forever but it doesn’t much matter

because I never leave

I just go outside every now and then

for a minute or an hour or three

to get some alcohol

hangover my other constant companion

day and night

putting one on

or sleeping one off

for an hour or two or three

I’m wearing one now like a crown that fits too tightly

but hey I made it back here

to sit in front of my ever present computer screen

with my ever present coffee mug

think I’ll go have a smoke

that’ll help

for a minute or an hour or three

 

 

                                          672                  

a little empty

**********

knock knock no one there

an empty footstep on the stair

and I don’t mind  ‘cause I don’t care

not bitter cold or lonely

just a little empty

 

ring ring phone call

But I don’t pick it up at all

on the floor and off the wall

not home when you phone me

just a little empty

 

heigh ho no one here

stay inside my room for years

sleepless now and no more tears

I packed me up and sold me

just a little empty

 

 

 

                                          673                  

 

cut off my arm again last night

hurts like a motherfucker

blood everywhere

can’t seem to stop doing it

shit happens

one more dumb mistake

like cutting myself shaving

only more so

I hate it when I do that

 

Blister

 

                                          674                  

dope

********

Spin control

Surrender

Get a grip

and lose it

freak on a bender

frog in a blender

head hung

 

 

on a pole

 

lack of all

restraint

get a gun

and use it

blood on the floor

love out the door

damage maintainance

customer complaint

completely

off the ball

 

heaven’s gate

in hell

might as well

go through it

naked unsheltered

overload sweltering

heart of a whore

and a head like a hole

soul for sale

to sell

 

 

 

                                          675                  

2000

**************

bombs bombs 

everywhere

but nary a gun to shoot

my computer

packs a punch

but I don’t give a hoot

everything goes boom at once

kabam kapow kaput

new sublime paradigm

for a military coot

hee hee haha hoho  says he

another horn to toot

another infant’s skull to crush

beneath my bovver boot

 

[whatever, whenever, who cares?]

 

                                          676                  

release me

*****************

wrapped up in chains of reason

tied down with ropes of gold

another guest at your bloody feast

release me

 

trapped inside a cage of comfort

strapped onto destiny

another stab at a friendly beast

release me

 

a fly stuck in your vasoline love

a fish caught on your silver hook

another man just begging please

release me

 

a simile to imply I’m lonely

another meaningless metaphor

another whore for ya oiled and greased

release me

 

 

                                          677                  

release me II

*****************

wrapped up in ropes of reason

shackled in chains of gold

I’m getting old but I’ll die at least

release me

 

trapped in this cage of comfort

strapped on to destiny

I might be dumb but I’m not a beast

release me

 

a fly stuck in your vasoline love

a fish caught on your silver hook

another man just begging please

release me

 

a simile to imply I’m lonely

another meaningless metaphor

another whore for ya oiled and greased

release me

 

                                          678                  

release me III

*****************

wrapped up in ropes of reason

shackled in chains of gold

I’m getting old but I’ll die at least

release me

 

trapped in this cage of comfort

strapped on to destiny

I might be dumb but I’m not a beast

release me

 

a fly stuck in your vasoline love

a fish caught on your silver hook

took a look just begging please

release me

 

a simile to imply I’m lonely

another meaningless metaphor

another whore for ya oiled and greased

release me

 

 

                                          679                  

 

 

Lips & Assholes

***************

I don’t need to drink 

to have a good time

I need to drink 

to quiet the voices in my head

I used to love you

but now I think

You’re an asshole

I don’t want to see you anymore

I have a dinner date 

I don’t want 

with someone 

I don’t even like

just to get on with my life

just to get back at you 

I had to tell you about it

just so it would hurt

does it hurt?

I hope it hurts

No actually 

I couldn’t care less

you’re an asshole

I used to love you

but now

I have 

to kill you

you bastard

you betrayed me

you used me

I want my 

fucking records

back

nice lips

hey thanks

it’s been great

nice to see you again 

old friend

be sure to keep

in touch now

y’hear?

 

                                          680                  

the way it used to be

*****************

cold and bitter 

worthless words

thrown in anger

hardly heard

a strike for you

a strike for me

a trusted friend

an enemy

and I just want it

to be like 

the way it used to be

 

sticks and stones

and broken bones

aching hearts

in battle zones

anger lust

and envy

with just a hint

of  jealousy

when I just want it

to be like 

the way it used to be

 

puppy dogs

and children’s toys

we love the things 

that we destroy

sweet words that

could comfort me

you say will never 

come for me

but I just want it

to be like

the way it used to be

 

 

                                          681                  

freedom’s just another word for nothing left to lose

freedom’s just another word

free free 

set them free

free for you 

free for me

a monkey in the apple tree

a missile on a bombing spree

battlements and towers tall

free to have a free for all

push those buttons

one two three

we’ll set everybody free

everyone knows 

you get what you pay for

everyone knows

and loves our war whore

money’s tight

nothing’s free

free nothing!

get your free nothing here!

free nothing!

geet you free nothing here!

Free nothing

zilch

 

                                          682                  

Violent death has entertainment value.

OOOO! Gay designer murdered by gay psycho serial killer.

DETAILS! WE WANT THE GORY DETAILS!!

Was he sexually assaulted before he was killed?

Was he? Hunh? Was he?

[drool drool pant pant]

Did Jon Benet’s mommy and daddy kill her? Can we see the pictures?

MURDER! RAPE! VIOLENCE! BOMBS! BULLETS!

[stay in your homes and watch it on tv. don’t go out it’s dangerous]

[shop from home, work from home, stay in your hole]

Some folks’ll do anything to be in the headlines, eh Clarice?

You’ve gotta kill or be killed to get any notoriety in THIS buisness.

Violent death has entertainment value.

Funny how those people get their real fifteen minutes of fame because 

of the way they died. Violently. They are forgotten tomorrow.

Replaced by a new set of killers and victims.

DEADDEADDEADDEADDEADDEADDEADDEAD

nonetheless, they are still dead.

That’s life.

 

Blister

 

                                          683                  

 

...and for more great fashion commentary...

www.alt.binaries.deadfashionfigures.com

www.alt.binaries.homoserialkillers.com

and my personal fave...

www.alt.binaries.deadguysIcouldntgivelessofashitaboutifItried.com

 

and now for an admittedly crass [or joyfully irreverent] poem:

 

There once was a man named Gianni

who made clothes and liked it in the fanny

he got offed by a nut

who liked it in the butt

just a serial killer named Andy

[no relation]

 

Stop that! Stop it! You ought to be ashamed!

Bad Blister! Bad!

Sorry about that folks. He gets out of hand once in a while.

Whoop!

See ya.

 

                                          684                  

I got a beer belly

but I used to be thin

I got wiped out

when she let me in

I got baptised

to a life a sin

It’s all over now

so it’s time to begin

 

[la la la lala la ]

living

 

I got a good deal

so I go get high

I got a get real

so I got t’ cry

I got a good job

so I get by

I got no motivation

but I got to try

 

[la la la lala la ]

living

 

 

                                          685                  

I’m so happy

***********

I drink my rage

just to drown my sorrows

I kill the pain but it

comes back tomorrow

I hate my parents

and love my sadness

I can’t let it go ‘cause it

feeds my madness

 

chorus*

yay yay yay

going home

yay yay yay

going home

yay yay 

going  I’m so happy

 

home

yay yay

going home

yay yay yay

going home

yay yay

going home

yay

 

I choke on the air

but the smoke still lingers

I rip out my hair 

and I eat my fingers

I hate my family

‘cause they’re all liars

I feed those flames and then I 

throw it on the fire

 

chorus

 

I’ve got this fucking 

great idea

I’d just love for you 

all to know

I’d like to get them all

right here

laugh and tell them what

to blow 

me don’t want to go

but I’m going

 

chorus pt II

 

 

                                          686                  

DAGMAR

**********

a meeting

greeting

merci, bonjour

an invitation’s

quick acceptance

anxiousness

desirous

honey lemon

sweetest satan

darling lover 

over me

dressed in blue

and yellow sunshine

stiffened nipples

sucking me

soft sensation

warm temptation

dripping down

from wells of salt

thick and hard

liquid slippery 

fantasy and

separation

wings of reason

broken off

a butterfly

in white and purple

smooth and supple

overjoy and ecstasy 

a hot explosion

overloaded

undergunning

cunning finger

lingering in

twirling swirls

of satisfaction

soul reaction

spasming

and then

an airport

a plane

a farewell

back to Paris

adieu cherie

au revoir

merci

 

Blister

 

 

 

                                          687                  

I’ve got a secret and I won’t tell...

************

Insight inside

delight denied

nowhere to hide

this foolish pride

Let go let love

let love let go

 

It’s light outside

this great divide

our lives collide

but our hearts decide

Let go let love let go

 

Into the light

No black or white

No longer night

No wrong no right

Let love let go

Let go let love

Go

The end’s in sight

This crazy flight

This dizzy height

Well we just might

let go let love

Let love let go

Let go let love

Go

 

Blisssssssssssssssssssssssssssssster

 

 

                                          688                  

 

There’s a guy who bought a company who controls some of the 

last remaining redwood forest. He plans to "liquidate it" in the next 20 years. When met with public outcries against this he responded "I believe in the golden rule. He who has the gold, rules" Fuck him. 

 

Generation F

**************

Mommy and Daddy 

spilt milk on the floor 

and rolled out the door 

tomorrow

 

twenty first century 

crime they’re the slime

we pay for the time

they borrow

 

and they take it all ‘til 

there’s nothing left

just call us generation F

 

chiefs of state

and industry heads

sell out the dead 

and dying

 

they take our wheat

and leave us the chaff

have a laugh and leave us 

crying

 

and they take it all ‘til 

there’s nothing left

just call us generation F

 

lies and deception

taxes and death

heavy water and 

politicians

 

rape mother earth

what’s it all worth 

for a purse and their

possesions

 

and they take it all ‘til 

there’s nothing left

just call us generation F

 

Blister

 

 

Opinions; Like many things, everybody’s got one. 

I’ve never seen a redwood tree in person and I, for one, would like  for there to be some left to see. Excuse me all over the place.

 

                                          689                  

Dildo or Dilbert

***************

Living in a cartoon

my wayward world

a great big day to day joke

syndicated in cynicism

a trendy bender

the best imitation of myself

pretend world

artificial life

manufactured conciousness

jump started and set on autopilot

don’t question don’t think

drink the pain away til it

comes back another day

living in a great big 

commercial cartoon

get one now

slices dices julienne fries

don’t answer yet

now how much will you pay?

 

blister

 

                                          690                  

guilty but unrepentant

full of bad intentions

planned out in advance

with full consent of the will

resentful pretentious

consensual connection

taking chances just to

get my fill

I want you

and I want to

and more to the point 

I’m going to

sin sweet sin and 

satan my sweet satan

stain sweet stain and 

pain sweet pain

again and again

 

Blister

 

 

                                          691                  

 

 

all quiet wind whistling through the halls

invisible blood on the floor

empty desks gathering dust

and office chairs grown cold

noises echoing from the walls

none of them here anymore

gone beyond because they must

futures unpaid for bought and sold

the phones gone silent no one calls

the dollar junkies out to score

bean counter’s financial lust

knows not for whom the gold bell tolls

 

blister [nearly downsized]

 

                                          692                  

Out and Down

************

Such a little baby always got to get your way

if I could get a boat, a plane, a train I’d ride away to stay

but I just stick right here with you

even though I know it’s wrong

I know you’d sell me out for a song

 

I only wanted to say I knew it

held on I tried to stay and I blew it

up inside out and down and over sideways

up inside out and down

 

I hate to be a bastard but that’s just how I was born

every I’s got a needle every rose a pretty thorn

and I just stick it in you

Like you stuck it to me

Everyone’s who they want to be

 

I only wanted to say I knew it

held on long as I could and I blew it

up inside out and down and over sideways

up inside out and down

 

and I’d sell you out just as quick

as you’d roll out on me

were all sick and tired of this responsibility 

and I see a bad moon rising

the tune is winding down

looking at the stars from the ground

 

I only wanted to say I knew it

held on long as I could and I blew it

up inside out and down and over sideways

up inside out and down

 

 

                                          693                  

HASSLE

********

Lucy Sue she’s a real gone gal

more fun than a root canal

so I take a hit 

hit the street

got no reason to put up with the hassle

one dark night I was staying in her castle

 

got a little bit good a little bit bad

a little bit angry a little bit sad

got a little bit high a little bit low

ain’t no reason to put up with a hassle

 

Joltin Joe at the microphone

he can only do it when he’s stoned

hits the spoon

sings a tune

he don’t want to put up with the hassle

one more night passed out in Lucy’s castle

 

he’s a little bit crashed a little bit burned

he’s a little bit twisted a little bit turned

a little bit high a little bit low

and he ain’t going to put up with a hassle

 

gets a little bit good a little bit bad

gets a little bit angry a little bit sad

a little bit high a little bit low

still no reason to put up with a hassle

 

Sara Smiles loves Rickie Lee

but it’s just not like it used to be

he wants it now

she’s asleep

he keep’s on putting up with that same hassle

Rickie’s moving out of Sara’s castle

 

she’s a little bit crashed a little bit burned

she’s a little bit twisted a little bit turned

a little bit high a little bit low

and he ain’t goin to put up with the hassle

 

Blister

 

 

                                          694                  

 

cyclone ranger

**********

I cut it off you sew it on

Burn it away it’s already gone

This feeling just keeps getting

stranger and stranger

 

Nailed on the cross you drag me down

I scream but you don’t hear a sound

I’m not afraid even though

I know that I’m in danger

I’m a rearranger

I’m a cyclone ranger [cyclone ranger]

and I feel for her

 want to make it real for her

 

One single kiss you slap my face

This brand new me you just replace

and this feeling just keeps getting

stronger and stronger

 

Push me away but I pull you in

You keep the faith you keep within

this phone call just keeps getting 

longer and longer

she says I’m all wrong for her

I’m just a cyclone ranger [cyclone ranger]

I belong to her

I guess I sing this song for her

 

Solo

 

So mother please give me a taste

I saved it all but it’s all a waste

and this feeling just keeps getting

harder and harder

 

All skinned up knees and salty lips

captain crunch and captain trips

and the truth just keeps on getting 

farther and farther

She says are you my father?

I’m a cyclone ranger [cyclone ranger]

bang on that gong for her

and I sang this song for her

I’m just a psych lone ranger

 

 

 

 

                                          695                  

 

Name

************

You think that you’re alright

you think you’re so out of sight

you think you’re in control

you’re on top of the pole

then you trip

and you fall

forget about it all

as you slip out of the light

and into the night

you really love hear the sound

you really think you get around

with your famous name

 

You think you’re so cool

you know you’re nobody’s fool

you don’t find it hard to sleep

you’re on top of the heap

then you trip

and you fall

forget about it all

as you slip out of the light

you really love hear the sound

you really think you get around

with your famous name

and into the night

 

 

                                          696                  

Another Crash

************

A glass of whiskey

A paris hotel

A fallen princess and her rich lover

Another glass of whiskey

A swarming horde of growling paparazzi

A black Mercedes

A pack of motorcycle dogs

Speedometers pinned

A black tunnel

Swerve

Pole

The sound of screaming metal and shattering glass 

Mixed with screams of terror

Horror replaced by anguish

Blood leaking on the seat

On the floor

Flashbulbs Exploding Everywhere

Crawling like ants on cadaver

Trying to get the final death shot

Eyes wide open

Unbreathing

Coagulated blood on the floor

Sirens

Police

Media

More Media More and More Media

MEDIAMEDIAMEDIAMEDIAMEDIAMEDIAMEDIAMEDIAMEDIA

 

Is anyone else tired of the endless news coverage of this thing?

They’re fucking dead already OK? We get the picture [no pun 

intended]. I really don’t give much of a shit that Mr. and Miss 

Richer than God died this way. Wouldn’t it have been easier to just  have your picture taken? Fuck she’s not even married anymore. What’s  the fuss all about? It’s great that she was doing all this nice 

stuff for the world and everything, but why the photographer frenzy? What’s the big deal? I bet when the guy who survived [if he lives] 

will have an interesting story to tell the tabloids. And I bet he 

will be squelched or bought off to keep his mouth shut. I’m sure the  royal family wants the whole thing over with as quickly and quietly  as possible. It seems to me if the driver was as wasted as they claim the passengers might have declined the ride, no?. Unless of course they were all tanked. That seems pretty likely, but I bet you won’t hear much about it. One more meaningless death for your viewing pleasure. Oh well, whatever, nevermind.

Blister

 

 

                                          697                  

 

National Expirer [Milk It]

**************

Feed me that blood and guts TV

I love that tradgedy

get me the shot in tight and close

give me a stronger dose

I got no life to speak of

No tenderness or love

Only that warm blue glow

your television show

I need that tabloid news

show me those close up views

fuzzy pictures and empty lies

My god how that shit satisfies

Let’s see the hurt I can feel the pain

and empathize with those famous names

I love that suffering and the way you cry when you sing

it makes me feel better about being such a great big fucking nothing

 

                                          698                  

Your Famous Name II

*******************

The kids are alright

and you’re out of sight

in control

and you’re on a roll

then you flip and you fall forget about it all

and slip into the night and out of the light

they love the way you get around

they really love to hear the sound

of your famous name

It’s nothing new

and everything’s true

you can save the world

in your diamonds and pearls

then you flip and you fall forget about it all

as you walk into light and out of the night

they really love the things you do

they just can’t wit to hear about you

and your famous name

a perfect rose

that everyone knows

and you’re so pure

you’re sure to find the cure 

before you flip and you fall forget about it all

as you walk into light and out of the night

they really love the way you talk

they really love the way you shock 

the way you walk up and down their block

the way you rock with your famous name

 

 

 

                                          699                  

Sleep

Ah to sleep 

perchance to dream

That lovely state of bliss

wherein the world and it’s troubles

cease to have meaning

warmth and comfort

happiness and joy

to sleep in

and not have to get up 

untilyou want to

IF you want to

Ah to sleep

perchance to dream

of didacts and narpats

towers and waterfalls

and naked maidens in distress

wampeters and granfalloons

puppy dogs and red balloons

racing round chasing tails

just for fun

to sleep

Ah to sleep

sleep

perchance...

 

A tired Blister

 

                                          700                  

PERFECT

*********

free and easy

calm and cool

soft and smooth

tried and true

and perfect

you make it perfect

 

strong and silent

sleek and sexy

sweet and sticky

ripe and ready

and perfect

you make it perfect

 

hot and heavy

wet and wild

mother and child

meek and mild

and perfect

you make it perfect

 

 

                                          701                  

some that didn’t make it : )

sturm and drang

dry and brittle

sound and fury

dead and buried

 

soup and salad

ham and cheese

eggs and bacon

lox and bagels

 

ren and stimpy

sweet and sour

day and night 

right and wrong

 

                                          702                  

Divine inspiration

***************

Deus Rectum Domine

Cum and pray Ad Hoc

Fellatio and Agnus Dei

Suck the holy cock

 

Look out everyone, the bonegrinder is back!

Woo Hoo!

 

                                          703                  

Let Me Be

*********

You know I always wanted someone like you

To do those things I know you know I need you to

But now once more I guess it’s hit or miss

a simple curse or a passionate kiss and you say 

let me be the one let be the one

and let me be and let me be and let me be the one

 

You know I never have been much good at this

Don’t know about happiness but I know about bliss

So now once more I guess it’s do or die

and I know I can’t do it but I can try  

let you be the one let you be the one

and let you be and let you be and let you be the one

 

You know we always wished that we could be like you

Simply complicated easily amused

So now once more we hit the fence

all dressed up and full of confidence

we can be the ones we can be the ones

we can be we can be we can be the ones

 

 

                                          704                  

 

Recondemned

***********

I’m a victim 

I’m a king

I am nothing

I am everything

I am iron

I am steel

I feel nothing

but is that all I feel?

Condemned to Redemption

 

I’m a killer

I’m a clown

I am filler

I am down

I am jello

I am lead

I look alive 

but I feel so dead

Condemned to Redemption

 

I’m a blister

I’m a boil

I am sadness

I am soiled

I am bliss 

I am empty

I resist

but I’m so tempted

Condemned to Redemption

 

Blister

 

                                          705                  

 

Over It

*******

I can’t eat

and I can’t sleep

don’t think

I can keep it up

choking down 

what empty brings

drink to forget 

that I know everything

I can’t get over it

get over it

 

I can’t sob

and I can’t sing

can’t find my voice

I ripped my wings

tripping out and

falling down

a clown who 

wants to be a king

I can’t get over it

get over it

 

I can’t stop

what I can’t start

apart from that

hey I’m OK

just stay behind

this heart of gold

oh by the way

it’s getting old

I can’t get over it

get over it

 

Blister

 

 

                                          706                  

 

 

Make The Break

********************

One day I broke the rules

just because I could

I took the right to choose

by the way it felt so good

 

my neck slipped the lead

the knot betrayed the noose

for now the weak shall feed

because the beast is on the loose

 

and we get 

down d

down d

down d

down down

down d

down d

down d

down

down d

down d

down d

down down

down

 

and Make The Break 

 

had to cross the line

to get that precious fruit

I’m not afraid of dying

so I point the gun and shoot

 

and as the evening fades

the sun’s begun to set

for an end is a beginning 

because I take what I can get

 

and I get 

down d

down d

down d

down down

down d

down d

down d

down

down d

down d

down d

down down

down

 

and Make The Break

 

Blister [Broken]

 

 

                                          707                  

 

A True Story

**********

Late at night

a little buzzed and gettin cold

time to take in the A.C.

And squeeze that breeze

Slide the panel aside

Get a good grip

[a real good one now...]

open the window a crack

annnnnnnnnd......

WHOOPS!!

out it goes.

I grab for the cord and GET IT!

JUST IN TIME!

Now the deadly pendulum

swings to and fro

a good seven feet 

above my neighbor’s 

brand new $20,000 Land Rover

I heave with all my might

and get a very tenuous grip on it

If I let go of the cord to grab it and pull it in it’s gonna be gone Perhaps now would be a good time to get some assistance!

DAVE!!!!!!!! DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAVVVVVVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A good 2 or 3 minutes of solid screaming

It wakes up my neighbor instead

He comes out side and sees me

his eyes bug out like roger rabbit

Ah

WOOOOOOOOO

gah!

I take the opportunity to be glib

Excuse me...could you ring the door bell

and get my room mate’s attention please?

Before I drop this hundred something pound box

on your new $20,000 car?

The door bell rings

I hear a little light converstation

In walks Dave calmly

"Hey. What’s up?"

HEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Together we managed to get it in out of the window

I fell on the floor and laughed til I cried.

The End

Incidentally, somehow my third room mate Seth managed to sleep through the whole thing, yet I woke up most of the rest of the neighbor hood

The Moral: When installing or uninstalling air conditioners, it’s 

wise to get some help. Just a little friendly advice from a guy who  nearly got yanked out of his window mostly naked to land on the air  conditioner that just landed on his neighbors $20,000 Land Rover. 

A bruised Blister

 

 

                                          708                  

It’s not spot remover Sparkey,

it’s like licking honey

off the wings of a butterfly.

 

Virginia Slim

............................................

a sexy look a passing glance

the smile on her face

apparently she liked the way

I play acoustic bass

I smiled back and took a break

to have a drink and change

the way she looked and spoke and smoked

a phone number exchange

 

another day a date a drink

a foot massage I rubbed

I didn’t quite know what to think

when she dragged me to the rug

so if you want to stay she said

tonight it’s no big deal

there’s lots of room upstairs in bed

I’d like to make you real

 

elfin face with eyes of blue

and golden hair surprise

whispy wonder willow tree

in photograph disguise

liquid passion firey grace

an angel on the wing

sweetest lips and salty lace

in lust for everything

 

with skin so hot and flesh all wet 

the spark turned to a flame

the fire bred and fed with sweat

a beast that can’t be tamed

so now it runs both wild and free

each day a brand new dawn

and we see what we want to see

and so we carry on

 

 Blister

 

 

                                          709                  

PostIt

*****

If I only had a PostIt I’d stick it to my forehead

in efforts to remind me to not be such an asshole

If I only had a PostIt I’d write these words of wisdom

you lose some and you win some end some and begin some

 

If I only had a PostIt to communicate my feelings

"I hate you and I’m leaving" you’re acting like an asshole

If I only had a PostIt a note to reinforce and

describe another course on and not be such a moron

 

If I only had a PostIt I surely make the most of it

I’d write a little toast on it and leave it in the ashtray

to burn like all my bridges my ruffles and my ridges

my nameless empty poems left naked and alone

 

If I only had a PostIt...

 

Blister

 

                                          710                  

Fuck Conventional Wisdom

**********************

judgemental jury

convicts on the evidence

of their narrow experience

devoid of the facts

 

the moral chorale

devilishly clever

damnation forever

for those who won’t bend

 

the social commitee

for acceptable mores

draws snores from the audience

and drowns in self pity

 

minions of opinion

hand down a sentence

of true unrepentance

in the form of a fool

 

Fuck Conventional Wisdom

 

Blister

 

 

                                          711                  

 

ASS

****

this guy I know he had a plan

a man and his formula won

he can’t but he can’t understand it

so he reaches down and pulls out his gun

 

Ritchie itchy trigger finger

blow up doll can’t wait to blow up

stitched up scratched up mother sucker

show down man don’t wanna show up

 

Alcoholic Schizophrenic Suicide

Pride Envy Lust Degeneration

It’s our generation

 

his woman once she had a man

unraveled came completely undone

she can’t and she can’t understand him

he’s overloaded she’s overwhelmed  

 

Master Blaster honey gunner

stick up man don’t wanna suck up

stitched up scratched up super nova

step down doll can’t wait to step up

 

Alcoholic Schizophrenic Suicide

Pride Envy Lust Degeneration

It’s our generation

 

 

                                          712                  

It’s all over now [I guess]

********************

Looking ‘round for an answer

Cancer lurks in the sweetest of buds

mud and vaseline covers me

we lie alone in the fields like the dead

 

Could be I’ve been mistaken

Could be I’ve been that way all along

Could it be I’ve been taken?

Could be that I’m in the wrong song?

 

It’s all

It’s all over

It’s all over me

now

 

Tripping out on a daisy

Lazy susan’s out jumping the gun

wonders which way the wind blows

knows no more crying her eyes full of red

 

Could be I’ve been mistaken

Could be I’ve been that way all along

Could it be I’ve been taken?

Could be that I’m in the wrong song?

 

It’s all

It’s all over

It’s all over me

now

It’s all

It’s all over

It’s all over me

now

 

Repeat 1st verse, prechorus, and chorus simultaneously in harmony.

Then they’ll think we’re all faggots and they won’t take any of us.

 

Blister

 

 

                                          713                  

 

Freeloader

*********

I’ve got an unwelcome house guest

don’t want him there but he stays on anyway

the homeless friend of my roommate

you try to be nice there you go that’s the price you pay

sitting in the rain on my doorstep

waiting for a handout when I came home one day

my room mate hadn’t come home yet

get fuckin lost would’ve been the right thing to say

now I’m stuck with this big stupid asshole

drinks my beer begs my smokes watches TV all day

I now know I should never have let him in

one night turns into a one year stay

I didn’t want to be the one to ask him to leave

I guess I’ll just have to change the locks anyway

 

The cops told him "If we see you on the street again

you’re going back to jail." I didn’t want to see anyone going to jail 

for no reason. Now I’m stuck with this freak for the season.

*sigh* No good deed ever goes unpunished.

Blister

 

Oh, what the hell.

 

 

                                          714                  

 

Talk Show

*********

I fell in love one day with a band I used to hate

I used to think that they could only imitate

I never thought that they would innovate

I finally learned to love the sound that they create

[maybe just ‘cause the radio filled my head]

 

there’s only one thing see 

that kinda worries me

the singer is a junkie like so many before

[they always seem end up dead]

 

why do the artist types 

buy into all the hype?

can’t wait to do the drugs they score

[at least I heard that’s what they said]

 

three albums later now 

a detox jail and a big cash cow

the band broke up cause he can’t hang

[dirty boy unclean]

 

they got another voice it was a lousy choice

I really hate the way he sang

I wish the band crashed with a bang

[you know what I mean]

 

so now they limp along  sing their wimpy songs

all the feeling’s suddenly gone

and now the junkie man islooking for a band

just trying to keep on keeping on

 

now all the names have changed and royalties exchanged

but where’s the music gone?

but where’s the music gone?

Where’d the music go?

Out on some stupid Talk Show

 

Blister

 

 

                                          715                  

 

Thirsty

*******

Just another day

I don’t know what to say

One more simple rhyme

To help me kill the time

My pen goes to the page

I try and vent my rage

It never seems to work

I guess I’m just a jerk

I’d write a song but takes too long

Besides it always comes out wrong

 

A letter or a curse 

I’m feeling better

but getting worse

 

I’m always thirsty

Always thirsty

Thirsty

 

and I’m thinking about drinking

 

It seems like such a drag

Choking on this gag

What can it all mean?

I’m all done making a scene

That’s all right with me

You see what you want to see

And I don’t really care

It’s so much wind and stale hot air

 

And it makes me thirsty

I’m thirsty

Thirsty

 

and I’m thinking about drinking

 

I’d sing a song but it takes too long

and it keeps coming out all wrong

 

A chorus and a verse 

I’m feeling better

but getting worse

 

I’m always thirsty

Always thirsty

Thirsty

 

and I’m thinking about drinking

 

 

 

                                          716                  

Twister

*******

beg borrow and steal me 

I don’t mind too much 

it’s not the real me anyway 

 

come in close you can feel me 

It won’t hurt too much

it feels good in the same old way

 

what’s the story mourning angel? 

those tears of ice could melt the hardest of hearts 

you made it with a psych lone ranger 

now he tears you apart 

 

Twister

 

hold my hand you can heal me 

I need your touch 

just to fix me everyday 

 

you go bananas and peel me 

off your couch 

you’re in love and I’m in the way

 

what’s the story mourning angel?

those tears of ice could melt the hardest of hearts

you made it with a psych lone ranger

now he tears you apart

 

Twister

 

Blister

 

 

                                          717                  

 

St. Christopher on the half shell

**************************

time in tide

a boring whore

april wine

on august shores

of tinsel towns

and tin pan grave

and jesus saves

his jesus slaves

a theme park dream

and demon seed

frightened screams

and madness freed

motion dark

and dreary gone

pitch fork peace

and carrion

at devil’s gate

he satiates

with evils great

he medicates

while laughing 

bhudda meditates

on birds awing

and everything

and random eyes

with silky hair

chained to melting

iron chairs

the dog eared beasts

at mighty feasts

turns heads to gold

in battle zones

and crucify

the christian drones

to pacify the queen

but buried soon

a martyr’s tomb

of dank and cold

eternal gloom

for a slice of life

a piece of pie

to dwell in hell

high in the sky

in infamy

and blasphemy

 

Blister

 

 

                                          718                  

 

Wrong

******

I sit alone at the station

a broken killer just

looking for one free ride

starting to grow impatient

tastes great less filling I

can’t wait to get outside

 

tell me a story 

sing me a song

which way to your mourning glory? 

where did you go wrong?

where did it all go wrong?

 

I stare at the sun

overcome undone

the battle’s begun

I’m under the gun

 

I got a good education

a silly fool standing 

out in the pouring rain

a simple sweet deviation

by the pool I was 

drowning in sane

 

tell me a story 

sing me a song

which way to your mourning glory? 

where did you go wrong?

where did it all go wrong?

 

wind up and unwind

busted and fined

Deaf dumb and blind

and out of my mind

 

Blister

 

 

 

                                          719                  

 

Strange wounds

**************

I reached into the tool box

to pull me out a hand tool

foolishly found a razor blade

carelessly left open

gashed open

the tip of my first finger

straight in nice and deep

blood everywhere

spurting

shouting out curses

hurt like hell

but worse 

in ten minutes 

I had to play a four hour concert

got out the bandages

and wrapped it like a mummy

giant throbbing digit

I went on with the show

bleeding on my bass neck

every note agony

tears on my cheeks

the things we do for love

of money and of art

shock my bleeding heart

strange

I look at it today

and can’t believe I did it

in such pain

I can’t imagine 

how I’ll make myself

get up and play tonight

knowing what it will feel like

but I will

 

Bloody Blister

 

 

                                          720                  

 

 

Circle

*****

an timeless love a far off friend

coming back around again

waiting here for something undefined

 

summer comes and winter goes

I see her taking off her clothes

naked in the mirror of my mind 

 

She’s not around

circle around

head in the clouds 

feet on the ground

 

She’s not around

circle around

it gets me down

circle around

 

She’s just around

the corner

circle ‘round

 

 

lost in time but she returns 

looking fine desire burns 

deep within mysoul she’s on my side 

 

far out on an endless sea 

she comes sailing back to me 

to carry me away out with the tide

 

She’s not around

circle around

head in the clouds 

feet on the ground

 

She’s not around

circle around

it gets me down

circle around

 

She’s just around

the corner

circle ‘round

 

 A Missing Blister

 

 

 

                                          721                  

Empty Evening

*************

fast forward porn

a late night alone

plain unadorned

unringing telephone

 

Stupid TV

cold glass of wine

an angry sea

of wasted time

 

wish I was done

au revoir salut fini

beneath a dying sun

unfolding into me

 

broken dreams aflame

an old remembered fling

a game without a name

when the telephone rings

 

there’s someone out there

who’s not showing up

I read it and weep

and finish the cup

 

Blister

 

                                          722                  

Dry as a bone

asleep everyday

telephone ring

drifts me away

I guess I’m alone

but that’s O.K.

they say the game’s fun

but I don’t wanna play

Leave me alone

Go away

 

A poet without

nothin to say

I’ve nothing within

and don’t care anyway

A v

ictim of youth

the truth’s on holiday

I love my gun

I shoot it everyday

Leave me alone

Go away

 

                                          723                  

Eye

***

Now I’m part of the machine

I’m afraid

I don’t know

I don’t understand

 

Deep shit I don’t know what it means

I can see

I don’t care

I don’t understand

 

Now I’m a piece of broken dreams

It’s obscene

but I’m clean

down in Disneyland

 

I keep on thinking that it seems

like I feel 

like I’m superman

 

I can see

I don’t know 

I don’t care

I don’t understand

 

I’ve got to take it to extremes

I can’t sleep

I’m in deep with the contraband

 

on the scene

she’s the queen

of the sleeping damned

in the promised land

 

I can see

I don’t know 

I don’t care

I don’t understand

 

Blister

                                          724                  

 

Life

****

Possibility

Change

Poetential

Philosophy

Dog

Comprehension

Decision

Difference

Similarity

Clarity

Disparity

Conclusion

Delusion

Completed

Deleted

 

                                          725                  

Sin

***

deep thoughts and shallow hearts

gone insane and torn apart

 

wide eyed

inside

come plain

in vain

 

Sin 

Depression

Confession

Forgivness

Redemtion

Ascension

 

head set phoneline

un-met deadlines

 

burn out

turn out

descend

the end

 

Sin 

Depression

Confession

Forgivness

Redemtion

Ascension

 

 

                                          726                  

 

It’s just a game

for your famous name

a fresh freeze frame

I think it’s lame

 

it makes me numb 

and I feel dumb

a little crumb

and it’s cumbersome

 

I don’t want to think about it now

 

Clueless

 

and endless line

that ends in rhyme

no thanks I’m fine

some other time

 

um...

I guess it’s over

what is more

and moreover

 

I don’t want to think about it now

 

Clueless

 

blister

 

                                          727                  

Moving packing flying leaving

For that warmer spot out west.

To be gone before the first snowfall hits

 

Shaving suiting interviewing

Landed a new job to test.

I’m going away soon before the first snowfall hits.

 

Beaches palm trees bathing suits

sunning and reading while I rest.

I’ll  be thinking of you 

when I hear on the news

that that first snowfall has hit.

 

-Todd Hagar

 

 

                                          728                  

hate the cold

blubber wrapped

fur whisker

shiver me timber

icicle thong

snow sleet hail pain

freezing and miserable

suffering in silent scream

awaiting springtime

to thaw again

and deliver me

from this awful impending hell

known as winter

ah, for a warm sunny spot

to lie in and snooze

comfy and warm

the ocean wrapping my toes 

in warm abandon

time 

to move

to barbadter

 

                                          729                  

geekspeak

 

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WARNING, ALL DATA ON NON-REMOVABLE DISK

DRIVE C: WILL BE LOST!

Proceed with Format (y/n)?y

Formatting 1,029.62M

Format complete.

System transferred

 

Volume label (11 characters, ENTER for none)? fuckinbitch

 

 

 

 

 

                                          730                     

 

 

 

HI all.

I just realized this is my second halloween post on bobshoe. It's

actually been thirteen months since my first post. So thank you all

for listening. It's been a hell of a year and I managed to write 194

poems on this list. I'm pretty happy about that. So anyway, happy

halloween.

 

Helloween

********

spooks and goblins on my streeet

but I shall have no fear

of got my hell shoes on my feet

my fists are ringed with tears

my eyes are bleeding slightly

to the corners of my mouth

the killings happen nightly

the vampire is out

 

Happy happy happy

Helloween

 

Frankenstein and heineken

wolfman's full of beer

the mummy's wrapped in EZ wider

the spider's creeping near

my eyes are bleeding slightly

to the corners of my mouth

the killings happen nightly

the vampire is out

 

Happy happy happy

Helloween

 

-blister

 

 

                                          731                  

                 Sister Anesthesia

 

 

 

Thumbelina

Tumbling

Couldn't stand

Picture perfect

Wants to make it

Wants to make it big

Too

Too big

She's sister Anesthesia

 

Surprise surprise

Survive alive

all foolish pride

her heart decides

She's sister Anesthesia

 

Mother Mary

Crumbling

Hard to fall

into pieces

wants to fill

wants to fill her big

Shoes

they're too big

for sister Anesthesia

 

Surprise surprise

Survive alive

all foolish pride

her heart decides

She's sister Anesthesia

 

Dumb becoming dumber

Numb becomes number

over done and slumbering

out gunned and cumbersome

she's my sister

Sister Anesthesia

 

-Blister

 

                                          732                  

HIT

 

 

Hit

Don't wanna hit

Don't wanna hit you

 

Hit

Don't wanna hit

Don't wanna hit

Don't wanna

have to make you cry

 

Hit

Don't wanna hit

Don't wanna hit

Don't wanna hit

Don't wanna hit

Don't wanna hurt you

 

 

                                          733                  

Hit

***

Hello boys and girls

Turn on the radio

Listen well

It'll bring tears to your ears

Our brand new invader

tuned in stereo

Hellified sensation

numbs your fears

 

Hit don't wanna hit

Don't wanna hear you

Hit don't wanna

have to make you cry

 

Hit don't wanna hit

Don't wanna show you

Hit don't wanna hit

So go get high

 

Hello one and all

Hook up your satellite

Strapped in two

your chair we're on the air

multi pan injection

in your cortex

We can hear you scream

but we don't care

 

Hit it

 

Hit don't wanna hit

Don't wanna hear you

Hit don't wanna

have to make you cry

 

Hit don't wanna hit

Don't wanna show you

Hit don't wanna hit

So go get high

 

Hit it

 

-Blister

 

                                          734                  

whatever

*******

Doing all I can

is that enough for me?

is it enough for you

or do you care?

it's all a lie in jest

it's simple destiny

or is it just a

question in the air?

 

Lost in tempest tossed

crossed that final line

whine about the cost

yeah well OK, fine

 

whatever

 

I know that soft caress

feels more like less to me

I think I might be

falling out of grace

when I feel my worst

it gets the best of me

I feel right at home

when out of place

 

Lost in tempest tossed

crossed that final line

whine about the cost

yeah well OK, fine

 

whatever

 

-blister

                                          735                  

 

Y N B

******

Searching for what I've never seen

I think you might know what I mean

An angel and a queen

So young and beautiful

 

Young and beautiful

 

I don't know who or what you are

a supernova star

But I want you to know

I think you are

So young and beautiful

 

Young and beautiful

 

It feels like I looked everywhere

But you were never ever there

I found you out at sea

I never knew that you could be

So young and beautiful

 

Young and beautiful

 

                                          736                  

 

 

Poetry *sigh* where have you gone?

You know, I bet a lot of people are going to be let down if the

worlds ends in 1998. Think of all the gen x-ers who want to party

like it's 1999? Then there's all those people who think the world

will end at 12:01, 2000 and their counterparts who argue the new

millenium doesn't start 'til 12:01 2001. If it ends in 1998 all

those poor people will be so surprised. Myself I think I'd be kinda

relieved but that's beside the point. See I'm figuring that no just

and loving GOD would damn his child to eternal suffering with out a

damn good reason, so I have a good chance at heaven. By and

large I'm a nice fella. I haven't killed anyone or developed any

weapons of mass destruction. I bet he hates it when they do that.

Imagine?

 

"I damn thee! It took me six days to make this thing and

you two just cooked two thirds of it in thirty seconds! Bad! Bad

Saddam! Two eons in the clink for you! And you Clinton! Who made

you world cop? Two centuries in the corner and put on this dunce

cap! Jesus what a mess! Hunh? Oh, sorry, I didn't mean you son.

Now what am I going to do with all these buddists and taoists and

such. All you folks on the left go through that door into limbo.

What's with all the complaining? You wanted to get out of yourself.

Besides you weren't baptised in my name. What, what?!? I'm supposed

to tell you what to do? No, no, no, this is a game of chance and you

lose. *ring ring* Hello? Oh! Lucifer, nice to hear from you! How's it

going bud? You busy down there? Oh yeah I imagine so what with all

those lawyers, politicians, right wing militant whakos. So what's

your biggest turn out? Music critics? Really? Well I can't say I'm

surprised. Anyway, I gotta go. Gotta get busy cleaning up the

world for the cockroaches. Happy brimstone bud. Oh and say hi to Bill

Gates for me, will you? Tell him my Mac is running great. Bye!"

 

Ich Bin Maroon!

 

-Blister

 

                                          737                  

 

Forget

******

Sometimes I wonder

How it all happened

How did I get here

And where am I going?

Why do I bother?

Then I remember

I forget

 

Got scratches on my arms

And all down my back

In a breathless attack

By a beautiful girl

She just couldn't wait for me

To remember

I forget

 

Chewing on my nails

I'm hungry and able

A little bit unstable

May be I'm going crazy

I just can't wait

To remember

I forget

 

So my lover's out at sea

My head is in the sand

While a woman holds my hand

While I'm still a young man

I only hope to remember

I forget

 

-Blister

 

                                          738                  

    

 

 

J.C.S.

*****

Happy holidays!

get one now!

slices dices julienne fries!

heat up your little one's

christmas eyes!

at the Jesus Christ Superstore (tm)

 

It's barely thanksgiving

so it's time to give thanks

to all of the money

you've got in the bank

you'll spend it all happily

on gifts and what's more

you'll do it all here

at the Jesus Christ Superstore (tm)

 

Crochet for mommy

croquet for dad

a coal lump for Johnny

'cause he's been bad

a dildo for Sissy

she knows what it's for

we raped her right here

at the Jesus Christ Superstore (tm)

 

So bring all you babies

your toddlers and tykes

we'll fry them up nicely

and serve them up right

we're Disney magicians

for the corporate whore

merry christmas to all

from the Jesus Christ Superstore (tm)

 

-Blister

P.S. Fuck commercialism, Fuck the holidays, Fuck Jesus and any

and all other religious figurines, Fuck life after death, Fuck

doomsday, and most of all, Fuck this.

 

                                          739                  

 

 

I woke up this morning

you were leaving for work

I said goodbye I love you

and you said OK see ya

yeah OK whatever

OK FINE WHATEVER

 

I guess it hurt my feelings

but I don't know why

I let you make me cry

I know I should know better

yeah OK whatever

OK FINE WHATEVER

 

I guess it doesn't matter

 

I'm not your little puppy

I'm not your little pet

In case you should forget

I used to be your lover

yeah OK whatever

OK FINE WHATEVER

 

You used to make me happy

and we used to get along

but I guess that I was wrong

so now the story's over

yeah OK whatever

OK FINE WHATEVER

 

I guess it doesn't matter

 

-Blister

 

                                          740                  

     Subject:

            Re: ...on another topic

 

 

And the big question in my mind is [drum roll please...]

What does the bumper sticker say????

 

And since we seem to be suspending poetry for the moment...

Regarding violence in general, I think as animals we are inherently

violent. We were hunters first and foremost. The natural

instinct to kill and eat is as strong as ever, but frustrated by

burger king and supermarkets. Even people who hunt do so mostly with

big guns or bow and arrow. But how many of us know what it feels like

to physically [like with a club] bash a living thing into a dead

bloody pulp and howl in victory? How many people choose to do

violence in a variety of other interesting ways because of the

supression of that urge? I think we're hypocritical in our approach

to violence. It's not OK to go cut the throat of the motherfucker who

just raped your wife, but it's OK to drop weapons of mass destruction

on innocent civilians. BUT, only for us, not for anyone else. The

bottom line is they're gonna kill the unabomber [most likely] in

revenge [not justice] for the people he killed, as well to teach a

lesson to the rest of us not to step out of line. It's OK for big

brother, but not for us. I didn't read the manifesto and probably

won't because how right can he be? After all, he got caught. George

Carlin had a good suggestion: One legal murder per month per person.

No fair saving 'em up and going on a shooting spree at McDonald's

once a year. You don't use it, you lose it. Every now and then though

some asshole deserves to be offed and you should be able to do it.

Likewise, if those people who love him come after you for it the next

month, so be it. And if they don't, who cares? It'd be a little

violent for a while, but I bet you'd see a marked improvement in our

social condition, as well as a drop in crime, less crowded prisons,

economy up [gun sales], and who knows what all? A win / win

situation I say. BTW All comedians are serial killers.

"Ha ha he must be joking." you think.

Good! That's what we want you to think.

-Blister

 

                                          741                  

     Subject:

            media induction

      

 

I hate to say it, but I think you're a little bit late on this one

Barry

 

>do we realize that the romans used to watch people being eaten by

>animals as entertainment? 

When animals attack!!! Woo Hoo!!!

 

>do we realize that the english used to have public displays of

>floggings?  do we realize there are people in this country who want

>to bring back public executions, floggings, and branding of

>criminals?

That's entertainment!!!! Didn't you see the caning in Thailand?

Don't forget the amputations and ritual mutilation at 9.

 

>we'll watch police beat down a man on live tv and cheer. 

I saw that in a bar when they aired the Rodney King footage.

They were screeaming "Get him. Beat that motherfucker!" 

A little while later it was "Go O.J.! Go O.J.!"

 

>these things won't deter crime.  if anything, they will feed our

>hunger for violence and we will seek other outlets. 

This stuff is going on NOW. Our huinger for violence exists as a part

of us. We're just looking in the mirror. This stuff boosts ratings

because our natural violent streak is totally repressed.

 

>authoritarianism breeds decadence breeds collapse.

Welcome to the second fall of Rome. Isn't it fun? Give in to the

decadence! Come to the dark side! AH HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

 

Seriously, aren't you looking forward to it? The new dark ages. 

No police. No laws. No holds barred. One way or the other some will

roll with it, and some will be rolled over by it. Good luck.

 

-Blister

 

                                          742                  

another commercial

***************

mother and child

out on the street

wild and hungry

nothing to eat

 

frightened and starving

we're carving the bird

this third world country

right here at home

 

this is not a movie

it's a commercial

 

man and his bottle

hurtles through space

hand on the throttle

running in place

 

empty and lonely

he's only a bum

his thumb in his mouth

south of insane

 

this is not a movie

it's a commercial

 

the boy is a man

gang at his back

gun in his hand

pipe full of crack

 

now he's a killer

filler with lead

dead to the world

and doing some time

 

this is not a movie

it's a commercial

 

-Blister

 

                                          743                  

 

 

Hey

****

She says it's much too convenient

She says she's feeling used

She says she needs some time away

Can I please be excused?

 

Oh well if that's how you want it

Oh well I'll go away

Oh well if that's how you want it

Oh well hey

 

She says she's got a problem

She says low self esteem

Says says it's almost over now

She starts to scream

 

Oh well if that's how you want it

Oh well I'll go away

Oh well if that's how you want it

Oh well hey

 

These things happen

These things happen

These things happen everyday

These things happen

These things happen

Oh well hey

 

I say I'm getting tired

I say it's getting old

I say it's getting boring

I say hey

 

Oh well if that's how you want it

Oh well I'll go away

Oh well if that's how you want it

Oh well hey

 

These things happen

These things happen

These things happen everyday

These things happen

These things happen

Oh well hey

 

-Blister

 

                                          744                  

 

BLAM!

*******

"Don't come t' prayer meetin mondee."

"Wha? Why?"

"Just don't come t' prayer meetin.

Sumpin bad gonna happen. Sumpin real bad."

"I heered tell summa them girls is Satan worshipers.

I's gwine t' fix 'em. I's gwine t' fix 'em reel good.

Ain't nobuddy nose 'bout it yet, but I's gwine t' fix 'em.

I busted inta the naybers g'rage and I steeled his pistol

an a coupla his rifles. He's a NRA member, so he's even got bullets

in thar. I steeled a whole bunch of 'em and I's gwine ta fix dem no

good nigger-lovin, satan-worshipin, knees-glued-tagither, no-count

cunts but good! One of 'em's even my own good buddy. But I know she's

puttin out for Satan an I gots ta put her out her mis'ry. I know

she's doing it with  Satan or else I'd be gettin some pussy too.

But she just wants ta be friends. I'll fix 'em. I'll fix 'em all. No

good hippo-crites! They be alla time kneelin down worshippin Jesus,

but them thar boys 'n' girls is sinners. They ain't no better 'n' me.

Oh but they pretend they is. They gots them fancy lipsticks and that

perfume they got from Caldors. And I seen 'em! I know what they do at

night up by the crik. I know that and that's the devil's own work.

And I'll fix 'em by GOD. They shall kneel down and know that mine is

the wrath of GOD and I shall smite them with mighty and furious anger

and they will know the name of the lord.

 

Monday morning:

"Good morning Brothers and Sisters. As the senior member of our group

I'll be leading the prayer circle this mor...

BLAM!

What in God's name?

BLAM!BLAM!BLAM!

Sweet Jesus!

BLAM!BLAM!BLAM! BLAM!BLAM!BLAM! BLAM!BLAM!BLAM!

BLAM!BLAM!BLAM! BLAM!BLAM!BLAM! BLAM!BLAM!BLAM!

BLAM!BLAM!BLAM! BLAM!BLAM!BLAM! BLAM!BLAM!BLAM!

Jesus Christ! What the fuck are you doing?! Put down the

fucking gun!

BLAM!

 

Just a thought. A scenario. Maybe it's so and maybe not.

I have to admit I like it when things like this happen. Kids form a

prayer meeting [it ain't allowed in school unless the kids do it all

by themselves with no adult supervision] and start reading the bible

and praying and one little fucked up teenager high on hormones

decides "fuck this!", and decides to start shooting. Hysterical!

Cynical I admit, and I probably wouldn't like it as much if my little

sister was in the line of fire, but so fucking what? Our children

are completely fucked up by religion, double standard morality,

sub-standard education, sexual repression, fear of utter

annihilation, skin cancxer and who knows what the fuck else?

How can anyone be surprised that one by one they're starting to go

*snap* like little twigs under such a heavy load? I'm just surprised

it wasn't me fifteen years ago. Or was it?

-Blister

 

                                          745                  

 

Get it

*****

Lust

dripping moist

hoist it up

out of the way

look out below

Oh no prepay

california or bust

 

Get it

 

trust

tripping daisy

lazy susan

jumped the gun

having fun

all the way

getting hornier I must

 

Get it

 

Fussed

over a trifle

rifle through

a thing or two

take a shot

it's OK

'cause you know

diamonds never rust

 

Get it

 

-Blister

                                          746                  

 

 

Whatever happened to Mary Jane?

Whatever happened soul train?

Whatever happened to G.I. Joe?

Whatever happened to Lego?

 

where did all the flowers go?

with children in their hair?

I guess we may never know

and no one cares

 

Whatever happened to MTV?

Whatever happened to LSD?

Whatever happened Levi's jeans?

Whatever happend jelly beans?

 

Where did all the ancients go?

far underground

nothing left but memories

and the stones the workmen found

 

Whatever happened to hula hoops?

Whatever happened to peace?

Whatever happened to MacArthur's troops?

And what happened to me?

 

-Blister

 

                                          747                  

    

A Sick Limerick

***************

Every now and then

I miss that piece of ass

that pinkly snatch of gash

which she'd flaunt for other men

 

A stripper by her trade

a naked living made

the Italian word for peace

she was good for that at least

 

'Twas years ago or so

and a nightmare hell to bear

but she was best when bare

all hot and good to go

 

She boasted that she swallowed

and a demonstration followed

she always aimed to please

when down on bended knees

 

tattooed tracks and pierced

shaved down greased and spread

she was doubly good in bed

and the head she gave was fierce

 

I could write a thousand lines

about this stripper that was mine

a dangerous dainty faun

I'm thankful that she's gone

 

-Blister

 

                                          748                  

Lost

*****

swim

clear logic

vibration

consistent

 

trim

sharp edges

education

resistant

 

ham

bacon

incantation

rye

bread

dead head

 

pork

beans

a celebration

tie

die

said

milk fed

 

slim

starvation

relation

compliant

 

dim

revival

damnation

degradation

 

-Blister

 

                                          749                  

 

morning

*******

memories

sleeping late

falling through

 

remedies

isolate

thoughts I knew

 

wide awake and dreaming of you

wide awake and dreaming of you

and I'm wide awake

all wide awake

wide awake and dreaming of you

 

melody

revolving round

my head at night

 

ecstasy

keeps me up

but it's all right

 

wide awake and dreaming of you

wide awake and dreaming of you

and I'm wide awake

all wide awake

wide awake and dreaming of you

 

-Blister

 

                                          750                  

 

ManChild

*********

Baby took a look

at the movie she lived

she said your life adds up

to the love that you give

she did everything she would

maybe more than Jesus could

you know the good may be great

but the bad's just as good

 

It's a trip to the fall

she ignores the warning

but heeds the call

 

Do what you can, an you will

taking the pill - God be a man

Child

 

Lady read the book

took its secrets to heart

said your love life's grand

til it tears you apart

doesn't matter what you give

no one cares what you take

'cause your love tumbles down

and then it slams on the brakes

 

It's a trip to the fall

she ignores the warning

but heeds the call

 

Do what you can, an you will

taking the pill - God be a man

Child

 

Maybe I could see

away past the stars

far through the clouds

loud as the sun

one with the earth

birthed from the womb

straight to the tomb

out of the fire

Set free by you

Set free

Set free by you

 

It's a trip to the fall

she ignores the warning

but heeds the call

 

Do what you can, an you will

taking the pill - God be a man

Child

God be a man

God

Damn

Boy

Shit

 

-Blister

 

                                          751                  

                 This A.M.

 

 

First, a couple of definitions:

Graphic: 1. Being written, drawn, or engraved. 2. Vivdly described.

Explicit: 1. Clearly and precisely expressed.

Why would anyone object to anything vividly described or clearly and

precisely expressed? America is a strange place. And now:

 

This is a little long, but what the hell.

It's not every day the gods return.

 

Strange Morning

*********************

It was a strange morning.

I was at the end of my driveway at home

sitting on my motorcycle drinking a beer.

The beer: Budweiser long neck bottle.

The bike: Suzuki 1000 L.

The German Shepherd and the cat

were both trying to get a sip of my beer.

Suddenly this woman is walking up the street.

I feel I recognize her but I can't place her.

I take my beer and walk up the driveway and into the house.

I'm looking surreptitiously over my shoulder

because I fear she'll notice me gawking

while still trying to place her.

Once I'm in the house a knock comes at the door.

"Are you the only person who lives here?" she asks.

"I live here" say I. "Don't I know you?"

"I can't say" says she.

I notice she is rolling what appears to be a joint

from one corner of her mouth to the other and back.

I get the hint while thinking "Talented tongue"

I invite her in.

She sit's in a chair and I kneel at her feet

arms folded across her knees.

She feels warm and comfortable to me

like a mother or a lover.

I light the joint and she smiles.

The look in her eye is geting me really hot

and I can tell she knows it.

She gets up from the chair,

walks over to the couch,

and takes a long deep hit.

I walk over to the couch and

bend over her lips to breathe it in

as she breathes out.

She touches my face,

drawing my lips to hers,

slipping her tongue into my mouth

and drawing the soul from my heart.

I give in freely and reach in under her dress

she is hot and wet and I slide my fingers into her

I stand and guide her to the bedroom

We undress each other slowly and passionately

and she draws me into her.

She fucks me like I've never been fucked before,

like I've never even been, and then it comes to me.

I know this woman.

Astarte

Diana

Hecatate

Demeter

Kali

Inanna

Isis

She sees the recognition in my eyes and laughs.

I can't help thinking:

"Shit!What's Osiris going to say?"

She smiles and kisses me,

and says "Thank you Darling."

"I can't wait to see you again."

"When will that be?" I ask.

She starts to laugh again low and husky

and slowly dissolves into the air like steam

and I hear "See you soon lover" as she disappears

The alarm goes off and I'm thinking

"Damn! It's going to be a  strange morning."

But it's not every day you meet a goddess.

Thanks Isis.

 

-Blister

 

                                          752                  

    

            R.R. and The Mute Desire

 

 

R.R. and The Mute Desire

**********************

She's wearing a green crushed velvet dress today

It perfectly accentuates her beautiful ass

Her body sweetly undulating

as she walks down the hall

perfect poise and poison grace

her red hair hangs down exactly

complementing the color of her dress

hypontized I stare eyes ablaze

desire overflowing through my veins

I have to walk into her office

just to have another look at her

hark! she speaks to me! We discuss trivialities

the weather, her brother, a bridge, the commute

I love this moment for I can really look at her

study her face and her body intimately

caressing her face, her breasts, her creamy thighs with my eyes

if she knows or notices she doesn't seem to mind

I can smell her perfume delicately masking her musk

She is married [to a cop no less]

I know I have no chance

nor any particular desire to be killed

by her humongous cop lover / husband

even if I did have a chance

so I must content myself

with a longing look

a nice hard stare at her perfect body

a whiff of her delicate form

in mute frustration I stand

yet she is so sweet

and delicious

it is enough

 

-Blister

 

                                          753                  

     

            'tis the season

 

 

Death destruction mayhem blood brains scattered everywhere strangling

on blood intestines wrapped around throats stomachs spilt from crotch

to throat eyeballs dangling from optic nerves ripped out by hand,

and, and, and...

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

 

-blister

 

 

 

Babe

****

Ciao

I'll hit you in the morning

with all that stuff

we talked about

 

Wow

it gets a little boring

I've had enough

and I'm walking out

Now

 

Babe

Don't leave me alone

No

Don't leave me alone

Alright

Go

 

How

d'ja spose I think you're doing

it's getting kinda rough

and I'd chalk it up

Pow

tumble down in ruin

up in a puff a smoke

and I'm choking up

Chow

 

Babe

Don't leave me alone

No

Don't leave me alone

Alright

Go

 

-Blister

 

                                          754                  

    

            Scream II

 

 

Scream

********************

I drown in empty poetry

I sink in waves of pink

nothing but my soul to sell For $ale

 

Dragon dreams

Splitting seams

Is this really what it seems?

I've got this new hate machine

I think it's time to make it scream

 

I climb to heights of ecstasy

Fall to the rocks below

I'm getting tired of the grind

I start to lose my mind again

I hate to make a scene

I don't care who knows what I mean

 

Dragon dreams

Splitting seams

Is this really what it seems?

I've got this new hate machine

I think it's time to make it scream

 

Love is love

that will not fade away

Purest thoughts have turned obscene

Trip all day and you get mean

 

I start to lose my mind again

I hate to make a scene

I don't care who knows what I mean

 

Dragon dreams

Splitting seams

Is this really what it seems?

I've got this new hate machine

I think it's time to make it scream

 

                                          755                  

    

            PIG

 

 

Hi all.

Just a little alcohol fueled poetic humor for new year's eve

courtesey of Jim Croce, R.I.P. Remember: If you're drunk don't drive.

You might hit a bum and spill your drink. [That's bum, not bump.]

-Blister

 

PIG

***

It was the last day of December

As near as I can remember

While strolling down the lane in tipsy pride

 

Not a word did I utter

as I lay down in the gutter

when this pig come up and lay there by my side

 

Not a soul was I disturbing

as I lay down by the curbing

when this high toned lady come and I heard her say:

 

"You can tell a man who boozes

by the company he chooses."

and that pig got up and slowly walked away.

 

                                          756                  

 

Fool

****

Spitting it up out into the wind

Tripping out on a daisy chain

Forget about your innocent sin

Thinking about it is a pain

 

Fall in Fall out

Fall in Fall out

 

I know you're a battleship blonde

I know you're a real cool fool

Carried out carrying on

dropped out in the mud with your jewels

 

Insane insane insane insane insane

Innocent innocent innocent innocent

 

Fall in Fall out

Fall in Fall out

 

Insane insane insane insane insane

Innocent innocent innocent innocent

 

Fall in Fall out

Insane insane insane insane insane

Fall in Fall out

Innocent innocent innocent innocent

 

-Blister

 

                                          757                  

HI!

 

Don't want your new pollution

give me that candy bar

don't get your revlon comedy

no solution revolution

evolution devil-ution

I just wanna say wait

I just wanna stay

Hi!

 

Free plastic conversation

implanted in your brain

give headline hibrow validation

consolation deviation

congregation segragation

I just wanna say wait

I just wanna stay

Hi!

 

                                          758                  

Kill Baby

********

If you hear this fear this

we'll connect you all inside

normalized conformity

direct on live t.v.

 

condom nation

sans sensation

embryonic sheep

 

Kill Mommy

Kill Daddy

Kill Baby

 

Concentration falters

all in supersonic size

legalized depravity

erect for all to see

 

education

degradation

electronic sleep

 

Kill Mommy

Kill Daddy

Kill Baby

 

-Blister

 

                                          759                  

 

 

Go Home

*******

I think

at least I think I think

I try

to forget how to try

get out of my way

I'll drive

 

I would if I could

but I can't so I won't

Go Home

 

I breathe

as deep as I can breathe

I choke

the smoke it clouds my eyes

I cry

the tears of the forgiven

get out of my way

I'm driven

 

I would if I could

but I can't so I won't

Go Home

 

I beat

my self into submission

I drink

but only to survive

I eat

the words of the forgotten

I die

but I ought to know better

get out of my way

I'll drive

 

I would if I could

but I can't so I won't

Go Home

 

-Blister

 

                                          760                  

Moment

********

sleek fluorescent incandescent

promise true a lie in essence

tide in time a slice of lime

a lemon on the edge of lemonade

blessed peace a moment after

laughter at the foolish games of love

big band beat a poltergeist

a wound so deep and wide

will not suffice to say a labor day

poet will forgotten be begotten

after all it's a party socialize

and mingle single men devout

and soon devoured flower

power children bewildered

filled with the here and now or

there and then I try to stay

so quiet out of sight and sounding

silent violent thoughts eclipse

my brain and heat my blood

the bread and wine inspired

words of hot impassioned fire

while desire moot and poignant

burns away the spark goes out

in water as I write to satan's

daughter on this, the holiest of days.

 

-Blister

 

                                          761                  

     Subject:

            bitchin dip

 

 

A Poem About Food:

*****************

I love to eat some chips

and watch a flick that's hip

everything is fine long as I have

my Cheesy Spinach Dip.

 

For those of a culinary bent here's a recipe for some yummy dip.

Take:

1 bag of lipton vegetable soup mix

sour cream [amount varies to taste. I like less. 1 pint or so.]

1 cup grated cheddar cheese

1 cup frozen chopped spinach

 

Mix well and top with another half a cup of grated cheddar cheese.

Bake for thirty minutes and serve with crackers of your choice.

Delicious!

 

-Blister

 

                                          762                  

ADD NARCISSUS HERE…

Then add 7 poems… (see email)

 

                                          763                  

Over It

 

 

                                          764                  

Ø                 High Blues

 

 

 

                                          765                  

 

Ø                 The Ball

 

 

                                          766                  

Ø                 Perchance to

 

 

                                          767                  

Ø                 WOOF

 

 

                                          768                  

Ø                 Everything

 

 

                                          769                  

Ø                 All Right

 

 


                                          770